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long-standing adultery. But Binny re judge took in himself and his ancestral here was nothing dramatic about
acted as though she had just heard some possessions. "Tm sure she's a you-know the woman the driver brought the
spicy piece of gossip. She was pouring his what. He must have taken her out of one next day. She arrived in a plain white
tea and, quivering with excitement, of those houses-he owns half of them, cotton sari and wearing nojewelry-"as
spilled some in the saucer. He turned his anyway;' she said, stifling her usual wry if she were already a widow," Binny
face from her. "Go away," he told her, amusement at that sector of her hus commented. Binny herself was a far
and then became more exasperated by band's substantial family properties. more appealingly feminine figure: short
the eagerness with which she hurried off A day or two later, the judge had to be and plump, in tight-fitting harem pants
to reveal the secret to their son. returned to the hospital. He stayed there and very high heels, draped with the
Yasi was the only person in the world for a week, and when they sent him costume jewelry she preferred to the
with whom she could share it. As a girl home again he began to spend all his family jewels; at the salon they had
growing up in Bombay, Binny had had time in his bedroom. Apart from a few bobbed and curled her hair and made it
many friends. But her marriage to the irritated instructions to Binny, he ac gleam with golden streaks. By contrast,
judge had shipviTecked her in Delhi, a cepted her ministrations in silence; now Phul-that was her name, Phul, mean
stiffly official place that didn't suit her at and again, he asked for Yasi-reluc ing "flower''-was as austere as a woman
all. If it hadn't been for Yasi! He was tantly, as if against his own inclination. in constant prayer. Leaving her shoes at
born in Delhi and in this house-a It took him some time to overcome his the threshold, she glided into thejudge's
gloomy, inward-looking family property, pride and demand a visit from his son. bedroom; and though Binny lingered
built in the nineteen-twenties and Binny was so e.-xcited. It was probably outside, no sound reached her to indi
crowded with heavy Indo-Victorian fur to do with his will, with the woman. cate what might be going on.
niture inherited from earlier generations. "You have to go! You must!" she urged This petformance, as Binny called it,
Binny's high spirits had managed to sur Yasi. He agreed, on condition that she was repeated the next day, and the next.
vive the sombre atmosphere; and, when not listen at the door. "As if I would!" Mter the fourth visit, she declared to
Yasi was a child, she had shared the she cried indignantly, though both of Yasi, "This can't go on. You have to do
tastes and pleasures of her Bombay days them knew that she would be crouching something."
with him, teaching him dance steps and there-and, in fact, when he emerged She had always depended on Yasi to
playing him the songs of Hollyw·ood from his father's bedroom he found her get her out of difficult situations. In ear
crooners on her gramophone. They lived hastily scrambling up from that position. lier years, when she still had a few woman
alone there with the judge. Shortly after 'What is it? What did he say?" friends, Yasi had helped her cover up
Yasi was born, the judge's mother had On the rare occasions when thejudge some secret expenditu res--such as losing
died of some form of cancer, which had had tried to talk alone with his son in the at cards, which she and her friends had
also accounted for several other members past, Yasi had recounted the conversa played for money. She appreciated the
of the family. It seemed to Binny that all tions to his mother, with some embel way Yasi had circumvented the judge's
of the family diseases-both physical lishments: how the judge had had to disapproval. She had always been proud
and mental-were bred in the very roots clear his throat several times and had still of her son's intelligence, which he had in
of the house, and she feared that they been unable to come out with what he herited, she had to admit, from his father.
might one day seep into Yasi's bright wanted to say, and instead had babbled Friends had asked her why she had
he
would hurl a glass, a vase, a full cup of her eyes, streaking her makeup, so that
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driver was sent to Phul every day, coffee, not caring where it landed. A few she did at that moment look like a wild
and every day she remained with the times he had struck her, suddenly, creature. At first, Yasi felt like smiling,
judge in his bedroom. Although this bed sharply. Afterward she pretended that it but then he felt sorry for her, as he had
room had meant nothing to Binny for hadn't happened, and never spoke ofit to felt sorry for his father, that proud man
many years, now her thoughts were con anyone, and certainly not to him. This si pleading for a promise.
centrated on it, as they had been at the be lence between them was a mutually pro
ginning of the marriage. The judge had tective one. Living so closely together, inny had never allowed her circum
been an overwhelming lover, and those perpetually intent on each other, each Bstances to depress her. She had been
nights with him had been a flowering and was wary of disturbing the other's bal very impatient with her women friends'
a ripening that she'd thought would go on ance, so precariously achieved, of anger constant complaints about unreliable ser
forever. Instead, after about two years, the and resignation, revolt and submission. vants, bad marriages, worse divorces. By
judge's presence in their bed was changed Alert to every sound from Yasi's room, the time she was in her fifties, she had
into a weight that oppressed her physically one night she heard voices from there dropped all of them except one. And,
and in every other \¥ay. It had been a relief that made her tiptoe to his door. She finally, there came the day when this
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friend, too, had to be abandoned. It hap some twenty-five years before, far from
pened over cocktails in their favorite hotel the judge's prestigious neighborhood of
lounge. Binny was speaking about her shady old trees and large villas. Binny's
close relationship with her son when the taxi took her into a lively bazaar-the
other woman interrupted her: "It's all open stalls lit up with neon strip-lighting,
Freud,of course." the barrows of fruit and nuts ,.vith Petro
"I see," Binny said, after a long silence. max lanterns. Radios played film songs;
"Freud." chickens hung in rows from hooks. Op
She got up. She took out her purse posite Phufs residence was a clinic, with
and deposited her share of the check on patients waiting inside, and next to it a For over 40 years Kendal has been
the table. She gave a brief, cold laugh. shoe shop, where Binny could try on a va known for emphasizing respect for
"Freud," she repeated. It was the last riety of ladies' footwear. This absorbed the individual, innovation in services,
word she ever spoke to this friend. her so much that she almost missed Yasi's social responsibility and fiscal
So nowadays she comforted herself arrival. She glanced up at the opposite integrity.Whether you're looking for
with her own amusements: shopping for house when she heard the downstairs ten the stimulation of a college town
new outfits andjewelry,intense sessions at ant assuring Y asi that the upstairs tenant or a big city, you11 find a Kendal
a salon nm by a Swiss lady. Her last stop was at home. Then she quickly returned retirement community where
was always Sugar &Spice,for Yasi's favor her gaze to her feet, which were being you can continue to enrich
ite pastries. If the judge warned her that fitted into a pair of bright-blue sandals your life and the lives of others.
Yasi was getting too fat, she suppressed with silver heels, which she liked so much
her own observation that Yasi was getting
too fat. She countered that it was thejudge
himself who should be careful: a man with
that she bought them there and then.
Yasi returned home very late, and as
usual he perched on his mother's bed to tell
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fingers. The servant said no,Judge Sahib music, whereas she loved swing and jazz.
had sent Yasi in the car-and by the way "So that's where you were all night?"
he said it, with lowered eyes, she realized Alerted by her tone,he opened his eyes.
that it was something she wasn't sup She said, 'Th.;lt's not what I was told."
posed to know. She stood fighting down Yasi said, "He sent me with the driver.
a flush of anger, then suddenly she I couldn't say no. She played her harmo
shouted, "Don't we have any light in this nium and sang. It was horrible, and I left
house?" All the shutters and curtains as soon as I could."
were closed to keep the sun out.The ser "Then where were you until two in
vant turned on the chandelier, but its lus the morning?"
tre was absorbed by the Turkish rugs, "I told you: I was at the music festival.
leaving only a thin shaft of silver light. You always think the worst of me. Oh,
Binny alone illumined the dark room, I'm sick of it! No, don't talk to me! My
with her embroidered silks and the head's bursting!" And, indeed, his face
golden glints in her hair. had clJ.anged in a way she knew and had
The judge's longtime driver was al dreaded since the first breakdown.
ways at her disposal, and she had ar The next day, he slept late, and she sat
ranged with him that some of her desti beside him in his bedroom,where he lay
nations should be kept secret from his with the tousled, tortured look ofhis sick
employer. She hadn't realized that the ness. She blamed herself for having been
judge had made a similar arrangement. It angry at him. She looked at the array of
didn't take her long to persuade the medicine bottles on his bedside table
driver, to whom she had always been she didn't know which were his sleeping
generous, to reveal the address where he pills and which were those prescribed for
had taken Yasi, as well as his insttuctions his moods, or how many he had taken.
to take him there again the following Usually so particular in his personal hab
night. She called for a taxi for the same its, he hadn't even changed out of the
time and wem there herself shirt he had been wearing the night be
It was across the river, in one of the fore. A faint smell rose from it, not the
first ne\v colonies to be built in the area delicate scent of his girlfriends but the
ing the driver returned alone from h i s Binny sent him for the doctor from the ery day, with specially prepared dishes of
daily mission wi t h the report that Phul clinic next to the shoe shop. Phul lay re healthy food. She ascribed the slow
was sick. At once, the judge asked for his signed and passive on her bed, though her ness of Phul's recovery to the unfresh air
three-piece suit, but when Binny found moaning grew louder at the doctor's ar in her room. With the one window now
him trembling with the effort of getting rival. He was dismissive--some sort of propped open, the incense and the bazaar
his thin legs into his trousers-how frail stomach infection, he said. It was going perfume blended with the street smells
he had become!---she put him back into around the city; he saw dozens of cases vvilted produce, motor oil, and a nearby
his nightshirt and forced him into bed every day. He scribbled a prescription, or urinal. And what was worse were the un
again. He pleaded with her to ask Yasi dered a diet of rice and curds. To Binny, healthy thoughts in Phul's mind, the de
to take a doctor and some medicine to it seemed that the room itself was a breed- spair that kept her moaning, "What vvill
Phul. "She's alone," he told his wife. "She happen to me?'' One day, Binny found
has no one." Binny regarded him with her up and dressed and ready to go to the
angry concern, then turned away. "Yes, judge; she sank back only when Binny
yes, yes," she agreed impatiently to his asked her, did she really want to expose
request. that sick old man to her infection? Then,
I twas almost night when she called for for the first time, Phul spoke ofYasi and
the car and dri·1er. The bazaar was even begged to see him.
more alive than on her previous visit It was also the first time that Yasi
music and lights and announcements on was told about her sickness. "Oh, the
megaphones, vegetables trodden into the poor thing," he said. "I'd go to see her,
gutters, bits of offal throvvn for the over but you know as well as I do that I catch
fed bazaar dogs. She took the outside ing ground for fevers and infections, with everything."
staircase that Yasi had climbed as she sticks of smoking incense distilling their "No, no, of course you mustn't."
watched him from the shoe shop. The synthetic essence into the air shimmering He promised to go once the danger
room she entered had a very different am with summer heat. There was only one was past. Binny couldn't help warning,
bience from the one in which Phul pre window, which was stuck. Watching her "Only don't stay with her all night and
sented herself in the judge's house. Gay visitor wrestle with it, Phul got up and then tell me lies about music and poetry."
and gaudy, with little pictures and little tried to help her and in her weakness al "If you'd just listen for once in your
gods, and hangings tinkling with tiny most fell, before Binny caught her. Strug life!" His exasperation lasted only a mo
bells, it seemed more innately Phul's, as gling then to free herself-"No, no!" she ment and he continued patiently, "I never
though arising from memories of the cried--she threw up in a spasm that spat stayed all night. I tried to get away as soon
places and the people among whom she tered over Binny's almost new blue-and as I could, but she's very clinging. And
had lived before meeting the judge. A gar- silver shoes. Then she allowed herself to she's alsovery stupid. And her singing, oh,