She's an expert at continuum mechanics

Leave it to God to teach me what i'm weak on. It always only takes four things: Trust in Her,
patience, prayer, and a certain open-mindedness (mental flexibility). This time it took only what?
Two days? i wasn't even looking because i lacked faith in my visualization skills.. But now i
realize it almost doesn't even matter what your mental limitations are: God will show you the
way regardless. When you're trying to understand how She made the universe and the matter in
it, She'll show you - if you really need to know. i think i'd better requalify that statement above:
regardless of your mental limitations, if you have God in your heart, She'll show you everything
you want/need to know .. i suppose continuum mechanics will be the future engineering
discipline based on Her example. When we learn to manipulate spacetime as She has, we'll be
ready to make 'baby universes' of our own.. (And please don't think of this as hubris; the only
way we'll be ready to do this is with Her.) This kind of engineering maturity absolutely Requires
God .. If you study the last two documents (combined on Scribd), you realize She's so 'damn'
clever.. She's like a topologist-engineer all rolled into One. As we observed, a 3D beam of
spacetime ramming into a surface creates particles 'from nothing'. The particles created (masses
resulted) strictly depend on the media's elastic modes (if that's the only way to limit particle
families). i'm still hesitant to embrace this concept because energy/photons do not obey all media
restrictions (impedance and elasticity). True, photons must obey impedance and are therefore
restricted by c. But anti-photons do not and can travel at any speed. They both must still obey
elasticity in the sense they're still both (likely) characterizable by burrowing screw-dislocations
(but with opposite curvature). And this likely explains why anti-photons can move faster than c
(though i have trouble explaining why because of my lack of formal training). The fact anti-
photons must have charge makes the picture still more confusing but i'm sure some mathematical
physicist will be able to figure it out.. i just pray they give Her credit due.

i'm not going to draw my mental versions of photons and anti-photons because i need you to try
to visualize them yourself. If you know what a screw looks like, break off the head and join two
together (broken neck to broken neck). Imagine it as all one solid piece. Now imagine that thing
spinning through jello. Imagine further the jello has no resistance to travel. But there's another
quality which limits speed through it - call it impedance. This is the fair picture of photons
traveling through spacetime .. Now about anti-photons .. There's a sea creature (sea slug or
something like that) which turns itself inside-out as a defense mechanism. Take that screw you
created in your mind above and try to turn it inside-out. Where it bends in, anti-photons must
bend out. So perhaps we can imagine them as hollow tubes shaped like a candle-stick holder
that's both wider at its base and cup for candle. Also imagine they have a screw like surface on
them. These are our present imaginations of anti-photons (with a further charge applied to the
surface - one of each kind corresponding to the differing electron/proton charge sign). Of course,
physicists are obsessed with spin so we must allow four different kinds of anti-photons: -spin-
left, +spin-left, -spin-right, and +spin-right. But i truly feel their obsession with spin is way over
indulgent. Spin is important when you're talking about 'hyperfine structure' etc but you're not
going to design a universe based on spin. You need temporal curvature and realistic particles
mediating electromagnetism first. More deeply than that, you must be an expert on continuum
mechanics. And further, She must either have the technology or natural gifts to perform these
'miracles'. Didn't i prove in one essay that She's immaterial? So anyone still thinking we can
imitate God and create baby universes of our own (on our own), think again.
i'm ready to re-discuss the 'fall of Lucifer' .. Since the clearer picture of God is: immaterial,
loving, incredibly (sexy - i throw that in for fun) sophisticated engineer,.. (What? Skilled minds
aren't sexy to you? Okay - sorry..;), it's no wonder She created Lucifer for companionship. Is
there no one like Her? Is there anyone who comes close? That might be Lucifer. But as with all
good ideas, there's always an element of 'gotcha!' which will do just that. To create Lucifer with
such mental gifts as to be able to discuss the nitty gritty of creation with Her (in other words, Her
mental equal), She had to necessarily give him freedom of will (be able to choose her or another
babe). This is the nature of Love: true freedom. (i sometimes think of Lucifer as beloved
employee of God who determines all the ways humans turn away from Her - as a favor to Her.)
But let's not 'waste time' discussing that just now. Let's discuss Lucifer's fall from grace. He must
have decided at one point "enough of this shit! enough of this Bitch!" and decided to strike out
on his own.. Being the true Lover She Is, she let him go.. Could it be simpler than that? Yea, i
suppose you could pretend the whole scenario is based on clever self-deception of weak humans,
but i think that's actually arrogance talking.. If you think you're so 'high and mighty' to declare
God and all her 'trimmings' don't exist, prove my conjecture wrong. Discover the Higgs and
prove it's the Higgs and not some other transient particle. Theoretically prove the Standard Model
is the best and only way of looking at reality - you know what? You can't. i guarantee you this is
impossible. Let's put the bet another way: i promise to shoot myself in the head - in public - if i'm
wrong. i won't use a toy gun .. i can say this with such conviction because i'm looking now into
the Standard Model as you look into one of those crystalline laser created Eiffel Towers. i can see
how they made it, i can see what it depends on, i can see what its weaknesses are, i can see its
assumptions as you might see a model on the beach,.. They're all bare for me to See. Let's state
the 'Sam conjecture' (here i use a capital 'S' to indicate arrogance):
1. the Standard Model's not perfect but it's the best human model we can create to explain
everything in nature (minus gravitation).
2. it's based on the precision of QFT
3. the accuracy of QED
4. and the deep insights of path-integral formulation of QM
5. all above and more is based on the profound concept that particles are not particles at all:
they're probability waves interacting through virtual bosons

Which sounds more arrogant to you? The 'Sam conjecture' or 'iam conjecture' (after you study
it)? Just based on inherent ego content (that we imagine we can create a model of our universe
that does not require God), i'd have to guess (without knowing anything about physics), the Sam
conjecture .. Maybe Lucifer 'fell' by choice. But we fall by arrogance.

So maybe we should restate the Sam conjecture based on how it sounds to God:
0. We don't care how you made the universe; the model below is our best guess 'how things
work'.
1. Cosmology has determined that god isn't required in an 'inflationary universe' (god isn't
required anymore as 'prime cause').
2. Any of us still weak enough to need to believe in you still has the option of believing you
created this 'multi-verse' scenario..
3. We named a particle after you! We call it the Higgs boson! (We mean: God-particle.)
4. Pretty soon, we'll detect it with the most expensive machine ever created.
5. All of this is based on our insights into your mind! We've determined the best way of looking
at e.p.s is that they're probability waves interacting via virtual bosons! Aren't our insights
wonderful? Don't we 'read your mind' so well?

Oh how the 'mighty' (arrogant) will fall..

..oh how the mighty will fall..

.. There's one elegant piece of Truth presented by the story of Merlin and Arthur. The concept of
'might makes right' and its opposite. Right now, the Standard Model, all the 1000s of human
lives spent 'validating' it, supporting it, researching it, 'validating' its intricacies, and all the
human spirit qualities spent on those (curiosity, creativity, insight, brilliance,..), is truly a Sin
against humankind. But that it exists is about power - power to coerce. This is 'dark Merlin' or
Satan .. i told you above, there are some good ways of looking at Lucifer .. i wrote a brief
screenplay called 'the good Anti-christ' which develops these perspectives.. But there's a
difference between using your creativity to explore morality and human values and forcing others
to believe your one primal assumption about nature: God plays dice .. i can assure you: She Does
Not.

God's not into games.