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t h a n k y o u t o o u r pat r o n s
1
Dena Rod
an ode to femmes
3
wiping away a tear with a peacock feather
we spit of pearls of wisdom yet no one is
holding their hands out with needle and
thread to sew them into a necklace.
4 De n a R od
pa Kamat
Shil
My Favorite Messiah
is Sailor Moon
in the third season
5
to the main villain because
really, she’s not a fighter
6 S h i l pa K a mat
b er Carpente
Am r
B o di es a r e
n o t meant t o
3. act as targets.
7. exist as slaves.
7
Smith, a transgender girl. Due to House Bill 2,
the Buncombe County School System neglected
to let Emma use the girls’ bathroom. I grew up
in North Carolina. My dad is buried deep in its
soil. My wife and I married on April 6, 2014, in
the same county where Emma lives. The U.S.
Supreme Court legalized same-sex marriage on
June 26, 2015. People often ask why we refuse
to move back. The answer seems obvious, but
obvious and oblivious are easily misconstrued.
8 A mb e r C a r pe n t er
16. experience female genital mutilation, also
known as female genital cutting, also known as
female circumcision.
Ambe r Ca rp e nt e r 9
as in the United States of America. United, a term
that needs to be revisited.
10 A mb e r C a r pe n t er
Bicchie
olo ri
Pa
C resc ent Cit y
8:45 pm in July
11
g y Schimmelm
P eg an
Carnival Days
13
u eline Bengf
cq or
Ja t
Tilt
I’ve been taking calls from other planets.
I don’t know why they’re calling me; I’m just one minor
poet on the edge of a minor galaxy, but I guess when I
said I was open to the messages of the universe these
guys took down my phone number.
So they call me, to ask about… modifications?
Upgrades, I guess. Tips for developing temperate zones,
strategies for unlocking water frozen in their cores—
that kind of thing. Recipes for primordial sludge, now
that’s a popular one. You pop that in the oven for an
open house and make the whole place smell like home.
But then, the planets asked me about tilt.
You know, tilt, like the twenty-three-point-five
degree list of our own Earth, or the way I drop my ear
towards my shoulder when I’m asking a question. Tilt.
And if I do—this—then what happens?
And the answer, of course, is everything. Is all of
it. Is dinosaurs, Homo erectus, the invention of paper, the
95 Theses, rubber, America, baseball, plastics, acid rain,
and autotune;
is the threat of nuclear winter;
is summer coming earlier every year?
I’m just a minor poet, I tell them, but I don’t
recommend it. One planet pressed me, so I said, well,
why don’t you talk to her about it? And he said,
Don’t you think we’ve tried? She stopped
answering the phone years ago. She just sits there
quiet, like a woman in the ashes of a house burned
down. 15
rla Brundage
Ka
Alabama Dirt
sweet tomatoes
Uncle Sam bowed
under the sun
gently handles the small fruit
so few men in my
family line
live
family secret
buried in denials
18 K a r l a Br un d a g e
for being hot headed, uppity
here I am still
swallowing pills
To Be A Gay
in repose:
pose:
21
joins the misty smoke break
22 Paol o B i cch i e r i
deline Cash
Ma
Hostage #4
23
off and then he’ll take something off, that’s the game,
but I’m too shy to take something off so Dante calls
me a virgin and blocks me. I roll up my uniform skirt
to make it shorter and get detention and I practice
cello in detention which makes me hate the cello and
I probably could have been a first chair concert cellist
had they just let me wear my skirt above the knee like
an American but now I forever associate cello with
punishment and rejection and stop playing and start
stealing cigarettes from my mom’s friend Lisa’s purse
and sneaking out of my bedroom window at night to
huff computer cleaner with boys and my mind is clean
but the computer is filthy.
24 M a d e l i n e C as h
she scoffed and there isn’t a sound in Navajo Nation
loud enough to drown out her scoff and the torque of
her massive tits as we play capture the flag.
Ma de li ne Cash 25
beating so fast it’s like I’m on level:EXPERT but there
isn’t a bar to lean back on.
26 M a d e l i n e C as h
u g Mathewso
Do n
G reenpoint
27
He took what work he could, visa long expired. Hot
summer night. She’s on the fire escape, smoking what
she rolled, hunting knife, cutting up bananas for
Herbie in her lap. Hot summer night. He’s on the fire
escape, lemon soda, chef’s knife, cutting up plantains
to fry for dinner.
28 Doug M at h e w s o n
Berrio
shua rs
Jo
From The Depths
I smile at you.
I walk with a skip in my step.
You only know me as that happy guy.
You’ve never seen the gloom and despair I’ve felt,
that in which I walk every waking moment of my
days.
The last 12 months tested the depths of my willing-
ness to live.
As I sunk deeper and deeper,
I never thought to myself I would ever get this far.
“How did I get here? Who am I with? Why can’t I just
go?
Why won’t you.. let... me.... just..... go?”
No one says anything, why would they?
I smile at you
I walk with a skip in my step
You know me as that happy guy.
I isolate myself, Try and regain control, I become a
hermit
Try to make my exit, only way I .. know ... how.
But a ray of light shines through me pulling me from
the dark crevices within me.
Waking me up to moments knowing that,
I smile at you
I walk with a skip in my step cuz of you
I am that Happy Guy Now Cuz You.
29
a
J. Arc ngelin
M. i
Family Law Ghazal
She didn’t want half his fishing boat until the lawyer
told her she could get it. Community property state of
mind.
31
na Donovan
Dia
Pro phecy
That New Year’s when we meet
I’ll lose my shoe in a snowbank, stumble
while you hold my drink on the deck
touched by the plastic bag rubber band contraption
you offer—all the flourish of pulling a rabbit out of
a hat.
33
It’s like we’re running from a burning planet
straight into the eye of the storm
family legacies we’ll never live up to
bosses asking for sexual favors
all these powder kegs waiting to explode.
34 Di an a Do n ovan
deline Cash
Ma
Sponge Cake
Your mom is birdwatching and you’re thinking about
rapists. She points out a woodpecker or something.
She used to be a big name in publishing. Now she’s
retired. Now she makes sponge cake and points out
woodpeckers. The walls are painted eggshell so she’s
walking on eggshells as she’s climbing the walls. She
has the best landscaper in Connecticut. You wonder
if your mom has a rapist. She’d have the best rapist in
Connecticut. Her trees are so lush that they’re top-
heavy. Their trunks buckle under the weight of their
foliage. It’s like they’re suicidal says your mom. The
best landscaper in Connecticut bolsters them with
structural reinforcements.
Your mom asks if you slept on the flight here and you
tell her you don’t sleep. You try to shower but your
mom’s faucet is in French. It says “chaud” and “froid”.
It’s too froid. It isn’t froid enough. You think your
mom could use a visit to Froid. She asks where your
rapist is now and you say he’s in your pocket.
35
are suicidal and it doesn’t matter what language the
shower is in, you never feel clean anyway.
Your mom has a hybrid dog. You scratch its belly and
pick up its shit. Once it dislocated your mom’s shoulder
by pulling too hard on the leash. She could have fit in a
shipping crate, you think. The dog cocks its head at you.
It tells you that it used to be a person, a person who
threw a quarter in a well during a lightning storm and
woke up in the body of a hybrid dog in Connecticut.
Some fluke thing. You’re like why are you telling me
this. He says sometimes life throws a lot at you. You
ask what it’s like being a dog and he says it has its days.
36 M a d e l i n e C as h
gita Rajan
San
H o n e st C o e r L e t t e r
v
37
in exchange for enrollment in closed classes; I believe
that this demonstrates my tenacity and initiative. I also
stole many random objects from campus including a
curtain, traffic cone, dining hall table decorations, and
“out of order” signs from broken vending machines that
I could throw at people when they were being out of
order, as it were. It was just a phase, but I believe this
demonstrates my resourcefulness.
38 S an g i ta Ra j an
e Jeanne
Abbi
O n the Rec o r d
39
Never a lost weekend,
always born again.
40 Ab b i e J e an n e
ie Pereira
Luc
Poem for
the walk home
I am trying so hard
to be alive to everything.
41
reach toward tenderness,
and wish that my palms could soak up this suffering.
42 L uc i e P e r e i ra
Tammy Zhu
43
clutched my hand as though I might stumble and fall
if he didn’t hold on tightly enough. Now brush fires
scorch the region, but my dad won’t leave. He says my
mom might come back. “Dad,” I remind him, “she’s
been gone for twenty years.”
44 Ta mmy Z h u
On the morning of my flight, my dad dropped me off
at the airport, wished me luck, and even managed a
smile—the first one since I told him I was leaving.
Ta mmy Zh u 45
corrosive and crackles down my throat. The nightclub
explodes with a regalia of confetti, and I hope my dad
isn’t buried under a pile of ash. Smoke fills the room,
sweeping me away. I pull the man’s mouth to mine. He
leans in with his tongue. It tastes like salted peanuts
and cigarettes. I whisper, “Vamos.”
46 Ta mmy Z h u
n Darli
lyso ng
Al
G e n tl e S o r r o w s
47
seventeen. Like the unacknowledged sexual tension
that exists in a bed while you watch French films in
your underwear with her, ignoring that you’re sitting
closer than you need to. Like the loss of time. Like the
denial of crushes. Like all the men you fucked because
you felt like something was missing, like there was
something wrong with you. Like a sexuality you don’t
realize until you’re thirty-one.
48 A l ly s on Da r l i n g
Buchan
hvu an
An
N o, N
othing Left to Say
But you are so good at math you can’t drive you karate
chop you are chopsticks and rice bowls but why are
there fish heads in your soup you are a doctor a lawyer
an engineer you bubble tea you boba you bow to say
hello you hello kitty you take your shoes off at the
door you rice cook you know how to play the piano
the violin the cello you race cars in your honda you
anime your food smells but do you really eat dog you
are a virus you red face when you drink you gamble
you glow you karaoke you never knew your parents
love you hold up peace signs in photos you squat
you don’t want tan skin so you run from the sun you
travel just for the photos you have a small penis you
are submissive you are a fetish you are kung fu you
are kung flu you are your history you can’t escape you
look like you are twelve but why you are so skinny you
are slanted eyes you orient you oriental you can never
win you laundromat you nail salon you joy luck club
you sushi you lotus blossom but do you really eat dog
you can’t speak engrish you listen but are you listening
you, yes you, you need to go back to your country.
49
rla Brundage
Ka
M e m o ri es
I am 7
Blue green shag carpet rubs damps upon my skin
Cement bricks for bookshelves
Planks of unvarnished wood sag under the weight of
Hair over and over .. “ain’t got no..”
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We don’t talk about him.
He marches
He joins SNCC
He follows the rules of revolution
52 K a r l a Br un d a g e
What was he thinking I wonder
It seems so useless
A golfclub against a gun
What was he thinking
Going after that old man
II
Boy!
I ain’t no boy
C’ain’t you read
Whites only
What you gonna do shoot me?
He sees Cuba
Naval whites
He sees himself
Holding his gun
A girl
Named me
Stares at this photo
Taken by a photographer
54 K a r l a Br un d a g e
na Donovan
Dia
F i r st C o m m u n i o n
55
When—as expected—God refused to speak to me
I went looking for poetry in the Encyclopedia
Britannica.
It may have been Wordsworth—or Longfellow—if
memory serves
who acted as ‘divine inspiration’ as I penned my
prayer.
I turned in my assignment, pulse quickening.
If God wanted to punish me, He knew where to find
me.
56 Di an a Do n ovan
na Donovan
Dia
N ext Chapte r
The houses where you were afraid to fall asleep
hang up your cleats
they weren’t like the others on the tree-lined street
move to the desert
by the pond the neighborhood kids cleared after a
snowfall
take long walks
everyone lacing up their skates as the sun climbed
high on the ridge
plant seeds in the earth
the dads setting up the plywood hockey goals—and
later
wake early
the moms would bring steaming thermoses of hot
cocoa
cook over an open flame
no—the houses where you crept into bed scanning
for danger
let go of grievances
they held secrets so tight you could barely breathe
learn to pray
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you might wake to raised voices, glass breaking and
was that the crack of bone?
stay quiet
someone having trouble getting her words out
notice the seasons
maybe she’s on the ground, maybe there’s blood in
her throat
study the stars
and lying very still—frozen—instead of getting up
to see
recognize beginnings and endings
thinking about the day when you’d be allowed to
ride in a car with a boy
embrace each new day
and you could roll down the window and play music
and hold hands
let the light in
the time would come when you’d live in that other
kind of house
make room for me
you’d like that
it’s been so long.
58 Di an a Do n ovan
Alia Salim
Deep State
59
I finish the tea and set the mug down by the sink, then
follow the agents to the bedroom. I stand for a moment
on the landing to catch my breath before calling up.
“Can I see her?”
* * * * *
60 Alia Salim
of anyone who might ever once have missed me. That’s
why I was chosen, and why I said yes.
* * * * *
* * * * *
* * * * *
Ali a Sa li m 61
been housebound for months. The pandemic means
most obligations are virtual; the politics mean all are
slow. I need do very little but exist—persist in existing.
* * * * *
* * * * *
62 Alia Salim
I dream I’m climbing the stairs in my old house again,
stepping past the agents at my bedroom door. When
I pull back the covers it isn’t Ruth, but my old friend
Bea—her freckled nose, her rouged lips.
* * * * *
* * * * *
Ali a Sa li m 63
I don’t ask to see her again.
* * * * *
64 Alia Salim
gulls from the open door. The camera pans security
fencing and rows of young women, their RBG
t-shirts, their lipstick and tears. Some are beautiful
and some are not. They clutch cell phones and
posters, some of them, each other’s hands.
Ali a Sa li m 65
ney Vogl
Syd
Th d
You e F i r s t T i m e Y o u L e a r n e wn
r Bo dy W
as N o t Y o u r O
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Dena Rod
a pl ace of extr e m es
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- november 2, 2020 -