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O RPHEUS
Spring 2011
Volume XIII No. 1
Editors
Liz Comstock
Christina O’Rourke
Meagan Ray
Kendall Sewell
Faculty Advisor
Dr. Allison Egnew Smith
Founder
Dr. Tip H. Shanklin
www.lindsey.edu/orpheus
ORPHEUS
Spring 2011
A Publication of
Lindsey Wilson College
© Copyright 2011
All Rights Reserved
www.lindsey.edu/orpheus
Table of Contents
Christopher Ausbrook……………………………………………………………….60
Tiffany Berger……………………………………………………………………….20
James Brown………………………………………………………………...19, 28, 73
Liz Comstock………………………………………………………...29, 42, 58, 63, 71
Maria Cooper………………………………………………………………...11, 26, 61
Brandi Crowe………………………………………………………………………...18
Kacie Goode………………………………………………………………………….42
Ashley Graves………………………………………………………………………..13
Stephen Graves………………………………………………………………….. 21, 40
Megan Hadley…………………………………………………………………... 25, 45
Katie Hammond……………………………………………………………………...34
Matthew Hicks………………………………………………………………….. 44, 64
Megan Humphress………………………………………………………….. 35, 49, 77
Sam Johnson …………………………………………………………………10, 36, 50
Victoria Joseph……………………………………………………………………… 63
Phyllis Lewis…… …………………………………………………………………...48
Amy Lea Martin…………………………………………………………………….. 77
Christina O'Rourke………………………………………………………….. 35, 47, 70
John Overby ……………………………………………………………………..22, 69
Luis Parra……………………………………………………………………….. 14, 39
Brittany Pike……………………………………………………………………. 23, 34
Meagan Ray …………………………………………………………15, 28, 43, 52, 73
Jessica Rinesmith…………………………………………………………………… 57
Nick Schrager…………………………………………………………. ………...13, 74
Kendall Sewell …………………………………………………….9, 20, 30, 41, 51, 76
Anna Sundean………….……………………………………………………………. 38
Brittany Rose Wesley………………………………………………………...46, 65, 72
Danae Wesley………………………………………………………………………...16
Notes on Contributors……………………………………………………………….. 78
Editorial and Standards Policy
The editorial staff of Orpheus welcomes and encourages submissions of poetry,
short fiction, creative nonfiction, artwork, and photography from any current Lindsey
Wilson College student. While preserving the freedom of creative expression,
responsible standards of decency regarding language and images are carefully observed.
The editors reserve the right to edit both the form and, in rare cases, the content of
submissions. Final decisions regarding acceptance or rejection of questionable content
are reserved for the editorial staff in consultation with the journal’s faculty advisor.
All submissions to Orpheus must be typed and must contain the following
information: name, phone number, local address, class, major, and hometown of the
writer/artist. All artwork and photographs should be submitted in camera-ready black
and white.
Editorial and other staff positions are open to any current Lindsey Wilson College
student based upon experience or interest.
The ideas and views express in Orpheus are solely those of the writer/artist and do
not necessarily reflect the ideas and views of the editorial staff or those of Lindsey
Wilson College.
Preface
April, which is National Poetry Month, has arrived, and with it comes a new
volume of Orpheus. And like spring, this is a time of renewal. For the first time, the
journal will feature an online edition on the college’s website; this year we received a
record amount of submissions, nearly two hundred in all; and I am very happy to begin
my new role as faculty advisor. In the spirit of rebirth, the editors asked the founder of
Orpheus, Dr. Tip H. Shanklin, to be the featured faculty. He has graciously written the
forward to this issue as well as three new poems.
Arthur Quiller-Couch once encouraged writers to “murder your darlings.” And
this is exactly what the writers in this issue of Orpheus have done. The pieces featured
tackle an array of subject matter—some difficult, violent, dark. When students bristle at
the darkness of a piece in my creative writing workshops, I often remind them of what
Tobias Wolff said: “Far from being depressed, my own reaction to stories like these is
exhilaration, both at the honesty and the art. It lets us know we’re not alone.” Certainly
the writers featured in this edition let us know that we are not alone in our experiences.
As Hemingway wrote in A Moveable Feast, “The spring always came finally but
it was frightening that it had nearly failed.” Without the following people, Orpheus
would nearly fail, too: thanks to the student editors, Meagan Ray, Kendall Sewell,
Elizabeth Comstock, and Christina O’Rourke. The editors and I are also thankful for
those who have donated to the journal—both financially and in regard to time. Finally,
thanks to the English Program at Lindsey Wilson College for its continued support,
specifically Dr. Kara Mollis, Dr. Tip Shanklin, and Dr. Mark Dunphy for serving on the
Orpheus Creative Writing Award Committee.
Warmly,
Dr. Allison Egnew Smith
Faculty Advisor, Orpheus
Foreword
Orpheus has entered its second decade of publication, and as its founder and initial six-
year faculty sponsor, it is an honor to have been asked by this year’s editors to contribute
a few words and some new poems written for this volume. I am most grateful to them for
the opportunity.
Endurance is my theme here. And so it does not, in fact, surprise me that Orpheus has
been such a lasting success. When I began teaching here in 1998, one of the first ideas I
had was to start a literary journal for our students; a public forum for their creativity and
their voices. I also wanted the journal to reflect the College’s mission statement. At the
time, some were skeptical that it would work or endure; some even disparaged the name
Orpheus; but the journal is still here and that is what matters most. Over the years, there
also always, always have been many ardent supporters of and financial contributors to
Orpheus. Too many to name, they have my lasting gratitude.
T.S. Eliot once described his momentous poem The Waste Land as “the relief of a
personal and wholly insignificant grouse against life . . . a piece of rhythmical
grumbling.” Eliot was not a guileless man. (His remark reminds one of Prospero abjuring
his skills of magical conjuring in Shakespeare’s The Tempest.) Regardless of what
continues to inspire and motivate our writers and editors – personal grumblings, insights
into the human condition, voices from a darkness awaiting a reply, perhaps the
beginnings of a literary career (yes, this has happened too) – I believe Orpheus will
continue for another decade, and another, because it has always been an authentic place
for an ongoing creative and passionate conversation; a conversation that reminds us all of
what it means to be human in the first place.
THS
02.12.11
Peril
Tip H. Shanklin
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Some Things That Can Be Saved
Tip H. Shanklin
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Instructions
Kendall Sewell
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The Deer
Maria L. Cooper
I.
Whose eyes are these?
These eyes staring at me,
These eyes staring so deeply into my own,
Those soul-searching, life-giving eyes.
Eyes that see all.
Eyes that know all.
Eyes that understand.
II.
I pull my heart
and my eyes
from the animal's hold.
I see her body;
She is dying.
She is calling to me with her eyes,
With her mind and soul.
She's been rundown, run over
By someone hurrying to live their life
But her path crossed theirs
Here is where it stops
Where her life will end.
She does not want to be alone.
She trusts me. 11
I focus my eyes on the road ahead.
Tears well up and overflow.
For my poor deer, and for my mother.
For broken connections
And the broken hearts that result.
For my heart.
I turn the radio up, and sing.
My heart will go on.
III.
The sun sets and rises and sets again
Those Phantom eyes are haunting me in my dreams,
Those ever-beckoning eyes.
I do not want to focus on the road ahead
Not now
I want to pull over onto the shoulder
and weep.
Weep for the soft-hearted souls.
Weep for those who are not.
Cry because of my father's eyes.
Those unseeing soulless eyes.
The eyes of a true animal.
For all the lonely people,
Isolated and set apart from the rest
By my eyes
I want to cry “I want a father, a mentor, a shoulder, a friend with those
eyes.”
Ashley Graves
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Minutes
Luis Parra
The clock
6:23 advertising.
the past on thirsty,
and the present is an athlete without feet.
Minutes
as salt in the wound,
it happens to me life
spending the clock
Minutes
they are the morgue of the time,
corpses of moments
that is never coming back
no clock back back.
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Mediocrity
Meagan Ray
I fear that I will live vicariously through racing spidery words sprawled on neat linen
pages
That I will find release through foreign words, strange words, not my own
For I could never really speak like they do.
I have a southern twang that peers from the shadows of my throat
And I never sound quite as sophisticated as my brain thinks I should.
But I will reach towards the path that leads to, oh, I don’t know. Happiness. A platitude
like that where I will be scarred by grin lines burned along the corners of my
mouth and I will be deafened by the roar of ecstasy against my head and I will
skip as the wind trips my step and tugs against my hair.
And I will ache for the sugary taste of beauty on my tongue as I am blinded by glass
citadels stretched along the skyline and I will be aware of my heart careening into
my rib-cage, free-floating, detached from the harsh membrane that holds it still.
And I will crumble to my knees when I realize that I cannot be, oh, I don’t know.
Everything. Anything. When I realize that I am not what I set out to be when I
was a little girl. I didn’t wish to be a ballerina, but I wished to spin in glitzy
carnival circles, Christmas lights like fireflies lit about the world. I didn’t wish to
be a singer, but I wished to scorch my mouth as I gasped like a sinner released. I
didn’t wish to be a pilot, or an astronaut, but I wished to lie against shreds of
pavement and fall asleep enamored by the sheen of stars against my vision,
mesmerized by trippy lightshows of fireworks against the night, hummed to sleep
by chirping cicada voodoo. I didn’t wish for everyone to know me, some kind of
fame. But I wished to know myself.
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Tin
Danae Wesley
16
He
Fell.
There may be a cure
For a broken heart,
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Unanswered
Brandi Crowe
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Weathered Irishmen
Jim Brown
The rain trickled slowly, coming from a bright grey sky with the underlying sun
masked by heavy clouds. The wind lightly breathed on the tall grass which waved
slightly, keeping in the direction of the cool air’s flow. A road wound between the hills
emerald with the grass. Its puddles and gravel reflected the bright sky, wet from the
lulling rain. The blades closest to the road intertwined and brushed against the worn fence
which followed the road, one weathered with rusted barbed wire crippled by age and
hanging from the cracked gray posts that still stood stout with a few leaning away and
towards the road. All was quiet spare the faint sound of the wind in the grass. He had
ridden this route almost daily for the past thirty years. From home to work and back
again, church when he could, thinking of only the work that had been done and the work
to be done. Turning the pedals with a conscience funneled by these thoughts, he never
went beyond the spectrum that founded the world which in he delved himself.
Keeping to a promise, his daughter, the only other for which he had provided the
last few years, had gone on to make another home. His wife whom had passed many
years before had always stayed in his thoughts, as had his son whom had long
disappeared to the Americas. He, having never remarried nor sought another
acquaintance, ignored the calls of others on the habits of geese. Staring at the clouds as
they passed over head, he let the drops fall on his aging face as he recollected the past
years. The grass cool and wet on the back of his neck, the dampness of that beneath him
soaking through his faded shirt, he thought of it all. Settling for what he had never
consciously asked for, content with what was given turning away at the chance of change.
It would be a few hours to dark, and no traffic had passed for some time, not even a bird
in the sky, concerns of which were now beyond him. His home sitting empty and dark, a
cavity in which there would be nothing but memories, somewhat sullen, to keep him
company. He thought of the tavern down the road, where he had few times stopped. It
was always full of a crowd too depressing to accompany and he wasn’t one to drink
much. He loved his home country but not the life he had come to know, how he had come
to make it as it was he was slowly figuring. His living to raise his daughter, keeping a
quiet life. The rain began to pass finally and the wind stopped. He rose took a deep sign,
and stretched combing with his hand the beard that ran along the edge of his face.
Squinting in his thought he popped his back and looked out over the hills around him,
emerald as always in the light with a small house far in the distance.
Against the sky he spotted a gull, white with yellow beak, he could scarcely make
it out but it was unmistakable all the same. It flapped overhead, passing without glance
and undeterred in its direction, away from the glow behind the clouds, towards the coast,
towards the sea. His spirit stirred, the smell, the feel of salt and spray, the sound of taunt
sail in wind, a hull skimming waves with ease all flashed in his mind’s eyes. He pulled
his cap and gathered his bike and followed, stopping only at the post office along the
way.
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Storm Winds
Kendall Sewell
Tiffany Berger
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Anonymously Spoken
Stephen Graves
With eyes of Florence and loches of the Rhine motherly her eyes fall like Berlin the wall
that binds
In mind our wounds will heal, but scars will be left behind
Fragments of a war lost only in time
Our moment has come, as clouds part and the darkness begins to shine
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and the beholder is blind
Looking forward to the end as the journey has past the line
A sonnet is not a sonnet without a look first through her eyes
A prayer is spoken as my breath slips suddenly away
Lifeless I lay and in her arms I pray to die
No happiness will I ever see like the one my heart for love does bleed
and in the end there is only one, not you, but me and I hope this is a lie
As I write and I hope, my words are my tears and only the ink is left when I cry
One final breath, one final thought, one final sin, one final...
Why?
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Suck it Art
John Overby
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My Hatter
Brittany Pike
Delusional dreaming.
Farfetched schemes.
Radical ideas.
Fantastical things.
A racing of thoughts
in a whirlwind of colors.
I'm the only one here,
there are no others!
Preposterous nonsense.
Oodles of ideas.
Do not blame me,
the idea was...his.
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As soon as he comes
he's practically gone,
scrambling my senses
making everything wrong.
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Phone
Megan Hadley
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Emotion and Reason
Maria L. Cooper
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Do you love me too as I feel you do?
Or have you not figured (it/me) out yet, so cute
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Mason-Dixon Line
Meagan Ray
Jim Brown
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As insomnia conquers yet another night,
Elizabeth Comstock
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In Remembrance of Lilac and Sunlight
Kendall Sewell
He spoke with love in his heart and truth in his voice when he told her that he
loved her, and he noted the scorn in her voice and hate in her eyes when she in return said
the same. No, perhaps it was imagined. Yes, imagined, of course. He was always
imagining the things that were not there. Or were there, and they were imagined. Or were
imagined and were there, too. They told him he imagined too much and knew too little,
but he knew much more than they.
She dished a large helping of green beans and mashed potatoes onto his plate. The
beans were equally cut as he preferred, yes, and kept away from the mashed potatoes.
There was ham already on his plate, and she did as he liked and kept it from the other
helpings of food. Separate is best is how he always felt, separate is best and good. He
liked that she knew how he preferred his food, but didn’t like that she might not be there.
No, she was there. She had cooked the food that sat steaming on his plate and he felt
himself drooling like Pavlov’s dog because of it. Pavlov. Who was Pavlov? A neighbor,
certainly, yes. No, that wasn’t right. He knew the name. Or had he imagined it? They told
him he always imagined things. That he imagined too much and remembered too little.
They. They, who weren’t his friends. But she was a friend. She, whom he knew was real.
“Eat up,” she said. “It’s good, I promise.”
He nodded. Yes, eat. He would eat. She had cooked, and she was always a good
cook. He remembered liking her cooking. And her hair. Her long brown curls. Soft curls
that tickled his face when she kissed him. He remembered loving the way her hair held
the lingering smell of her shampoo when he awoke with his head nestled against hers.
Her soft skin, smooth and pale and lovely. He had loved it. He had loved that and all of it
and her. He remembered, and he remembered that he still did. Surely that wasn’t
imagined. No, not imagined. They told him he should remember rather than imagine, and
he remembered. He remembered that he liked her cooking. He would eat.
Eat. Man shall not live on bread alone.
Bread alone. Who had told him that? He remembered it. And they said he
imagined more than he remembered. He had surely remembered that. Had Frank told him
that? He liked to remember Frank. Sometimes remembering Frank was hard, though.
Sometimes he thought he’d imagined Frank, too. But the things he imagined were hard to
remember. It wasn’t so hard to remember Frank.
He remembered loving Frank. He thought about it, sometimes. Love was hard to
remember sometimes, too. They told him he imagined things too much, that he had to try
to remember instead of imagine. But remembering was hard. It all went away so fast.
Any memory he had. Frank. (Where was Frank?)
“Is it good?”
“Where’s Frank?” he asked.
She smiled. He didn’t like the way she wasn’t really smiling. “Frank would want
you to eat, James.”
James. Yes, that was it. He looked at his plate. The mashed potatoes were
mounded into a mountainous glob with a lake of brown-gravy steaming in the center. He
thought he remembered liking the potatoes like that. James. It seemed right.
A man walked into the kitchen as he sat eating and he remembered that he did not
like him. He looked unlikable, and James remembered not liking him. He didn’t like the
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black hat that he wore, or the black coat and the red flannel shirt beneath. The man had a
black beard, too, and James remembered not liking his beard. In fact, he despised his
beard. He didn’t like his beard and he didn’t like the man.
She kissed him, though, that man with the black beard and the black hat, and
James picked up his plate and dashed it to the blue-and-white-checkered tile of kitchen
floor. The china shattered, and ham and beans and mashed potatoes became a single
conglomerated mess. He didn’t know why he’d thrown the plate, only that the man with
the beard should not have been kissing her.
“Dammit,” muttered the man with the beard, pushing her aside. “I got it. Don’t
worry.”
She walked over and patted James on the shoulder. “He hasn’t had a good day,”
she said, and moved closely to the man with the black beard and whispered, “He’s been
talking about you-know-who, today.”
You-know-who.
He knew who you-know-who was. They thought he didn’t, but he remembered.
They were always telling him he should remember, and they didn’t know that he did.
Frank. Frank was you-know-who, and Frank was dead. That’s why he wasn’t there.
You-know-who had killed Frank.
No, that wasn’t right. He had imagined you-know-who. No, he had imagined that
you-know-who had killed Frank. You-know-who was Frank.
Where was Frank?
“He’s always talking about him,” grumbled the man with the beard. “His damn
brother died twel-”
“Shut up!” she shouted, and the man with the beard looked up at her.
James liked that she had said that but didn’t like that she hadn’t really. But she
had. Surely. Where was Frank?
“The litany of lives lost and lives given in silence are surely no more or less than
those lost and given in blood,” James mumbled, his hand rigidly gripping the glass of
water in his left hand.
“What?” asked the man with the black beard.
“I will not be given unto silence,” said James. “I will not be given unto silence or
blood.” Thus spoke James, and he remembered.
“James, please calm down. Calm down, love,” she said softly, and patted his
shoulder. He didn’t like how she didn’t really mean it.
The man that James remembered not liking wrapped his arm around her waist.
Her slender, perfect waist. The man with the black beard had his arm around her waist
and James knew that he shouldn’t be touching her. He knew that was real, and he
remembered. He hadn’t imagined that. They told him to remember more often, and he
was remembering much today.
“That was a line from one of his poems,” she whispered to the man with the black
beard. “I just remembered. Wasn’t it, James? That was one of your poems from long ago.
Remember?”
Poems. He remembered. Some he remembered then, and remembered once
remembering them. That was long ago, though, and he hardly remembered what was
from long ago. That was what they always wanted him to remember. The things from
long ago.
But then, as he stared at her and the man with the black beard touched her side,
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James remembered. He remembered poems, and he remembered a man named Whitman
whom he had read. He remembered others, too. Names that faded before he could
remember them. He saw their faces and remembered their names along the spines of
book after book, words that faded before he could truly remember. Books. He
remembered those, like the poetry. He had read them – had written them – and he could
remember their pleasant feel to his fingers and the smell of their lovely, dusty pages to
his nose. But he couldn’t remember them. He couldn’t. But they were there, and he
wanted so badly to fish those memories out of the swallowing dark.
Swallowing dark. Why had he thought of that? He remembered that. Perhaps he
had said it once in a poem. Yes, a poem. He had written poems.
He remembered the poetry. When he remembered the poetry, he remembered it
all. He remembered books, poems, names, and everything in between. Everything came
at once, flaring briefly like a flickering streetlight illumines poignantly the darkest of
alleys; an instant later the darkness would return, but for a moment there was glorious
light. In that light, he remembered. Mostly, he remembered her.
He remembered her and knew that the man with the black beard should not be
touching her in the way that he was touching her. Again, he remembered it all.
“Lydia,” James said. His voice had a low rumble to it, growling like a whispered
roar. “Lydia… Lydia, why?”
“James!” she gasped, stumbling backwards into the stove.
James stared at his hands as he sat in the kitchen chair. “These hands,” he
murmured. “What are these hands for now? They are foreign and useless to me.”
“James...” Lydia’s voice broke, and she looked away.
“They are useless, yes,” he said. “Yes, useless.” James looked up and glared at the
man with the black beard. “Useless? Not useless, perhaps. Not for some things.”
James was a large and strong man, and though his hands were useless they were
not powerless. His fingers felt right around the man’s neck. They squeezed tautly, and he
felt the skin compress against the tender neck bones and James felt the man’s hands
grapple onto his arms. The man was strong but James was stronger.
They fell upon the floor with an echoing smack, and Lydia screamed and pounded
James’ backside, but he remembered why his hands were around the man with the black
beard’s neck and he pressed even more firmly, as if he were working to clasp his hands in
prayer with the man’s throat compressed in between. He squeezed and continued to
squeeze, and the man grunted and their bodies become sodden with sweat. It was all very
quiet, save for their low groaning and James’ short, quick breaths. He felt tired, but he
pushed Lydia back and let his weight fall upon the man beneath him and soon felt his
breathing slowly cease.
Moments later, James released his hold on the man’s neck. The man with the
black beard lay still, unmoving. He eyes were fixed in an empty stare.
Void of life. Void of existence. A vacant vessel, yes.
It seemed right to have remembered those words.
Lydia was crying. She crawled across the kitchen and pressed her face to the dead
man’s cheek. “James!” she shrieked, and said no more. Her words were lost in her tears.
James stood and walked to the stove. He prepared himself a plate of ham and
green beans and mashed potatoes, keeping them separate as he preferred. He sat down,
and tried to remember what he had remembered earlier. There had been a reason that
Lydia was crying. Perhaps he had imagined it, though. They always told him that. He
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never wanted to imagine things, but he never knew when what he was remembering was
imagined.
Poets, maybe? Had that been it?
No. Not them. He didn’t remember poetry.
Lilac. Her hair had smelled of lilac and sunlight. Her skin had been smooth like a
weathered pebble against his rough and calloused hands.
His hands. What was their purpose now? They were worthless, useless like his
empty soul.
No, he was imagining these thoughts. They were not his.
Dismissing all thoughts from his mind, he smiled at the woman lying on the floor
of the kitchen and spooned a helping of warm mashed potatoes and gravy into his mouth.
“Lydia,” he said cheerily, smiling in her direction. “Fix another plate, won’t you,
Lydia, dear?” He glanced at a calendar on the wall. It had pictures of horses on every
page, and he remembered that she liked horses. “Lydia, it’s Friday and I’m sure Frank
will be coming tonight.”
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Masquerade
Britney Pike
Obscure in thought.
Delighted in guise.
Searching eyes scan my frame,
head to toe and back again.
Fooled by what they cannot see,
they judge me.
But how? I ask.
For the same mask that adorns
my face, is also positioned upon
theirs.
Katie Hammond
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Well
Christina O’Rourke
Megan Humphress
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Predation
Sam Johnson
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Even though you still speak
Your spirit’s been killed
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Rape in the Mind
Anna Sundean
38
The Problem
Luis Parra
39
Sinking In
Stephen Graves
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Lament Seen in a Wineglass
Kendall Sewell
He wonders why he thinks of impressing her while matching his tie to his shirt,
and she wonders why she imagines him as she chooses the perfect dress,
and she selects the perfect necklace, even still.
But they merely meet and smile and say the howsitgoings and the goodthanks
and he thinks only of the significance of man’s lowly place
before the gods.
And in his mind he sees the devilish saints crowd around in black
and hooded raiment, each holding
a golden goblet of crimson Christ-blood
in a sort of perverse communion,
toasting his death with wicked grins and evil teeth.
And the wineglass slips from his hand.
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The fly on your wall can keep his position,
Elizabeth Comstock
Kacie Goode
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I Go Mad
Meagan Ray
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Velvet
Matthew Hicks
As my hand cuts
the red velvet crease
starts to show
a tInglIng feelIng spreads through
to my fIngertIps
my arms start to quIver
my head Is spInnIng
lIke a top on a table
my heart races then stops
lIke a halterIng crash
the velvet crease turns Into
an ocean of crImson
runnIng down then drop
splatters on the floor
lIke a tear hIttIng a cheek
I have a feelIng of remorse
I have a feelIng of regret
I have a lonely feelIng
I feel fear, sadness
yet wIth all of these feelIngs I smIle
I smIle cause wIth all of thIs
It hurts nothIng lIke my heart
blIsterIng paIn I feel day after day
from lonlynes, I search
for the one star brIghter than the rest
but lIke a leopard In a crowd
I am shunned away
I long for the one thIng I can’t have
for the golden crown of a kIng
when I am a mere peasant
I reach out for a hand that has taken another
so when that last moment comes
when the velvet water begIns to pour
smIle, cause the wound wIll heal
mIne will not
for the wound I hold
cannot be cured
the scar I have
Is deeper than the ocean floor
the one I reach
the one I adore
adores everyone else
and wants all the other bIrds
and doesn’t want
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Broken Melody
Megan Hadley
He stood behind me with his arms around me and whispered into my ear
He’s not the one I wanted to say it, but it was what I wanted to hear
We lay together, cuddled up…and I couldn’t help thinking it was wrong
Being in his arms, while he sings to me our song.
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It’s Just Another Day
Brittany Rose Wesley
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Once More
Christina O’Rourke
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Free Verse: "Love"
Phyllis Lewis
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Megan Humphress
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Aqua Regia
Sam Johnson
Dissolution.
Can we hold hands?
Does it dissolve the container it’s placed in?
Only composed materials?
Compounding.
Solvent.
Even gold?
Do you love me?
Water is universal, now.
Solidify.
Solution.
When it dissolves, it mingles,
Mixes, dances, limps around.
Where did you wake up?
Dissemination.
Acidic.
It burns if you touch it.
An ultimate medicine.
Does it salve your ills?
Base.
Sleep.
It’s hard to measure,
Natural chemical response.
Are we okay?
Awaken.
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Automaton
Kendall Sewell
Automatic apparatus—
Robotic, programmed movement.
Card-swipe, drive on and red-light stop, break,
do it all again in fifteen.
Carry on in monotony
mistaking mundanity for vigor and vivacity.
Run
Like the fastest software
And pass me (and button click)
And forget that (exit, switch program)
And never really sleep.
Only run and run and run
on an autopilot-kind-of quiet release,
a separateness and an uninterrupted
socially-connected
unfettered and unrelated
silent and automatic world.
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CATHARSIS
Meagan Ray
I.
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Who were only paranoid about facts, not the antichrist or tattoos or 2012 but about Wall
Street and war and death
Who fought through the depths of the cyber atmosphere instead of with chains and
crowbars
Who opposed family values but lived at home because rent is too high
Who watched the world crumble to desperate, arthritic knees and swore they’d put it back
together even if they couldn’t put themselves back together when the threw
themselves away
Who read every banned book and refused to accept traditional constraints of humanity
Who dressed in plastic and cellophane smiles, glittering shimmering incandescent
fakeness “made in China” stickers stuck to the bottom of long stiletto tips
Who were not color blind but saw the world in every promising shade and hue while still
being more skeptical about the inner thoughts of man
Who could debate over anything, but who has the time? Twisting digital watches around
thin wrists in order to absorb lost moments and communicate to the movers of
chess pieces that this little pawn wanted more than capture by the pristine queen
who gets to move in whatever direction she likes or the cocky rook who jumps in
inexplicable patterns that are impossible to gauge or the wise bishop or castle that
slides along the length of the board with splintering accuracy or god forbid the
ancient king who keeps the board moving
Who couldn’t remember when Kennedy was shot, but remembered being pulled out of
chalky classrooms to watch New York explode in a Pollock burst of color
Who watched the oceans move in a whirl of destruction but rebuilt with an arrogance
they could not truly feel
Who could warm the earth but could not do the same for burned-out tepid hearts
Who never slept with the lights on, tripping in the dark for a drink of fluoride water, but
made love under fluorescent bulbs because life is too short for the imagination,
one must use every sense, see hear smell touch taste
Who swayed to baby-makin’ music and throbbed against strangers in a bizarre search for
a rough mysterious harsh pulsing feeling they could not find
Who worshipped the cult of the peculiar, feathers glitter techno kazoos anything but the
classical, we make our own classical, we’ll spin in a world of our own making,
joining hands and walking on water, we’ll spit at naysayers and hippie-get-a-job-
ers
Who struggled to remind themselves that their parents were once young, who fought to
keep the ancients young, who fought to stay young
Who were so enamored by perfection that they dropped out of college because failure
was too looming and eminent to ignore
Who began their careers as cat ladies early
Who frantically ached for someone to share their smoldering hearts, searching to find
being in another being
Who googled their own name in the search bar and realized they had done nothing
Who realized they were nothing but also knew that they couldn’t judge the worth of a
life, even if one’s own source of life streaming crimson lovely blood sells on the
black market
Who scuttled in dumpsters to find something for ebay
Who downloaded stolen folk music because art at its most beautiful base value was to
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make people think and feel and even if the world sells those two things it should
be free
Who supported each freedom but fought with the first amendment tongue instead of the
second amendment weapon
Who poured out salt shakers and made lines on restaurant tables in order to scare the
waitresses
Who lay awake wrapped in cheap hospital sheets and only wanted to look outside and
feel the glow of stars and bite of bugs on their legs
Who sat on rooftops and wept, for they knew they were falling apart, and the choice of
crawling back into confining window or rolling off the building was too pressing
Who kept trying, but knew their demise was pre-determined
II.
What barren bitch keeps us empty and trite, demands that we pour our guts on the
cracked dirt and dries it as we scramble to wet our ashy mouths, oh Lazarus let a
drop fall on the sinner’s tongue
Atlacoya! Wretched! Mercenary! Glutton! Oil and rain smattered on canvas! Newspaper
blankets bleeding ink onto vagabond bodies! Blistering ballads a breath against
our bruises! Boring prophesies that cannot save us!
Atlacoya! Atlacoya whose skin is painted bronze! Atlacoya whose hair is peroxide
yellow! Atlacoya who smokes the same cigarettes as Mick Jagger! Sameness in
Atalacoya! Oneness in Atlacoya! Identical in Atlacoya!
Atlacoya who must be known! Atlacoya who must be popular! Atlacoya who sleeps with
senators! Atlacoya who sleeps with stars! Atlacoya the centerfold for fucking the
right man!
Atlacoya who worships sanity! rosaries! sanitariums! crucifixes with the body of Christ
raised up against gilt plastic! ten commandments! lawsuits! dharma! pay out the
hoo-ha for yoga classes! pay for what’s free! bottled tap water! yum!
Atlacoya who worships conformity! rolled bop socks and soft rock! wizards! vampires!
zombies! monsters under the bed! freaks on top of the bed! yabadabadoo! jeez
louise!
Atlacoya who promises boys education if they fight! Atlacoya who promises girls babies
if they shut up! Brainwashed in Atlacoya! Ransacked in Atlacoya! Patriots in
Atlacoya!
Atlacoya who took liberty and gave security! Atlacoya who rewrote holy documents
rather than write new ones! Atlacoya who led the masses to be made into solent
green!
Atlacoya who made stereotypes! cheerleaders! jocks! nerds! losers! goths! druggies!
preps! punks! basketcases! hipsters! nutjobs! rebels! bastards!
Homeless in Atlacoya! Dreamless in Atlacoya! Thirsty in Atlacoya!
Atlacoya whose veins are filled with ancient order! Atlacoya whose skin is covered with
symbols! Atlacoya whose breath is ripe with the blood of individuals! Atlacoya
whose heart is raw thumping consistency! whose heart never slipped up in its
pattern of beats because her heart never surrendered!
Atlacoya who made us all bricks in the wall! Atlacoya who did nothing to bring down the
Berlin Wall! Atlacoya who did nothing in Rwanda! Atlacoya who did nothing in
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the cities! Atlacoya who sat on her judgmental pompous ass and criticized!
Atlacoya who grew fat on the bodies of babies! Atlacoya who took Swift literally!
Atlacoya! Atlacoya! fake Chinatown purses! real human suffering! Oprah suggests
literature because she’s a genuine scholar! Cosmo sells the orgasm! McDonald’s
makes you fat! tabloids! news! gossip! read all about it!
Towers to Atlacoya! Rain dances to Atlacoya! Sacrifices to Atlacoya! Prayers to
Atlacoya! Threats to Atlacoya!
Atlacoya who kills authenticity! Murderer! Liar! Whore! Jezebel!
Atlacoya who is a virus! Atlacoya who shoots into subway stations! Atlacoya who passes
along country roads! Atlacoya who still travels Route 66 just as fast as the nearby
highway!
Atlacoya who will not bend! who will not pour out golden rain! who will not cure our
young coughs for newness! who keeps the earth sizzling with ritual! who
encourages habits!
Atlacoya who has nine lives! Atlacoya who cannot be killed! Atlacoya who cannot be
contained! We wear your chains! We curse your name as we slide into your bed!
We wrap our heads around your power as we wrap our hands around our throats!
nooses! guns! dynamite! goodbye! nail me upside down for the sake of
originality! oh brave new world that has so much fucked up in it!
III.
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hand up the preacher’s daughter’s skirt but shut up! Satan! Temptor! Demon!
Only virgins go to heaven!
I’m with you at the polls
Where I am not safe and you are not safe and now we’re really up shit’s creek
I’m with you at the protests
Where you wallow in the hot sweaty sticky mass of flesh that is group think
I’m with you at the universities
Where you learn that Skinner was right and Salinger was right and Darwin was dead
wrong
I’m with you at the cafes,
Where you sugar down your coffee so that it loses whatever strangeness it might have
created in your soul
I’m with you at the malls
Where a zillion shades of plastic cannot make you worth the hunger in your handbag
I’m with you at the bookclub
Where A Clockwork Orange prompts no horror but only sympathy for madness
I’m with you at the office
Where you are throwing in the towel, flinging towels out the window, bawling down
clinical hallways and being told to ‘shusssh’
I’m with you at the unemployment office
Where you are a number and I am a number
I’m with you at the monuments
Where you are amazed at granite statues that rival the Tower of Babel but we could never
really reach god, we could never really reach greatness, give me your poor and
hungry and we’ll ostracize the hell out of them, Irish need not apply, dirty
Mexicans need not apply, wear colored blue-eye contacts faux Aryan
I’m with you at the day cares
Where the kids yowl for mercy but are raised in stifling, sweating ovens in order to
protect them from the big bad world and bleached bread
I’m with you at the hospitals
Where they take your eyes and kidneys since the back of your license says ‘donor’ and
you’ve literally given everything for your country and humankind, why stop in
death? because even your guts are not your own, why let it be?
I’m with you at the morgue
Where you are just a lump under a sheet, returning to the ground in an iron vault instead
of the simple dust you are, trapped by modernity to the very end, choked in a
secure coffin instead of melting with the worms
I’m with you at the cemetery
Where ashes to ashes we float away and grow crazy, perhaps we would’ve been better off
sequestered in Rockland after all
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Secret
Jessica Rinesmith
I have a secret. Locked up behind bars disguised as thin, pink lips, hiding behind
enormous white teeth and lodged in my scratchy, dry throat. It will not move. It cannot
move.
I barely think about the secret. Contemplating about it allows it to slide up my
throat, and the further up that it travels, the harder it will be to keep.
I've kept it for a while now. Not a soul knows, and I intend for it to always be that
way. I haven't told my Mom or Dad. I haven't told my sister or brother. I haven't told my
adorable golden retriever, White Banana, or the flowery-printed walls pressed around me
in the silence of my room. I haven't even told my diary.
It's not my secret to tell. It's yours. It's your secret, but I'm keeping it. We both
know it's safe here.
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Night terrors
Elizabeth Comstock
I awake to piercing screams, breaking the still of the night. It’s happening all over
again. She cries No! No! Stop it! I roll over grabbing her hips, pressing my body onto
hers. She wails and screams muffled names I recognize from her stories. I grab her wrists
to keep her from pulling out her hair. The hair she already ripped out tickles my wrist as
she twist and turns. She is screaming and crying, re-living it over again for the thousandth
time. She’s incredibly strong as I scramble for grip of her arms again. She keeps hitting
herself and me, arms wailing around and legs kicking. I, now under her while she lies
with her back to my chest, whisper it’s ok baby, I’m here. I’m here. Shhhh. Her body
begins to tremble as she begs for him to stop. I hold her tighter, hugging her so tightly she
cannot move. I wonder which one it is this time, and for how long this one will last. I
begin to grow weak from the constant thrashing. I try for it seems like hours to get her to
come back to me. Whispering it’s ok. Krystal, I’m here. I’m here baby. You’re safe. It’s
ok. Shh. I love you. Forty minutes go by before she jolts straight up, wide-eyed, and
panting. She rolls over on top of me, drenched with sweat. We make eye contact, her
mascara from earlier now runs lines down her cheeks. I can tell she is back, but she is not
coherent yet. I smile crookedly and kiss her. She lays her head, now soaked with sweat
and tears, on my chest. Her warm body shakes as she relaxes each muscle and lets herself
melt into my chest. I whisper It’s all over now baby. You can sleep. Knowing what she
was thinking, I reassure her I will be here when you awake ,my dear. I promise. She sighs
a near inaudible I love you before she drifts off into, now peaceful, slumber. I shortly
follow, and we drift together into our dreams.
I awake to the dark room. The lighting suggests the omniscience of a candle-lit
cabin off in the woods somewhere . I lie in bed, snug in the cool of the sheets on this hot
summer morning. And She lies next to me, half naked in the cool of the sheets. We lie
facing one another, her head upon the powder blue satin pillow offsetting her mocha
colored hair. I adjust my head onto my hand, propping myself up on my elbow. We both
lie there, half naked, in the dim light gazing into one another’s eyes, peering in to the
depths of one another’s souls.
She starts telling stories, looking up at the white clouds painted on my blue
ceiling. I watch her hands as they play out the stories, hanging on every word.
We both laugh, as the story ends on a lighthearted note. I take hold of her hand and hold
it tightly. She turns and looks at me, no longer focusing on the clouds. She huffs up at her
wavy chocolate hair through the corner of her mouth in an attempt to get her hair out of
her face. My heart weighs heavy in my chest as I know that she’s holding back, afraid
that her story might break me.
I smile, reassuring her of my strength and love for her. She moves in closer, our
hips pressed against each other. Our body heat offset by the fan circulating above. I
slowly move in, pressing my lips against hers. It’s honest and pure, no hidden motives of
sex or seduction. She takes a deep breath, I watch as her chest rises and sinks back down,
exposing her ribs. I gently pull her body closer to mine, entwining our bodies as if we
were one. I lean in and press my lips to her ear, and softly whisper I love you. You can
trust me. The fan hums above, and the sound fills the room.
10 seconds linger in the air like the odor of morning breath. My heart begins to
pound in my chest, as I begin to be as nervous and tentative as she. I breathe slowly,
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trying to remain patient as I wait for her to gather her strength.
She tells me the story, of the first time she was mutilated. Her body shakes, but
not from the cold wind coming from the fan above. She tells me every excruciating
detail, the rasp in his voice, her friend in the other room letting it happen. My stomach
churns in anger and guilt, as she sets the scene in my head. Still, she goes on. She tells
me each word that his dirty ash tray of mouth said to her. My hands ball up into fists and
I can feel the blood rushing to my knuckles as all my muscles tense in rage. She tells me
what he used, to rob her of her innocence. She tells me how she went numb and tried to
block it out. My chest is bursting with fury with each detail that escapes from her lips.
She tells me how he would slap her so she paid attention. She told me how he told her she
wanted it, and he was going to make her feel good. I have never felt this much hatred for
any, thing, before in my life.
She’s told me these stories before. Each one gets worse as she trusts me more and
more. With each story she shows me more of herself, of who she is, and how she came to
be. Each story is a window into her entire being, for only me to see. The window, a
painful part of the healing process, as if cleansing a wound with peroxide, necessary for
healing, but excruciating all the same.
I keep a soft face. Squeezing her delicate yet strong hand tighter with each deep
breath she shutters, reminding her that I am here and she is not alone. In the silences of
the stories I picture what I’d do to the bastards if I ever saw them, going into gory detail.
I try not to let my body show the rage I am tackling inside.
Despite my best efforts to hide my anger, she sees. She sees the pain I feel for her,
and the guilt I place upon myself. She reassures me that she is fine and that she wants me
to never see those men. She assures me that each story she struggled through brought her
closer to the woman she is today, the woman with me.
She finishes her story, and I softly wipe away the tears that managed to escape her
eyes, trying to hide the tears in mine. With a heavy heart, I lean in and give her a kiss on
her forehead. She smiles, heavily, and curls into me the way a child curls into their
mother after a nightmare. I put my arms around her as she settles her wet face into my
bare chest.
For a moment, our hearts beat as one.
And for a moment, everything is ok. And I protect her from the cold outside.
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I, Refrain
Chris Ausbrooks
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The Paramour
Maria L. Cooper
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You have had a very long and interesting day
And while parts may have been my fault I will make it better
I smooth your hair and kiss the top of your head
Then reach to turn out
The lamp
It is darkness, but we are not alone
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Blinded by Zippo lights
Elizabeth Comstock
Victoria Joseph
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Making Love to an Angel
Matthew Hicks
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Just A Little Hope
Brittany Rose Wesley
Seven days ago, the city of Evermore was once a city that had very well kept
green lawns, happy children, loving parents, and a sturdy government. It wasn’t like that
anymore. The lawns were full of weeds, the children were gone, the parents were gone,
and the government had collapsed.
The buildings were desecrated by plagues. The bricks that had once bolstered the
beautiful buildings had fallen, either flown, or melted off. The courthouse that was once
in the middle of the city was just an empty floor of stone that had once belonged to the
basement floor of the courthouse.
There was once a high-towered church that everyone joined for worship on
Sunday mornings, and occasionally Wednesday evenings. There used to be sunflowers
that paved the way to the stone steps of the atrium. There were now dead bodies. Bodies
that had once been wearing Sunday morning clothes of periwinkle blue dresses and black
suits. You wouldn’t be able to tell one body from the other. It was a disaster.
There was no more hope for the city of Evermore.
Or was there?
Although the church seemed as if it was completely destroyed like the buildings
around it, it was surprise to see that it was not so. The bright, intricate doors that once led
god-fearing people inside to worship were completely closed, but the glass windows in
the doors were cracked. There seemed to be no way to get inside.
However, upon closer inspection, there was one small hole from the destruction
under the front stone steps. Inside the church, it wasn’t as bad as it could be. Although the
windows were all broken, some of the stained glass still remained behind the pew. A
picture of Mary and Joseph was just one of those pictures.
The rows of seating were drenched from unnatural hurricanes. Bibles and hymn
books that were once held up in the front of the seats were now soaked and had been
thrown in every direction, as if an angry child walked through the aisles and threw a
tantrum.
The one thing that was still standing was the cross. It was the only thing that was
left unharmed in the church. Water dripped from the ends of it, but it was not singed, or
moved from its original placement.
Was it even possible?
A small noise assailed the silenced room. It was the only noise on Earth.
Hiccup!
Crawling out from under a fallen table was a small head of red curls. The head
turned upward, and a child of three or four with twinkling blue eyes bent at her knees and
looked around. Her surroundings did not disturb her in the slightest. Yawning, she rubbed
her eyes and got up off the floor. Her face was dirty with bits of dust and grime from
sleeping on the ground, but there was still a little tinge of red to her cheeks. She was
wearing a dirty, pink and white Sunday dress. They were now play clothes to her.
The little girl turned around, put her hand back under the table, and took a teddy
bear that was once white. It now had only one eyeball and its right ear was dangling with
bits of string. “Come, Teddy,” she whispered and hugged her teddy close to her, as her
arms shivered in fright.
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Hiccup!
“Excoose me,” she said, walking towards the back of the altar where a leaning
bookcase was. On the lowest shelf, there were boxes of cheese crackers and vanilla
wafers. The girl took the box of crackers and opened it, sticking her hand in while
making sure her teddy was still in her arms. “You want some, Teddy?” she asked as she
held a handful of crackers in her hand. The teddy didn’t respond. She made her way to
the pews and sat down, not caring that her bottom was getting wet from the soaked
cushions. Hiccup! “Excoose me, again.” She swung her legs and pretended to feed her
teddy. “Teddy? Do you know when our Mommy and Daddy are coming? Evyone left.”
The teddy bear didn’t answer her.
The little girl put the box down, wandered toward the doors, and tried to push
them open with her dirty hands, but they didn’t budge.
She was trapped.
The little girl sniffled and sat down on the ground in front of the doors, waiting. “I
want my Mommy.”
Several minutes passed and then the little girl heard something.
“ – do you mean there’s one left? Haven’t you seen the look of this place? Earth is
nothing. There are dead bodies scattered outside the church. It’s ridiculous. You should
have made it a little cleaner. There shouldn’t even be a single human alive after this kind
of destruction.”
The little girl stood up quickly, almost toppling over in her urgency. She ran
behind one of the pews in the middle. The voice was not familiar to her.
“Why would you care? Even if there’s someone here, they’ll be close to death
anyway. You should know Famine already took care of it.”
The front doors banged open and were thrown off their hinges. The girl squealed
in fright and her eyes widened. She quickly put her hands to her mouth to silence herself.
Salty tears streamed from her eyes down her pale, gaunt cheeks.
“You have got to be kidding me! The cross is actually still standing. Even after all
of this. I detest that child. I thought I had Him thousands of years ago, but – Yes, yes. I
know!”
A tall figure with flowing, black hair stepped into the church. His eyes were a
soulless black and there was no kindness in them at all. He was wearing a pitch-black suit
with an undone black bow tie. The only thing that wasn’t black was his skin, which was
actually quite pale compared to the little girl’s. In his right hand, he held a scythe. In his
left, he held a cell phone to his ear.
The girl moved her head so that she was able to see the strange person. She
couldn’t help but smile. She didn’t think he looked mean. Her older brother wore the
same costume when they dressed up for Halloween last year. She giggled and her tears
stopped.
“Have you any idea what this human looks like? Are they male or female? Young
or old? Or even where they are hiding in this desecration? I don’t see anybody, just a
rundown church. I’m losing my patience with you, Lucifer. Even though you’re the – “
Hiccup!
“Wait.” The figure removed the cell phone from his ear and moved forward. The
little girl popped up from behind the pew. The stranger’s empty, black eyes bore into her
blue ones. “Nevermind,” he said into the phone and flipped it shut without hearing
the answer, putting the phone inside a pocket of his suit.
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“Hi.” The little girl said, waving her hand and smiling at him.
The figure stepped forward, but did not move too close to her. He lifted his mouth
into a small smile and bent at his knees so he was at her level. His black hair moved to
the side of his face as he tipped his head sideways and spoke in a kinder voice than he
had on the phone, “Well, hello there, little girl. What might your name be, Sweetie?”
“Are you a stranger?” she asked, biting her bottom lip. “My Daddy says I’m not
allowed to talk to strangers.” The figure chuckled.
“No, I am not.”
“Oh,” she said and smiled widely at him. “I’m Hope,” she pulled up her teddy
bear, “and this is my bestest friend, Teddy. I’m almos’ four. Wha’s your name?”
“You’re four? You’re a big girl.” The figure bypassed her question smoothly.
“You wan’ know my birfday?” She didn’t give him a chance to answer. “It’s
Seppember 13, and it’s really close. Thas what my Sunday school teacher said. She’s
smart.”
“That must be exciting. Do you know what you have planned for your birthday
party?” The figure wanted to smile at her exuberance. The little girl’s eyes were bright as
she nodded enthusiastically. It had been a long time since she was able to talk to someone
besides her teddy bear.
“I goin’ to Chuck E. Cheese’s! Sara, Mary, and Joey is coming too. They my best
friends.” She stood up and hugged her teddy bear tight, “You have a best friend, Mr.
Sir?”
“No, I don’t.” he answered her.
Her eyes widened and she reached out a hand to his face and patted it, “Everyone
needs best friend. I be your best friend, ok?”
The figure took her hand from his face, cradled it in his own, and swung it back
and forth in the air between them. There was a small silence between them and then his
cell phone began to ring. The figure ignored it and said, “It’s my birthday today. How
would you like to get some chocolate cake and ice cream with me?”
“I really like chocolate. I can have sprinkles on da ice cream, Mr. Sir?”
“Oh, of course. Anything you want, Sweetie.” His eyes twinkled and he stood up,
not letting go of her hand. The cell phone started to ring once more and the figure sighed,
annoyed. He leaned his scythe against one of the pews, took out his cell phone, and
looked at the Caller ID. It took him a moment to speak, “Just give me a moment and we
can go get that ice cream.” He watched her nod, then flipped his phone open and put it to
his ear.
“What?” the figure asked angrily. There was silence from him as he looked down
at the curly-red-haired girl who smiled at him. “Yes. She’s still alive.” Pause. “I really
don’t like talking to you, but I guess you have a point.” Pause. Hope started to swing their
hands back and forth again, already getting tired of being quiet. “I would think that
someone of your reputation would stray from making such a statement of pride. For
instance, the miraculous cross still standing behind the pulpit!” He rolled his eyes at the
answer on the other line. “I didn’t sign up for the job, pal. Moreover, stop calling me that.
You know I do not like being called that. It is a degrading name.”
“Mr. Sir, I getting hungry.” Hope said, pulling on his arm with a small frown. The
figure looked down at her and heard a small sound that came from the girl’s stomach. It
was unmistakable.
“Don’t worry, I’ll get you something soon,” he said and went back to the
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conversation on the phone. “Well, when do you want her?” Pause. “I have one request.
Make sure Gabriel isn’t there waiting at the Gate. The angel gives me the creeps. You
should give him another job.”
“Angels are perty,” Hope pulled on his arm, frowning up at him at his description of an
angel.
The figure looked back down at her and raised his eyebrow, “Are they? That’s
interesting, I didn’t know they were.” There was a sound from his cell phone and he
rolled his eyes. “If Gabriel is not there, then yes I will come immediately.” He sighed.
“You know Lucifer is not going to like this. He called me before you, wanting to get here
first. He had first dibs.” Pause. “I don’t have a heart, pal, so I can be heartless. Oh! Don’t
start saying that mumbo jumbo. It doesn’t suit me.”
“Mr. Sir, my stomach growled again!”
The figure quirked his eyebrow, “Seriously?”
“Mmhmm,” she nodded.
“I’ll be there soon. If that angel is there, then I will not be doing you any more
favors for the next century. That’s a lot of dead guys.” The figure flipped his phone shut
and looked down at Hope with a strained smile. “Come, Hope, I’m going to take you
home.”
“Mommy and Daddy there?” she asked happily.
The figure looked around the church, nodding. “I have no doubt.” The figure
picked up Hope into his arms and exited the church. As they started walking down the
street, Hope got smaller and smaller … and then there was no sound of feet upon the
ground, nor the happy giggling of a little girl.
Death snatched Hope. For good.
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The Night Awaits
John Overby
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Roses
Christina O’Rourke
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Master of Evils
Elizabeth Comstock
I knew I shouldn’t have done it. No matter how bad someone is, you shouldn’t destroy
them. Be HE was no human. The deeds he did, no other human being could look into his
mind without wishing death upon themselves to end the torture. His mind is twisted; it
has a whole being of its own. Living off victims, parasitic, disgusting. Prying into their
feeble minds, putting thoughts in their minds, changing their morals, making them think
they have no self worth. Such manipulation causes the rest of the world to suffer.
Convincing his victims that they have no worth, ripping away their dignity, stripping
them of their well-being. A master of evils. His knotted soul gains pleasure from their
pain. Their tears and blood making him wet. He takes delight in their piercing screams,
agonizing torture. Gut wrenching pain, his arousal. Fantasies just like the nightmares of
others. His hopes, his dreams, his desires, to become notorious, yet never restricted by
rules of others. The destroyer, the giver, the master of evils.
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Only Fairy Tales
Brittany Rose Wesley
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Don’t Say I Didn’t Warn You
Meagan Ray
Jim Brown
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Untitled
Nicolas Schrager
Scattered across the passenger seat of his gold ’93 Ford Ranger was his supplies;
three bottles of water, two Cliff bars, an assisted opening pocket knife, a Ruger Single-
Six, a book of label-less matches and his last pack of cigarettes… Winston’s. Everything
but the pistol either slid rattles or rolled across the seat as he drove along the abandoned
dirt service road.
It’s a common misconception that the desert is always hot. The truth was, our
nameless character was cold. Very cold. The desert temperature can be unforgiving at
night, especially in the winter. The biggest desert in the world is Antarctica he thought to
himself as he exhaled with an open mouth so that he could see his own breath. It was six
antemeridian and the sun poked up from the horizon in front of him. No matter going to
or coming from, the sun was always in his face. He made a note not to walk towards the
sun today. No need to be miserable, today of all days.
After twenty more minutes of driving he turned off of the service road and began
driving into the desert, winding around the dead growth, rock and cactus. There was no
need to disturb them, no need to leave a trace of where he went or where he was going.
Three hours before this when he had awoke, he skipped his coffee and instead made a
cheese sandwich and washed it down with Maalox and Coke. That was an excellent
breakfast. It wasn’t filling but soothed his stomach which was rotten from the whiskey
and egg dinner from the night before. After breakfast he called in sick from work. No one
was in the shop but he left a message on the answering machine just the same. He wasn’t
sure why he hadn’t said that he quit.
The Native-Americans called these sorts of things “Spirit Quests” or “Spirit
Journeys.” He thought to himself that he guessed that that was what he was doing, except
that he had no intention of returning to civilization or his life with some kind of new-
found vision of what was, what is or what is to be. In fact, there was no plan to return at
all. There was no point to. It wasn’t exactly a plan to die either, but he knew that he
would. That- was inevitable. The thought of death did not haunt him, but he had
wondered then why he have even bothered with the gun, It wasn’t for self defense or for
hunting and he thought; Maybe I’ll just do myself in when I can’t walk any further.
After a while longer of zigzagging the rough desert terrain, our nameless
character slowed the aging pickup to a stop. He lit the first cigarette of his pack and
inhaled deeply. This is where my journey will begin he thought and from the floorboard
of the passenger seat he picked up his Jansport backpack that he had had since high
school (which seemed like a century ago) and put his food and water in. He put the
cigarettes and matches in the front pocket of his flannel jacket and once out of the truck,
he put the holstered pistol on his belt. This was it, the point of no return. Turning around
now was pointless, Even if he had, he wouldn’t remember how to get back to the service
road. He slung the bag over his shoulder and slammed the door shut. One last look
through the window revealed that he had left the keys in the ignition. He decided that he
would leave them there, it’s not like anyone was going to steal the truck. Conserve your
energy, conserve your water, conserve your food, there’s no need to rush to your death
he thought- and then; don’t walk towards the sun.
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And he was off.
No step in particular was difficult to take, but the first ones he took were in stride
with ease- and had he looked back he would have seen that there was a slight breeze that
erased the print from every step he took. Nature agreed with his plan and was helping
him disappear. That day- was meant to be.
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Under an Overpass and During a Rainstorm
Kendall Sewell
there is silence
and a hushed stillness.
Quiet reflection and
a two-second eternity
of utter other-worldliness.
Fleeting,
it’s the murmured breath before
the plunge;
an order to the bedlam
and a short interlude in life’s trivia.
(Cut to black)
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Those Need Us
Amy Martin
Those who cannot speak need a mouthpiece from those of us who cannot shut up.
Those who are in pain need those of us who have been in pain and have survived.
Those who are hurt, need those of us who are blessed enough to know how to heal.
Those who are not worth saving need those who must save them all.
Those who are on their last leg need two to carry them all the way.
Those who cannot sleep need those of us who are dreamers.
Those who are broken need those of us who have already been mended.
Those who have no one need those of us who have too many.
Those who cannot find hope need us to show them there is.
Those who are lonely need those of us who know what it is like to be alone.
Those who can only make it one step at a time need us who are willing to step a mile.
Those who are on their last breath need us to give them ours.
Those who are without, need those of us who have too much.
Those who don’t know where to turn need those of us who wrote the map.
Those who are hungry need those of us who can feed them.
Those who need need those of us who can give to those in need
Those Need Us.
Megan Humphress
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Notes on Contributors
James Brown is who he is, and is thankful for his many teachers, who are no fewer in
number than each individual whom he has ever come to know.
Maria Cooper is a senior English and Secondary Education major. She is a free spirit and
a romantic who likes to take the time to stop and enjoy all the precious things in life. She
loves to listen to music and dance, to cook amazing food, and to spoil her two darling
furry babies, Lilly and Jazzmin.
Brandi Crowe is a freshman from Mount Hermon, Kentucky. She’s a Bonner Student
Leader and in ACES. She loves incorporating art into the everyday.
Kacie Goode is a sophomore from Bardstown, Ky. As a Journalism major she finds this
collection to be a refreshing break into creativity and individual expression.
Ashley Graves graduated with a degree in Communications from LWC and is currently
working on her Masters in Human Services and Counseling. She serves as graduate
assistant for the Women’s Studies program and directs the Catherine Wilson Center. She
is also planning for her September wedding while taking care of her four precious dogs.
Stephen Alexander Allen Graves from Milltown, Ky is currently a 3rd semester senior
who participates in Band and Wrestling. Je parle francais beaucoup, l'espanol un peut, y
nihongo sukoshi demo musique es ma vie, y mi vida es musica.
Megan Hadley has become a lot of things but was born a poet.
Kathryn -aka- Katie Hammond a senior double major in Human Services and Counseling
and Christian Ministries from Russell Springs, KY.
Sam Johnson lives in Columbia. Majors in English. Would be the hardest endboss ever if
you faced him in a video game.
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Victoria Joseph, from Essie, KY, graduated 2010 with a Master's of Education in
Counseling & Human Development and appreciates the beauty that is found in every day
life.
Phyllis Lewis is a non-traditional student from Greensburg, KY. She returned to finish
her degree after a 15 year break in her education, taking care of her family. She is mother
of 5 and grandmother to 15. Her goal is to teach Secondary English Education. She says
the support of her husband helps keep her going.
Amy Lea Martin of Corbin Ky is a non- traditional student majoring in Human Services
and Counseling at the London campus. At 34 she works an EMT and is a Graduate
Assistant at London. She is pursuing her degree so that she can provide a better life for
her daughter Jenna.
Christina O'Rourke is a second year student double majoring in English and Elementary
education. While long walks on the beach are great, she really enjoys creating alternate
realities and multitasking way too many things at once.
Luis Parra is a senior Communications major from Venezuela. He plays varsity baseball
at Lindsey Wilson College.
Brittany Pike is a senior Psychology major from Taylor County, KY. She says it’s not
always easy transforming feelings into words, but once you do there is no greater
freedom.
Nick Schrager believed that paper never judges you, but learned that readers do; thank
you reader.
Kendall Sewell is still scrawling in the details with a wastebasket by his side.
Brittany Rose Wesley is a junior from Bowling Green, Kentucky. She is majoring in
English Literature, and hopes to become a writer.
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The Legend of Orpheus
The ancient Greek mind was both subtle and skillful and the legend of Orpheus
(pronounced or΄-- fee – us) amply epitomizes this. Orpheus (‘he of the river bank’) was
the son of Apollo, god of poetry, and the Muse Calliopé (‘she of the fair voice’), who
gave birth to him on the banks of the Hebrus River in Thrace. Such was his power of
verse and song, he could move the trees and rocks and tame wild beasts. He was given
the gift of the lyre by Apollo. When his wife Eurydice died from a serpent’s bite during
their wedding celebration, Orpheus, in his grief, descended to the underworld – no easy
task for a mortal – to attempt to win her back from the land of the dead.
Arriving at the judgment seat of Persephone and Hades, rulers of the underworld,
Orpheus began to sing his lament for Eurydice. So sweet was his voice that the dead,
including Eurydice, flocked to hear him, weeping for the beauty of the upper world,
which was lost to them. Persephone and Hades were so moved, they chose to let Orpheus
take Eurydice back to the world of daylight, on condition that he not turn to look at her
until they had reached the upper world. Hermes, the guide of souls, led them on the
arduous journey back to the land of the living.
With his foot on the very threshold of the day-lit world, Orpheus, whether from
impatience or anxiety, turned around too soon – Eurydice was not yet out of the realm of
the dead. Because of the edict of Persephone and Hades was irrevocable, Hermes was
forced to lead Eurydice back to the eternal darkness. Though Orpheus wandered for days
through the dark caverns and tunnels of the netherworld, pitifully calling out his wife’s
name, he never found her again.