Nathan Lucas

April, 2011

Random Thoughts Triggered by my Education Thus Far.

How can there be balance when the essence of balance must say there might also not be balance.
We think of balance easily, cause and effect, because we have not witnessed any metaphysical
occurrences to lead us to believe otherwise. Wait what about the universe being created from nothing, no
substance? There it is, imbalance. The only true balance was the, everything and nothing that was before
the big bang. God imbalanced the balance by creating the one, and only creation of all time, the universe.
Balance, in the Taoist, sense should be found and sought after in the daily life on this planet. Also a
balanced person, morally just, certainly should be sought after as well to ensure our survival on this planet
for as long as possible. Another words we, as in the whole organism called Earth, should find our balance.

How can a being without substance create an imbalance in the nothingness that was everything?
God is an intelligent conscienceness that his physical self by creating destruction. The entire universe is
the living being of the being known as god. God at the beginning was nothing but the will to be, and still
is nothing but the will to be (which denotes intelligence). A common charecteristic of consciousness and
intelligence is the will to be, to exist. God existed, but did not exist physically. The part of god that
existed before all else was his consciousness, the will to be. The only outcome of this imbalance of
substanceless consciousness would be to become physical. A consciousness that exists but does not have
substance, in this universe of physical laws, is impoosible. Therefore an intelligent consciousness which
contains the total consciousness of the entire universe must manifest itself as the entire universe
physically, hence the big bang. This raises another question. How did the consciousness of god come to
exist? Before the universe there was only god, only possibility. God is possibility, and sense all things are
possible, god is everything and all knowing. Before the creation of the universe, there was only
possibility.

This leads me to the problem of the universe still spreading out to its ultimate death, without a
cyclical “rebirth” back into destruction again. To keep god’s consciousness going, i.e. the will to be and or
survive, the universe should collapse onto itself from gravity and start anew. But it’s expanding faster and
faster. Well expanding only means that the distance between things is getting larger. Sense the universe is
the manifestation of god’s consciousness; wouldn’t god’s intelligence expand just as ours does as human
beings? So perhaps god’s expanding mind, like our expanding minds, can be the reason for the enlarging
of space in the universe. Sure god is all and knows all, but when he thinks of new stuff the universe must
grow as well; become new stuff. The singularity is a single point that contains infinite amounts of mass.
They are caused by the chain reaction of too much gravity in one spot; a black hole causes this. Our entire
universe could be in a singularity right now. In fact it seems to me that is more than just a great
possibility. This takes away from the idea of god however. This means we are not the only universe, and I
am referring to “the universe” as everything, and also to god as everything. There for it must be that only
this part of the universe is heading from non-creation, back to balance. But wait, that can’t be. In this
universe, the only universe, energy cannot be created nor destroyed (except by god that one time, and
only because he knew therefore he was.) The universe is perhaps expanding faster and faster until it will
be so far apart that everything freezes. But that’s just this part of the universe. The will to be, that created
and has kept everything going so far, CANNOT just “not be”; that’s impossible.

We have mapped most of the “known universe.” I don’t see how though. We have mapped what
we can see and calculate to be there but nothing else. Far away, so far that its gravity was undetectable
was more of the universe, just now starting to pull us apart because we have gotten close enough to it. If
this is so how did it get there, so far away? I have theories, but none matter because the point here is that
it was always there. The expanding to death is actually just rushing off to another collision and explosion
to create more planets with more beings made of different stuff who think of new things.

Now, this all makes me wonder whether if our thoughts are actually from god or our own original
thoughts. God is all knowing; that must be true for god to be the ultimate everything. Does that mean he
knew everything before he created anything that knew anything? It occurs to me that he knows the
outcome of everything. He also knows that none of things would be possible without anything to do them.
All of our thoughts, if thought through to their ends, ultimately lead back to god, even if the person
doesn’t believe in god. Even if the person thinks the point of life is to die, rot and become nothing, the job
they have done on Earth kept the higher organism, god, going. God knows all, this true. He knows all that
has happened and all that will happen, knowing what has happened is easy of course. Knowing what will
happen is a different story. God also sees all. His gaze is endless therefore he can see the future and past.
We could as well if we had a powerful enough telescope. I think that god knows the ends of everything,
not the means. He knows the answers to all questions, but not how to reach the conclusions; he just
knows. He reaches all conclusions instantly; we as humans, and whatever other organisms are alive in the
universe, have to figure it out for ourselves. So then our thoughts are original, not the conclusions we
reach, but the combinations of others thoughts needed to reach these conclusion. We figure something
out, god sees how we figured it out instantly because we are part of god and thus god will always know
all.

This doesn’t say that god hasn’t learned all there is to learn with past universes or universes in
other dimensions, but perhaps we (living organisms) are also his memories. As a corrective, we learn and
experience most things possible. If we as Earth don’t experience or learn something I’m sure something
elsewhere in the universe does, and since god sees all, he knows all this as well. Does god remember it for
eternity or is it that every time the universe starts anew he learns it all over again? This comes back to
whether the universe is on a cycle or it’s just a onetime deal. If the later, he would learn all there is to
know and remember it forever, not needing a new universe. But, god will always be a consciousness
without a physical manifestation which cannot be; therefore we must also be his memory. He remembers
that there was a universe with living creatures on planets and moons, and knows that there will be more of
all this for eternity, but he may not remember human existence any more then we remember our last 4
billion breathes. We are but one of the functions and results of god’s consciousness manifested physically.

Metaphysics is the study of what isn’t; what is not physical. It is a fact, however, that there is far
more that we don’t know then that which we do. So shouldn’t metaphysics then be the study of what is
not physical YET? When we actually KNOW something, it is categorized and stripped down to its most
basic so that we may know as much about it as possible. The new knowledge then becomes part of
physics. Shouldn't we then not make finding out what is not yet physical just as important? Some
theoretic metaphysical principals may gain so much ground as to have physical evidence looked for to
support the metaphysical theories. These principles will have no way to be proven for a long, long time if
at all. But, there is no impossible. Theoretical metaphysics can be can be philosophy. I say it should be
taken as close to the reality as possible. Combine scientific fact with metaphysical ideas as closely as
possible. This is a donting task but with great potential reward.

My beliefs are frought with contridictions. I am a naturalist in the sense that I don't believe
anything can come from nothing, and I try to adhere my metaphysical ideas with easily possible reality
and physics. example, when there was nothing but vast empty space in the universe how was there a
consciousness of god? This idea goes against my naturalist idea that there cannot be a consciousness
without a physical vessel to contain it. I stated that god was the possibility of all things. Such a vast
amount of possibilities, including necessarily its self. Consciousness must have some kind of vibration.
Our thoughts rarely manifest themselves physically and when they do it is most likely coincidence. This
is possibly because of how small and weak our meager consciousnesses are. Like gravity, never truly
disipating to nothing, but being so faint that it cannot even be measured. God's massive consciousness
however is not only massive, it is all. It encompasses all and created all by sheer will. God's
consciousness must have such a massive vibration that it can easily effect matter. Thought waves are
created from a brain. God has no brain but only a consciousness

Imagine there was nothing, only the possiblity of everything. For when there is nothing,
everything is possible. For something to exist it must be something. The bare minimum for existance, as
Descarte proved, is consciousness/awareness. God is existence, and again existance at its bare minimum
is consciousness/awareness. Consciousness/awareness without substance is still the energy/vibration of
the consciuoness. Our meager conscioussness cannot create matter/energy, energy to create matter to
exist; it can only adhear itself to existing matter. God created the universe as a result of existing as the
ultimate consciousness/energy/vibration without having substance. Such a massive, infinate
consciousness must have emense vibrations of any and all wavelengths and frequencies. Vibrations of this
type and magnitude must have enough energy to create matter. Now we have given god's consciousness
substance. We can call this substance divine enegy, or possibly dark energy. This consciousness energy
clumped here and there, where ever simple conclusions by god were being reached. It finally reaching a
singular, ultimate conclusion where so much, possibly all, divine thought energy collected into one
infinitely small point in space. It reached a point in space where it focused and conpressed and created a
very very dense point of dark energy which created a single point of normal matter. This single point of
normal matter was so compressed it exploded into the big bang. God, knowing all possibilties, also
reached another conclusion, another point where the dark energy converged to a singularity. This next
natural conclusion was to know that this matter would not be enough to hold itself together in this new
realm.The natural gravity (and other atractive forces) that matter produced would not be enough to keep
things from spinning apart. This new focal, singularity created by god's consciousness, would create
another type of matter, and glue that helps hold things together, a dark matter. After creating these types
of matter, which began the universe chain reaction, dark energy (god's thought vibration) receded back
into even distribution everywhere. This all happened very very fast, hence the need for the Plank scale of
time to descibe the creation period of the universe.

I have descibed god's consciousness/self-awareness, his divine energy created by the

mathematical infinity of possibilities. The dark energy's divine, ultimate vibrations which resulted in the
creation of matter, is now tearing us apart. The universe is expanding and separating to nothingness. Dark
matter counters this, but it is believed that dark matter is losing the battle. The ultimate knowledge of god
must have known this: in fact god did know this. This is an easy conclusion to reach, likewise, so is the
conclusion of why. God's ultimate vibration/energy must, and will remain just that, ultimate. The ultimate
must always exist, and will always win the battle aqainst all lesser things. But, god will always remanifest
matter to begin the process all over again, possibly focusing his consciousness energy into a different
conclusion creating different forms of matter with a different result. Perhaps god has already done this
somewhere else so far away we will never know of its existance. The result will always end in god's
vibration over powering all, for if it didn't, god would not be the ultimate.
 These ideas encompass, and do not negate, any physical fact or theories to date. They do not rule
out alternate planes of existance or alternate universes. Two (or infinite) entities may grow a
consciousness, or take from the ultimate consciousness, the same conclusions at the same time, hence
parallel existances.