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How can I te you. How can I convnce you, brother, sster that
your fe s n danger: That everyday you wake up ave, reatvey
happy, and a functonng human beng, you are commttng a
rebeous act. You as an ave and functonng queer are a
revoutonary.
There s nothng on ths panet that vadates, protects or
encourages your exstence. It s a mrace you are standng here
readng these words. You shoud by a rghts be dead. Don't be
fooed, straght peope own the word and the ony reason you have
been spared s you're smart, ucky or a fghter.
Straght peope have a prvege that aows them to do whatever
they pease and fuck wthout fear. But not ony do they ve a fe
free of fear; they faunt ther freedom n my face. Ther mages are
on my TV, n the magazne I bought, n the restaurant I want to eat
n, and on the street where I ve. I want there to be a moratorum
on straght marrage, on babes, on pubc dspays of affecton
among the opposte sex and meda mages that promote
heterosexuaty. Unt I can en|oy the same freedom of movement
and sexuaty, as straghts, ther prvege must stop and t must be
gven over to me and my queer ssters and brothers.
Straght peope w not do ths vountary and so they must be
forced nto t. Straghts must be frghtened nto t. Terrorzed nto t.
Fear s the most powerfu motvaton. No one w gve us what we
deserve. Rghts are not gven they are taken, by force f necessary.
It s easer to fght when you know who your enemy s. Straght
peope are your enemy. They are your enemy when they don't
acknowedge your nvsbty and contnue to ve n and contrbute
to a cuture that ks you. Every day one of us s taken by the
enemy. Whether t's an AIDS death due to homophobc
government nacton or a esban bashng n an a-nght dner (n a
supposedy esban neghborhood).
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AN ARMY OF LOVERS CANNOT LOSE
Beng queer s not about a rght to prvacy; t s about the freedom
to be pubc, to |ust be who we are. It means everyday fghtng
oppresson; homophoba, racsm, msogyny, the bgotry of regous
hypocrtes and our own sef-hatred. (We have been carefuy taught
to hate ourseves.) And now of course t means fghtng a vrus as
we, and a those homo-haters who are usng AIDS to wpe us off
the face of the earth. Beng queer means eadng a dfferent sort of
fe. It's not about the manstream, proft-margns, patrotsm,
patrarchy or beng assmated. It's not about executve drectors,
prvege and etsm. It's about beng on the margns, defnng
ourseves; t's about gender-fuck and secrets, what's beneath the
bet and deep nsde the heart; t's about the nght.
Beng queer s "grass roots" because we know that everyone of us,
every body, every cunt, every heart and ass and dck s a word of
peasure watng to be expored. Everyone of us s a word of
nfnte possbty. We are an army because we have to be. We are
an army because we are so powerfu. (We have so much to fght
for; we are the most precous of endangered speces.) And we are
an army of overs because t s we who know what ove s. Desre
and ust, too. We nvented them.
We come out of the coset, face the re|ecton of socety, face frng
squads, |ust to ove each other! Every tme we fuck, we wn. We
must fght for ourseves (no one ese s gong to do t) and f n that
process we brng greater freedom to the word at arge then great.
(We've gven so much to that word: democracy, a the arts, the
concepts of ove, phosophy and the sou, to name |ust a few gfts
from our ancent Greek Dykes, Fags.)
Let's make every space a Lesban and Gay space. Every street a
part of our sexua geography. A cty of yearnng and then tota
satsfacton. A cty and a country where we can be safe and free
and more. We must ook at our ves and see what's best n them,
see what s queer and what s straght and et that straght chaff fa
away! Remember there s so, so tte tme. And I want to be a
over of each and every one of you.
Next year, we march naked.
2

ANGER
The strong sisters told the brothers that there were two
important things to remember about the coming
revolutions. The first is that we will get our asses kicked.
The second, is that we will win.
l'm angry. I'm angry for beng condemned to death by strangers
sayng, "You deserve to de" and "AIDS s the cure." Fury erupts
when a Repubcan woman wearng thousands of doars of
garments and |ewery mnces by the poce nes shakng her head,
chuckng and waggng her fnger at us ke we are recactrant
chdren makng absurd demands and throwng temper tantrum
when they aren't met. Angry whe |oseph agonzes over $8,000 a
over for AZT whch mght keep hm ave a tte onger and whch
makes hm scker than the dsease he s dagnosed wth. Angry as I
sten to a man te me that after changng hs w fve tmes he's
runnng out of peope to eave thngs to. A of hs best frends are
dead. Angry when stand n a sea of qut panes, or go to a
candeght march or attend yet another memora servce. I w
not march senty wth a fuckng cande and I want to take that
goddamned qut and wrap mysef n t and furousy rend t and my
har and curse every god regon ever created. I refuse to accept a
creaton that cuts peope down n the thrd decade of ther fe.
It s crue and ve and meanngess and everythng I have n me
ras aganst the absurdty and I rase my face to the couds and a
ragged augh that sounds more demonc than |oyous erupts from
my throat and tears stream down my face and f ths dsease
doesn't k me, I may |ust de of frustraton. My feet pound the
streets and Peter's hands are chaned to a pharmaceutca
company's recepton desk whe the receptonst ooks on n horror
and Erc's body es rottng n a Brookyn cemetery and I' never
hear hs fute resoundng off the was of the meetng house agan.
And I see the od peope n Tompkns Square Park hudded n ther
ong woo coats n |une to keep out the cod they perceve s there
and to cng to whatever tte fe has eft to offer them. I'm
remnded of the peope who strp and stand before a mrror each
nght before they go to bed and search ther bodes for any mark
that mght not have been there yesterday. A mark that ths
scourge has vsted them.
__________________________________________________
*AZT: azdothymdne s an ant-retrovra drug to suppress HIV.
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And I'm angry when the newspapers ca us "vctms" and sound
aarmed that "t" mght soon spread to the "genera popuaton."
And I want to scream "Who the fuck am I?" And I want to scream at
New York Hospta wth ts yeow pastc bags marked "soaton
nen / ropa nfeccosa" and ts orderes n atex goves and surgca
masks skrtng the bed as f ts occupant w suddeny eap out and
douse them wth bood and semen gvng them too the pague.
And I'm angry at straght peope who st smugy wrapped n ther
sef-protectve coat of monogamy and heterosexuaty, confdent
that ths dsease has nothng to do wth them because "t" ony
happens to "them." And the teenage boys who upon spottng my
5ilence=Death button begn chantng "Faggot's gonna de" and I
wonder, who taught them ths? Enveoped n fury and fear, I reman
sent whe my button mocks me every step of the way.
And the anger I fee when a teevson program on the qut gves
profes of the dead and the st begns wth a baby, a teenage gr
who got a bood transfuson, an edery baptst mnster and hs wfe
and when they fnay show a gay man, he's descrbed as someone
who knowngy nfected teenage mae prosttutes wth the vrus.
What ese can you expect from a faggot?
I'm angry.
OUEER ARTISTS
Snce tme began, the word has been nspred by the work of
queer artsts. In exchange, there has been sufferng, there has
been pan, there has been voence. Throughout hstory, socety
has struck a bargan wth ts queer ctzens: they may pursue
creatve careers, f they do t dscreety. Through the arts queers
are productve, ucratve, entertanng and even upftng. These
are the cear-cut and usefu by-products of what s otherwse
consdered antsoca behavor. In cutured crces, queers may
quety coexst wth an otherwse dsapprovng power ete.
At the forefront of the most recent campagn to bash queer artsts
s |esse Hems
1
, arbter of a that s decent, mora, Chrstan and
Amerkan. For Hems, queer art s qute smpy a threat to the
word. In hs magnngs, heterosexua cuture s too frage to bear
up to the admsson of human or sexua dversty. Oute smpy, the
structure of power n the |udeo-Chrstan word has made
procreaton ts cornerstone. Fames havng chdren assures
consumers for the naton's products and a work force to produce
them, as we as a but-n famy system to care for ts , reducng
the expense of pubc heathcare systems.
ALL NON-PROCREATIVE BEHAVIOR IS CONSIDERED A THREAT, from
homosexuaty to brth contro to aborton as an opton. It s not
enough, accordng to the regous rght, to consstenty advertse
procreaton and heterosexuaty... t s aso necessary to destroy any
aternatves. It s not art Hems s after... IT IS OUR LIVES! Art s
the ast safe pace for esbans and gay men to thrve. Hems knows
ths, and has deveoped a program to purge queers from the one
arena they have been permtted to contrbute to our shared cuture.
Hems s advocatng a word free from dversty or dssent. It s easy
to magne why that mght fee more comfortabe to those n charge
of such a word. It s aso easy to envson an Amerkan andscape
fattened by such power. Hems shoud |ust ask for what he s
hntng at: State sponsored art, art of totataransm, art that
speaks ony n Chrstan terms, art whch supports the goas of
those n power, art that matches the sofas n the Ova Offce. Ask
for what you want, |esse, so that men and women of conscence
can mobze aganst t, as we do aganst the human rghts
voatons of other countres, and fght to free our own country's
dssdents.
5

IF YOU'RE OUEER,
ueers are under sege.
Oueers are beng attacked on a fronts and I'm afrad t's ok wth
us.
In 1989, there were 50 "Oueer Bashngs" n the month of May aone
-voent attacks. 3,720 men, women and chdren ded of AIDS n
the same month, caused by a more voent attack-government
nacton, rooted n socety's growng homophoba. Ths s
nsttutonazed voence, perhaps more dangerous to the exstence
of queers because the attackers are faceess. We aow these
attacks by our own contnued ack of acton aganst them. AIDS
has affected the straght word and now they're bamng us for AIDS
and usng t as a way to |ustfy ther voence aganst us.
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They don't want us anymore. They w beat us, rape us and k us
before they w contnue to ve wth us. What w t take for ths
not to be ok? Fee some rage. If rage doesn't empower you, try
fear. If that doesn't work, try panc.
SHOUT IT!
Be proud. Do whatever you need to do to tear yoursef
away from your customary state of acceptance. Be
free. Shout.
In 1969, Oueers fought back. In 1990, Oueers say ok.
Next year, w we be here?
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I HATE ...
l hate |esse Hems. I hate |esse Hems so much I'd re|oce f he
dropped down dead. If someone ked hm I'd consder t hs own
faut.
I hate Ronad Reagan, too, because he mass-murdered my peope
for eght years. But to be honest, I hate hm even more for
euogzng Ryan Whte
3
wthout frst admttng hs gut, wthout
beggng forgveness for Ryan's death and for the deaths of tens of
thousands of other PWA's*-most of them queer. I hate hm for
makng a mockery of our gref.
I hate the fuckng Pope, and I hate |ohn fuckng Cardna fuckng
O'Connor, and I hate the whoe fuckng Cathoc Church.
The same goes for the Mtary, and especay for Amerka's Law
Enforcement Offcas-the cops-state-sanctoned sadsts who
brutaze street transvesttes, prosttutes and queer prsoners.
_____________________
*PWA's: Peope Wth AIDS
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I aso hate the medca and menta heath estabshments,
partcuary the psychatrst who convnced me not to have sex
wthmen for three years unt we (meanng he) coud make me
bsexua rather than queer.
I aso hate the educaton professon, for ts share n drvng
thousands of queer teens to sucde every year. I hate the
"respectabe" art word; and the entertanment ndustry, and the
manstream meda, especay The New York Tmes. In fact, I hate
every sector of the straght estabshment n ths country-the
worst of whom actvey want a queers dead, the best of whom
never stck ther necks out to keep us ave.
I hate straght peope who thnk they have anythng ntegent to
say about "outng." I hate straght peope who thnk stores about
themseves are "unversa" but stores about us are ony about
homosexuaty. I hate straght recordng artsts who make ther
careers off of queer peope, then attack us, then act hurt when we
get angry and then deny havng wronged us rather than apoogze
for t. I hate straght peope who say, "I don't see why you fee the
need to wear those buttons and t-shrts. I don't go around teng
the whoe word I'm straght."
I hate that n tweve years of pubc educaton I was never taught
about queer peope. I hate that I grew up thnkng I was the ony
queer n the word, and I hate even more that most queer kds st
grow up the same way. I hate that I was tormented by other kds
for beng a faggot, but more that I was taught to fee ashamed for
beng the ob|ect of ther cruety, taught to fee t was my faut.
I hate that the Supreme Court of ths country says t's okay to
crmnaze me because of how I make ove.
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I hate that so many
straght peope are so concerned about my goddamned sex fe.
I hate that so many twsted straght peope become parents, whe I
have to fght ke he to be aowed to be a father.
I hate straghts.
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WHERE ARE YOU SISTERS?
l wear my pnk trange everywhere. I do not ower my
voce n pubc when takng about esban ove or sex. I aways te
peope I'm a esban. I don't wat to be asked about my
"boyfrend." I don't say t's "no one's busness."
I don't do ths for straght peope. Most of them don't know what
the pnk trange even means. Most of them coudn't care ess that
my grfrend and I are totay n ove or havng a fght on the
street. Most of them don't notce us no matter what we do. I do
what I do to reach other esbans. I do what I do because I don't
want esbans to assume I'm a straght gr. I am out a the tme,
everywhere, because I WANT TO REACH YOU. Maybe you' notce
me, maybe we' start takng, maybe we' exchange numbers,
maybe we' become frends. Maybe we won't say a word but our
eyes w meet and I w magne you naked, sweatng,
openmouthed, your back arched as I am fuckng you. And we' be
happy to know we aren't the ony ones n the word. We' be
happy because we found each other, wthout sayng a word,
maybe |ust for a moment. But no.
You won't wear a pnk trange on that nen ape. You won't meet
my eyes f I frt wth you on the street. You avod me on the |ob
because I'm "too" out. You chastse me n bars because I'm "too
potca." You gnore me n pubc because I brng "too much"
attenton to "my" esbansm. But then you want me to be your
over, you want me to be your frend, you want me to ove you,
support, you, fght for "OUR" rght to exst.
WHERE ARE YOU?
You tak, tak, tak about nvsbty and then retreat to your
homes to nest wth your overs or carouse n a bar wth pas and
stumbe home n a cab or st senty and potey by whe your
famy, your boss, your neghbors, your pubc servants dstort and
dsfgure us, derde us and punsh us. Then home agan and you
fee ke screamng. Then you pad your anger wth a reatonshp
or a career or a party wth other dykes ke you and st you
wonder why we can't fnd each other, why you fee oney, angry,
aenated.
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GET UP, WAKE UP SISTERS!!
Your fe s n your hands.
When I rsk t a to be out, I rsk t for both of us. When I rsk t a
and t works (whch t often does f you woud try t), I beneft and
so do you. When t doesn't work, I suffer and you do not.
But gr you can't wat for other dykes to make the word safe for
you. STOP watng for a better more esban future! The revouton
coud be here f we started t.
Where are you ssters? I'm tryng to fnd you, I'm tryng to fnd you.
How come I ony see you on Gay Prde Day?
We're OUT, Where the fuck are YOU?
WHEN ANYONE ASSAULTS YOU FOR BEING
OUEER, IT IS OUEER BASHING. RIGHT?
A crowd of 50 peope ext a gay bar as t coses. Across
the street, some straght boys are shoutng "Faggots" and throwng
beer bottes at the gatherng, whch outnumbers them by 10 to 1.
Three queers make a move to respond, gettng no support from the
group. Why dd a group ths sze aow themseves to be sttng
ducks?
Tompkns Square Park, Labor Day. At an annua outdoor
concert/drag show, a group of gay men were harassed by teens
carryng stcks. In the mdst of thousands of gay men and esbans,
these straght boys beat two gay men to the ground, then stood
around trumphanty aughng amongst themseves. The emcee
was aerted and warned the crowd from the stage, "You grs be
carefu. When you dress up t drves the boys crazy," as f t were a
practca |oke nspred by what the vctms were wearng rather
than a ponted attack on anyone and everyone at that event.
What woud t have taken for that crowd to stand up to ts
attackers?
5
10
After |ames Zappaort, an openy gay man, was murdered n cod
bood on Staten Isand ths wnter, a snge demonstraton was hed
n protest. Ony one hundred peope came. When Yuseuf Hawkns,
a back youth, was shot to death for beng on "whte turf" n
Bensonhurst, Afrcan Amercans marched through that
neghborhood n arge numbers agan and agan.
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A back person
was ked BECAUSE HE WAS BLACK, and peope of coor throughout
the cty recognzed t and acted on t. The buet that ht Hawkns
was meant for a back man, ANY back man. Do most gays and
esbans thnk that the knfe that punctured Zappaort's heart was
meant ony for hm?
The straght word has us so convnced that we are hepess and
deservng vctms of the voence aganst us, that queers are
mmobzed when faced wth a threat. BE OUTRAGED! These
attacks must not be toerated. DO SOMETHING. Recognze that
any act of aggresson aganst any member of our communty s an
attack on every member of the communty. The more we aow
homophobes to nfct voence, terror and fear on our ves, the
more frequenty and ferocousy we w be the ob|ect of ther
hatred. You're mmeasuraby vauabe, because uness you start
beevng that, t can easy be taken from you. If you know how to
genty and effcenty mmobze your attacker, then by a means,
do t. If you ack those sks, then thnk about gougng out hs
fuckng eyes, sammng hs nose back nto hs bran, sashng hs
throat wth a broken botte-do whatever you can, whatever you
have to, to save your fe!
reeuO yhW
ueer!
Ah, do we reay have to use that word? It's troube. Every gay
person has hs or her own take on t. For some t means strange
and eccentrc and knd of mysterous. That's okay, we ke that. But
some gay grs and boys don't. They thnk they're more norma than
strange. And for others "queer" con|ures up those awfu memores
of adoescent sufferng. Oueer. It's forcby bttersweet and quant
at best-weakenng and panfu at worst. Coudn't we |ust use
"gay" nstead? It's a much brghter word and sn't t synonymous
wth "happy"? When w you mtants grow up and get over the
novety of beng dfferent?
11

WHY OUEER
We, yes, "gay " s great. It has ts pace. But when a ot of
esbans and gay men wake up n the mornng we fee angry and
dsgusted, not gay. So we've chosen to ca ourseves queer. Usng
"queer" s a way of remndng us how we are perceved by the rest
of the word. It's a way of teng ourseves we don't have to be
wtty and charmng peope who keep our ves dscreet and
margnazed n the straght word. We use queer as gay men
ovng esbans and esbans ovng beng queer.
Oueer, unke GAY, doesn't mean MALE.
And when spoken to other gays and esbans t's a way of
suggestng we cose ranks, and forget (temporary) our ndvdua
dfferences because we face a more nsdous common enemy.
Yeah, OUEER can be a rough word but t s aso a sy and ronc
weapon we can stea from the homophobe's hands and use aganst
hm.
NO SEX POLICE
For anyone to say that comng out s not part of the revouton
s mssng the pont. Postve sexua mages and what they
manfest saves ves because they affrm those ves and make t
possbe for peope to attempt to ve as sef-ovng nstead of sef-
oathng. As the famous "Back s beautfu" sogan changed many
ves, so does "Read my ps" affrm queerness n the face of hatred
and nvsbty as dspayed n a recent governmenta study of
sucdes that states at east one thrd of a teen sucdes are Oueer
kds. Ths s further exempfed by the rse n HIV transmsson
among those under 21.
We are most hated as queers for our sexuaness, that s, our
physca contact wth the same sex. Our sexuaty and sexua
expresson are what makes us most susceptbe to physca
voence. Our dfference, our otherness, our unqueness can ether
parayze us or potcze us. Hopefuy, the ma|orty of us w not et
t k us.
12

OUEER SPACE
Why n the word do we et heteros nto queer cubs?
Who gves a fuck f they ke us because we "reay know how to
party?" WE HAVE TO IN ORDER TO BLOW OFF THE STEAM THEY
MAKE US FEEL ALL THE TIME! They make out wherever they
pease, and take up too much room on the dance foor dong
ostentatous coupes dances. They wear ther heterosexuaty ke a
"Keep Out" sgn, or ke a deed of ownershp.
Why the fuck do we toerate them when they nvade our space ke
t's ther rght? Why do we et them shove heterosexuaty-a
weapon ther word weds aganst us-rght n our faces n the few
pubc spots where we can be sexy wth each other and not fear
attack?
It's tme to stop ettng the straght peope make a the rues. Let's
start by postng ths sgn outsde every queer cub and bar:
RULES OF CONDUCT FOR STRAlGHT PEOPLE
1. Keep your dspay of affecton (kssng, handhodng,
embracng) to a mnmum. Your sexuaty s unwanted and
offensive to many here.
2. If you must sow dance, be as nconspcuous as possbe.
3. Do not gawk or stare at esbans or gay men, especay
bu dykes or drag queens. We are not your entertanment.
4. If you cannot comfortaby dea wth someone of the same
sex makng a pass at you, get out.
5. Do not faunt your heterosexuaty. Be Discreet. Rsk
beng mstaken for a ezze or a homo.
6. If you fee these rues are unfar, go fght homophoba n
straght cubs, or:
7. Go Fuck Yourself.
13

I HATE STRAIGHTS
l have frends. Some of them are straght.
Year after year, I see my straght frends. I want to see them, to
see how they are dong, to add newness to our ong and
compcated hstores, to experence some contnuty. Year after
year I contnue to reaze that the facts of my fe are rreevant to
them and that I am ony haf stened to, that I am an appendage to
the dongs of a greater word, a word of power and prvege, of the
aws of nstaaton, a word of excuson. "That's not true," argue
my straght frends. There s the one certanty n the potcs of
power: those eft out of t beg for ncuson, whe the nsders cam
that they aready are. Men do t to women, whtes do t to backs,
and everyone does t to queers. The man dvdng ne, both
conscous and unconscous, s procreaton ... and that magc word
--- Famy. Frequenty, the ones we are born nto dsown us when
they fnd out who we reay are, and to make matters worse, we are
prevented from havng our own. We are punshed, nsuted, cut off,
and treated ke sedtonares n terms of chd rearng, both
damned f we try and damned f we abstan. It's as f the
propagaton of the speces s such a frage drectve that wthout
enforcng t as f t were an agenda, humanknd woud met back
nto the prmeva ooze.
I hate havng to convnce straght peope that esbans and gays
ve n a war zone, that we're surrounded by bomb basts ony we
seem to hear, that our bodes and sous are heaped hgh, dead
from frght or bashed or raped, dyng of gref or dsease, strpped of
our personhood.
I hate straght peope who can't sten to queer anger wthout
sayng "hey, a straght peope aren't ke that. I'm straght too, you
know," as f ther egos don't get enough strokng or protecton n
ths arrogant, heterosexst word. Why must we take care of them,
n the mdst of our |ust anger brought on by ther fucked up
socety?! Why add the reassurance of "Of course, I don't mean
you. You don't act that way." Let them fgure out for themseves
whether they deserve to be ncuded n our anger.
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But of course that woud mean stenng to our anger, whch they
amost never do. They defect t, by sayng "I'm not ke that" or
"Now ook who's generazng" or "You' catch more fes wth
honey... " or "If you focus on the negatve you |ust gve out more
power" or "you're not the ony one n the word who's sufferng."
They say "Don't ye at me, I'm on your sde" or "I thnk you're
overreactng" or "BOY, YOU'RE BITTER."
They've taught us that good queers don't get mad. They've taught
us so we that we not ony hde our anger from them, we hde t
from each other. WE EVEN HIDE IT FROM OURSELVES. We hde t
wth substance abuse and sucde and overachevng n the hope of
provng our worth. They bash us and stab us and shoot us and
bomb us n ever ncreasng numbers and st we freak out when
angry queers carry banners or sgns that say BASH BACK. For the
ast decade they et us de n droves and st we thank Presdent
Bush for pantng a fuckng tree, appaud hm for kenng PWAs to
car accdent vctms who refuse to wear seatbets. LET YOURSELF
BE ANGRY. Let yoursef be angry that the prce of our vsbty s
the constant threat of voence, ant- queer voence to whch
practcay every segment of ths socety contrbutes. Let yoursef
fee angry that THERE IS NO PLACE IN THIS COUNTRY WHERE WE
ARE SAFE, no pace where we are not targeted for hatred and
attack, the sef-hatred, the sucde --- of the coset.
The next tme some straght person comes down on you for beng
angry, te them that unt thngs change, you don't need any more
evdence that the word turns at your expense. You don't need to
see ony hetero coupe grocery shoppng on your TV... You don't
want any more baby pctures shoved n your face unt you can
have or keep your own. No more weddngs, showers,
annversares, pease, uness they are our own brothers and ssters
ceebratng. And te them not to dsmss you by sayng "You have
rghts," "You have prveges," "You're overreactng," or "You have a
vctm's mentaty." Te them "GO AWAY FROM ME, unt YOU can
change." Go away and try on a word wthout the brave, strong
queers that are ts backbone, that are ts guts and brans and sous.
Go te them go away unt they have spent a month wakng hand
n hand n pubc wth someone of the same sex. After they survve
that, then you' hear what they have to say about queer anger.
Otherwse, te them to shut up and sten.
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