By Sander Buruma in Groningen city in Nederland

Typed from July 31 to August 8 2006

Compiled on Augustus 9 to 10
Translated on August 10 to August 31 (with a 14 day break)

The life, thoughts and worry’s of spiceant,

better known as “Sander Buruma”
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1. The Writer - - - - - - - - - - 4
1.1 Reasons? .
1.2 Details .
1.3 “And there was light!” .
1.4 To Eat .
1.5 Conquered by Computer Games .
1.6 Elementary school memories 5
1.7 going to the boat 6
1.8 School Projects .
1.9 The Empty Depth 7
1.10 Less Empty Depth .
1.11 Sunrise 8
1.12 Eye on the world .
1.13 The first verse 9
1.14 search and thy willeth find, .
2. Born Again? - - - - - - - - - - 10
2.1 Details .
2.2 Lost Heart .
2.3 Courage (or the lack of it) .
2.4 First Contact .
2.5 Poem 11
2.6 Not red to .
2.7 End Contact .
2.8 A(nother) goal in life 12
2.9 Jehovah, Jezus en Satan .
2.10 Remarkable Verses 13
3. Worldy Problems - - - - - - - - 15
3.1 Introduction .
3.2 World War 16
3.3 Famine .
3.4 Disease, Plagues, Famine 17
3.5 Hate against witnesses .
4. Other Thoughts - - - - - - - - - 18
4.1 The Creation and Destruction .
4.2 Affection 19
4.3 Worldeconomy .
4.4 Quality Versus Quantity .
4.5 1 Act of Worship 20
5. The Writers Questions - - - - - - - .
5.1 Unique? .
5.2 Near Feature .
6. The End - - - - - - - - - - - 21
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7. the petrodollar (and WW3?) - - - - - - - 22
7.1 Introduction .
7.2 Petrodollar War .
7.3 National Debt USA .
7.4 The second 9/11? 23
7.5 De euro and the dollar 24
7.6 Conclusion .
8. Climage Change - - - - - - - - .
8.1 Introduction .
8.2 The Greenhouse effect .
8.3 The sun and warmth radiation .
8.4 Carbon Cycle .
8.5 Water Cycle 25
8.6 Air pollution and the Sun .
8.7 Conclusion .
9. The Modern Life! - - - - - - - - 26
9.1 Introduction .
9.2 Apathy .
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9.3 work, brrr .
9.4 Medicine 9.4
9.5 rich/poor .
9.6 Multinational Corporations .
9.7 Conclusion .
10. Mainstream Media - - - - - - - - - 28
10.1 Introduction .
10.2 Motivation .
10.3 The Information .
10.4 Conclusion .
11. Quotes - - - - - - - - - - - 29
11.1 Introduction .
11.2 The Quotes .
11.3 Bible verses .
12. The End - - - - - - - - - - - 30
12.1 America .
12.2 And now? .
12.3 Relativity .
12.4 Conclusion .

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 1. The writer
1.1 Reasons?
What i wrote down here is a lot, i wrote down such a lot to give an impression
who i am, why and how i wrote this text. “What is that little boy thinking?”
The bible is also written and full of what (Jehovah) God has done and we can
learn about him (the writer) because of this.

1.2 Details
A long long time ago, before Sander Buruma was born, there were 4 people,
grandmom and grandfather from dad and mom’s side. Then there were 2 people and
they put me (1987) and my sister (1989) into existance, we were both born on the
summer in Stadskanaal, we moved elsewhere on 2002 (I think). From fathers side i
have 3 aunts and uncles and 3 aunts and uncles that happen to be married to
them. I have 2 uncles and aunts from mothers side and the people they married,
to. I dont know exactly how many neeces and nephews i have, but i think it is
about 12. Grandfather of fathers unfortunatly died while i was young. The other
3 are alive to this moment.
Disclaimer: some names might have been changed.
1.3 “En er was licht!”
My first conscious memory probably was when my father was playing with me in a
kindergarten somewhere in the open air. Father looked at me with such a crazy
happy look on his face, probably delighted over my existance. The next memory i
have was when i was a toddler (or old enough for school), I was standing
somewhere in school playing with Lego and sticking it to a wall. I dont remember
a lot of this. The next memory was of child care, someone had made a lot of
knots in a rope and claimed he could untie them all at once, i didnt know you
could untie these with a simple pull at the time. I remember having great
difficulty eating my daily kiwi, my parents still remember that it took me a
while to eat, childcare discarded the rule that everyone should wait untill
everyone’s finished eating, for me.
1.4 To Eat
I remember each meal i really did not want to eat, the Dutch saying of “met
gebakken peren zitten” (stuck with bad food) exists for a reason, I had eat to
one. I have never been capable of accepting strong tastes and spices, I will
probably never accept many foods that have spices or sauces on them. I have
always rejected many spiced and sauced foods, are they not much more then taste
amplifiers? The meals content does not change a lot. I have the impression
people first burn their tongues and then let themselves taste again with spices
and sauces (and burning their tongues again). This illustration might be
apliccable on multiple dimensions.
I am particularily tall and thin for my age, believe this is a witness of my
(good) appetite.

1.5 Veroverd door computerspellen

Some time after kindergarten i came into contact with a computer and a game, a
game they call Rayman, I don’t know the meaning of the game. In this game you
are a character that goes through a lot of virtual jungles and work, crawl,
puzzle and fight your way through and meet a boss scenario at the end of each
“world”. Although i didn’t get through each jungle so fast, I did enjoy it a
lot. I looked forward to every next world because the graphics and levels
changed and were quite challenging, there were worlds like ordinary jungles,
library’s and music worlds. There are more games like this one, i wont explain
them all. Their all different. I entertained myself with a lot of strategy games
that have open endings, where you could decide what happened. Simulation games
that simulated farms, citys, the evolution theory and many more things were all
marvelous to me.
Computergames were what i loved for and would do a lot of things for, I could
work out my fantasy in them.

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Working out my fantasy in these games was important to me, (namely untill 11
months ago). My sleeping patern varried (because I could often not stop thinking
about these games).

1.6 Elementary school memorys

Because i spent “to much” time playing computergames my parents decided to set
up rules so that i couldnt play them a lot, i ofcourse tried to avoid this rule,
when my parents were away i could sometimes “ask” my sitter.

Once, probably in the 5th class of elementary school my class was devided in
groups of 4 and 5, with girls and boys apart. I had a problem because the pencil
i used had become stamp. I asked a classmate wether i could use his Point Setter
but he refused and said that I should ask the nearby group, a girls group. The
image and embarrasment that entered my mind was probably the cruelist thing that
had yet crossed my mind, when I asked the girls group my own group promptly
started laughing. The teacher came and asked what was happening and if i had any
clue what just happened, i lied so hard (and looked so innocent) I got a little
upset and barely didn’t cry.

During a geography class one of my group mates started nagging me while we were
supposed to be quiet, when i turned around my head my teacher noticed that i did
that and send me out of class for a few minutes. I got totally upset and cried
there and I couldn’t speak, I (thought I) hadn’t done anything wrong.

Meanwhile my mom had arranged for me to go to a gym group (for gymnastics), but
the group I was in was full of girls (excluding me) and ofcourse a trainer. We
did all kinds of things like jumping on trampolines and over obstacles and
whatnot.
Once we were going to do a play in a theatar and the devil (probably) set up for
me to play Elvis in one of his songs, i felt very embarrassed each time i was
standing upon the representation of a car and pointing into the crowd. During
the play in the Geert Theis theatre (with 400-700 people) I felt bloody nervous.
I quit this gymnastics group in the first or second class klas of school (i
believe thats the school beyond elementary), because “it became to much with
school”. Really, i liked being there and i regret leaving, the group and trainer
was really nice.

Once my elemntary school group went out into the nature (whats left of it) of
Stadskanaal, we (my 4 man group) followed a pre-set trail (while turning around
signs) and we met something used to gauge the rainfall and my group (excluding
me) let nature take it course and we returned. The teacher came to me and asked:
“Who peed In this??” and I became upset because I was gonna betray my group.

The kids had come up with a game, running from one side of the field to the
other. You begin with everyone on one side and someone in the middle and the
middle guy tries to kick everyone to the ground. The last to fall wins. Let it
be clear that I was bored to death so i played along (but not kicking too hard).
The teachers actually banned this game and (Because of my character) said that
they were delighted that I didnt play it, my class laughed because they knew i
played along.

We also used to play hide and seek and we had great fun but then <one day> there
was a rich spoiled child with no brothers or sisters and i despised him. I asked
him if I could play hide and seek along with them but he refused, I was 1 group
higher!

Once there was a special event of my gym club with several other groups (that
actually had other boys) and because parents were present and space tight the
girls and boys changed clothes in the same room. There was a toilet (or
bathroom) at the middle of the side of the room, one girl went to use it and
didn’t lock the door. Then one boy opened the door and behold it didn’t take a
long time for 5 more boys to come out of nowhere and watch. I watched the
phenomena in amazement because you could easily see the little girls face and

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conclude that her feelings were really being hurt. The parents quickly broke up
the phenomena, but the memory remains.

From what I remember I didn’t make a lot of contact with other kids, my father
usually worked from 9 to 17, my mom a little shorter.

1.7 Going to the boat

I will enlighten you now and inform you of the fact that I absolutely hate the
phenomena of, Going to the boat. I really really hated going there.
Somewhere in the third of fourth group of elementary school my parents bought a
boat and were delighted, we often went there on weekends and vacations. I on the
the other side absolutely hated the boat, we were often ferrying around the
waters of Holland or lying down somewhere, I was bored to no end. I quickly lost
all friends that I did make and I couldnt keep contact because they never lived
anywhere nearby. As time passed I got or bought a gameboy with some games, but
the batterys werent always full and the games became dull.
Do you know the “spice girls”?? My sister does! They frustrated me to no end
each and every morning and although I requested she didn’t play it a loud and in
the morning she would rarely listen, my parents didn’t help a lot either.

On the way back and forth by car I usually became ill and tired. Traveling back
and forth took 1 hour and it was a great relief to be released from it. I really
appreciated the red winegummys that I could get at the gas stations, they helped
my upset stomach a bit. My stomach successfully made its case against my control
twice.
A weekend of going to the boat was like one tiring week of school passing on to
the next as if the weekend didn’t happen.

“Going to the boat” ended permanently (for me) about the time (2002) that we
moved from Stadskanaal to Groningen city.

I wrote these texts to make things clear to myself and to share them with other
people I trust enough.

1.8 School Projects

Now it had become so that i did schoolstuffs at school and things i wanted to do
at home (computergaming, climbing trees, burning dry plants or ants).
Schoolstuffs happened as usual, but now: we got homework! Homework was
absolutely something that I <did not> want to do. And i didnt tell my parents
about it because I didn’t want to do homework. I had a hard time doing homework
and with me being tired, homework made me depressed. I already didn’t sleep so
very well because of the sun coming up into my window, motor vehicles passing by
over the streets and the Sunday church ringing its bell each morning. Computer
games and television were pretty much the only thing that got me moving. I
followed some kinds of science fiction series but also some programs on
discovery channel.
But now, we had to do a project for school and for what I remember it happened
that I did it about a scorpion (they live in deserts!). But I really didnt know
how to do this project, i thought you were supposed to do it on your own and
nobody told me to ask anyone. And with my character, I dont ask for help so
fast. When I didnt finish my project my teacher phoned my parents and that
evening my father became very angry with me because I couldn’t manage to tell
why I didn’t finish my project. He yelled at me with such a high and loud noise
that i became very upset, started sweating, got a headache and heard a loud
(literally) beeping sound for 30 minutes. The following period is marked by an
even worse sleep because i could hear my angry father discuss things with my mom
while i tried to sleep (i heard them). My father had also made some closets in
my room and they often made a lot of noise at night, they cracked very often.
This period (not doing projects, father angry) only stopped at about the second
class of school. My father became angry (like that) a couple more times.
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projects, I felt desolated. I almost always tried to avoid my fathers anger with
lies and deception. I can tell you that lies aren’t always discovered.
Sometimes I had slept so litle I couldn’t play with the friends I had or attend
some classes of school.
I tried very hard not to show my emotions to my parents, because I didn’t feel
any love from my mom (and because I am afraid of my father) but also because I
thought I’d only sleep worse if I told them (and I still believe this).

1.9 The Empty Depth

The worse of this period was in the first class of school, a kind of IQ-test had
put me in the highest level of education the common people go to and I was in a
class with 25 classmates. There was a group of classmates that sat nearby me and
they bothered me a lot, sometimes make rude remarks or mean suggestions.
I didn’t do my homework a lot, I didn’t do any homework at home, at home I
rested (playing computer games) and put myself together again. It didn’t take my
parents such a long time to find out I didn’t do my homework and i was often
practically shut in my room until I came out and managed to convince them that I
had done my homework. I absolutely hated homework, it really didn’t have my
interest, I was tired; I didn’t want to do homework. Not forgetting that we
often went to the boat. I wanted peace and the only way I saw I could get that
was by only noting the homework that I had already done (not at home…) to
deceive my parents.
I believe there are many cruel regulations at school, if you cant get into class
because you didn’t do your homework you’ll only learn less and sensitive kids
like myself (at the time) get upset because of it. (note that I often also tried
to make it look like I did my homework.)
The good things I learned at school, I learned AT school and not at home. I
managed to pass tests well enough to not re-do any year of school. By the third
class of school I had went down to the second lowest level of education (there
are 4 levels). By that time I was also diagnosed with PDD-nos (persuasive
development disorder, not otherwise specified).

1.10 Less empty depth

In comparison the last years of school (Including when we moved over to
Groningen) prosperous and i managed not to read to many books for book reports
but rather to base my reports off other peoples work on the internet. The couple
of times we went to verbally discuss books and book reports I took some time to
read the summarys and big events of those books, the teacher probably knew I
didn’t read it but he couldn’t nail me either (he probably only read the
summarys to). If I remember correctly the grades I had when I finished school
were barely enough to finish (this was a surprise to me). The grades for biology
and chemistry were much higher though, these had my interests. The biology and
chemistry teachers were very stimulating and nice people, a contrast compared to
the teachers of economy class.

1.11 Sunrise
Now prior to the first year of profession school (whatever the translation is) i
was on vacation to Bergen-Belsen somewhere in Germany managed by the YMCA, a
kind of work camp where we do all kinds of good things and learn about this
burned down concentration camp (of the 2nd world war). We worked each morning
and evening and at night we went back to our sleeping place and we ate and
enjoyed ourselves. I managed to warm up to much while reading in my room though,
I was still tired and managed to get upset over <something I don’t remember> in
front of the leaders of the group. They decided I should stay back for one day.
I then wrote down a lot of things that had happened in my life, I got upset over
this.
We held a conclusion of the day (each day…), this is a participant of the group
reads to everyone else about a subject in a dark atmosphere with little candles
in the middle (and a little music). I was amazed at the depressed readings
people gave so I went and signed up to hold my own conclusion of the day. The
next day (one day before I left for home) I read my conclusion of the day to the
group, about happy moments. The previous day one old woman of a twin that had
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the concentration camps. It was her birthday when an entertainer with 2 Disney
dolls did a play for her. After I read to everyone I had everyone write down
their happiest moment of their lives and I glued those on a big piece of paper
(I kept this piece of paper). At the end of my conclusion of the day a girl that
I appreciated very much got to me and said she appreciated my reading and didn’t
expect it, this was one of the happiest moments in my life (up until then) but I
didn’t manage to say a lot back.
1.12 Eye on the World
And it occurred I went to a proficiency school and it went prosperous, at the
end of the second year of school (August 2005) I went on vacation to a sailing
school for the second time, somewhere in the province of Friesland. And I
learned a lot of good things and enjoyed myself and one of my roommates there
had <some magazines> with him, namely magazines about computer games. All the
while reading through these magazines I bumped onto an article about <peak oil>.
I was surprised at what it said and I staggered in my mind and remembered all
the disappointments that I had observed and experienced in my life, because what
insinuated there was big but it was supported by the mentality of the people
(that I know). What this article said was that modern society was very dependant
on oil and that it wouldnt take long (<10 years) before we would “notice”. The
supply of oil, so it seams is <finite>. When we first pumped it up it gushed
out, later we could use a litle oil to pump the rest up <and then> production
costs more then what you can get from it. This illustration would be
catastrophic if the last were to happen worldwide. This might be better
explained by saying that an oil field increases production when discovered, then
meats a plateau and then peaks and begins to reduce production. This last thing
is “peak oil” and when this happens globally hell breaks loose, because the
economy depends on growth and thus a growing production of oil.
Now this theory was to hefty for me and I turned away from it for a couple of
weeks or months and I returned to my life of computergaming and school. Some
months later I picked up again and began to read further, about all disaster
blueprints and the like.
1.13 The First Verse
One of the first verses of the bible, that I remembered was Revelation 13:18:
“Here is where wisdom comes in: Let the one that has intelligence calculate the
number of the wild beast, for it is a man’s number; and its number is six
hundred and sixty-six.”
I am probably not the only one to be fascinated and obsessed by this verse. So
to the anti-Christ but more importantly that he would be worshipped by virtually
everyone, because this seemed so unnatural!
I was completely alone outside of the internet on all the things that I
believed, I didn’t dare to talk to anyone about it and I still think I cannot
explain these things to them.
About 3-4 months ago, 3 days after I had begun reading the bible and began to
pray 2 Jehovah Witnesses passed by my door and the person to speak to me then
now gives me Bible Study. We concluded that we both thought the world that we
know now isn’t always going to be like what it is now. He left a little book
about what the bible teaches. And later I began to search them because I from
that moment on knew people that in the big picture believed the same things that
I did and they reassembled who I was (or wanted to be) the most. I unfortunately
didn’t manage to find the Jehovah’s witnesses so very fast and I met many
internet sites, Also the sites of ex-Jehovahs and their followers and I was
surprised at all the drama’s and all their storys. But I was also surprised at
how they wrote, without empathy, arrogant, hatefull, badmouthed and slandering.
And I developed an aversion for those people because they appeared to have been
lost and had lost the love (not romantic love) or never had any. Except for that
many of them had also turned away from the bible, or never turned to it to begin
with. 1 John 2:9-11 reads, “He that says he is in the light and yet hates
his brother is in darkness up to right now. He that loves his brother remains
in the light, and there is no cause for stumbling in his case. But he that
hates his brother is in the darkness and is walking in the darkness, and he
does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes.”
I did want to know the Jehovah’s witnesses from their side, and not just the
internet one. I rang up their Kingdom Hall in my city.

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 1.14 search and thy will find
I have since learned many things and started bible reading and stopped many
habits starting from 3-4 months ago. I then started to read the bible because I
believed this was the absolute fundament for welfare and wealth (not money),
eternal life and all prophecy. I do my best to remember as many of the
illustrations that Jesus taught along with their meaning or meanings.

One of the most important is

Matthew 13:44
“The kingdom of the heavens is like a treasure hidden in the field, which a man
found and hid; and for the joy he has he goes and sells what things he has and
buys that field.”

Its no illustration, but 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 is also important to me “Love is

long-suffering and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, does not get
puffed up, does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests,
does not become provoked. It does not keep account of the injury. t does not
rejoice over unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things,
believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

Also 1 John 4:16b

“God is love, and he that remains in love remains in union with God and God
remains in union with him.”

Proverbs 3:3,4
“May loving-kindness and trueness themselves not leave you. Tie them about your
throat. Write them upon the tablet of your heart, and so find favor and good
insight in the eyes of God and of earthling man.”

Matthew 18:3
Jezus: “and said: “Truly I say to YOU, Unless YOU turn around and become as
young children, YOU will by no means enter into the kingdom of the heavens.”

2. Rebirth?
2.1 Details
Its Monday, 1 day beyond the district congress of the Jehovah Witnesses. July 31
2006.
Because I had slept so little, namely between 23:00 and 6:00.
Because I slept so little I went to bed at 22:30 last night.
Disclaimer: some names might have been changed.
2.2 Lost Heart
The entire congress of Jehovah Witnesses in Hereveen (an ice-skating hall,
Tialf) was marked by my hopelessly lost heart to one person Chantal.
I got to know her to a very limited extend some time when we were in the same
class in school (I believe its called: Analytical Laboratory Science), I didn’t
know her any better then my average classmates then.
I had great difficultys getting to speak to her, one bible verses of which I
forgot the place said something like:
"Don’t let the sun go down with a stirred heart", I couldn’t ignore this.
I now knew her first name, she didnt have any sisters or brothers, raised a
Jehovah Witness, has 2 close friends, and that she might have 2 (not so close)
other friends I don’t know and that she goes to the same school, but in another
stream. (Chemical, not Medical like myself).
I believe I remember that she didn’t really have a hobby.

2.3 Courage (or the lack of it)

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I had tremendous difficulty finding her each time I went out to find her among
the Jehovah Witnesses (4500 people), the group of 3 (Her and her friends) walked
around every break on every imaginable spot (where I didn’t look).
And I also had a very hard time of getting to talk to her, she always happened
to be near hear 2 other friends.
When I did get to talk to her, I did not find a lot to talk about.
To solve that problem my mind is now occupied with coming up with all kinds of
topic’s.
2.4 First contact
The “first” conversation was marked by frequent silences,
I did find out how the 3 got into the truth.
Dear Chantal, how do I get you to talk?
On the second congress day i managed to start the first conversation with the 3,
in one of the silences i managed to awkwardly put my 2 hands from the back to
the front (totally “by accident”) hopefully demonstrating a fallen heart.
I will always remember the consequent giggling of the 3, all 3 looking away and
not standing upright briefly.
On the way back home (on the backseat of one the Jehovah Witnesses cars) I as
usual didn’t speak a lot. I wanted and would still conquer her heart, once at
home i began a creative work, you call them poetry. Because I believe creative
works of love should be original I made this up by myself: (in dutch)

2.5 Poem
Lieve Geliefde Medemens (dear beloved fellow human)

In de zeeen van diepe diepten In the seas of deep depths

Vond ik daar een een diep geheim There I found a deep secret
Daar in die diepe diepten There in those deep depths
Vond ik die persoon die jij nu bent I found the person you now are

De zon die jij nu bent The sun that you are now
Schijnt licht dat in de ogen schijnt Shines light that shines in peoples eyes
deze maakt de aarde groen it makes the earth green
en de zee blauw en de rozen rood and the seas blue and roses red

En alleen aan jou, denk ik op dit moment And only of you, I think right now
De ik die wordt genoemt "mijzelf" The me that is called “myself”
Diep valt deze voor jou This one falls deep for you

Uit alle zure appels Of all the sour apples

Is die van jou toch stellig zoet Yours is positively sweet
Van alle bodemloze putten Of all the bottomless pits
Is de jouwe tot de rand gevuld Yours is filled to its edge
Jouw wind die waait mijn boot vooruit Your wind it blows my boat ahead
En jouw water Spuwt grote visvangst uit|And your waters spits big fish-catch out

Is lief hebben groots Is the love big

of is deze nederig? Or is it humble?
Mijn liefde voor jou My love for you
is groots in mijn hart is big in my heart

2.6 Not red to

Now my heart had obviously fallen and I had learned a new verse
“Don’t let the sun go down with a stirred heart” I couldn’t ignore this.
Despite their being absolutely no-one taller then me I did not manage to find
her during the morning. The next 13 hour break I did find her but oddly she
wasn’t in the group of 3. She was walking with someone else I suppose is a
friend, i had difficultys grabbing attention and starting a conversation.
I walked about 7 feet backwards while grabbing attention and I asked for the
unknown persons name and her entire name to, now I know her full name (as it is
pronounced). I had preferred to read my poem to the entire public that are the
Jehovah Witnesses so i needed that full name. But before I had spoken to the

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neceserry people there was to little time to manage that, I had social
difficultys with this. I decided to give my poem to her directly.
From experience I could tell that she was the hardest to find, although never at
the 2 coffee spots but beyond that she could be anywhere. Soon before the break
ended I met one of her friends and asked her to give my poem to her.

2.7 End Contact

After the closing prayer and song I went to her but she didn’t receive my poem
yet so I went looking for her friend. I didn’t find her friend before her friend
found her again, I noticed “the 3” from a distance some time after they had read
my creative work. She was obviously in need of physical and social support as
she didn’t manage to stand upright and anyone could (probably) tell that they
had red <something>. They quickly got to one of the hallways where apparently a
congregation of 5-6 of them were conjured out of thin air. I didn’t understand
the hierarchy of this group. I didn’t know what it was but “the 3” (once again)
really seemed to have a tick for avoiding me (remind yourself that I was the
tallest person there), they really ignored me until I stood in front of them
(read: caught up with them) and approached. The conversation couldn’t be a lot
more empty, after she refused to give me her address they went moving on back to
one of their parents (preassumably). Dear Harold, This is why I avoided you this
once when you greeted me.
She had to return to the people that drove her to the congress (I presume her
parents).
I didn’t manage to collect the courage to speak to her while she was in a group
and I didn’t speak again.

And things passed, apparantly she had already left. I will probably not meet her
many more times afterwards, because school is kind of finished and we are now
undergoing a “training period” out in the field of 9 to 5 work.
“Don’t let the sun go down with a stirred heart”
I approached her 2 friends that were left.
They managed to explain to me they only marry “in the lord”, I suppose they are
saying “other witnesses” with that.
Then the remaining 2 friends concluded with that “she isn’t interested anyway”,
I question this.

It is my opinion I am a lot like average Jehovah Witnesses (by nature), using

trays where applicable, full of patience and neighbourly love and slow to turn
to anger.
3-4 months ago I began bible reading and praying, 1 month later I made contact
with Jehovah Witnesses and bible study and attending 2 congregations per week.
Likewise with that I pray that "Your will become(th) mine, if that is your will"
I had already stopped a lot of bad habits.
I am naturally turned into myself and I have a hard time conversing with other
people. I usually speak well in speeches, when I prepare them.

2.8 (another) Goal in life

For half a second I staggered while hastily walking back to the jehovah’s
witnesses to go back to where I had come from, home. On the way back I thought a
lot about love and the wisdoms that I had learned at the congress, once at home
I began removing all computergames from my computer and after my parents went
away on vacation, sorting all computer games by what could and what could not be
sold. There are 2 piles of them now, one smaller pile that can be sold and one
bigger pile that cannot be sold. I don’t know how I would sell them, probably
over the internet. Selling the newest games solo and the older games in bundles.
I don’t know how to package them. The urge to masturbate is now gone, despite
being home alone. Now in the short period probably prior to big personal change
I phoned a former babysitter that is very dear to me, of all the people that I
personally know there is no-one as patient and loving as she, I am used to
thinking of her as an aunt. I don’t know if I would do a lot of good in trying
to tell her the hope of resurrection. I also phoned by grandmother from fathers
side, as I see it she worrys a lot about me because of the Jehovah Witnesses,
you don’t just become a Jehovah’s Witness.

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 2.9 Jehovah, Jezus & Satan
Jehovah’s Witnesses are expected to hold very high moral standards, and where
possible they are also supposed to preach the good news (God’s kingdom on earth)
A lot of Jehovah Witness beliefs are very hefty and I myself have problems
explaining them to others. As a Jehovah’s Witness you are encouraged to preach
the good news as much as possible and a lot of habits are looked down upon.
I wonder, is this what Jesus did? He preached the heavenly kingdom many many
times and also many other good things, he foretold the heavenly kingdom. At his
crucifixion (I interpret) he testified that the fallen flesh (by Adam and Eve)
is doomed without Jehovah God.

Despite that Jesus endured a lot he (I believe) was happy with his work, God
himself also was happy with what he made (but not at the moment?). It is my goal
to while following Jesus and Jehovah to have a happy life, also (on the
background?) learning about the miraculous things (sciences). I find my
Laboratory education to be quite interesting and I hope to get interesting work
from it.

Grandmother from fathers side said she didn’t believe Satan ruled the world,
despite that I red the following verse to her 1 John 5:19 that I red to her:
"We know we originate with God, but the whole world is lying in the [power of
the] wicked one."
I didn’t manage to find other verses fast enough, but I wonder if she is afraid
of what the bible really says. She also mentioned that Jehovah Witnesses can
insist a lot and sometimes encourage bible students to break connections with
their family. I argued that they cant get it over their hearts to loose a bible
student to “the world” of the wicked one (Satan). But rather, to save him from
the world and give him or her bible study because “This means everlasting life,
their taking in knowledge of you, the only true God, and of the one whom you
sent forth, Jesus Christ” John 17:3

2.10 Remarkable Verses

I noticed some verses while reading the bible:
Matthew 18:3
Jezus: “Truly I say to YOU, Unless YOU turn around and become as young children,
YOU will by no means enter into the kingdom of the heavens” I think this is a
beautifull verse because it summarizes a lot of good property’s that one can
posses, summarizing a lot just like how Jesus summarized the 10 commandments.

Jesus answering how he withered a fruitless fig tree, with a kind of spoken
curse
Matthew: 21:21
"Truly I say to YOU, If only YOU have faith and do not doubt, not only will YOU
do what I did to the fig tree, but also if YOU say to this mountain, ‘Be lifted
up and cast into the sea,’ it will happen"
I think this testifies that Jehovah hears ouer prayers and that if we truly have
faith he will do anything we ask, but true faith excludes a lot, like with
Deutronomy 6:16a “YOU must not put Jehovah YOUR God to the test”

Matthew 6:15
"whereas if YOU do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will YOUR Father
forgive YOUR trespasses"

Matthew 7:1
"Stop judging that YOU may not be judged;"

Matthew 7:18
"a good tree cannot bear worthless fruit, neither can a rotten tree produce fine
fruit. "

I value the entire mount sermon as a whole quite much too (Matthew 5-7)

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Habbakuk 1:5
"See, YOU people, among the nations, and look on, and stare in amazement at one
another. Be amazed; for there is an activity that one is carrying on in YOUR
days, [which] YOU people will not believe although it is related."
Many bad things happen on the world, that we do not want to know. Many people
appear to consciously and unconsciously deceive themselves.

Matthew 10:28
"And do not become fearful of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul;
but rather be in fear of him that can destroy both soul and body in Ge·hen´na
(Hell)."

Matthew 5:10-12
“Happy are those who have been persecuted for righteousness’ sake, since the
kingdom of the heavens belongs to them. Happy are YOU when people reproach YOU
and persecute YOU and lyingly say every sort of wicked thing against YOU for my
sake. Rejoice and leap for joy, since YOUR reward is great in the heavens; for
in that way they persecuted the prophets prior to YOU.”

1 Timothy 4:16,
“Pay constant attention to yourself and to your teaching. Stay by these things,
for by doing this you will save both yourself and those who listen to you.”

1 Timothy 1:9
“in the knowledge of this fact, that law is promulgated, not for a righteous
man, but for persons lawless and unruly, ungodly and sinners, lacking loving-
kindness, and profane, murderers of fathers and murderers of mothers,
manslayers,”

In a passion to create a virtual playground that would be popular and giving

bible education on the internet, I looked up and noted down a lot of bible
verses. These are randomly displayed while the playground is displayed.

These verses are:

Of Genesis: 1 2:3 2:15-17 2:23 3:1-5 3:14 4:7 6:5-8 9:1-3 9:13 11:1
11:3-9 18:22-23
Of Exodus: 1:8-14 2:9-14 2:23-25 4:6-9 5:1-9 5:22-23 7:14-18 8:2-3 8:20-
23 9:2-4 9:8-9 9:15-18 9:25-26 10:4-5 10:21-23 10:28-29 11:4-7 12:12-13
14:26-28 16:31
Of Joshua: 2:24 6:3-5 9:24-27 10:12-14
Of Judges: 2:1-5 2:10-15 3:5-8 9:33-35 15:3-5 15:13-16 16:18-30
Of Leviticus: 13:3 18:22 19:9-19 19:28 20:18 26:1-13
Of Numbers: 5:11-22 11:1-3 11:18-20 16:28-35 21:6-7 25:1-4
Of Deuteronomy: 1:28-31 1:42-44 5:6-22 7:17-19 10:17-19 15:7-9 17:7
18:10-12 21:14 24:10-13 24:16 24:19 28:15-16 32:4 34:10-12
Of 1 Samuel: 4:17-18 5:1-4 12:12-15 14:32-33 16:23 17:25 17:34-50 18:15-16
Of Psalm: 4:3 5:5 5:11 6:6 7:4,5 7:11 7:16 9:6 10:3-7 10:17 11:5
12:2-3 13:6
Of Job: 1-2 4:7 4:17 5:2-3 5:11 6:1-2 11:7-8 14:7 15:6
Of Proverbs: 1:7 1:10-19 2:11 3:13-14 3:28 4:2-9 4:19 4:24 4:26,27 5:6
6:1-3 6:27 6:30 6:32-35 7:1-4 :21-22 8:8 9:7-8 :10-11 :13-18 10:5 :17 :19
:20 :24 :31-32 11:2 :5 :7 :8 :13 :15 17,18 :24-29 12:1 :4 :9 :10-11 :13 :15-
16 :18 :23! :26 13:4 :8 :11 :12 :20 :25 14:2 :7 :10 :15 :21 :23 ;31 :34 :35
15:1 :15 16:6 :10 :15 :16 :22 :26 :31 17:1 :2 :7 :9 :10 :13 :14 :17 :22 :25
:28 18:2 :6 :11 :14 :19 :22 :24 19:1 :2 :6 :10 :13 :14 :19 :20 :23 :25 :29
20:1 :2 :3 :7 :9 :10 :14 :15 :17 :19 ;21 :25 :29 21:4 :5 :6 :9 :13 :14 :17 :18
:20 ;24 :29 22;2 :6 :7 :11 :16 :22 :23 :26 :27 :28 23:1 :4 :6 :7 :9 :13 :14 :18
:20 :24 :27 :35 24:3 :4 :15 :16 :17-18 ;26 :31-34 25;2 :6-7 :21-22 :28 26:1 :8
:11 :14 :20 :27 27:2 :5 :10 :15 :22 28:9 :23 :27 :28 29:11 :24 30:7-9 :24-28
31:10-20
Of Matthew: 1:21 2:1-13 3:10 4:3-4 4:6-7 4:8-11 4:21-22 5:10-12 5:13
5:22 5:28 5:30 5:39-44 5:47 6:1-8 6:9-15 6:19-20 6:22-23 6:24 6:34
7:3-5 7:7 7:9 7:12 7:13-14 7:15 7:17-18 7:21-23 7:24-27 8:22 9:13

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10:16 10:17-20 10:21-23 10:28 10:34,35 11:25-30 12:11-12 12:30 12:33
13:3-9 13:24-30 13:49,50 15:14 15:16-20 16:25 18:6 18:8 18:13 18:15-17
18:21-22 19:5 19:24 19:30 20:12-15 21:12-13 21:21-22 21:31-32 22:11-14
22:21 22:39 23:12 24:4-14 24:28 25:1-13 25:24-27 26:41 26:52 26:75
Of 2 Timothy, 4:3 en 3:1-9
Of Revelation: 1:3 2:11 6:1-14 8-9 13:3 13:11-18 14:13 14:14-20 16 20 21:8
Let it be known that I didn’t read the entire bible to look up all verses, and
this may be a good thing because I might still be busy at Armageddon if I did.

3. The worldly problems

3.1 introduction
(for others and…?) for us Jehovah God made all things, the waters and the fish,
the air and the birds, the sun and the lpants, the earth and the animals, the
stars and the planets around them, the mountains and the depths of the oceans,
cold and warm, dark and light. It may be known that we will unfortunately never
know everything, but happily we can always learn new things.

Like that there Is the invention of the wheel, thanks to the wheel large-scale
transport is possible, enabling faster transport, of more and for less energy.
The modern sail is another miraculous invention, suddenly we weren’t dependant
on the direction of the wind anymore, we could sail against the wind!
The invention of the triangle is another such wonder, being one of the most
sturdy shapes in life, we can now package lots of stuff in seemingly weak
materials. Who’d think of that?
The steamboat righteously surprised Napoleon: “What, sir, would you make a ship
sail against the wind and currents by lighting a bonfire under her deck; I pray
you excuse me. I have no time to listen to such nonsense.”
Since the invention of the telephone and internet the world can be put on a
virtual pinhead, phoning from the south to the north-pole is possible!
Many people were amazed at the stars and they came up with celestial navigation,
strongly based off the sun but also the stars themselves. It became possible to
go to the unkown and back! Navigation conquered the waters.
Thanks tomodern inc and industrial production methods it became possible to
educate all humanity, not just about all the miraculous things but also the
bible!

In compliance with that god created us in his image we are also creative and we
slowly absorb knowledge of everything there is, which is in accordance with that
god knows everything, and we tend to absorb it.Despite many inventions the world
is undergoing a catastrophic period. All these inventions seem to be introduce
the downfall of humanity by itself, with ofcourse nuclear physics as its prime
example. Albert Einstein correctly said:”Technological progress is like an axe
in the hands of a pathological criminal” and as a witness to that we have the
Nuclear Bomb. Altough the scenario of “Mutually Assured Destruction” or the
becoming uninhabitable of planet earth by nuclear bombs is unlikely “For this is
what Jehovah has said, the Creator of the heavens, He the [true] God, the Former
of the earth and the Maker of it, He the One who firmly established it, who did
not create it simply for nothing, who formed it even to be inhabited: “I am
Jehovah, and there is no one else.”–Isaiah 45:18.
Although the use of big atomic bombs is excluded which gives a sigh of relief,
America is busy creating “Mini-Nukes” to use as against underground bunkers.
Very likely against terrorists. It is already known that nuclear bombs are
absolute catastrophys by themselves. Since the invention of e=mc2 and consequent
nuclear explosions and disasters the world has become more radioactive and
related diseases have increased practically permanently.
I say, It’s not to the humans to govern themselves. –Jeremiah 10:23

It is my opinion that the creativity and godlessness of people is going to cause

a big turning around, I initially wrote this to explain the 7 seals of
revelation, in chapter 6. But I do not have the confidence to say that they
explain it anymore.

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 3.2 World War III?
America, the biggest oil consumer on earth (and the most powerfull nation) has
put oil on the military map (under the flag of national security), especially
since 1970-1973 when American oil production began to decrease and America
become more and more dependant upon and according to G W bush junior, from
unstable parts of the earth. America has over the last few generations a lot of
military bases in the Middle-East, this might be new, but this could be
synomynous for the war on Afghanistan, Iraq and future(?) Iran. Coincidence
wants that the regions near these places hold a lot of oil. Habbakuk 1:5b “for
there is an activity that one is carrying on in YOUR days, [which] YOU people
will not believe although it is related. It appears to be neceserry to fight for
the lifeblood of modern society.
Revelation 6:4 honestly foretells (specifying the rider with a big sword on a
fiery horse of the second seal) “and to the one seated upon it there was granted
to take peace away from the earth so that they should slaughter one another; and
a great sword was given him.”
I say again, its not to people to govern themselves
–Jeremiah 10:23
3.3 Famine?
In my opinion one of the biggest technological disasters to strike humanity, is
oil. Since the discovery of oil and its potential, cars have become so numerous
you’d be better off counting (all) your hair! With the introduction of the car
it become suddenly possible for the world population to discard the farmers
life, because oil was so cheap. And lo and behold, it was practically free.
People only payed a fraction of the oil to get a unit of it. With the
introduction of oil an ongoing explosion of miracles (??) occurred, like for
example the green revolution. There suddenly came a techno-fix for many of
agricultural problems, fertilizers allowed for constant cultivation, pesticides
for plague free growing and machinery to pump water anywhere. But now the entire
inhabited earth is practically fed with food of very little variations of
plants. In the past practically every farmer had his own variation of plant and
if one variation was destroyed others usually survived, not now so no not
anymore. Plagues so it seems, now adapt to the countless pesticides that are
produced, in the future it might become impossible to fight all these plagues.
The historic farmers might have been better off, because they had complete eco-
systems in their fields, worms plowing the earth, insects in balance (preventing
plagues), bacteria in the earth took care of the Nitrogen cycle, so called
cankers (flat hard animal faeces) were used to fertilize the fields. Products of
oil like gasoline and petroleum were seen as heritage, yet they didn’t come a
falling out of hot air. The oil most probably came out of plants that existed
since the first plant ever known, having died off and at places sinking way down
and being pressurized into oil. The energy that was caught of fotosyntheses was
compressed in the thick plates of earth. An exploding gas station or tanker is
most probably one of the most marvellous displays of the energy that is stored
in these products. One must imagine what one can learn of this with the energy
constant in mind. These days oil seems to become more and more expensive, the
gushing flow of free abundant energy appears to have an end after all.
I say again, people shouldn’t govern themselves
–Jeremiah 10:23
3.4 disease, plagues, famine?
With the arrivel of small particles and gases that come out of car exhausts,
cheap but monotone food, poisoning of the earths waters and modern hygene, the
human population seems to become more unhealthy. Today it is totally normal to
have medication.
The age of hygene probably began when a girl snuck her showered friend past her
parents, whom couldn’t smell him!
The modern hygene has most probably with the arrival of sope and showers and
other cleaningstuffs become a very strong aspect in the modern society’s of
Americans, Europeans and most recentely Azians. On average people in these
modern societys shower more then 3 times a week, the house is often cleaned once
a weak and all spilled stuffs quickly cleaned up thoroughly! A detesting
attitude to ugly things has conquered many souls. Because we isolate ouerselves
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If we now become ill by one of these, we can become very ill! Aforemost
effective antibiotics are also running out, diseases are becoming resistant! A
more subtile problem is ouer smelling sense, now it has become a shame to be
smelled ouer feromones have been curses, someone caught unaware by heavty love
instantly repels whomsoever is near him! I say again, people shouldn’t govern
themselves
–Jeremiah 10:23

3.5 hate and hate to the witnessing

“The family” is one of the holyest institutes that God has intituted, and
unfortunately it has been undermined eversince, too. Where familys used to be
(long ago) epi-centres of mutual care cities have grown full of criminality,
divorces, hate, egotism and many other detestable things. These times many
baby’s are almost constantly split away from their mothers and fathers, where
parents fullfill the lives of their young children with good goals in their
lives, their loving presence and heartfelt love. Mothersmilk, the healthiest
food a baby can get, is slowly being replaced by milk from a bottle with many
kinds of catastrophic results. Mothersmilk has many of healthy advantages, it
gives the baby a preference to usefull foods (that of the mother), it also
helpts it to accept alternative foods once its teeth break though. With the rise
of feminism many mothers began working separated from their children causing
them without the loving attention that used to be normal. Many young children
watch more and more television, with programs about for example a fantasy world,
where young heros and heroins venture into a fantasy world full of evil, where
they fight it with violence! Amazingly, they need no food and when they do it
falls out of hot air. These characters are often very undependant always know
more then their environment! Many parents nowadays are painting a miserable
example, rarealy happy with their work and sometimes pessimistic and especially
individualistic. A couple of months ago my sister began to bake a cake, but she
didn’t have any eggs en it cost her 15 minutes to contemplate going to the
neighbours to ask for a few! In a society where we are expected to have any
degree of courage left, the masses shrink and shrivel at the sight of asking
help! Are we so naïve to believe that one of the most courageous things to do is
a sign of weakness? I myself too, have great difficultys respecting my parents.
In Mark 13:12 the bible truly foretells:” Furthermore, brother will deliver
brother over to death, and a father a child, and children will rise up against
parents and have them put to death;” but also Matthew 24:12 “and because of the
increasing of lawlessness the love of the greater number will cool off.” And
also, of
2 Timothy 3:1-5
“But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be
here. For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self-assuming,
haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal, having no
natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control,
fierce, without love of goodness,betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride],
lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God, having a form of godly devotion
but proving false to its power; and from these turn away.”.
Many grow up in a tight youth in for example a strict faith. Even for as far as
I know in the Jehovah Witnesses. It might be worthwhile to consider that
“worldly ideas” has impaled the Jehovah’s Witnesses from many sides, to. If you
push against a wall, it pushes back, if you push harder, it pushses harder.
Ought we not to find the door first? God created us in his image, he gave us
free will. When people rebelled (Adam and Eve) he didn’t immediactly replace the
sinning couple but allowed them to see that life without God is not possible. As
God’s creation, is it not an idea to imite him? God truly created us in his
image, with a free will.

Jehovah’s Witnesses are known for their high standards and perhaps overzealous
witnessing of God’s kingdom on earth to all nations (Matthew 24:14) and then
“the end shall come”. With a simple combination of Jehovahs Witnesses and Murder
you can easily find some saddening results. One title reads: “Denying blood
transfusion constitutes first-degree murder”. Nevertheless Jehovah’s Witnesses
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for non-witnessess. (Full)bloodtransfusions bring a couple of now-known problems
with them, namely the immediate transfusion reaction that could be fatal (when
the patient gets wrong blood). If nothing goes wrong immediactly the immume
system weakens because another persons (full)blood is still always different.
Blood types A and B are not the only facial marks, there are many more (weaker)
facial marks, even for blood. Other peoples blood will always be strange to ouer
body. Strange stuffs have a habit of activating ouer immume system. Beside that
it is still impossible to beyond doubt declare blood free of all known diseases
and as a cause of that, many people are infected with nasty irrevocable
diseases. Jehovah’s Witnesses are also known for tearing apart familys.
1 John 2:15 reads:” Do not be loving either the world or the things in the
world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him;”. A
bible student that undergoes pressure to return to this world, is most probably
encouraged resist and this might just about mean separating from the pull. I
imagine many Jehovahs Witnesses cannot get it by their hearts let anyone go back
to this “world” which the bible says is ruled by Satan.
One of the teachers I converse with at school remarks that Jehovahs Witnesses
have the most success with people that don’t have a lot of contact, like people
as myself. And rightly so, this is not a strange thing because these people are
the least likely to have an idea of these arguments. The prosecution of
godfearing people like some Jehovah’s Witnesses, profets, Jesus Christ and many
other god-fearing people manys the fifth seal of revelation possible
Revelation 6:9: “And when he opened the fifth seal, I saw underneath the altar
the souls of those slaughtered because of the word of God and because of the
witness work that they used to have.”.
I say again, people shouldn’t govern themselves.
–Jeremiah 10:23
4. Other Thoughts
4.1 The creation and destruction
Jehovah (God) created us, in his image evidently shown in Genesis 1:27: “And God
proceeded to create the man in his image, in God’s image he created him; male
and female he created them.” This really ought to mean god wanted us to be like
him.
Because God himself is very responsible he probably gave his own creation, the
humans a great responsibility to. Genesis 1:28 reads: “Further, God blessed them
and God said to them: “Be fruitful and become many and fill the earth and subdue
it, and have in subjection the fish of the sea and the flying creatures of the
heavens and every living creature that is moving upon the earth.”
It may be obvious that humanity might have handled its responsibility better by
any remote stretch. Ecpecially beginning from medieval times the largscale
disaster of civilization really began, annoying bushmen like the legend of Robin
Hood refused to pay taxes and became a thorn in the governments eyes. In sieges
the trees were all much to handy to besiege citys. This situation ought to be
bad for the trees and behold, by the 19th century many forests had already
disappeared into thin air. In these times rainforests started to burned off by
piece by piece already, this can be compared to burning a library (of God)
before you read its books. Biodiversity is sacrificed for the sake of economy,
in the end we will loose both. Ought it an idea that people not ruled
themselves?
4.2 Affection
By countless influences in the “modern society” natural affection seems to be
seeping away away, only small bits and pieces are given off surpluss anymore. I
met a homeless fellow human being somewhere out of the Islamic world and he
spoke to me, I gave him half the cash I had with me (good for 2ish days of
shelter/food) and I used the last half to do what I was going to do in the city.
Because my home isn’t mine I didn’t give him more. He remarked that the people
he spoke to refused to give him anything or only the pay of up to 15 minutes
work. Is it people’s right to rule to inaffectionatly?

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In my opinion the world economy ruins the world. This might be explained by
saying that the world economy grows on consumption (sales). It’s gooood for the
economy if it sells, if the consumer, consumes. And just like that, the
consuming population is important for the economy and is heavily intertwined, so
heavy that at people it may be impossible to get rid of it. The economy needs a
consuming consumer, many advertising strategys are devised to let the consumer,
consume and to turn people, into consumers. Wether it needs the product or not!
If a “good” company especially takes care of a good product in the right
quantitys like it used to (long time ago) happen. But now there are televisions,
billboards and many other marketing devices to get the consumer, to consume. In
the commercials the products are displayed as if you actually need them!
Nowadays we often buy what we really don’t need or even, is bad for us!

4.4 Quantity and Quality

In the past (long time ago) there were markets with all kinds of different foods
and different variations of food and people could cultivate experience with a
food’s taste, tasting which was good and which not. Like that the farmers did
their best to sow the best of products. Spices were yet to become abundant, like
that the past is now history.
After the second world war the reconstruction became important and it occurred
that food was neceserry and in one or another way it appeared to be neceserry to
grow enough of it and the economy began to favour quantity. Now we can witness
that by comparing fruit from the grocery store to fruit from the garden, more
then it ought to gardened food really tastes a lot better! This might be best
explained by that bigger pieces of fruit make more money because evidently, you
pay more for more weight but they weigh more because they contain more water! It
occurred that time passed beyond August 2005 and I struggled over an article
about a primitive society, I believe somewhere in Tasmania. This relatively
primitive society held pigs and they were very usefull, the faeces was a good
fertilizer and the flesh tasted good. It occurred however that a disease broke
out and the pigs were destroyed and this happened with a lot of weaning and
tears. Foreigners offered to help compensate the loss by giving them some of
their pigs, all problems seemed to be solved, but the opposite came true! These
modern pigs could not bear the primitive society’s “dirty” water and the flesh
didn’t taste like much either! This was a blow this society has yet to fully
overcome.
4.5 1 Act of worship
Matthew 4:9 reads: “and he said to him: “All these things I will give you if you
fall down and do an act of worship to me.”
Many are familiar with this satanic offer and as righteous as Jesus was he
resisted. I however believe that this verse also means that anyone that worships
Satan can yield great power on earth, as long as Satan rules it.

5. Questions of the writer

5.1 Unique?
Of all people I know, I never met anyone like me. This might be a
selffullfilling thing because I don’t go out a lot, but I don’t meet any other
people like me on the internet either. Is there anyone like me?

5.2 Near future

I have all hope that the foretold paradise situation is coming, of Revelation
21:4 “And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no
more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things
have passed away.”
But that time has obviously, not yet come. What do I do until then?

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 6. The End
I love you all, for god we are all equel, you might now know the person that I
have become to this moment. I hope that I gave you knowledgle about the person
that I am, revealing the sun behind the cloud.
May all go well with us and may all things godlike be with us, namely: love.

This letter was in the first instance send to a teacher at school, 2 Jehovah’s
Witnesses and the person I subconsciously think of as an aunt. I consider all 4
of them friends. I might send this text to more people.

We might wonder, where does the spiceant summon his thoughts from? I can among
other things tell you that marshmen have no part in beaming these thoughts down
to me. I visited these and many other sites (in no order):

www.globalissues.org
www.lifeaftertheoilcrash.net
www.peakoil.com (the forums)
www.watchtower.org
www.biblegateway.com

In the following part I will continue about the problems in the world

C'est le commencement ou la fin

This is the beginning or the end

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I once again worry,
The following text is a resume of a text I wrote a few days ago
7. The Petrodollar (and WW3?)
7.1 Introduction
The last 3 days I have been worrying a lot, the news from “The Middle-East”
doesn’t make me a lot happier, all kinds of bible-prophecy sites are doing
overhours and honestly I am not very hopefull about the near 2 years, either.
But before it gets to that, there is a period of uncertaintity. Namely, I have
none. The world around me celebrates vacation, I wont see my parents back within
21 days because it is planned that I go away 2 weeks on the 13th of August.
There I plan on following the news closely. I don’t believe the situation in
“The Middle-East” will unpack well. I followed CNN for the last 2 days and I
noticed infrastructure is being ruined. Inbetween it was remarked Iran and Syria
support Hezbollah.
I hold these thoughts.
7.2 Petrodollar warfare
“Petrodollar warfare”
Meanwhile I hear little news about Iran, although it was a focal point. I
suspect that the situation in the area can escale because the USA so it seems,
is going to use smaller nuclear arms as conventional weapons which only needs
the same moral principles as a stick of dynamite.
I remember that the USA absolutely doesn’t want that Iran proceeds with its
nuclear ambitions.
Iran wants to change its oilbourse from the PetroDollar, to the PetroEuro. On an
economic level this means war on the PetroDollar and its nation. Iraq also used
to plan the PetroEuro, but we might remember <someone> prevented that.
I hold these thoughts.
7.3 National debt USA
“USA debt”
IT appears that America has changed from the biggest creditor to the biggest
credit receivers on the world. It happened that the USA’s debt got up to
8.150.000.000.000$ or aprox 30.000$ per USA citizen (baby to elder). What can be
done against this? But ofcourse the federal reserve bank of the USa kan print
more money and sell It so the world can use the petrodollar! Right now the world
needs the USA because of the PetroDollar. But what if you don’t need the
petrodollar nomore? It may be noteworthy that when Iraq tried stepping off the
USA titanic, the USA got her back on board (and how). Now an even bigger oil
producer steps to the euro, it is suddenly demonized!
I hold these thoughts.

7.4 The Second 9/11?

Back in 2001 when I was 14 years old I can remember well when I turned on the
telly at 4 in the afternoon and watched the 2 Towers stand and fall, it didn’t
take long until Bush declared an eternal war on terror! Neither did it take long
to get to Afghanistan! It seems 9/11 is all to handy in the actions of G W bush
junior. After all, the terrists of 9/11 were in Afghanistan!

The eleventh September of 2001 was undoubtly a horrible day for ouer fellow
human beings of American heritage. Though I have little good hope for Americans.
My biggest problems with 9/11 are the following.
• The towers collapsed and the ruins (crime scene!) were taken away and
molted!!
• Practically nothing was found back of the supposed airplane that flew into
the pentagon, the crazy conspiracy theorists claim it vaporized! The spot
where it supposedly flew in, has no marks of the 2 big engines, they
supposedly foled into the hole with the plane!
• There are no trustworthy camera recordings of the pentagon during the
impact, not even of camers that weren’t related to the pentagon (from
buildings far away!). The pentagon is a top security structure, mind you
people!

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 • The investigative commity that investigated the disaster, had a budget the
size of your local grocery store, less then the commity of the Titanic.
The titanic is evidently less important.
• Many members of the commity were distatisfied with the investigation and
cooperation they got and left
• The inventigation in general was treated as if 9/11 wasn’t worth
investigating

General Herman Goering, President of the German Reichstag and Nazi Party,
Commander of the airforce during WW2, on April 18 1946 said:
Of course the people don't want war. But after all, it's the leaders of the
country who determine the policy, and it's always a simple matter to drag the
people along whether it's a democracy, a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament,
or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought
to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them
they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism, and
exposing the country to greater danger. (This is a lesson of the nazi’s)

I believe it looks like America needs a second 9/11 to attack Iran, in the event
of a terrist attack the scale of 9/11 it will attack Iran even if it isn’t
responsible.

Habbakuk 1:5 reads:

“See, YOU people, among the nations, and look on, and stare in amazement at one
another. Be amazed; for there is an activity that one is carrying on in YOUR
days, [which] YOU people will not believe although it is related.”

I hold these thoughts

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 7.5 Te Euro and the Dollar
“USA military spending” or “Preemptive nuclear”
Since the euro materialized a couple of countrys were encouraged to use it in
the oil trade, as this happens the dollar gradually looses its function as the
Petrodollar. If everyone goes to the euro, the USA is alone with her debt to the
world, then the dollar will be onpopular because it cannot be used anymore. The
USA is obviously “not happy” with this scenario and it tries to prevent it. The
pentagon is breeding New Plans to in the case of a second 9/11, attack iran with
nuclear arms!
It might be remarked that the military expenses of the USA is greater then that
of every other nation combined!
I hold these thoughts.
7.6 Conclusion
With all thoughts that I have held unto now, I expect big changes for the USA
and because it is deeply entrenched in the world, for the world.
I hold chapter 7 in my thoughts.

8. Climate Change
8.1 Introduction
“Climate Change”
It may be clear that climate change gets a little worse each year, forests are
chopped and many species of life are becoming extinct. The adaptability of many
ecosystems is incapable of keeping up with all the change and as a result the
world has and is becoming somewhat barren (middle east anyone). Various places
on earth are becoming and have become much hotter.
I hold these in my thoughts.
8.2 The Greenhouse Effect
“Global Warming” of “Greenhouse effect”
Each one of us has probably heard of the greenhouse effect that gets worse a
litlebit each day. It is also quite known that CO2 is a greenhouse gas. There
have always been greenhouse gases and this is a good thing, without greenhouse
gases planet earth would be another block of ice like Pluto. I will now try to
explain what happens with the climate.
I hold these in my thoughts.
8.3 Sun and Infrared
“Greenhouse Effect”
The sun now already shines for a couple of billion years, on the earth thereby
heating it. A lot of this radiation goes straight through ouer atmosphere,
touches the surface and warms it up. Because the earth is warm it radiates heat,
this heat sometimes meets a molecule of greenhouse gas molecule and bounces
back. Alltogether the sun and the greenhousegases have caused quite a fortunate
temperature for the fuzzy little creatures we are.
I hold these in my thoughts.
8.4 The Carboncycle
“Carbon Cycle”
Carbon is a quite known kind of atom, it is present in one of the most valuable
materials we know such as diamond and In more abundant materal such as grafite.
Carbon is also present in <all> forms of life and is by virtue on of the most
important building blocks of life. Carbon is present on earth in rockformations,
forests, the waters, air, fossiel fuels and many other neat things on earth.
Carbon is in many ways fixed by forms of life.
People contineually burn and use an amount of fossil fuels. Each day aprox
13.000.000.000 liters of oil are borned, about 150.000 per second. This alone
translates to a lot of CO2 in the atmosphere.
I hold these in my thoughts.
8.5 Watercycle
“Global warming” “Water Cycle”
Water is one of the most commonly known substances to exist, about 70% of the
earth is under it and the about 70% makes up our bodys. Water is probably quite
an odd substance because it is made of an oxygen atom with only 2 protons
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and fire possible. I can preach on and on about interesting details of water but
I wont for the sake of this text.
Beside that water is a greenhouse gas, it surprisingly also causes rain. Water
is as a fluid present in rivers, groundwater, oceans and rivers but also as a
solid in both the poles of the earth and many mountains. The liquid en melting
forms of water migrate from the mountain tops and clouds through the rivers back
to the big waters where they vaporize and repeat the cycle, along the way
causing all kinds of weather. Because the earth warms up more water vaporizes
causing more water to exist in clouds and as gas “soluded” in air. On some spots
of earth more water vaporizes causing droughts and on others more falls. In
general, climates deviate more causing for more “interesting” types of weather
compared to what used to be (long time ago). It might be noteworthy that the
worldwide deforestation has made ground looser causing it to slide with heavy
rainfall. The warming surprisingly also causes ice to melt.
The warming up in general causes the water of the earth to move around a lot
more.
I hold these in my thoughts.

8.6 Airpollution & The Sun

“Global Dimming”
The followers of fossil fuels are burning it up by using it, pumping all kinds
of noteworthy things into the beautifull atmosphere. And like that also little
particles that reflect the sunrays back! This may seem like the ironic savior of
for the greenhouse effect but it isn’t. Altough It reduces heat intake at day,
It also reduces heat outgoing at night.

There is another problem going on in the oceans. The greenhouse effect that
conserves heat over land doesn’t have a lot of effect on the oceans because the
oceans absorb the heat, but doesn’t directly send it back! The oceans vaporize
and this is how they loose a lot of their heat causing them to bypass the
greenhouse effect. However, the effect described in the first paragraph is not
bypassed, this causes less water to vaporize in turn already causing droughts
and having caused droughts.

Air pollution, or the more overly being present of particles in the air also
causes bigger cloudformations because water condenses on these particles,
reflecting sunlight back. The airpollution that causes this was clearly
displayed on 9/11, when all airplanes landed the temperature went up by several
degrees celcius or about 10 fahrenheit!
I hold these in my thoughts.

8.7 Conclusion
Many processes described in these chapters stick in my thoughts. Climate change
will and has already rendered many countrys uninhabitable and caused many
disasters, flushing lands.
Lester brown once said:”Socialism failed because it didn’t tell the economic
truth; capitalism can fail becaue it cannot tell the ecological truth”
I hold chapter 8 in my thoughts.

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 9. The Modern Life!
9.1 Introduction
I am no historian, I only know a few details of history, no specific precise
details.
Since the beginning of man countless of unfortunate things have happened. In the
middle-ages for example there were priests and other religious leaders that
tought their people that they shouldn’t read the bible but also that their sins
could be forgiven by paying the church. Under the flag of crusades, the bible
and holy war many people have most unfortunately been killed, despite that
practically all religions condemn murder solely by men.
Under the flag of the bible people have deviated from it the bible all to often.
The verse of do not envy your neighbours stuffs and by happy with what you are
given were probably used to keep the poor farmers at bay, not looking at the
rich nobels at the top… The rich people are historically apathic to the people
that they don’t observe as interesting (being usefull) to them and has coerced
unsympathetically a many times to bring unloyal people back to work. If they
went to far an uprising occurred with the famous beheadings of kings and nobels.
In my opinion the situation of the rich and poor is the same today, only
religion is not used as much anymore. Now the rich & apathic are in the 1st
world, and the poor farmers in the 2nd and 3rd world.

9.2 Apathy
The dictionary calls apathy: “state of unsensitiveness to phychological
stimulants”. In my opinion this property persists in many people in ouer modern
societys. Evidently I present you the homeless fellow human being: If people see
a homeless person on streat begging with a box in front of him it is only rare
that people give a littlebit of their excesses, they are often ignored. It
occurs time passes and wether it is true or not, this person enters a store and
really wants a <product> and buys it. I can be amazed at this.
When this person gets home and zaps past all the amazing channels on his new 160
inch flat plasma tv he comes upon a Greenpeace, unicef or another similar
commercial and ignores it.
Now it isn’t neceserry to deny the existence of the poor fellow human-being,
because the distance is so big we do not realise he exists.
The modern economy makes us believe that egotism is good, you after all will
become happy if you buy their products, right? In my opinion the economy breeds
apathy.
9.3 work, brrr
I think that the mentality of “education, work and retirement” is becoming
dominant. This mentality probably also betrays the unquenchable thirst for
pleasure, because retirement symbolizes this. Many people work to enjoy their
retirement and lo & behold the economy sometimes uses this. People would rather
celebrate vacations all their lives long.

The car makes it possible to live practically everywhere where you want and
people now much less consider the consequences of living somewhat far away from
work. Now that growth continues commute times are becoming longer and longer,
slowed down by the presence of more and more traffic. Many people return from
their work and would rather sleep all day long, not being present for their
familys anymore. Some people even call in sick when they are in fact healthy.
Employers must now commit effort to find good employees.

9.4 Medicine
Of all the existent diseases, AIDS gets the most attention. Not coincidentally
this is also one of the primary diseases that afflicts the “modern” world. A lot
of research can be done to cure much deadlier and much bigger diseases in other
countrys, but does that make you rich?
Like that there are many other modern diseases and modern methods to cure these:
Cancer, diabetes, obesity, heart failure, high bloodpressure, impotence,
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addressed, unless afflicting the first world. And even then, they are only truly
cured there.

9.5 Rich/Poor
a a couple of facts die that might be to small right now:
1. 3.000.000.000 people entered the 21st century unable to read
2. half of the world population lives on less then 2$/day, 1.300.000.000 with
less then 1$/day.
3. the people of the poorest countrys must pay debts that they didn’t incur.
4. the 20% of in of world population in developed countrys consume more then
86% of the worlds goods.
5. In 1960, 20% of the population of rich countrys had 30 times the income of
20% of the people of poor countrys — in 1997, 74 times as much.
6. Developed countrys pay back 13$ for each $ they receive in grants.
a. Poor people give more to the rich then the rich to the poor
7. About 790.000.000 people in developing countrys are chronically underfed.
9.6 Multinational corporations
The modern economy is dominated by Multinational corporations that no longer
respect borders and have their loyalty in profit. Governments must take
corporations into account instead of corporations taking government into
account. Now corporations have grown so big and independent their biggest goal
apparently is <profit>. This may seem quite logical because this is what makes
corporations big, if they don’t make profit someone else will come along that
does. Now transport is (still?) cheap, it is possible to have work occur where
it is cheap and to sell the product on the other side of the planet where you
can earn money from it. It is profitable to produce where it is cheap (3rd
world) and sell where it is priced (1st world). The production in 3rd world
countrys is usually accompanied by extremely low wages and very bad working
conditions (and no environmental laws that are enforced). Big pharmaceutical
companys have on multiple occasions prosecuted smaller firm’s from poor
country’s that were producing cheap usefull medicine, because they threatened
their expensive but very profitable medicine!

9.7 Conclusion
The disparing cliff between rich and poor is growing rapidly, poor live in very
bad conditions and form beside an ongoing humanitarian disaster also a
potentially lethal breeding ground for disease. Many big companys conduct
business unfairly to their fellow weaker human beings and strangle them in their
pit of suffering. Perhaps the prophet Habbakuk saw this when he wrote
Verse 3:16:
I heard, and my belly began to be agitated; at the sound my lips quivered;
rottenness began to enter into my bones; and in my situation I was agitated,
that I should quietly wait for the day of distress, for [his] coming up to the
people, [that] he may raid them.

I hold these thoughts

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 10. Mainstream Media

10.1 Introduction
"After you've had somebody say to you for the thousandth time, “How come we
never hear about these issues in the media,” you start to realize that the media
itself is an issue." –Svend Robinson 1997

Now companys do not respect the borderys of countrys, have grown and becoming
big they cannot be thought away out of the modern life. Corporations are often
nations of their own, only not with borders but still with a variable people,
the consumer that they cant loose. Big corporations have extended their power
over unimaginably many aspects in the modern life, now they have even begun to
own media outlets, especially in the US but increasingly also elsewhere. Media
outlets are often payed to broadcast certain topics. There isnt a lot left of
journalism, much is censored and most of the news is prepackaged and delivered
to the news agencies front door.
10.2 Motivation
“Everywhere in America, there are offices which represent newsrooms, in these
offices there are people whom represent journalists, but do not practice
journalism. It isn’t journalism, because it does not regard the viewer – or in
the case of newsbroodcasts, doesn’t serve the viewer as master”
-John S Caroll 2004 (een Los Angelos Times Editor)
I consider the thought that the loyalty of the mainstream media is not with the
viewer or listener but with anyone backstage, advertisers?

10.3 The Information

I am personally very distatisfied with the news we do get from the Middle-East,
we practically only get death counts of both sides (note, Israelis get killed,
Lebanese just die) and what leaders say. But we hardly ever get to hear where
Hizbollah at all gets it rockets and neither where Israel gets them from,
neither where the weapons are produced or even which pathological criminal
manufactured them, produced them and delivered them. Apparantly, the USA does
all this for Israel.
The ratios of the news also seem immensely unbalanced, the sportspage count
above 10 daily, including a 2 page photograph of the local football team while
the messages about the crises in the middle-east do not even go over half a
page! I have yet to see any mainstream article to tell us about <any>
interesting aspects about the situation there.
I have to commit a lot of my effort to my own research, looking up hard to find
alternative news to in the remotest distance make any sense of it. It probably
is impractical for the common people, to get remotely well informed about it
themselves, certainly if they are stuck to leasure time (television & etcetera).
My own effort is made possible by the vacation I currently enjoy.

10.4 Conclusion
The information we get does not get through to the majority of the people, to
people that matter <to any extend> and the mainstream media doesn’t appear to
want this to happen either.
I hold chapter 10 in my thoughts.

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 11. Quotes
11.1 Introduction
Some words of famous people are very well recorded in history books, because
these sayings often have a hardcore truth from which we can learn a lot. I will
now try to share some wisdoms.
11.2 The quotes
Education... has produced a vast population able to read but unable to
distinguish what is worth reading. -G M Trevelyan 1924

George Washington had a vision for this country. Was it three days of
uninterrupted shopping? -Jeff Melvion

America is a large, friendly dog in a very small room. Every time it wags its
tail, it knocks over a chair. –Arnold Toynbee

The thing that impresses me the most about America is the way parents obey their
children –King Edward VIII

Isn't it interesting that the same people who laugh at science fiction listen to
weather forecasts and economists? –Kelvin Throop III

In the business world, the rearview mirror is always clearer than the
windshield.. -Warren Buffett

Since a politician never believes what he says, he is quite surprised to be

taken at his word. –Charles De Gaulle

If god wanted us to vote, he would have given us candidates –Jay Leno

Politicians are the same everywhere, they promise to build bridges even where
there is no water –Nikita Khrushchev

The people that need love the most deserve it the least -someone

Albert Einstein:
I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will
be fought with sticks and stones.

It is a miracle curiousity survives formal education.

The important thing is to never stop questioning.

The most incomprehensible thing about the world is that it is at all

comprehensible

The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources.

Too many of us look upon Americans as dollar chasers. This is a cruel libel,
even if it is reiterated thoughtlessly by the Americans themselves.

11.3 BibleVerses
John 8:32
“and YOU will know the truth, and the truth will set YOU free.”

John 8:34
Jesus answered them: “Most truly I say to YOU, Every doer of sin is a slave of
sin.

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Mark 12:41-44
And he sat down with the treasury chests in view and began observing how the
crowd was dropping money into the treasury chests; and many rich people were
dropping in many coins. Now a poor widow came and dropped in two small coins,
which have very little value. So he called his disciples to him and said to
them: “Truly I say to YOU that this poor widow dropped in more than all those
dropping money into the treasury chests; for they all dropped in out of their
surplus, but she, out of her want, dropped in all of what she had, her whole
living.”

John 15:18,19
If the world hates YOU, YOU know that it has hated me before it hated YOU. If
YOU were part of the world, the world would be fond of what is its own. Now
because YOU are no part of the world, but I have chosen YOU out of the world, on
this account the world hates YOU.

Matthew 24:12
“and because of the increasing of lawlessness the love of the greater number
will cool off.”
12. The End
12.1 America
I have begun to understand that respect for America has diminished since the 2nd
world war, after the cold war and especially after G W Bush began his reign. In
my opinion America has become the epicentre of disaster on earth, because it
causes this on multiple dimensions.
12.2 And Now
I don’t know the future, I don’t know her at all. I don’t know what the future
looks like. But I cannot imagine that there will be any child that will not grow
up and not be witness of catastrophy, if we aren’t already. I have hope because
I believe in the good will of Jehovah God and the future kingdom of heaven, but
we’r not there yet.
12.3 Relativity
Everything is relative, if there werent an intelligent being, there would be
nothing that was thought about. By ouer perception and intelligence we can pull
conclusions, are these the right ones? If we look outside we can witness the
earth being flat, yet with knowledge we know that it is round.

12.4 Conclusion
It is now known that I have grown an aversion for modern society. It seems that
the world will “end with all her desire” in my life. But what about it anyway?
What can I do? I am this little person on my little chair sitting under these
little lights, watching the little click tick away bigtime. I held all these
thoughts and I centomplate them, I look around me and conclude, This isn’t a
simple matter.

What do I do?

Je suis seulement la poussière

I am only the dust

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