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A LIFE KILLED OFF

An exposition based on real accounts

by

Anonymous Voice

Foreword
This exposition does not explore questions or ideas in ways that are exceptionally literary. It presents the accounts in it as factually as possible as related to the events and their activities that have surrounded me for many years. With limited elegance and nes in the writing, this exposition is written in sections as a different expression of the events would have it told as a story. And this was not my intention. The names of people and places mentioned in this exposition have at times been changed from their true names or not mentioned at all while some are referred to by their true names. I have done this to protect the identity of those who may come to be harassed for their mention here, and also to protect my own identity from being discovered. As much as I have shared the story of my victimization with people over the years, it has happened that those who have been tampering with and sabotaging my efforts in life have at times sought out the people and places I mention in the accounts of my victimization. The result has been these people being harassed and or intimidated, some of them telling me over the years they can no longer stay in contact with me for fear of what might be done to them; it is a case of duress.

Preface
Before reading this exposition you must be clear on the point that I have been a target and victim to efforts against me for over a decade. It is very possible you will be fed information to lead you to think the worst of me, and that is assuming my true identity becomes known, however keep in mind I am a target and victim which explains such secretive attempts to discredit me. This is not an autobiography nor a chronological account of events, but rather it is a presentation of happenings to help understand the impact my victimization has had on my life. The accounts are from about 2000 although in some cases the events go back to beyond this date, however it was around 2000 the activities which have targeted me started in a pronounced and evident way. And they have continued until today, the last days of February, 2012. As of today I face what is by all indications the end of my time unless some drastic change in my life is offered to me through the compassion and humanity of others. In my third career as a writer having written several novels, but not having received a penny from the sales of them to-date, I had moved on from my former two careers out of necessity: the efforts targeting me required me to leave my rst, professional, career, and my second which saw me working abroad for nearly ten years. I now nd myself faced with a path that only makes one option available to me in continuing this destroyed life, and it is a grossly compromising consideration while I continue to be either taken advantage of or compromised in the things I do: it is a case of abuse. The only option of employment offered to me is work-from-home programs which would have me post advertisements for consumer products and services on the Internet. And while those offering these programs to me may consider the gesture to be helpful, it is a debatable point. And you will see as you read further on in this exposition why I say that. From my perspective it is a very demeaning prospect that still leaves me in a terrible circumstance day to day and in my life overall. Having said that, I have always been and still am a supporter of the activities of commerce and the production and marketing of consumer products. My former career was in the manufacture of consumer products where I supported the production and marketing of them. And to avoid any misunderstandings, it is the lack of consideration for my training, experience, and accomplishments in this only offer extended to me that causes me to react to it with disinterest. I am on the verge of being penniless where the consideration of applying for bankruptcy passed many years ago, and my nal attempt to publish my latest novel has been met with suppressive efforts. Soon it will be several weeks since my rst correspondences to have the novel self-published, but I have not been able to move ahead with this for problems that have suddenly and suspiciously shown themselves; print on demand publishers have refused me as a paying customer who wants to publish a novel when they have not even seen the manuscript, and another print on demand publisher accepted to publish the book through a beta program which required more time than I have to wait, and when I decided to bypass the program and take up their offered service which accepted payment for the publication of a 4

novel, they refused to publish my book and without having seen the manuscript. While I looked forward to some personal fulllment in putting the novel in peoples hands, it has also been my hope to earn money from the sales of it. I shall be penniless soon. My writing of this exposition is not a ruse to sway the opinion of an agent or publisher to get my book published, it is a last effort to share a story with people which will become part of my legacy, and hopefully help save my name when I am gone through those who know my true identity. My pleas to people for assistance in safe accommodation and the provision of funds to live with have gone unanswered, and this includes the option of assistance from my government in Canada. At one time I would never consider receiving government benets, having been regularly employed since graduating with my degree and even before that time, working on a part-time basis. On numerous occasions in my life I received the compliment of having a good work ethic, and the consideration of receiving government benets is entirely a last desperate effort on my part to nd a way of earning income with some stability and reliability. Also, it offers the chance to me to stay clear of those situations which are problematic and hinder my ability to function in life in a normal or decent manner. However even in this nal plea to my government I received replies from them which were of little assistance in helping me understand if the option is viable for the circumstances that surround me, leaving me to take a considerable risk in returning to my country of origin to reside. As you read further on in this exposition you will appreciate how complicated the entire matter of my circumstances can be, and have been for many years. With no money, no reasonable option for employment, no safe place to live from the harassment that targets me, and no concrete assistance offered for either of these, I look ahead to what, in short time, will be a logical and difcult to refute situation that will see the end of my days; my death. It is because of my victimization that I have lost everything in life my child, my family and friends, the chance to experience the fulllment of working in the eld I am trained for, the chance to be recognized for my success in the things I do, the chance to be shown dignity and respect, and any hope for a future that will offer these. To continue within my circumstances is not reasonable any longer, and anyone who does not see this should consider themselves a person who is showing their naivete about such matters. The following famous saying is so apropos for anyone who tries to judge me without understanding my victimization Dont judge a man until youve walked a mile in his shoes? Perhaps this is a chance for such people to form a better understanding of these problems among us, albeit it comes at the expense of my life. And as you read further you will come to appreciate the circumstances I refer to and how they create a situation which, in my case, is not worth continuing on in for the victimization aspects of it which include widespread monitoring, regular harassment in the forms of stalking and antagonism, oppression, being denied dignity and respect, and opportunistic attitudes toward me that benet from my actions without me being permitted the same opportunity. And as I have said, I will soon be penniless having received no nancial support after pleas for it, and the option of working to earn, as I have done throughout my adult life, is no longer realistic or reasonable for my circumstances. 5

Contents 1 2 3 4 5 6 7

I Am More Credible Than People Would Lead You To Believe My Marriage Why Did I Leave Canada? The Mystery Of The Jewelry Why Earning Income Has Been A Problem The Difculties In Living Day To Day Why? Footnotes Appendix

1 I Am More Credible Than People Would Lead You To Believe.

One of the most difcult obstacles in my one dozen plus years as a target and victim has been the display of unfounded and unjustied arrogance toward me. And that is to say people have acted toward me to show they have (or have revealed to have) an exaggerated sense of their own importance or abilities, and which is what arrogance is despite any other connotative meanings given to it. In this section I will impress upon you the credibility of my words, and also how the words and actions of others against me as part of my victimization have been illegitimate and spawned from intentions to discredit and suppress me. If you are familiar with the term (gang) stalking, which the Whitehouse has issued a public statement about regarding the necessity for improved awareness of people about it, you will understand that my above comment about actions to discredit me are forms of gang stalking. This is an excerpt from the Whitehouses pubic statement. Persistent stalking and harassment can lead to serious consequences for victims, whose lives may be upended by fear. Some victims may be forced to take extreme measures to protect themselves such as changing jobs, relocating to a new home, or even assuming a new identity. Firstly let us consider the simplistic and childlike manner of many smears against me over the years, and which have boldly asked to see evidence of claims of mine only to attempt to further discredit me by questioning the proof shown and in irrational ways. For instance, in the case of my undergraduate degree diploma, my antagonizers have at times over the years said I have not actually studied to earn my degree. These are the same people who are not capable of understanding enough about my degree for their limited mental capacity that they cannot make an informed comment about it, and hence only deny the fact and accuse that my diploma is fake as they have shown to be incapable of doing much more than that. My undergraduate degree is in the eld of engineering and I earned that bachelors degree in Canada. A four year program, the degree is recognized by the Canadian government, and while different names are given to the many various degrees available, my degree is among them and is recognized by other countries as well. Without this degree I could not have been accepted to a Masters program or a graduate program. Incidentally, the college I studied my graduate program at is the same college I later was an instructor at. My list of academic achievements include my degree; my Masters studies; my graduate studies; other certicates in managing skills and areas of business, and more technical techniques. And add to this a list of approximately one dozen training courses and seminars in various areas of personal and professional skills development, and psychology courses in my formal studies and other reading in that eld. 7

 One highlight in my studies is scoring not only at the top of my university class in a particular course: a grade in the ninety-ninth percentile, but my grade was in the ninety-ve to one hundred percent range, A++. And while this may be of interest purely for academic reasons, it is also signicant for what the course taught about and the skills required to be successful in it. This particular course required students to work with various ideas and concepts in developing a business model, and while the nature of the course material was oriented to business and the manufacture of products, it fundamentally tested students in their ability to apply various ideas and concepts and work with the relationships between them. This is as per the courses description. My success in this area appears to support a later nding when I was assessed by the method of Myers-Briggs Personality Type Indicator (MBTI). As per the MBTI assessment I was found to be in a grouping that applies only to a small percentage of people. This testing was part of professional development training and was offered to dozens of managers, supervisors, and team leaders by a licensed psychologist at a Fortune multi-national company. I later received the same testing by another licensed practitioner of MBTI as part of the outplacement services offered by another Fortune multi-national company upon the end of my work with them. And again I was assessed to be in the same grouping/category. Why should this be signicant? It is signicant because many others often nd it an arduous effort to interact with people in this category, who tend to see things in a very rational manner and bring with them a natural condence. This is not a comprehensive look at the personality type, but sufce it to say people often nd those in this group not easy to relate to. Perhaps another way of saying this is that people often nd it difcult to understand those in this grouping. And while this does not mean the people in this grouping have anything wrong with them or that they communicate poorly they in fact have the strong trait of making rational evaluations and judgements it does highlight the differences between people and how some nd it difcult to deal with others who are different than themselves. This should offer some insight as to why others can be intimidated by, or at times have difculty understanding or interacting with, people in this category despite them being very rational. One vocation where this personality type is often found is in the position of executive, and others are vocations where strong skills of imagination, creativity, and rational thinking are helpful. So as much as I offer this is an example of my credibility in the things I say and do, it also helps explain smears against me and attempts to discredit me by those who simply are not capable of understanding me. It has been a long standing burden of mine to try to create understanding in people I have interacted with about the differences among people, and how they do not imply there is anything wrong with a person who is different than another, but rather how it merely shows people are different in some way. Intolerance toward anything different than oneself is an ugly trait leading to prejudice and even racism. And for the sake of clarity pertaining to how the word prejudice is used in this exposition and different than the more common connotative meaning of it prejudice is dened as a preconceived opinion that is not based on reason or actual experience, and it occurs when a dislike, hostility, or unjust behavior is formed on such a basis. I interject here an additional thought about another burden I have had to carry 8

for years as a result of my victimization, and which has been my ongoing and tiresome discussions with people in trying to get them to fully understand the workings of my victimization as they apply to a t/v who suffers for them. I look at this point again further in this exposition where it becomes evident the matter comes down to people not understanding, and likely for either their indifference, which may stem from intolerance toward that which they do not know of, or their laziness, or more simply a lack of caring. For all the self-serving excuses I have heard over the years about my victimization that try to justify a person's inability to appreciate something they do not know of very well, or is simply different than them, lets consider the case of things being done 'properly' versus making excuses to avoid having to do such. It is a subjective area especially for those who try to defend their position which is based on intolerance for not understanding something or because something is different, but when a life is at stake I think the time has arrived to look at the matter without any bias that attempts to cover up an undesirable trait in people. Many successful and progressive organizations in the world provide training to their staff in the area of personality types with the intention of having people trained to be able to work effectively with others, regardless of the differences among the people involved. Granted, an objective of this training is to ensure the right t between people working together is found, and that people are in an area of work which ts with their personal traits. However in looking at an ideal situation which utilizes this training, a person would be able to get along with anyone they must work with. That person who has difculty getting along with someone, in this ideal scenario, would have a shortcoming in their skills or abilities in working with someone who is different than them in some way. Hence the situation where they do not like someone, nd someone difcult, or simply feel they cannot work with someone. In this ideal situation it is not to label the person who another has trouble working with, they are who they are, however it is to identify the shortcoming in the person who cannot work with them. Many successful leaders and people have been able to get along, so to speak, with whomever they must interact with in their area of work. That is to say they have mastered the ability to get along with everyone despite any differences with the people involved. In conceptual or analogous terms, if we look at this problem as a matter of doing things 'properly' versus not, we see how there is a way to avoid the slighting of people in attitudes and opinions while dealing with differences among people, as opposed to outlooks and actions that resemble prejudice for the reason a person is not trying to be objective. It is in trying that one strives for the proper way, which is effective as it avoids what resembles prejudice and moves to create an effective relationship with people that includes a sense of acceptance of it by both parties. I put the word properly in quotes as the idea of doing something a best way can be subjective depending on a situation and who is involved in it, but we must accept there are certain fundamental objectives to be met in doing something. And this would apply to the interactions between people that are also based on certain fundamental objectives. Societies, organizations, and nations depend on this in order to have people live together in a civilized manner. Anyone who does not agree with this is likely the type of person whose fundamental beliefs are what would be considered questionable, 9

especially given that a life is at stake as a result of the problem in this case. If a person has this different moral ber they will likely be among those who ght the ideas in this exposition, when it is telling the story of a person's life killed off for no good reason and for the presence of intolerant attitudes, which could be considered prejudice. And I think that says it all. When excuses are made to cover up the gap between existing ways and the proper way, we nd ourselves challenged without want for it by situations that are embarrassing if not ugly and that create difculties and problems. A good example to consider in this is the SARS epidemic, Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome. And while it is not specic to interactions between people, in an analogous way it is about doing something properly as should be done in the interactions among, and in the development of attitudes toward, people. The SARS epidemic that threatened the world could go down in history as an example of how the norms that have developed among us are detrimental to people and the world. Within the idea of doing things 'properly' versus not, in the case of the SARS breakout and epidemic, it was shown that approaches which preferred to cater to hiding the truth for the sake of saving face caused the iniction of the disease on thousands of people around the world. And had the World Health Organization not become involved, the deaths would have been higher with the spread of SARS reaching even further across the globe. In basic terms this problem which saw thousands of people inicted and nearly 1,000 dead from it was facilitated by people and groups that hid the truth about the initial reported cases of SARS. The problem was there, and people were dying as a result of it, but instead of applying sound and rational approaches to resolve the problem, the matter was purposely played down to appear to not be signicant, with little reasonable effort to nd the root cause of the problem and control the problem once it was known of. We ended up with a globalscale epidemic for the actions of those who chose to not try to do things 'properly'. Perhaps this also serves to reinforce my comment about the burden I have carried in trying to create understanding in people about this subject, that is to say people making excuses to defend themselves when their actions are based on intolerance. And as I write this I am compelled to share this quote by the American author Elbert Hubbard (who wrote the essay A Message to Garcia in 1899). Genius may have its limitations, but stupidity is not thus handicapped. This is to say actions and decisions that are not based on intelligence or good sense can continue without bounds. It could be said the authorities initially involved with the mismanagement of the SARS outbreak were intolerant of other ways of handling the problem, as it meant doing things in a different way than they were accustomed to or willing to consider, despite the alternative being more effective. Some may wave the ag of culture in defense of the actions and behaviors of the people and groups involved, however given the disastrous result is now known such a claim only serves to embarrass the concept of culture as applied here, as well as those who try to cover up the matter with the excuse of culture. A good example I would say of making excuses to cover up the fact that little or no effort to do things 'properly' was made. And as a result thousands of people were infected with nearly 1,000 dying. This example while offering a look at ideas that are relevant to my point about 10

intolerance, at the same time is a bit personal to me as I was among those who were threatened by the SARS epidemic while those who invited me to the foreign country took no action to ensure my safety. To my point about getting along with those different than us, the excuses that try to cover up the intolerance of people toward those that are different, and the lack of trying to be effective in face of the differences, serve to reinforce those actions which bring harm to others. In this case the attitudes have helped facilitate the killing off of a person's life. Where has it ever been shown that the killing of people is permitted in the name of culture? Where has it ever been shown that culture supersedes laws? And for those who will argue this point with the defense of religion or faith and the beliefs therein that permeate a culture, I challenge them to make it publicly known that they condone the killing of people who have done no wrong nor present any harm and who are simply different. I suggest the excuse of culture in this manner will fail as the admission exposes an ugliness which is not accepted in the civilized world. And if the world has changed to become uncivilized to accept such monstrous thinking, the killing of innocent, harmless people for no other reason than they are different, I would say it is a good time for a person to reassess living in it. I have always enjoyed watching movies for the entertainment provided in them, while being shown the many different aspects of the world around us in different creative ways. But, I think the subject at hand which can be looked at as a matter of societal norms, and the straying of those norms from what are considered good things, has created a problem in the appreciation of the messages offered in the stories of movies. An incidental problem in this discussion, but at the same time a problem I suggest, is the result of the inability or unwillingness (or intolerance) of people to strive to see and understand things more properly. The well-known lecture given by the character Gordon Gecco in the movie Wall Street II where he talks to an auditorium of students is telling. He says Now I have been considered a pretty smart guy when it comes to nance. Maybe I was in prison too long, but sometimes it is the only place to stay sane, looking out from the bars and saying, hey is everyone out there nuts? It is clear as a bell to those who pay attention. The mother of all evil is speculation. Leverage debt. The bottom line is borrowing to the hilt. And I hate to tell you this, but it is a bankrupt business model. It will not work. It is septicemic, malignant and its global. Like cancer, it is a disease. Granted the passage refers to matters of nance, but what is fundamentally said by it is how people have taken to do things which have shown to be bad for society and ultimately themselves. These things are so bad in fact that in the passage they are referred to as septicemic, malignant and cancerous. Yet, people do them. My look at intolerance through the SARS example and doing things properly may be somewhat esoteric, and to help the understanding of it, in fundamental terms just as the practices that put peoples lives at risk occurred while better practices were available, but not used because those involved were not willing to consider (or tolerate) views, beliefs, or behaviors that differed from their own: this can be described as an intolerant culture in this case the people who are not willing (or tolerant) to understand others who are different than them in some way chose to take this outlook while better outlooks that do not threatened the life of a person for their being different are available. 11

 People have tried to defend this outlook of non-willingness which takes place in many if not most people by claiming that is how people are, meaning it is an inherent trait in people and as such it represents a case where that is simply how things are, so to speak. And while this could be said, at the same time it reinforces my point which is that the overwhelmingly seen trait of unwillingness as applied against someone like me, in my case has helped kill off my life. While people try to excuse the harmful trait by saying it is natural in a way, I maintain it is the thinking that tries to excuse it which adds to the problem of it not receiving proper attention. When all is said and done a persons life and they them self will have been killed off for the intolerance of people, in part, to try or be willing to consider something different than themselves. An ugly traits is still an ugly trait regardless of excuses that try to make it appear to be anything else. And the concept of norms is looked at later in this exposition. I share this excerpt from Flirting With Disaster, The same norm of politics trumps safety led to the destruction of Challenger, delayed the deployment of FEMA resources to New Orleans after Kartina, and turned Cheryonbil from a local accident to a large-scale disaster whose consequences spanned national borders and passed radioactive toxins down to succeeding generations.[1] And while the specic norm referred to is how the activities of politics supersede safety, in my look at norms it is this same idea of norms, which is how people take to practices that are harmful, and continue with them such that more people conform to them, that when applied to peoples trait of unwillingness to understand or to try to understand a person who is a bit different, it has served to create part of my victimization. I look at the concept of normality later in this exposition, but here I will point out there are many different norms as applied to people. A norm, a standard or pattern especially of social behavior that is typical, and as the quotes about this in this exposition show, the norms that have developed among people in our societies are far from what is considered good. This excerpt is from a manual for MBTI. How others may see the personality type This personality type loves, and is energized by, stimulating interactions with people. They often challenge statements and behaviors, expecting that others will defend them and that, as a result, mutual learning will take place. It is my estimate that a likely problem in my victimization has been that while I look at interactions as a way of learning, there appears to be little interest in these times to learn in this manner. A strong movement toward social norms which prefer to save face and become sensitive to anyone that challenges a person, even if it is merely in the casual exchange of words in a conversation, has created a preference to not appreciate the communication style, regardless of it being rational, fair, and objective. There have been those who have shared their concerns about a dumbing down effect showing itself in the world, and that many societies and their norms have moved more to am attitude of anti-intellectualism. Reports have been made about military groups spraying chemicals into the atmosphere with the intention of impairing the use of peoples memories. And if a persons ability to speak and act intelligently stems from what they know (or learned), be it short-term memory or long-term memory, I would say if a persons memory is affected they can be considered to be dumbed-down, let alone intellectual. Suggestions have been made this technique, referred to as chemtrails, is spoken of in bills in the 12

United States government, however the matter is ofcially denied. I nd it interesting and noteworthy that Stephen Hawking, arguably one of the most intelligent people on the planet, is in the news at times to say he has a preference to teach children than adults, as adults are not very interested to listen to his ideas. The thinking which keeps to the same approaches and tries to hide the fact that the objectives sought continue to not be met leads me to share this quote about behaviors and expectations. Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results. These are the thoughts of Albert Einstein, the GermanAmerican physicist who discovered special relativity in 1905 and general relativity 1915-1916, and explained photoelectric effect and Brownian motion. He also won the Nobel Prize in Physics in 1921. But back to Introduction to Type which says The personality type prefers that things be settled and clear, but their love of ideas can pull them into wide-ranging intuitive exploration and discussion. Their verbal uency, decisiveness, self-condence, and urge to organize others can overpower people at times. A bizarre and boggling aspect of my victimization at times has been the situation where people have tested me in staged situations to determine if I am the type of person I say I am. If I shared with someone that I have a particular trait about myself, I then faced staged situations with people and activities I was involved with that were for the purpose of testing me to verify my claim. What purpose does this serve? To consider that those treating me like a rat in an experiment were satised that I am as I had said, only adds that much more confusion and disorientation in my life which still is headed toward its end. It would seem there are those involved in my victimization who are playing the role of mad scientist, so to speak, treating me like an experimental object while watching my life be destroyed and doing nothing to help it, only antagonize it. I think a most revealing aspect of attitudes and impressions toward people of my personality type is shown in the following excerpt from Introduction to Type. Others usually see the personality type as direct, challenging, decisive, objective, fair, and stimulating. If I am seen as objective and fair what is this saying about those who smear and try to discredit me for my actions and words because of our differences? They apparently do not appreciate one who speaks and acts with objectiveness and fairness, leaving themselves to be biased or even prejudiced, or simply put, unjust. I think the methods of people who intentionally try to smear me speak for themselves, as cyber stalking, spying on a persons home, and their activities and conversations in the area the live in, and all of it done in secret without allowing the target of their activities, me, to properly defend myself against gossip that smears me, reveals the duplicity and questionable actions of these people. Simply put, why do they smear and discredit from hiding and in a way that does not allow me to defend myself ? Turning to my work history, it has offered me the chance to work for some of the most successful companies in the world where I held management positions, leadership roles, and rose to manage people and entire departments. And it happened in this rst career of mine where I was promoted in world-class calibre companies, that I was rst informed about a noteworthy ability some thought I had. I was referred to as a secret weapon by my boss at the time who was in an executive position at this Fortune multi-national company and who was responsible for an entire country. And it 13

was while working for this company that I was invited to participate in meetings regarding global business initiatives, where I sat with people from countries around the world including Vice Presidents in working through business model development exercises. During that career in which I worked mainly in Fortune multi-national companies, I was responsible for directly leading initiatives that improved business performance to the amount of approximately one million dollars per annum. I interviewed and hired staff and even conducted interviews at one of Canadas most well respected Universities. My positions were in global scale companies that produce many of the popular consumer products people across the world enjoy. These are complicated environments that bring together technologies, mechanical processes, materials, people, and information in producing high-quality products to designated specications. My personal and professional references throughout my career have included a former Vice President who is a P. Eng., and a personal friend from as far back as my youth who today is a Professor at an Ivy League University. And an additional reference, which is more a case of praise for my performance in providing language communication skills training, was by a former student who was a corporate lawyer for an international company operating in China. He said I was the best trainer he ever had a compliment which is golden among the many smears, half-truths, misleading statements, misrepresentations, and outright lies made against me over the years. And nally, before you venture ahead into this exposition to read the accounts in it, I will state that numerous people who know of my victimization have suggested that I take my own life to escape the indecent prison-like circumstances unfairly forced on me.

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2 My Marriage
I write this section for the possibility the failing of my marriage may in some way be either a part of the cause of my victimization, or may have served to add to the problems I have faced in it. I cannot be entirely certain about this, however the suggestions have been made and therefore I write about it here. My uncertainty in this stems from the fact the person or group that has made it their mandate to kill ones life off does not step up to say it is they who are doing it. If they did, they would be in jail for their actions. If I have been held to blame for some reason to do with my marriage and as a result this has contributed to my victimization, I share the following with you to reveal the truth against any malicious smears against me regarding this unfortunate event in my life. In one phrase my marriage can be summed up as a heartbreaking experience: it was a mockery of my love and caring in it. It was when the relationship faced its end that it showed the true essence of my wifes feelings toward me and the marriage. When the time required words and actions that showed the commitment promised in the marriage, what was instead revealed was the truth about words spoken as promises. And when it became clear the relationship was based on sentiments expressed but not sincerely meant was when the beginning of the end of it started. When a showing of care and an emotional expression of love was required, what was seen was a facade that gave the impression it was incapable of these when in truth they were in fact capable of being shown. It is still boggling as to why my ex-wife would deny our relationship the intimacy and emotional support it needed, and while we did have moments of closeness at times, it was her later revelation that she could have offered more but did not that exposed the matter as another falsehood. When I was presented with an opportunity to advance my career and my ex-wife responded to the situation with a childlike tantrum and emotional collapse, was when she showed her loyalty was to other things and not to her promises made to me, our relationship, and our marriage. I will add that her setting of priorities created very strong limitations on my ability to have a successful career, and all the while I was providing the main income which we lived with. It became a matter of one not being permitted to have the tools they need to fulll the expectation of them. And as the truth revealed itself at the crux of the relationship, my ex-wife confessed she married me for the things I could offer her because of my career and yet she denied us the benet of my career, at one point forcing a potential breakup because of her preference to not follow opportunities for advancement in my work to other cities. This undermining of our marriage was further fueled when she shared that she was falling out of love with me, as she put it, before fully admitting she never really did love me, but was attracted by the thought of the money I would earn in my career. 15

 Hindsight offers clarity about things which have happened in the past, and I now know the falsehoods the relationship was based on were confused by my blind love for my wife. I never really had a chance in the marriage. The best option would have been to not marry her at all. As in many marriage breakdowns people take sides and self-servingly twist the facts and happenings to serve their opinion, and so I defer the matter of the reasons for the end of my marriage and pursuant divorce to the professionals. After visiting two relationship/marriage counsellors on three different occasions, the outcomes showed the reasons for the end of our marriage. And I as I think back to my ex-wifes actions in these efforts to save our marriage, I cringe for the embarrassment I feel over it. How could I have been so blind? The one counsellor who as an MD (medical doctor) wrote in his le, the marriage is over, the wife has nothing to say. The other, a female social worker/relationship counsellor, sat wide-eyed when hearing my wife's suggestion that buying a bigger house was a way to address the emotional void in our marriage and its breakdown. However, the one good thing to come from my marriage is my son. In him my name can continue. Of the siblings in my family he is the only male offspring to continue with my family name. A bit nostalgic perhaps, but when all else is taken from a person's life the thought of a remembrance of them having been there is comforting. I did what I could to have a relationship with my son and it was an effort made difcult for his young age and my having relocated out of the city afterwards. The trips from about a half hour away were not so bad that we could spend good time together on weekends, however when I was forced to take work back in my hometown which was several hours away the regular commutes became a problem. I remember the words of friends who said I would run myself into the ground for the many hours I spent driving, even into the night, to spend time with my son. A Friday night saw me drive about a half dozen hours to bring my son back to where I lived so he could spend time with his grandparents. These were short visits as Sunday came quickly and another trip of many hours awaited me before I was soundly back home. I hope I established some type of decent familiarity toward me by my son, as later years saw him talk with me less and less for problems from the separation and divorce. I found I could only try and try, but if there was no desire to reciprocate the effort I could not do much else to get him to stay in touch. And the problems created by my circumstances served as a negative inuence on him to stay in touch with me I believe, like many who have become inuenced by some type of duress on them for my victimization. However yet while this was a problem for people like my son to stay in touch with me, this apparent fact was apparently never considered by many who still deny the truth of my victimization. How sad. So how does my marriage t into my victimization? The breakdown of my marriage served to strain relationships with people in my family, an aspect of my circumstances which progressively became worse to leave me more and more isolated. After my separation I saw darker times for the onslaught of opinion against me from some in my family, and there was nothing I could do to save the marriage having made several attempts to do so. I became depressed, a feeling that lasted about one year. And after pulling myself out of it with the help of a few and getting on with my life, I later went abroad in search of a new one. The reasons for leaving my country 16

are explained later in this exposition. As the years passed as I was abroad my relationships with those from my past became progressively distant. There were those I knew from my youth and my youngadult life, who naturally one loses touch with over time as their life takes its own direction, and then there were those who were closer friends and family. In most cases of these relationships, save one or two, my circumstances and past events in the relationships left them to deteriorate drastically over the years. There are those who cannot appreciate my circumstances as a target/victim (t/v) which makes it perilous to speak with them about it; then there are those who have betrayed my trust, members of my sibling family who invaded my privacy and were talking with others in my family about me behind my back, or who told lies about me to authorities in Canada; and then there are those who I lost touch with for the years that passed, making it somewhat unreasonable to redevelop the same relationship as years earlier. And as I say, there are one or two with whom I have a relationship which I consider trustworthy, but in the face of my circumstances and the void of the possibility they can be of assistance, the satisfaction in talking about inconsequential matters when faced with grave decisions becomes little, and over time, frustrating. One particular case where a friend who stayed in touch with me over the years and who knew of my circumstances was forced to stop corresponding with me. His support was appreciated so much over the years where I could talk somewhat to the problems made for me, however he later explained he could no longer stay in touch with me as he and his wife had a child, with the suggestion he feared his child might suffer in some way for his speaking with me. What monsters are behind my victimization they would harm the young and defenseless innocent? With respect to my efforts to stay in touch with my son after going abroad, and even my parents, having gone so far as installing a web cam on my computer in my parent's home the web camera was never used and we only talked if I called, with my PC later thrown out in the trash after my parents death and without my knowing it. From my perspective I felt like I was forgotten. I did the same with my son and his home computer, but we never had a web cam chat. I called and called from Japan, only to be subjected to abusive words and insults by my ex-wife who showed to have no interest in inuencing my son to maintain a relationship with me. Over time my emails to him were not responded to and calling on the phone became what appeared to be more of a bother to my ex-wife and the home she created. So I stopped. I cannot explain how disheartening it was to try to be a part of my sons life when the feeling you are not wanted was so overwhelming. And as much as many have the natural instinct to argue in such a situation, it has been my experience a person cannot force another to truly care for them, facades based on fear aside. My son had over the years chatted with me by Internet however it was only from a city which appears to be what can be considered a safe city from the duress that has followed my circumstances. This makes it a case where my son was also under a type of duress that kept him from speaking with me, and which implies I could not realistically get him to talk with me. But from my perspective, again in my life I felt forgotten, and isolation is an objective of my victimization. All I wanted was to at least have the chance for a relationship with my son after a marriage that did not appreciate my love for it. And so as per my marriage and my 17

victimization, as Stephen Covey himself explains in his teachings about relationships, there does come a time when a person must chose the option of leaving for not being appreciated where they are.

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3 Why Did I Leave Canada?

Since living abroad people have suggested on several occasions I return to Canada. I write this section to explain why it is not viable or realistic for me to do so, and also to highlight a development among us that appears to have motivated this suggestion. And as much as this is a hush hush topic, one of those that exists but for different reasons people do not talk much about, I have nothing to lose in revealing this. By all indications I will see the end of my days shortly, unless drastic changes are permitted to me in my life. I want to be clear in saying the discussion at this point is not a rationalization which tries to point a nger at Canada, but the fact of the matter is my victimization did start there. If a persons life is left to be killed off and actions are permitted to happen that facilitate this, someone in the complexity of the circumstances must accept a responsibility for letting situations deny a person their rights and a right to security whereby they an their life are destroyed. Therefore in consideration of my victimization having started in Canada I must say this and talk about my reasons for leaving that country. But rst in looking at the development among us I refer to I jump ahead to my years in China after having left Canada. It was while in China some people there were made to leave the country for imitating and misrepresenting themselves as journalists. And also, some Internet bars were asking customers to show their passport as a way of validating the identity of people who used their services. Further, years later when in Thailand, a selection of location for its lesser cost of living which accommodated my dwindling funds, and which offered a warm climate that was more conducive to my health, I was involved in a conversation (with a foreigner) which was quite revealing. It revealed that a portion of people living in the United States had no passports. And this statement was later supported by the comments of another (foreigner) who was heard saying that about 30% of the United States population is of questionable origin, as in to say they are not originally from the US and their ultimate place of origin is unknown. These are bizarre statements, certainly, and their validity could be considered questionable, however the happenings over the years of my victimization have seen mysterious and suspicious people show up as per this topic, and I mention it for any inuence it may have on my circumstances. It was prior to leaving Canada that I witnessed a person who might be referred to as a look-like; it was a person who remarkably resembled a person I saw before. If this person is part of the same group which is this inexplicable situation of mysterious people with questionable identities and origin, it seems they are found to be in different countries around the world. This estimate is also supported by two sightings of people who have been reported to look like me. One account was by a (foreign) friend I made in Beijing, and the other by a Chinese woman I befriended also in Beijing. Both sightings were in Beijing. 19

 The suggestion of some considers this a situation whereby people have inexplicably come to be where they are and in the vocations they are. If this is true or not remains unknown to me, however I believe the suggestion that I return to my hometown in Canada is driven by this situation. And in saying this, you must understand that some have accused me of not being who I am, which while preposterous, indicates there does exist a belief among some that mysterious people are in fact among us. How else could such an accusation be made of me unless it is believed people who are misrepresenting themselves are among us. This has caused problems for me over the years as people who know me from my past are in Canada, and not in the countries and cities abroad where I have lived for many years. This has left me victim to the suspicions of those who believe there are fake people, or impostors, among us. And by my returning to my country of origin, the idea is it would be seen by those who watch me and my activities who would then accept I am who I say I am. An experience of mine which appears to have fueled the suspicion I am not who I say I am is the past processing of my passport. I hold more than one passport for the fact I am a citizen of more than one country, a common enough occurrence among many who have relocated to a different country or have their origins from a different country than where they grew up. It was in applying for my passport that it was ofcially issued to me by the authorities of that country and with information in it indicating I have no children. I offered the necessary information about my son from my former and only marriage, but for some reason the ofcial I spoke with did not want it. The passport was therefore issued to me as stating I have no children. I am unaware of the reason for which the ofce that issued my passport did this, however I am not an expert in government regulations and procedures as pertaining to passports, especially for matters that cross from one country to another. At a later date while in China my passport became lost: this was an accidental matter whereby my girlfriend at the time forgot my portfolio case in a taxi after her and I got out of the cab. The passport was lost and I applied for a new one through my embassy and received a replacement passport with the same information in it as the original. The passport I now hold has a reference number to the original passport. However the problem that has arisen over the last several years is people have noted my passport as showing I do not have children, when I do. And for this reason there have been unofcial accusations, misinformed gossip, toward me of not being who I am and that my passport is not genuine, when it is and that I fall into the group of fake people estimated to be among us, when I do not. I can physically return to Canada without fear, however to reside and restart my life there is no longer realistic. I tried this several years ago when living in another part of the country than my hometown and the complications associated with my circumstances as a t/v made it unrealistic. I made the effort for one year to resettle in Canada, but the results showed it was not going to happen without me being taken advantage of and treated unfairly by government groups there and their procedures for their nonacceptance of my circumstances. Also, the problems in living that stem from my circumstances once again showed themselves, albeit in a different part of Canada than where I am originally from. But back to the point of this section. In hindsight it appears what I experienced 20

in Canada, which I refer to as my circumstances, is part of my victimization that has spanned the globe to follow me to different continents and countries within them. In the years since initially leaving Canada in 2001 I have received several suggestions by people who have tried to explain why I have been forced into my circumstances. The theories range from me having been in some type of program all my life, a program that monitors me and my life and tests me; to another which maintains I am part of a secretive program which has been referred to as industrial espionage; to yet another that submits my circumstances are the result of my divorce or the matter of child support payments, which became a problem for my inability to earn due to my circumstances; and still a fourth that suggests I am part of a secretive experiment that started later in my life for (social) research purposes of some sort. What is the answer? I do not fully know. However the inexplicable and strange happenings that have plagued my activities, and by extension my life, have managed to destroy it and any realistic or reasonable chance to continue in it. Is Canada the culprit given my circumstances initially became apparent and evident there? I do not know exactly, but considering some of the theories about the cause of my victimization the suggestion that my country of origin is responsible does t. And then again, considering explanations offered about collaborations between groups in different countries that victimize people, it is possible another group is responsible for my circumstances. In this case Canada and other countries have facilitated my victimization while not necessarily ultimately responsible for creating them. However, regardless of what group is behind the creation of my circumstances, the effects of them on me and my life made it no longer reasonable or realistic to reside in Canada. It became a matter of self-preservation. Without going into extremely detailed and technical explanations here about how the workings of my victimization happen, and I will mention that in the past any evidence that has been offered was simply ignored or smeared for no good reason: people simply denied what was shown to them without a reasonable consideration of it, I do share some information about it later in this exposition. In this section I present accounts which show the effects of my victimization on my life in Canada. You must understand it is the mentality of denial which creates situations where a person is not believed to be who they are despite overwhelming evidence. People simply deny what is presented and with no good reason for it, making it self-serving prejudice. I have numerous pieces of identication from my past, with photos, and copies of diplomas, including my actual degree diploma in its large frame-size, dozens of business cards from people I have worked with and for positions I have held in the past, copies of correspondence from former employers, and personal references from very credible people. However, despite all this evidence of who I am, it is not believed by some and for no good reason as far as I know. Perhaps this is pointing a nger somewhat at the limited intelligence and general awareness of some who make claims that I am not who I am. And this is one of the many aspects of my victimization that have been dangerous to me, to have people make wrong judgements about me when so much evidence exists to the contrary. As subjective as it is to describe what constitutes a decent life, let alone a happy one, I suggest a person's sense of feeling safe and secure is an important consideration. Prior to my initial departure from Canada my life eroded due to my circumstances 21

and it no longer offered that sense of safety and security to me. And while my biological and physiological needs were met air, food, drink, shelter, and warmth, for a person who was at one time addressing issues at the top level, self-actualization, in Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs, this was not enough to consider a decent or adequate life. And in this decision was the fact that my safety needs, in so far as my well-being, were not met either. It is a matter of the perspective of one who sees their life from looking out from a higher level in Maslow's pyramid. I look at Maslows model of human motivation later in this exposition. However, irrespective of my situation having started in Canada, in the scenario where it would have been another country where my victimization started, I suggest the massive and forced compromise in my life would still cause a rational person to reevaluate it. My physical safety was not an immediate issue in Canada, although it did become an issue later after relocating to other countries, but my personal (emotional) well-being, as a safety need, was threatened. For the most part the relationships I had with people close to me or who I knew well became dysfunctional. And this was not simply a matter of bad relationships or relationships that were not as good as they could have been, but it was a situation where I suffered because of it, either in my reputation and credibility or in experiencing feelings of depression as a result of them. I found, for some inexplicable reason, people began behaving strangely when interacting with me. At times this phenomena showed itself as people repeating portions of conversations, verbatim, and which I had with them or others days before, and at other times as people simply not understanding my comments and thoughts shared in conversation. The situation of people not understanding another's ideas in conversation goes back to my comments about personality types and the respective styles of communication, and then there is the fundamental matter that at times a person just does not understand what is told to them. I have known others who have suffered for this same type of problem where people did not understand the persons communication style, and as a result cast an unfavorable opinion on the person. An innocent comment made as an observation of something is mistaken as an opinion, which in these instances in question has led to people taking issue with the comment and the person making them, as those who have mistaken the comment hold a different preference than what they consider to be the other persons opinion. But it is not the others opinion, instead it is a mere observation shared in an attempt to make conversation: no harm is intended when harm, so to speak, is incorrectly taken by the other. However, the inexplicable accounts of people repeating portions of previous conversations, many of which were private, is perplexing. The matter of people misunderstanding my comments in conversation created an additional problem when I sought the helpful ear of someone as a way of dealing with the strange occurrence. The person I sought out for understanding in my problem accused there was something wrong with me. However the truth of the matter is the accusation came from a person who has no qualication or reasonable experience in making such accusations, not that would be ofcially accepted by anyone, leaving their opinion to be uninformed and a smear based on prejudice in that there was no reason for it, with their understanding of the matter being ineffective. I have never in my entire life undergone any professional assessment as would be 22

properly performed to tests a persons mental health, while I have had friends and made acquaintances with people who are from the eld of psychology, including one who is a professor of psychology at a top ranked University in the United States. I will add to this, to create some perspective about the invalidity of the smear against me, that I later went on to hold positions of responsibility in large international-size organizations, and which included managing staff and providing training in language communication skills to professionals. This leaves the accusation of there being something wrong with me as nothing other than an attempt to smear and discredit in spite of the truth, and this is an objective of the victimization of a t/v. If you are familiar with the term gang stalking, within that topic it has been reported by others who are victims to it to have been on the receiving end of what is referred to as scripting. In basic terms this is when a person repeats the words of a t/v back to them. In its more extreme accounts such happenings have included people in different cities than the t/v repeating the target's words back to them from conversations the target previously had with other people: it remains an inexplicable and incredible phenomenon. If you are the type of person who enjoys solving a complex problem or thinking through an involved scenario, my comments here may lead you to consider how such a thing could happen. And later in this exposition I will share information that lends to the possible explanations for such bizarre happenings. Another aspect of gang stalking is a concept called gas-lighting whereby a victim is made to think something is not the way it really is, which can include something about the victim them self. In worst cases an attempt is made to make the victim think there is something wrong with them when in truth there is not. When the victims interactions are forced to take place within a network of people who are participating in victimizing him/her, these people continually reinforce the idea something is wrong with the victim, who over time can come to believe it if they become vulnerable to the tactic, when in fact there is nothing wrong with the victim. The victim has been gaslighted to believe something that is not true. Another very odd occurrence which took place at that time in Canada was how people reacted strangely and inexplicably to conversations I had alone in my home. The matter entailed me speaking a phrase or singing a portion of a song which included a key word in it, like brother, and shortly after, around 10 to 15 minutes later, my brother showed up at my door for no apparent reason. This phenomenon was so bizarre I tested it, nding with certainty the behavior of the person in question was dictated by my comments about them in my home. That is to say the person repeatedly showed up at my door after my comments in my home, and their visits were for no apparent reason: they just showed up. This may explain why some in my family suggested I not come back after leaving for Asia. Perhaps it was a way of protecting themselves from the bizarre happenings that started, but at the same time a sentiment that was cruel to the person suffering because of them, and who faced leaving their home forever. I do not mind sharing with you this small personal insight which was my visit to the graves of my grandparents prior to my departure from Canada. I wept like I had not done since years prior when the fallout of my divorce created problems in a later relationship I was in. It seemed I would never get passed the problems that came from my getting divorced, and then with the aspects of my victimization that turned my life 23

into a surreal type of existence, in ways analogous to something out of the Twilight Zone, I had to accept I needed to leave for my own well-being. For anyone not familiar with the Twilight Zone program, its name, while intended to represent the program, also holds this meaning. Twilight zone a sphere of experience that appears sinister or dangerous because of its uncertainty, unpredictability, or ambiguity. My situation deteriorated prior to my leaving, to the point strange happenings were occurring with people at my work, among my friends, and with members of my family, and as a result I began experiencing feelings of depression. This is why I say my well-being was threatened. In such a situation it would, in all probability, happen that the more time that passed the more I would continue to be discredited and smeared for trying to bring attention to my victimization, and all the while suffering for it. I was asked at one time years later why I did not go to the Police before leaving Canada, and my reasons for not doing so at the time were for a complete loss of condence in my environment. If you have no experience with or knowledge of depression or an understanding of what it is like to be a victim in these circumstances, some research into these areas will help inform you when you will come to realize the bad situation it was for me. I contacted the local Police force around this time to inquire about employment with them, thinking a career change to a eld that could offer some security to me could help my circumstances, but I received no reply to my inquiry even after following it up. However with the hindsight of what would be future happenings and reports to authority bodies, it was shown nothing came from them and in all likelihood nothing would have come from speaking to the Police at the time, except perhaps my being discredited for something which has shown to be considered so sensitive and hush hush it is denied in spite of evidence to support it. For all my conversations with authority groups and human rights groups nothing has come from my reports to them although some have acknowledged my circumstances. In a Canadian Embassy I spoke with a member of their staff who explained a paper trail should be kept for the happenings I suffered for. This would provide a record of the details of the incidents. And it was while I spoke with the woman in the waiting area of the embassy that a young man came into the embassy to sit nearby and begin staring at her to try to get her attention: he followed me into the building. It was an incident similar to another at an Italian Embassy where a suspicious man in the waiting area was asked rmly by a Carabiniere to take care of his matter with a clerk and then leave. On another occasion at an Italian Embassy, a matter involving myself and a group that broke the law in dealing with me, saw a clerk at the embassy try to facilitate what appeared to be a staged situation I was being forced into: instead of the group being dealt with for breaking the law, a situation was being created where I would have to talk with the group in spite of the fact I already suffered for their illegal actions. The person who ran the embassy later met with me personally to assure me they would notify the local police to act on the matter which was then properly investigated. The high-wire balancing act a t/v must walk in talking about their victimization is a serious consideration for them. Despite the previous accounts about authority groups that have supported my victimization, it can and has happened that they deny 24

the happenings outright and as a result make a discrediting accusation toward the t/v, and others who are not in these groups, family and friends, can also become antagonistic toward the t/v or unsporting of them in their refusal to accept what the t/v is claiming. It is a difcult and risky undertaking. In simpler terms it is like a person who suffers from a condition attending support groups with others who share the same condition. These people understand what others with the same condition are experiencing and feeling and are in a better position to appreciate their words. Others without the condition may struggle to appreciate and understand what the victim is saying, experiencing, or feeling, and in this inability to have empathy for the victim the t/v stands to suffer for uninformed opinions against them. A point to consider in my targeting at that time in Canada is that much of it revolved around the use of the English language, and how people did to me what could be called the opposite of eavesdropping. This situation saw people, who, instead of listening to my conversations from nearby, were speaking from nearby so I could hear them. And the comments from these people carried meaning in them as they related to aspects of my life and my activities. Over time the regular use of this method on me created feelings of confusion and nally fatigue for the constant racing my mind did in piecing together the bombardment of comments and their meanings. In hindsight I think because this was the rst time such a method was used on me I was not prepared to deal with it, albeit a method of questionable principles considering the nature of it. One aspect of this happening is the attention given to trying to recall where a comment was taken from in a previous conversation of mine. Not only was I piecing together the meanings of the comments and what they referred to in the different aspects of my life, and the possible results, impacts, changes, or considerations I should associate with those aspects, but I was also trying to determine where the comments were spied from me. If a person has never been subjected to such a testing situation I imagine they would nd it difcult to appreciate the complexity and degree of tiredness the victim of it can suffer. In my years as a t/v the explanation of such situations has received odd reactions from people for the obscure nature of it and the rare occurrences of it among most people. And it is possible this rarity lends to a theory about my targeting which suggests a form of experimentation was, and is, being done on me. I cannot know for certain, but the happenings are telling. What was later conded in me by a lifelong friend is that the actions of another friend, which were detrimental to me at the time as they were participating in severely scripting me, were well intended. I am not sure how such actions which are duplicitous and inherently suspicious in nature could be considered helpful, however this is what was said to me by my lifelong friend. The use of the word theory in this exposition, as in to say, in theory, in referring to an idea is not meant to imply the idea is factual as in to say it is known to be true. It is a theory which is dened as in theory, used in describing what is supposed to happen or be possible, usually with the implication that it does not in fact happen. With my knowing the use of the English language was helping create the problems of reverse eavesdropping and scripting came the decision to relocate to a non-English speaking country, and which was partly based on the fact people on the streets there would not speak English. And the strategy did indeed work. My rst few months abroad were good ones. I began to get passed the ill feelings I had in Canada 25

and enjoyed some happiness which was denied me for a long time. However, in short time, even in the new country, the same problem of reverse eavesdropping started with foreigners around me, with the aspect of scripting by foreigners being much more predominant. At this point I am compelled to comment on what appears to be a misunderstanding about the condition of depression. Some are of the belief that like Alzheimer's disease, depression is also caused by some type of mental irregularity. And this is wrong. While Alzheimers is a progressive mental deterioration that can occur in middle or old age, due to generalized degeneration of the brain, depression is not caused by any deterioration or degeneration of the brain. It is caused by stimulus acted on a person from their environment, be it a traumatic event in a persons life or a suffering for the treatment of others toward them, depression is not caused by any naturally occuring deteriotation or degeneration of the brain as is the case with Alzheimers. And as in my case, when I removed myself from the environment that targeted me in Canada I no longer experienced feelings of depression. But back to the discussion of Canada. My parents home was apparently not private as conversations in it and over its phone came to be known by others. And after moving out of my parents home, having stayed there temporarily after relocating back to my home town after almost 20 years, and dealing with the inherent readjustments that went with that, the same invasion of privacy and monitoring happened there, affecting my phone conversations, Internet use, and conversations while in the apartment. With so much happening scripting, reverse eavesdropping, people showing up on queue to the words I spoke, and other odd behavior in people such as members of my family talking about me while I stood in the room or nearby, but not including me in the conversation: a rude manner they never exhibited in the past, and which at its worst times was essentially like being surrounded by people who behaved noticeably out of character where my interactions with them became awkward, it came to the point I found myself cautious about my interactions and relationships with them. This victimization in the different areas of my life created a surreal aspect to it for which I was suffering. And again, it was in a way analogous to being stuck a story of the Twilight Zone, but for real. This next account goes back several years prior to my leaving Canada. At the time I lived with a former girlfriend and was working in my eld in a division of a Fortune multi-national company. It was on a weekend away with friends in the north of the province in cottage country that a group of young men began following me. As we were boating, this group of about three appeared on shore nearby to watch our boat and specically me. I recall my girlfriend reacting to the sighting of these strange people by saying, 'Oh my God! There are people following {my name}'. These same types again showed up, this time near my hometown, and followed me to a public park about 20 minutes away by car where I had ed to for some privacy. With my apartment listened in on, people following me in the city, and friends and family acting questionably in my interactions with them, I sought the privacy and peace of the park to read at. And as I sat in a gazebo reading a novel, one of these people who appeared to be from the group that followed me on the cottage weekend walked through the park searchingly until they saw me sitting in the wooden structure. These same people later showed up in the countries I relocated to, however I do not believe it has been the 26

same exact people, but rather different people who belong to the same group while having variations between them. I do not know who they are or why they have been following me, or why they showed up in other countries I went to, but they have. My former girlfriend and her friends saw these strange types when they rst appeared at the cottage on our weekend getaway. And now that I think about the events, I believe they also showed up at the resort I stayed at on my honeymoon. The one person I am recalling worked at the beachside bar and grill at the resort, and he was noticeably rude and offensive in his manner toward me. This has shown to be a recurring trait in this group, a rude and offensive manner toward me as part of what appears to be questionable social skills, but they rarely extend this offensive manner toward anyone other than me from what I have observed. They act at times in a way that could have their mental state considered to be questionable I would say. The number of different strange occurrences that developed to show themselves prior to my departure to Canada were many, of which I will comment on a few more here. It was at the gym in my hometown that the front-desk attendant made a curious comment to me. I did not know this person beyond seeing them at the gym where I passed the front desk and submitted my membership card, and on one occasion as I did this we exchanged a tiny bit of small talk about ourselves. He commented 'I've heard about you' in a way that revealed he had come to know something about me through another, but said nothing further about his comment to clarify it. Not only did the vague comment come across as strange for not knowing what it referred to, but it added to my existing belief that people were talking about me without my knowing it and that there was likely some impression of me which I was not aware of in this gossip about me. On one weekend morning while I was at a social function which offered brunch at a hotel in the city, the waiters and waitresses noticeably gave me attention in serving me and continually looked at me as they moved about the room. The behavior was so noticeably a family member commented on it by asking me if I had recently become a celebrity. It was an odd and unexpected happening which others as well as myself noticed, and still today I do not know what the cause of it was, but it did lend to my feelings at that time that people were watching me and that there was talk going on in the city about me. This happening occurred several years later when I rst suspected members of my family were talking about me behind my back. At that time I called a member of my family to confront the duplicitous behavior and was was insulted by being told to f#ck off with no conversation at all offered about my question. And it also happened that a member of my family later admitted to opening my postal mail without my knowing it. A few years later, in talking with members of my extended family, I discovered they knew of personal information of mine which they had no way of knowing other than spying it. I think it is evident enough that talk was going on behind my back and actions were taken which affected me and that I was not made aware of. A terrible and manipulative situation for any person, I think you will agree. Going back several years to the time I lived in a different city where I had worked for a Fortune multi-national company, it was at that time I experienced problems with postal delivery to my home. A large portion of my mail was not arriving at my home. This was discovered when meeting with a person in the 27

provincial government regarding a small business program I had inquired about, at which time it was seen I did not receive mail sent to me by him. He made a phone call to look into the matter at the local post ofce and the following day I received a stack of mail at my home which had been withheld and not delivered. And on the subject of gang stalking, this is one of many methods used on targeted people as a way to disrupt their life. Another account from that same city occurred several months after I relocated from it, when I commuted passed the area regularly to visit my son from my former marriage. On one occasion I made a visit to my family doctor who was in the town, and in our conversation I said I would go to a pharmacy nearby to get the medication he prescribed for, as I recall, my u symptoms. But his reaction to my comment was not a usual one. And you must understand that prior to arriving at his ofce I noticed strange people along the street who appeared to be staged for me to see them. These people made eye contact with me as I drove my car, before some of them offered a slight grin as if to acknowledge I saw them. I did not know these people or know of them at all, yet they appeared to know me, or of me, in some way. Possibly a coincidence, but when I said to my doctor I would go to a pharmacy in town he gave a cautionary, nervous reaction to my comment, as if to indicate I should not go into town, leaving me to wonder if something was not right in the area the odd people who appeared to be staged, and the doctor's reaction to my suggestion of going into town. This seems to support another point made in this exposition about my victimization where I explain that a place seems to remain infected, so to speak, with odd happenings taking place after I relocate from it. Some years later while still in Canada I was offered a job interview at Federal Express. Upon arriving at their ofce and sitting in the reception area, a friend and former university classmate of mine who worked for the company walked passed me. I greeted him and we chatted briey as I explained I was there for an interview when his reaction was one of surprise. He then went on to speak in a way that made it clear to anyone in the area who might hear our conversation that he did not help me get the interview. An inconsequential happening perhaps, but different than the usual situation where a friend offers to put in a good word for another friend who is interviewing at their company. And add to this that he and I spoke previously about me applying for a position with Federal Express, when his attitude at that time was interested. As the matter ended up the interview went terribly. The interviewers were antagonistic with the odd derogatory remark toward me, as I sat astonished at the lack of professionalism in what is supposed to be a world-class company. In my years of working for multi-national companies, where I sat for interviews and gave many of them myself, I never experienced such a situation. I do not say this to slight big companies, but more so to highlight the possibility that the strange happening may have been due to my victimization, which, in this outlook, would mean they neither are immune to the effects of it by those who target me. Prior to this time in Canada I worked for a company where I discovered that a subordinate of mine had knowledge of my personal emails sent from my home computer. I had been corresponding socially with a person in the Ukrain as I recall, to nd my coworker repeating back to me portions of that correspondence as we spoke in our workplace. The odd circumstance may have been known by others in the 28

workplace who purposely disassembled this coworkers work area partly such that he had no privacy as he sat at his desk. While others sat at their desks to be enclosed by the surrounding walls of their work area, which offered privacy, the continuous design of the layout was broken at his desk where people could see him as he sat to do his work. The situation may have been a sort of poetic justice where the coworker was denying me my privacy and so in return he was denied his own. I cannot be completely certain of this, but the strange situation was easily seen. It was also at the same company where other staff that reported to me began behaving strangely. As we sat in meetings, when I spoke about a matter one of my staff immediately reacted in a somewhat frantic manner in instructing others in the meeting to follow my thoughts on the subject at hand. It was a very strange behavior on the part of this person and which he had never exhibited in the past, and it also managed to capture the attention of others in the room who stared at him noticeably for his odd behavior. This next account took place in the latter part of my career while still in Canada. I was working for a consulting company that put me at a facility of a Fortune multi-national company in the automotive industry. My work responsibilities included working in the area of the nal testing of completely assembled automobiles. I used data analysis and statistical methods with the data available for the area of work to help decision making about problems that needed attention, and highlight the likely causes of those problems. The existing approach used was heavily based on making guesses without much reliable data to support them. And when the two approaches were presented to the (engineering) manager responsible for that area, his reaction was to hide the information I provided as it revealed the existing approach, and those using it, to be at a lesser level in effectiveness: their work, or its style, was to a lower standard in comparison to mine. Not long after I was taken off the assignment and let go from my position, as opposed to being recognized for my work which was to a higher standard. This account leads into an overall circumstance that arose in the latter part of my career in Canada. With several movements to new assignments and from one company to another, it seemed I was utilized by people who directed my work opportunities and passed me from one group to another without my knowing it. The assignments I received saw me doing work which I had already surpassed in my career, with the apparent intention of using me to make others look bad in the performance of their work. Or the assignments were complicated and politically sensitive, making them difcult to the point they were unpopular and unwanted. In one instance which was my nal work assignment in Canada, the standard approaches to the work involved in this multi-national company, which was managed by standard practices as per the quality management program ISO 9000, International Organization for Standardization, as applied to this industry and within the context of engineering practices were not used. It appeared other motives and intentions were at play which would require me once again to become involved in a difcult and sensitive matter, when it did not need to be that way. This put my career at risk, and given the targeting of me outside of my work it also put me at risk. Again, I was being used for the reputation of my skills, which was apparently known by people while kept a secret from me, and for my abilities in my work. It appeared I was used for these different 29

purposes more and more to satisfy the motives of others. Either I was overqualied for the work or the assignment posed a risk to me while not being properly assigned to me. It came to the point I was fed up with being taken advantage of and compromised and in a way that was beyond the usual problems seen in the management of people as resources and combined with all the aspects outside of my work that plagued me and my life, I began considering leaving my career in Canada, and Canada entirely, for a life elsewhere. If you happen to be piecing together the events in this exposition in chronological order as a story, rest assured I tried nding a position in my eld in other parts of the country. And as you can see, I ended up leaving Canada which indicates there was no realistic chance of relocating to another part of it. But I did try, nding the aspects of my life that were victimized still continued to pose problems in a national job search. Namely, people simply did not reply to me. Beyond my departure from Canada in the fall/winter of 2001 my victimization has progressively worsened to become more severe in approaches used to victimize me. As of today, February 26, 2012 in Thailand, I am stalked daily by a strange group of people who resemble people I have known or have seen before, and this includes the strange types I rst saw while cottaging in Canada, as well as other groups that behave suspiciously stalking me and knowing of my personal activities. It is a confusing and complicated collection of people who stalk me and who also appear to know of my activities. Any chance for privacy in anything I do in the town is evidently no longer possible. Aside from the number of look-alikes which are a great many at times, easily two dozen or more in the course of one day, the situation has deteriorated to be similar in ways, but more severe, to what it was in Canada before my initial departure. And should you be thinking why I would not simply leave where I am, it is a matter of having next to no money which makes the consideration of a safe choice of location where the same problems will not show themselves irrelevant. The invasion of my privacy began to worsen while I was in China, and is even worse now where many people have shown to be aware of my conversations in my home and in public, and also my Internet activity. And as difcult as this may be for you to accept, also my thoughts. An incredible phenomenon indeed, and unfortunately true. And at the same time an indecent circumstance no rational person would want to be subjected to. But the worst part of my victimization which has imprisoned me further and further is how people continue to deny it, and act as if to disbelieve the regular occurrences of my victimization that take place in plain sight of them. Some have been recorded and shown to people, but still there are those, some of who have been affected themselves without knowing it, who are in denial of what is plain to be seen. This leaves those who do not believe the activities that target me to be either dull witted, lazy that they will not reasonably consider them adequately, or participants in my victimization who try to wrongfully smear and discredit me. Evidence is found and shared with others only to be taken down from the Internet or tampered with on my computer, facilitating the denial that it has happened. It is a widespread and farreaching cover up which is leading to the nal killing off of my life and me. What did I ever do to deserve such an extermination? Nothing. As of today it has been about 2 to 3 years that this perverse and indecent violation of my privacy has been happening. My ideas, impressions, preferences, 30

opinions, observations, and reactions, for instance, come to be known by others before I have communicated them. A situation which was told to me discretely by those who know of my circumstances and victimization. Perhaps after I am gone these people will reveal the truth about what has been done to me. My life has deteriorated to the point where my actions and words are completely scrutinized by people who have shown to have limited intelligence and who smear and embarrass me, at times humiliating me, in public for their denseness in understanding what they have spied or observed in me. The average education of many people in the streets here where I now reside is around grade 5 I am told, and my interactions with them, including their own admissions, support this estimate. And others who are part of the other mysterious groups I mentioned have also shown to have problems in rational and critical thinking and understanding human behavior. These deciencies have fueled the public smearing of me for the limited intelligence in it. This plea and statement coming from a former college and university instructor who people still urge to continue in teaching/training or in management of multi-national companies, albeit these suggestions do not adequately consider the circumstances I would nd in those areas of work for my victimization. But the thought is still appreciated even though it is unrealistic. Thank you.

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4 The Mystery Of The Missing Jewelry

I include this section as there are some who believe I am in possession of a piece of valuable jewelry that I took from a former girlfriend. The gossip about this has played into the circumstances that smear me as it has been uninformed and irresponsible gossip, like the gossip which has followed me for years even across countries. The piece of jewelry in question belonged to a woman I met while in China, and I shall refer to her as Tee although this is not her real name. She explained to me the jewelry was a gift to her from her husband who she was separated from at that time. Whether the valuable item was actually a gift from her husband or not is unknown to me, however it is irrelevant to the accusation spread by gossip that I am in possession of it. I have seen the piece of jewelry in question while Tee and I lived together in China. It held a large stone, diamond or emerald perhaps, as best as I can recall, and it was mounted in a necklace design and stayed in her suitcase in the house we lived in. While I did see the jewelry in question, it is not in my possession nor do I have any idea where it is today and it is not with anyone I know. The house Tee and I lived in at the time was near a University and items did go missing from it for the time we lived there. One item in particular which was taken was a role of lm in my camera bag. On the roll were pictures of Tee and I at a park in the city and also one or two nude photos of a former female friend I knew before meeting Tee. Why someone would take the lm is still unknown to me, but the people seen loitering around our house and watching her and I as we came and went might explain someone entering the home. The roll of lm was taken from my camera bag and the jewelry could also have been taken by the same people or possibly others. It was common to see people coming and going from the buildings in the area and without question or attention from others nearby, yet Tee and I seemed to be under the watchful eye of people as we came and went. This is only an estimate on my part based on the circumstances of the local environment, but I did have other items go missing from my residence while living in China, including a certicate for a course I completed in Canada several years before. And curiously, after contacting the College in Canada, they explained that as a result of changes to their computer network some student information was lost, including the information pertaining to me having taken the course. With my name no longer in the Colleges computer system they could not issue me a new certicate, and without the hard copy of the certicate that went missing from my residence people later did not believe I had studied the course. This became a problem in applying for jobs in my professional eld. It was just one of the numerous strange occurrences over the years for which I have suffered. A brief comment here about the certicate, and which supports my reasons for leaving Canada, is that the course material in question included in it odd and 32

inappropriate question to the course topic, and which were instead relevant to a project I had been assigned in the automotive company which was using questionable practices in assigning my work to me, and which was my last professional work assignment before leaving Canada. It appeared people from the company colluded with the College to force me to provide my solution for the project I had been assigned while at the company: it was apparently a case of collusion and misrepresentation to force me to provide my thoughts about the work in question. I paid for the course and completed it only to have the College say I was no longer in their system and I was left with no copy of my certicate from the course. People from my past have questioned my leaving Canada, and while they are unaware of the aspects of my victimization which leaves them to feel this way, this happening in my former employer in my hometown has gone on unknown to them, while it shows the duplicity, manipulation, and collusion that was taking advantage of me in my career. But back to Tee and I in China. After living with her in China for about a year, her and I returned to Canada where we lived in her home for about 6 months. We did not talk much of the missing jewelry as I recall and she did not follow up on the loss of it with reports to anyone, as far as I know. I moved out of her home and tried to restart my life in Canada on my own, but the problems of my victimization still followed me from Tees home and then there was also the lingering problem with the government due to my circumstances that would not permit it. I was still guratively caught in a crack in the systems of the government, that being that while some in the government knew of my victimization they could not ofcially act on it as the matter was not ofcially recognized by the government. I did however to speak to the banks I did business with and almost all of my loans with them from the past were written off as I had little chance of earning sufciently to pay back the monies. It was a glimmer of decency in a nightmare of a life. I needed to only declare bankruptcy to absolve myself of any past debt, considering I could no longer earn to pay the money back. But now it is all a mute point, and even at that time it would have only added further expense to me while my life would not have improved for my victimization. It was better to simply leave. I later returned to China in search of employment and an unfettered chance of earning income, which, as it happened, was too idealistic a hope because of my circumstances. I have not been in contact with Tee for many years. Her home began to experience strange happenings like staged (synthetic) people showing up to live in it and others stalking the home so as to be seen while doing it. And it is later in this exposition that I refer to the book In Finding Solutions To Human Problems which mentions synthetic people among us. Tee became increasingly difcult with me and very antagonistic at times, on occasions not speaking a single word to me for several days, which left me to question her want of me being there and consider leaving the home. And add to this, incidents that had aggressive intentions toward me by people in the home and for no reasonable reason, the situation there became to be like those often seen in domestic disputes. In those instances the wrongdoer is later defended by the person who was suffering to their actions, and in my case it meant I most likely would be blamed by Tee who was apparently forced to defend those in the home who 33

targeted me. And so I went. Whether her behavior was a case of inexplicable phenomena acting on her or it was genuinely by her own intent, her home was not a wise choice of residence for me any longer. The situation resembled others I had been forced into which meant to test me in one way or another: it became an apparent ratin-the-cage scenario which abused me and at times became near violent. And as for the mystery of the jewelry, it remains a mystery, but it is not with me.

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5 Why Earning Income Has Been A Problem.

My departure from Canada was around October or November 2001. At that time I brought with me between 5 and 10 thousand dollars of my own money as my employer in Japan suggested to bring as much as one could. The city I was in was not a cheap city to live in, and given the time required for my employer to enter new employees into their computer systems and nancial systems, it needed about 2 to 3 months before I would be paid. I mention this money brought with me to Japan as it later became a point of gossip with some irresponsible people in Canada. Their suggestion was I took the money wrongly when the truth is it was my own money withdrawn from a bank account of my own. My intention was always to pay it back once working in Japan. This was the plan, to work and restart payments for my son given I was again working, and also pay off the money to the banks I did business with. It was the start of a new life for me and I looked forward to it, often referring to my plan in speaking to people who knew of the problems that plagued me in the past. My rst employment in Japan went well enough, however pressure soon came from my ex-wife who continually demanded I continue to make payments for my son even though she knew I was not working for a period of time. I stopped payments once I arrived in Japan, waiting until I could gain some nancial stability there for the higher cost of living. However I had been making payments for the months prior to my departure from Canada even though I was not working at the time. Technically speaking, the laws of Canada generally stated that if a person did not work they were not required to make child support payments to a child from a former marriage. The idea being if you are not earning you cannot make the payments. As I recall, I did make payments for this period prior to leaving Canada when I was not working even though I was not obligated to make them. And my nal cheque written to my ex-wife before leaving for Japan, it seems, may not have been cleared properly at my bank when she deposited it. I closed my bank accounts in Canada as per the advice of my accountant in light of my departure from the country, and it seems her later depositing of the cheque saw it not cleared by my bank. This mishap in timing and circumstances apparently created more rumors which said I was a criminal type for having written a bad cheque. That I did make payments at that time was beyond the law and not required. I was not earning and yet for many months I continued to make payments for my son. However, and more importantly, ofcially this has never been mentioned to me by any ofcial in the Canadian government and I have had many conversations with them. No ofcial accusation has ever been made toward me that I wrote a bad cheque. It has only been malicious gossip which includes the smearing and false statements made by a member of my family toward me in public about the matter. And also, technically speaking, the cheque was good when it was written as the funds were available in my bank account at that time. It was the timing of the matter in my closing the account for my departure from the country 35

which seems to have been the problem. And in that case the request for a certied cheque would have been the appropriate thing to do, however such a request was not made by my ex-wife and I was later discredited by gossip for her failure in the matter. I cannot begin to explain how I have suffered for uninformed gossip over the years when the matters involved oftentimes are the result of a failure by someone in an action toward me, and for which I end up suffering for the little intelligence in the entire situation. With the pressure and threats from my ex-wife to complain to the Canadian government, a complaint that involved an agreement between her and I which she reneged on: it was to do with the amount of payments for my son which I had been paying regularly for years until my departure for Japan, she was now seeking to recover the slightly higher amount of payment as per the government gures in the matter beyond what I already paid for years. I would be facing problems with my government should she make the complaint. It was a complicated matter which I chose to not seek out the services of a lawyer about. Japan represented a new start for me and I was looking forward to forgetting the problems from my past in Canada, not to mention I was earning much less in Japan and did not have the necessary money to enter into a costly legal exchange with my ex-wife. And what still remains suspicious about the matter is that I did make payments for years for my son and the monies were received and agreed to by my ex-wife. Yet when she complained to the government I was not contacted about the matter at the time and a case was started against me based solely on her word. This is a comment stemming from the consideration of ones rights in the matter, and from the perspective of decency and compassion I am still amazed at her actions considering I explained to her what was happening to me in Canada which caused me departure from it. The clarity of hindsight is so revealing at times, and I say this for the following reason as much as the opportunity to correct the situation is passed and beyond repairing, despite my having tried to do so. Had the proper discussions taken place at the time to include me in them, it would have been seen that my ex-wife had reneged on the agreement her and I had in place. And knowing of this action and the government staff s later admission of the circumstances I suffered for, there may have been a chance to create a solution in the matter, but I never had the chance to speak as the complaint and pursuant processing of a case against me was started without my knowledge. At the time I was in a foreign country trying to start a new life on my own while fending off the developing aspects of my victimization that also started there. After the fact of the complaint the situation became impossible because the government would not ofcially recognize my circumstances although their people did. This treatment of me seems to be consistent with my comments in the preface about how the Canadian government was what might be considered irresponsible in addressing my concerns about relocating to Canada and receiving government benets. And it appears I am not alone in being suspect about the Canadian governments actions as Stephen Harpers government was accused not long ago of violating parliamentary procedures, by suspending parliament sessions for his own convenience and in spite of the laws that dictate parliamentary procedures.

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 Has Canada truly come to exhibit fascist-like manners like some have suggested, where a behind-the-scenes approach attempts to cover-up actions in spite of the rights and freedoms of its people and laws, and constitutional rights are no longer extended to Canadians? My discussions with some in the Royal Canadian Mounted Police, a federal security group, blatantly lied about the constitutional rights of Canadians to security from threats against them. Another matter that involved Canada was my application to the United Nations for asylum, where my application was accepted but not further processed due to administrative changes that prevented the person assigned to my case from speaking to me. In my follow-up contact to the United Nations other people there denied the case of my application when it was not ofcially processed and still waited for its completion. It appeared to be a case of tampering with the processing of a case for asylum. And on the matter of asylum applications to try to escape the unjust treatment of me in Canada, Homeland Security of the United States was helpful in allowing me to retrieve my passport when I was asked to relinquish it to a Canadian embassy, however unfortunately their response to my request for asylum to the United States was I would have to wait in the area of 6 months in a holding center before my case would be heard. But back to the matter of my ex-wife, as I recall, her and I talked about her want of money after I left my professional career and was making plans for a new life amid the problems of my victimization, at which time I pleaded she not complain to the government about the small incremental amount in payments she sought to recover, despite us having an agreement in place between ourselves about the amount to be paid, and I explained I needed time to get on my feet nancially, so to speak, in Japan. Howbeit I continued making payments for my son in the period I was unemployed prior to leaving for Japan even though I was not obligated to. And it was a short time later in another conversation with her that she revealed in what seemed like a tit-for-tat manner that she had contacted the government group in question to register a complaint against me. And again, if I was contacted about the matter to answer to it, something might have been possible to do like speaking to friends and family to have them talk to my ex-wife to sway her decision. But I could not do anything as I was not involved in the accusation against me. As you will see later in this exposition it appears that since my victimization started people have taken the attitude toward me that I have no rights at all, almost as though I do not exist and no consideration need be extended to me other than to take my money from me. It is as ugly an outlook as there can be I suggest. And it was years later when I experienced problems with services provided to my home that someone involved in the mater said to me I dont exist. How does anyone respond to such an insulting accusation? But this what my life has been like for over a decade. Perhaps it was simply a matter of my ex-wife not believing my victimization that she took the actions she did, and with them my fate was sealed in so far as my return to Canada was, in practicality, prevented from every happening. In retrospect some might say it is very telling that after I gave so much to my marriage the caring for our newborn son when my ex-wife faltered to the pressures of motherhood, providing our standard of living, compromising my career to accommodate her wishes

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to see her happy that she later acted in a way that was so devastating to my life in spite of her knowing it. I look at this matter again further in this exposition where the inherent aw in my governments position and actions toward me have added an additional aspect to my victimization. And so, with the mounting pressure from my ex-wife who some might say took a Shylock outlook in the matter, I decided to change companies in Japan to earn more money. It was a decision I felt forced into and which proved to be a bad one that helped bring about the end of my time in Japan, and my new start in life. I realize my comments about my marriage will be reacted to through the heightened sensitivity toward any unfavorable comments toward women. And to be clear I have always tried to be objective in speaking about the good and bad actions of people, be it men or women, however for a person or group to expect only praising and complimentary comments in spite of the truth of things that happen, I think reveals a awed outlook which in itself explains part of the problems stemming from it. In my writing I have tried to portray women in a positive light while considering the necessity of writing characters to accommodate an overall story, and have always appreciated the beauty, compassion, and understanding that is generally seen in the gender. However I like to think the gender is mature enough to admit an error by one of its own. An additional item regarding this matter concerning the Canadian government is a group in Canada named DADS, which is a group of lawyers who defend the rights of fathers in cases of divorce and child support and protect them from actions that violate their rights. 1500 people per year in Ontario are jailed by the FRO. Don't be one of them. ... You may have lost your job, been laid off work, had your overtime cut back or have become disabled (which means you are unable to meet your nancial obligations). You need to know about the policies of the FRO and your rights.[2] This supports claims by others that Canadas system for nancial recovery from fathers is out of control, in some cases fathers have taken their own life for the violations of their rights that have strangled their life. And yet while DADS defends fathers in the courts and wins cases for them, the Canadian government groups involved continue to break the law as if it is of no consequence. I share this information with you as it is not known by most and hopefully it will create a more realistic picture of the abuses others and myself have been subjected to. Before looking at the next position I took in my work I will share this account that happened at my rst employer as it reveals my victimization already started to show itself while I was there. While at the company where we provided English conversation lessons via a tele-conferencing televised system that extended across Japan, I met Chao who was a Chinese girl also working at the company. After a short time that her and I were together she suddenly became cold to the idea of spending time with me, and began spending time with other males at our work and in way that I would see it. Was it one of the many games played by people toward a person from a former relationship? Possibly. However when I began feeling a little down and lonely as my victimization was starting to work against me staged incidents at work, people stalking me throughout the workplace, and the scripting of me, leaving me more and more isolated, it appears to be a different thing when Chao comes up to me 38

and asks why I am sad when she knew of my circumstances. It was disappointing and saddening. Then shortly after, it was when friends in the neighborhood I lived in began playing what some would call head-games with me regarding my previous relationship with Chao, that I realized my victimization was starting to show itself even in my neighborhood. Friends who also worked at the company began making comments that while seemingly innocent were actually insightful to my relationship with her, and had the effect of making me recall my time with her. And add to that how the music that played at the neighborhood restaurant-bar, which myself and my friends frequented regularly as part of the local social custom, saw music videos that seemed to be selected and played specically for me. The songs and the videos had the effect of making me think of Chao and specic aspects of our relationship. A bizarre situation as it was done so indirectly, and the same type of manipulative harassment has shown itself much more predominantly where I reside now in Thailand. This technique is looked at in the next section which talks about the difculties in living day to day. The previous account and those in the next section support the suggestion I am part of some form of program that experiments and tests me. Why else would such effort be expended to manipulate and inuence me? Headgames among friends is one thing, but when it extends to the planned selection of music and videos a person is forced to watch, and spying on that person and planning staged incidents at their work, I would say there is more involved in the matter. It is the targeting of a person through these activities which are essentially what gang stalking is in its most basic form. My new employer was an international size company and my time with them through orientation went ne. However it was a short time into the job that problems began to show themselves. I was not advanced in my position like other staff who started with me at the company, while these same people at times came to me for help in their work, and all the while they were the ones in the advanced level of our position and earning more because of it. Was this a coincidence? Perhaps. But in light of the many subsequent strange occurrences there the matter could be considered to be other than a coincidence. A matter unrelated to my earning, but noteworthy for the later reference to it, is when I hurt my knee, my right knee, while bowling at a company social event. Over the years people have doubted this injury in me, at times questioning which knee it was for conicting gossip about it from Canada, when the injury did in fact happen and it was while I worked at this company in Japan. The most signicant happening at the company, which seems to t with the problems that developed in my career in Canada, was when what appeared to be an extraordinary request was made of me in my work: I was asked to develop a performance management system for the company. I considered this an odd occurrence for the reasons I was still not advanced in my position, yet I was given this additional responsibility of work when many other advanced staff in my position were not. Also, the nature of the project assignment and the magnitude of it made it appear to be an unreasonable request. The company had a Human Resources (HR) department in place and it is HR that is usually involved with the development or administration of such business systems that help manage the resource of people. And 39

add to that the reality that such a system is comprehensive, requiring a large degree of work, insight about a company, and experience in the specic area of performance management, that made it questionable I would be asked to do it a recently hired employee at an entry level position. After more time in the company I began to see the politics and conicts between groups, and that raised even more doubts about this additional work asked of me. When I inquired that the project should be assigned to me as an objective which I would be measured against in the future evaluations of my performance, I was told the project required me to develop that same objective setting and performance measurement system for the company. If this is not straightforward or is a bit complicated to fully appreciate, it is analogous to you starting a new entry-level job at one of the best companies in the industry and which you have done before, yet when you ask about a basic business system within the company you are told you will be creating that same system. The explanation came from my supervisor who was one of many foreigners working in the company, if you should be trying to analyze the responsibility of people in my apparent victimization in this case. It was tough to accept the rationale in giving me the assignment given the company had an HR department and was international in size with thousands of employees, and with a corresponding managements structure in which people had roles and responsibilities. The request was simply too unreasonable and too unrealistic for that company which had the reputation of being the most expensive English language business in the world. Should I have been attered to be asked to complete a project which experienced management consultants complete while earning enormous salaries for the work or should I have felt like I was being used as part of the politicking in the company and was being taken advantage of for my business/management experience, skills, and training? I decided to not take on the project and to keep to the duties of my position which I was solely responsible for, when I soon after found myself in what appeared to be a concocted situation aimed at discrediting me. In the incident a female student and I chatted before the start of a one-on-one lesson when I asked to turn off her audio recorder which she used to record her lessons. This was a fairly common practice whereby students recorded lessons to later review on their own time, however given my student and I were chatting about ourselves just prior to the start of the lesson and slightly into it, and not the lesson material, I asked to turn off the recorder which stayed off for a very small portion of the session. She agreed to my request, and all was ne. Then about a week later my supervisor reprimanded me for the action, suggesting it could be construed as sexual harassment. But the student had no complaint, yet he felt it necessary to ask me to sign a document that suggested I committed an action which could be taken as sexually harassing in nature. I refused to sign the document and was soon after red. However, HR later asked me to return acknowledging improper handling of the situation. But by this time I already made plans to move on to another company and was already interviewing with them, and the entire matter at my previous employer left me with a very bad impression of some of the people I worked with there. The new job did not work out unfortunately as I was late for a second interview due to a cold/u I came down with which brought with it severe symptoms. For this reason my alarm clock did not wake me up when it should have and I missed the 40

interview. The job offer was then gone. I assessed my situation and knew my circumstances were now similar in many ways to what happened in Canada. Relationships became strained to the point I was becoming isolated and people were following me throughout the city and to establishments I frequented, with the intentions to harass me in one way or another. Also, the job market in Japan was a difcult one for the availability of foreigners applying for teaching/training positions, and all things considered I chose to leave the country with the hope I could still nd freedom elsewhere. After a return to Canada and a happy visit with my mother whose health was deteriorating, I saw my circumstances where still bad enough there that it was worth me considering leaving again. And it was during this short time back in Canada that I visited a friend for the reason of inquiring about work opportunities at their place of work where they held a management position. I knew this person since before I was a teenager and aside from knowing me they also knew members of my family quite well. Yet, despite these relationships that went back well over a decade, when I asked the person about work opportunities at their place of work they replied to say I needed to know someone at his place of work to get a foot in the door, so to speak. The comment coming from a person who personally knew me and members of my family for many years. It was another of the many strange situations that would arise in my attempts to earn income. And so I left Canada again. Off to Italy I went were I found work as an English teacher/trainer. My decision to go there was partly based on the reason I could get work there for speaking the language and also for the fact I knew people there. The position saw me teach students in the company's ofce and at the location of an international business operating in the area. I also helped administrate various matters at the ofce which included the visiting teachers from other cities where the company operated. However, after many months, the 1,100 euro per month salary left me penniless at the end of each month for the cost of living. This is not a judgement about the work and its remuneration, but rather a point to serve the fact I was not able to save money through my work. Some people I knew in the area were surprised at the salary I received, their expectation being I was earning several thousand euro per month. It was a situation which showed itself later in other countries and in other positions where people were under the impression I was earning a decent income, when the reality of it was that I was not. It was rst in Japan and then Italy that I realized it would be very difcult and almost next to impossible for me to work my plan, which was to continue payments for my son and repay my loans to banks in Canada. I was either riddled with problems in my work or the income I earned was simply not enough beyond living from paycheck to paycheck, but still I continued to try. In my work in Italy my situation was such that I did not pay rent as I lived a house which I partly owned from an inheritance, and I was given a company car but paid only for the gas needed to drive it. Yet, in spite of these nancial windfalls, I could not save money despite living a very basic lifestyle. I mainly prepared my own meals and ate at home without participating much in social activities that cost money. And it was around this time I began receiving notices in the mail at my address in Italy from a provincial government group in Canada. The letters explained enforcements 41

against me like the cancellation of my driver's license in one province and the dates for court appearances to address the recovery of the additional payments for my son beyond what I had already paid: this is the questionable matter explained previously in the section titled My Marriage. This became a new and unexpected problem for me as a result of my ex-wifes complaint to the government, and it created more complication and difculty in my life which I think you can start to see. How could I return to Canada and explain my circumstances and victimization in a court appearance when still today many governments including the Canadian government, aside from the Whitehouses public statement about gang stalking, and some groups in Europe and a few in North America who do in fact attest to the existence of methods that explain my victimization and circumstances, will not ofcially acknowledge the workings of my circumstances despite me being near the end of my time, my life, because of them. This was the beginning of a perfect circle which was an oppressive situation against me I was asked to explain why I can not earn to pay for my son when the answer to the question is not accepted by my government, in spite of the fact that members of the same government have indicated they know of my victimization. I will add that the laws of Canada in this matter explained that I only pay for my son if I was earning income, and that the amounts I was to pay were based on my income. However because I had foreign resident status in Canada, which means the law does not require I report income earned outside of Canada, I was under no obligation to make payments: with no income reported there are no earnings, and hence no payments to be made for that reason. That was the law. However the matter was more complicated in that my ex-wife, in spite of hearing my pleas for my victimization, complained to the government group involved that the payments I made for years while in Canada were insufcient, while she and I had agreed to them and they were accepted by her for several years. The agreement her and I made about payments was reneged on by her to seek action via the government group involved. I explain this here for the irresponsible gossip which has followed me in my travels and smeared me behind my back, saying I am a criminal type when the truth of the matter is I have not broken any laws of my country, but only been subjective to dull-witted gossip which has tried to take my money in a vigilante approach. And that is illegal. Some have tried to make me think the laws have changed, amid all the attempts to manipulate my impressions of things as per my circumstances, but I have never been told this in any ofcial manner which leaves me no choice except to see I have not broken any laws. Also, it appears this gossip has prevented me from earning money in what seems to be an attitude of retaliation. And this all becomes clear to what it is when my son tells me he and his mother bought a new house and that they are okay with money. She is with a new partner in life and my son is off attending school while I passed the point of bankruptcy years ago and face being penniless in short time. It has been a case of destroying one's life with little to no considerations for the problems purposely made for them. It is to cry for the lack of understanding and compassion exhibited in this tragedy that is bringing about the end of my life.

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 Italy became terrible for me because of my circumstances and I was regularly passing blood in my stool as a result of them: a case of internal bleeding of sorts, and I do not have cancer. Relationships became strained and very stressful to me and the odd behavior of people near my home regularly harassed me. I will not go into great detail other than to say much of what happened in Canada and Japan was also happening in Italy. I kept numerous photos which show bloodied toilet water from the times I was suffering from stress and tension and friends over the years have taken the same photos as evidence. And like many other pieces of evidence I accumulated over the years, the digital ones are taken down from the Internet or edited without my knowing it, even while on my computer, and photos like those of the bloodied toilet water are wrongly dismissed for self-serving excuses. But despite the attempts to smear the truth in these cases, later in this expositions I include photos of different pieces of evidence. Enough people have seen the workings of my circumstances, and while they remain relatively silent about them, they do know of them and in many instances have seen them. It was in China that two men were seen standing near a younger man who was behaving very strangely, as if he was on the verge of losing complete control of himself as he gave short uncontrollable giggles and what seemed to be uncontrollable short, nervous laughs as well for no apparent reason. The two men watched him as they studied him to try to determine what was happening as he helped with the digging of a hole in the parking lot of my apartment building. If you have ever seen a person who is under the inuence of a drug or perhaps experiencing a reaction to something they ingested for example, and they begin to lose control of them self while they realize it but cannot control their behavior, the younger mans behavior was similar to this. This was one of many instances where people have witnessed the inexplicable phenomenon of the circumstance that very often surround me in my activities. I departed from Italy still with the belief I could nd freedom elsewhere and relocated to China. The country offered much employment and I missed the time I spent in Japan, although my China experience would be a different one than in its neighboring country. At this point I had taken 4 international ights CanadaJapan, Japan-Canada, Canada-Italy, and Italy-China. This amounted to roughly 4 thousand dollars, not including the extra cost of baggage as I planned to reside abroad permanently and therefore brought with me many items. And the extra cost of additional baggage at times was near the cost of a ticket. I say this to make evident how my funds were being depleted, and that the money I earned while working abroad did not manage to cover this expense of travel, which means it came from the little savings I had accumulated. This was a situation that only got worse as time passed until ultimately my savings and retirement savings were all gone out of necessity. And bear in mind that all this time a provincial government was tabulating payments for my son on a monthly basis based on my earnings in my last professional position in Canada, which was near 60,000 dollars per annum. In Chinese yuan an average salary for my training work equated to about 25 to 30% of my Canadian salary mentioned: in Canadian dollars this represented in the area of 15,000 to 18,000 dollars per annum, and this is assuming I was permitted to stay in a position for one full year which was rarely the 43

case. The reality of the matter was that with all the problems made for me in my work I was unable to regularly receive a salary that equated to this annual gure: a more realistic amount of my annual earnings was in the area of 12,000 per annum. And with the poverty line for income being in the area of 12,000 dollars around those years, you can see that even if it was realistic for me to speak to the courts as I was asked to do, it would be seen that I barely had enough money to live myself, let alone make payments to recover additional amounts for payments I made in the past. The governments incorrect tabulation of past payments could not be stopped because the explanation required to do so would not be accepted for the hush hush nature of my victimization. I later had lengthy discussions with the government about this matter upon my return to Canada, where they acknowledged the gures I was asked to pay were incorrect and also that I was suffering for aspects of my victimization and when it appeared we reached an understanding about how to deal with the matter, it was later revealed that I was lied to and that I would still be forced to explain my victimization when it was known by all involved that it would not be accepted in spite of so many knowing the truth about it and that I was treated unfairly in the matter. The only time I managed to save the slightest amount of money from my work abroad was while in Japan. It was the equivalent of about one month's salary if I recall correctly, and I left it in Japan thinking I may need it if I chose to return to the country. And as it happened, I did return later to Japan and needed the money at the time, however my nancial situation was so bad I still was forced to receive money from someone who offered it so I could y out and to another country. And so, from Italy I moved forward to earn and live, and the government group in question continued to (wrongfully) hold me accountable for monies owed. After a ight to Beijing and a 16 hour, or thereabouts, train ride I arrived at a University in central China. Again, I will not go into a comprehensive look at my many years in China, but rather I will highlight situations to help explain how earning income was an ongoing problem for me there. In hindsight some of the difculty was due to my circumstances and some was due to the nature of the work in that country. But either way I was left incapable of earning or saving any decent amount of money while the gossip that followed me accused me wrongfully of owing money back in Canada and problems were made for me as a result of it when the truth is I could never clear up the matter for the inherent problem in it. And even people in my own government knew that. But, still, I was looked upon wrongfully while abroad, with people thinking I was a criminal type for the irresponsible gossip that followed me. The same gossip that has helped kill off my life. Generally speaking, English as a second language teaching/training did not pay much beyond what one needed to live month to month. And given the salary of the currency was the chinese yuan, it amounted to even less when considering paying bills in Canada. I was fortunate to have held positions that saw me teach various types of professionals in large companies, termed corporate training, business English training, and business language skills training, depending where one worked. And in these areas of the industry the pay usually offered a bit more as it required a different skills set. I also taught two full terms at a University and started at another, although that position did not work out for difculties in the administration of the program. For instance, 44

Chinese English teachers were given teaching manuals that were written more in English than in Chinese, and English speaking (foreign) teachers were given teaching manuals that were written more in Chinese (pin yin as well as Chinese characters) than English. I will jump ahead at this point and sum up my years in China and say I was required to relocate considerably. Part of the reason was for my circumstances and part was for the reason of going to where the good positions were. And as much as I was trying to earn out of desperation, I was also trying to manage my resume, still hoping that one day the overwhelming harassment of the circumstances that targeted me would stop. At a glance at my time in China, I relocated to and lived in about 7 or 8 different provinces and cities in the country. I resided in Beijing for several years and lived in at least a half dozen different locations in that city. And, for the duration of this time in China, I travelled annually to Hong Kong for visa renewals and oftentimes I paid for my own visa renewals to continue residing in the country. Further, on the subject of costs, I found my rent was generally more expensive a consideration that it should have been. The fairly standard approach of one to two months down-payment was often stretched to more, and oftentimes included an additional damage deposit, which in all represented many months of rent up front. On many occasions, in my case, I was denied the return of damage/security deposits, adding further unexpected expense to my living costs. And in cases, I was denied outright the chance to live in some accommodations and for no good reason. While in China I tried on many many occasions to get work in my professional eld. The job market was overowing with opportunities with literally hundreds of positions I was well qualied for, and thousands of positions in all in my eld of work in general, but it became clear I would not have a chance at any of them. Some recruiters told me plainly to not even bother applying for the positions as I would not receive a response at all. Even in Hong Kong where many jobs I was qualied for were available, recruiters there were also negative about my chances in getting a position like I had in my rst career in Canada. Then later in my time in China it was in Beijing where I met a recruiter who forwarded my resume to the hiring person at a Canadian multi-international company operating in the area. But even with the referral and being told the contact at the company was expecting to hear from me, I was unable to speak to them by phone or email and never received a reply from them. Nothing came of the opportunity even with such a referral. The China market had thousands of positions available in the industries I had experience in, but I had no opportunity at all to interview for a single one. However I tried for a long period of time before I was forced to concede to positions in teaching/ training. Some recruiters suggested I costed too much for a foreign company operating in China to hire, as compared to local staff who drew a lower salary, but it remains uncertain as many foreigners did work in professional positions in China, and then also there was the strange happening at the Canadian multi-national company I mentioned . Jumping ahead to my departure from China to go to Thailand where I write this, I had taken in the area of ten international ights with the additional cost of 45

extra baggage as I have been forced to essentially live without a home for my circumstances. This represents a cost in the area of 15,000 to 20,000 dollars. And extremely little of this money came from my earnings from working, but rather from my savings and then retirement money which I needed to use in compensating for the difculties in earning due to my circumstances. An account I will mention that has little to do with working abroad, but still on the subject of problems with earning money, is my questionable loss in investing in FOREX, foreign currency exchange trading. Prior to nally leaving China, after interim trips out of the country for the 2008 Olympics and a return trip to Canada with Tee a trip paid for by her, and a return trip to China from Canada paid for my me I received a sum of money from the estates of my parents who passed away. The majority of it, 30,000 dollars, I invested in FOREX hoping to earn some wealth to live with and share with my son for the years I was not able to, even though by law I was not required to. The remainder I used to live with as I set out to study writing and ction and write my rst novel. This decision was based on the realization my life was ruined and by all indications it would never improve. The Internet tampering which saw my writing published through a pay-per-view web site not receive the recording of peoples views of it, meant I would not receive the money I should as per the web sites service and in this problem I was shown that not even the Internet was free of actions that oppressed me. FOREX can be considered a high-risk investment however I think most rational people would agree that risk takes on a different face under such conditions as my life was faced with. The money invested in FOREX was all lost, and while I understood the risks of investing in the currency exchange market, the manner of the loss remains somewhat questionable. Granted there is volatility to consider in the FOREX market, however, and generally speaking, my currency pair, which was following the same pattern as several other currency pairs for some time, at one point deviated in pattern and continued in a loss pattern until my account was depleted. At that time it returned to its previous pattern with the other several currency pairs. A coincidence? Possibly. But in light of the inexplicably strange happenings I have encountered over the years, I am left to wonder. There are those who believe such victimizations like mine are controlled by groups with enough power and inuence to move through our societies, to violate laws and intercede in normal happenings to facilitate their destruction of the lives of others. If this is the case, the matter of tampering with investments within the anonymity of the complexity of nancial markets is possible. Not very realistic in general, but then again myself and others who are victims to their life being destroyed have experienced incredible happenings. And the theory does t with all the happenings that have prevented me from earning money, and also which have forced me to spend the little remaining money I have. This is for you to ponder, but the point is I have been struggling incredibly to earn money since my victimization started. Working in the English as a second language industry brings with it some peculiarities or idiosyncrasies of the industry, if I can express the thought in this way. One of these is the all too common occurrence where teachers are not paid their salaries. It should be no surprise teachers were often made to wait in receiving their 46

salaries, and upon leaving an employ with a group it was fairly common their nal salary would not be given to them at all, or if it was given not in the full amount. This does not make the trait of the industry acceptable, it only shows it to be predominant in spite of the problems it created for teachers including this one, albeit my work was different than most ESL teachers. One instance I experienced involved the withholding of severance money owed to me upon my being let go by an employer. In spite of the fact that workplace laws dictated severance be paid, this foreign employer, Clark Morgan, blatantly lied about the matter. And a lawyer I spoke with in China also lied about the matter in favor of the employer. I say it was a lie as after speaking with a second lawyer in another province in China he assured me I was entitled to severance money, and that the lawyer I spoke to and Clark Morgan were lying in the matter. The running of many businesses in the ESL industry employ questionable practices in China. This is not a secret and is fairly common knowledge to those who have worked in the industry there, and this also had an affect on my ability to earn income. For instance, a company in China which was owned by foreigners hired me into a business development position, yet after relocating and starting with the company I was told the position was no longer available and that a teaching position was. I was too experienced which posed a problem in the position and as a result I did not t with the company's practice of hiring recent graduates. As a result of my background (in managing and teaching/training), my work style did not t with the company's treat them like inexperienced lost puppies approach, and soon after starting the job my employ with them nished. I found myself settled in the city after relocating there and was unemployed. Had I known the position was a basic teaching position, I would not have accepted it and relocated to the city. But this was the industry. In another province in China I was hired by a company that offered me position in marketing with some part-time teaching of at an elementary school. Upon arriving at the city many hours away from where I was living I found that most of the items of the agreement we had made where not offered. The apartment offered was not available with the explanation the building was in the process of being built, and which left me to live in the home of a family member of the person who had made the agreement with me. I stayed with the family for a short time to discover I was not going to be paid for my marketing work, and that all that was true of the agreement was some part-time teaching at a local elementary school. I then packed my bags and departed from the city. On one occasion an employer, Clark Morgan, requested its employees who were trainers write an article for their magazine which they distributed to the Human Resources department of hundreds of companies. The request came without any guidelines or direction for article writing, even when the magazines editor and a supervisors were asked directly about it. And when trainers submitted their articles for publication in the magazine some were cases of straight plagiarism of articles on the Internet. In my case I did not reference a few items in my article, in a bibliography or footnote section, as I was given no guidelines about writing the article when inquiring about it, and the workplace standards were low that working to a higher standard might work against a person, even though it really should not. However, the 47

magazines editor was quick to accuse me of plagiarizing for not having footnoted the small bits of information in question. Yet the trainers who took their entire articles directly from the Internet, real cases of plagiarism, did not receive any comment about it from the editor. Perhaps a case of discrimination against the me or favoritism toward the trainers who were in fact plagiarizing. But either way a case of unfair and unprofessional practices that I suffered for. This is not necessarily an account to do with how earning income was made difcult for me, but it does show how low the workplace and business standards are in that industry and which serve to wrongfully discredit people in it. And that, by extension, can have an adverse affect on ones earning ability. Another aspect of the industry was the many different reasons a teacher/ trainer would be let go or forced to leave an employer. One instance that happened to teachers on occasion, including me, was the promise of an employer procuring a work visa for them and then reneging on the promise, leaving the teacher in situation that forced them to nd another job elsewhere. Other accounts included outrageous feedback from students which caused the ring of the teacher. In one instance a student in a colleague's class wanted the teacher to talk about me and how they thought I was stupid. And the teacher, my colleague, in their own lack of intelligence obliged the student's request. The worst part of the matter was how the employer, again Clark Morgan, thought there was nothing wrong with the smear against me by the student. And even when speaking to my colleague who succumbed to the childish request of the student, he was indifferent to the matter and acted as if there was no wrong-doing in it. This is analogous to a colleague at your work telling your clients you are stupid, and your colleague and employer think there is nothing wrong with the smear against you. At this point you realize you have no support from your employer against outrageous attempts to discredit you. My leaving this employer was not for the childish comment of the student in question, however teachers in general, including myself, did suffer for performance perceived to not be good for reasons that included how they looked, among other things, many of which were supercial and had nothing to do with the persons teaching/training ability. On one occasion a female student who appeared to be a look-alike continually tried to get my attention during my lessons with her, but when I stayed professional to the work and did not offer the reactions she hoped for to her provocations she complained: a complaint to my employer for tardiness to one lesson when a taxi driver could not nd the address to bring me to, and I was red. And my explanations to my employer about the problem with the taxi went unheard. This particular incident led to discussion with local authorities in the Chinese city regarding an incorrect visa issued to me by that employer and monies owed to me by them. It was a timeconsuming matter which took many weeks where the authorities acknowledged previous wrongdoings by this employer with respect to visas they procured for their employees. But then at one point the matter was immediately dropped by the authorities who were investigating the matter, leaving me with an expired visa and no monies received by the employer. The situation of having an expired visa led to me being threatened with deportation from China and for no fault of my own. The entire matter, like many complicated and time consuming ones that I have been forced into, further added to my problems and the cost of my living expenses. As I recall further, 48

part of the monies owed to me, though not all, were in fact offered to me by the employer. However for some reason they would not send the funds to my address, nor would they accept anyone other than myself showing up at their ofce to receive them, even with a signed letter from me. To give you some idea of the context of the situation, given the poor ending of my relationship with the employer, and the common practice of smearing an employee who is leaving an employ, I risked further smearing and attempts to discredit me by showing up at my employer's ofce. This was one of many awkward situations a foreign teacher often stood to suffer for in the name of saving face. And other similar situations were those that saw what can be called a prejudice toward foreign teachers that tried to avoid the undermining of questionable actions by local staff and the employer them self. This next account took place in a different province in China were an employer that would not issue me a work visa left me to consider another employer after a very short time with the company. A curious matter about my visa which was procured by my new employer is that its duration was only for a few days. I discovered the problem after having left that employ, however for the time with that company I could have run into problems with the law: I was holding a visa which according to its dates was no longer valid. Fortunately in this one instance the duplicitous actions of others did not create problems for me as they have so so many times over the last dozen years. And another item with the same employer was the situation revealed by the head of teaching: the woman was a foreign teacher/administrator who held an executive position in the company, and it was she who revealed that students with fake identications were attending classes at the school. In my years of teaching/training in China I never saw that the problem of students with fake IDs was common to other teachers. As far as I could estimate, these fake students were part of the circumstances that created problems for me in my work at times. However, as for the work in that company, I was let go from it only a few months after having started it. I was told by a senior member of the staff who revealed the matter of fake IDs that the business was suffering nancially, and while I later estimated that her telling me this was in some way to do with me being let go from the company, the business hired new teachers who were not being let go, only me. An odd circumstance as the enrollment seemed to be increasing, yet the business was experiencing nancial difculties overall. Is it possible the owner received monies on the condition I was let go? I cannot be certain of this, but the events that played out were suspicious and required an explanation that was not evident. Perhaps it was a payoff to end my work and my chance to earn there. This does t with the pattern of many others taking actions for which I have suffered. In retrospect, the police ofcial who returned my passport to me with my new visa that had incorrect dates appeared to be what I and others are referring to as a look-alike. It was another of many suspicious situations in my circumstances. Also in China was this event where after being paid a bonus to start employment with a company the bonus was then asked to be returned, at which time my passport went missing as no-one in the company knew of its whereabouts, including the president of the company who was unable to locate it through his people. As the matter ended up I went to the local PSB ofce (Public Security Bureau, or police station) in search of my passport which was there and in the process of 49

receiving my work visa. I was given my passport and then arranged a ight out of the city the next day or so, adding another unexpected cost to my living expenses and another lost employment opportunity for the strange happenings at the employer. This account where I was paid a hiring bonus and another where two groups argued over which would have me work at their University/Institute lends to my comments in section 6 titled Why? about an aspect of secretiveness of my victimization. In this account the representatives of two different schools showed up at a train station in central China where I had travelled many hours to, when the two argued over who would have me teach at their school. The matter later saw one school take legal action against the other where I began work as an instructor. Another account to do with my passport took place in Beijing where I worked for a franchise ofce of a large international business I would later work for in the position of Director (of Studies). Upon the completion of my employ with the group it happened that my passport was not returned to me by the person running the school, at which time I reminded them my passport was the property of my government and that they could answer to my embassy for not having returned my passport to me. The childlike game that was played to antagonize me by refusing to return my passport was immediately stopped at this point and my passport was returned to me. This is not an example of how earning income has been directly a problem to this kind of happening, but it does show that my victimization has made me the object of such incidents which only have created problems and aggravation for me. And an item to consider is the serious problems a person will experience when they are in a foreign country and without a passport. In a different city than in the previous account, I worked for the parent company of the business just mentioned. This was an international sized language training company where I held the position of Director of Studies. It is worth noting I interviewed for and was offered this position after being let go from a basic training position for not tting into the work style of that business. While some took my being let go from that former position as an indication of my poor performance there, it was evident I was over qualied, like I pointed out to that employer, which is why I could be offered the position of Director in an organization that dwarfed their size. In the new position I supervised about one dozen teaching staff, both foreign and Chinese, while offering some lessons and managing my area of the business to improve it. By the time I left the company I restructured the teaching routines in scheduling and planning to better accommodate the needs of teachers and the demands of students, whose numbers increased by nearly two fold in the time I was there. I recruited several new teachers to our school and supervised their orientation and training to ll a problematic gap created by the shortage of teachers prior to my entering the position and I additionally offered ideas and approaches regarding the automation of a vital company management information system (MIS), a task that was beyond my work responsibilities. My peer performance review was acceptable and staff made a point at times of telling me how they looked forward to coming to work everyday because they knew I was there. It was one of the nicest compliments I have been paid in my work in a long time. Unfortunately even in the position where I was able to draw upon my former experience in supervising and managing to get the results I did, the workplace was not 50

beyond experiencing strange things also happening there. For instance I sat in a professional development session led by my supervisor to hear the group asked how to restructure the teaching scheduling and planning, when I already completed the initiative in my school. As I sat surprised at the request as it indicated my supervisor was unaware of my work in the area despite my telling her, I then watched a subordinate of mine in the session begin to give an explanation of what I already completed as his proposed idea. This was only one of several odd situations which included the staff from information technology taking my ideas for automation of a vital company MIS, and automating it which eliminated a large portion of my work responsibility without my knowing it and staff who reported to me receiving phone calls by someone who apparently was spying on the workplace and the goings-on in my it, such that they provided information to these members of my staff about my activities. It became a totally unworkable situation for me in supervising my staff, aside from the fact it was very unethical. In addition to this last account but in a different situation was when I spoke with clients just prior to giving a presentation at a hotel in China. One woman I spoke to received a call on her mobile as we spoke, and judging from her reaction toward me after hearing the person on the phone speak, it seemed she was told something to sway her opinion of me when she immediately turned and without a word left our conversation to walk out of the meeting hall. And needless to say, we spoke about her companys training needs, nothing that would have her leave in the abrupt manner she did. But back to my position as Director, strange happenings were also observed which included problems with the computer network where particular les I used regularly went missing. The IT staff was miffed by the inexplicable problem and it was never resolved, with times where a great amount of work was redone because of the lost les. And aside from this technical problem were the strange occurrences in the behaviors of people in the workplace. As I recall, different people including a senior person in the company were seen making odd sounds and exhibiting an odd manner, at times behaving in a way that was severely strange. My subordinates were becoming rude toward me as I sat in their lessons to conduct performance observations, and my position was vastly undermined when my staff continually went to my boss on various matters instead of talking with me about them. My discussion with my boss about the problem saw no improvement and people interacted with me less and less at lunch and after work hours, to the point I was becoming alienated from the activity of the ofce/school aside from interactions to do with my responsibilities, and as a result my role continually eroded for the overall circumstances created. Then one day I was unexpectedly called into a meeting with my boss and her boss where I was let go from the company with no reasonable explanation. My accomplishments and the results I achieved for the business appeared to not be considered at all, however, and not that this makes up for the unfortunate experience in working there, I did receive severance pay upon my departure. With these strange phenomena in the workplace and the problems they created in my ability to supervise my staff and meet my wok responsibilities, I did not argue the decision to dismiss me,

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knowing I would not be permitted to perform my work as best I could nor have a fair chance at success in the position. Under normal circumstances I could have dealt with the poor behavior of my subordinates with warnings and later reprimands, however the strange happenings were occurring more such that it became unrealistic to deal with them as normally would be done in supervising/managing staff. Was my dismissal simply a case of company politics and the too often seen case of poor management practices? Possibly, however I think likely not. And I share the account here as another example of how it was difcult for me to earn. It may be taken that many of these accounts, because they are work related, are a matter of the perils of the workplace and perhaps also the dysfunctional running of too many of them. And while this is a possibility, I share with you an item of praise I received during my teaching/training career in China. A student who was a corporate lawyer in an international company said I was the best trainer they ever had, a compliment which amid all the work related problems I suffered for, and all the happenings which had a smearing affect on me, helps show that my ability, despite created perceptions of performance, was truly enough to receive such complimentary praise. This argument becomes a game of cat and mouse in a way. If a t/v is smeared and discredited, such happenings as have happened in my teaching/training work should be expected. This makes them not coincidences but attempts to oppress the t/v. And at the same time we know I have instructed at a College in Canada and at Universities in China, and supervised and managed in world class companies where I conducted interviews and hired staff at one of Canadas most respected universities and we also know the business environments where my performance was questioned employed work practices that measured to a different, and not higher, standard. This point about standards in work and in individual performance comes up later in this exposition in highlighting suggestions raised over the years about my traits and skills, and how I may have been cheated in my career(s) despite my true work performance. A consideration to make in these work related accounts is that aside from actions which may have not been voluntary, as in to say a person may have not realized they were doing them at the time, there are those actions that have been with purposeful intention to undermine, smear, or discredit me. And in doing so these people have not only hindered the ability of a good employee, but have also hindered the businesses in question by creating dysfunctionality or simply put, problems. This poor behavior also applies when the staff of businesses treat t/vs this way, where others develop an impression about the business for the poor behavior as a result, and the impressions are then there to be remembered and likely shared with others. This all helps a business gain a bad reputation for either sabotaging the efforts of a t/v who works there or smearing a t/v who is a client of the business. It was in a province in China not far from Beijing where I was providing training to the staff of an international insurance company. Some of the students in the class were noticeably difcult with me even though I was the instructor, and this behavior continued until the students in question learned I was a client of the company, at which time their behavior immediately changed. Most every company receives feedback from their customers which creates the opportunity for these 52

businesses to suffer in their reputation when it becomes known their staff have been harassing customers. Is the onus to destroy the reputation of a t/v so great and satisfying that people would risk their own jobs and the reputation of their employer for it? It leaves one to wonder and makes me think about the quotes in this exposition that talk of todays norms and the simplemindedness of people: these are people who would put them self at risk as well as their peers and the business that provides their livelihood. Perhaps it is true that stupidity has reached an all time high among us. This next account is not work related but rather it is about how a t/vs nances can possibly be affected such that investments are caused to lose money. I refer to the stock market where I had investments in equity stocks over the years. Going back to about 2002 my investments saw a good performance were they grew nicely, however several years later that changed such that all my equity stocks were reduced to close to zero cents per share. I was informed by another that my investments would no longer grow and any further purchases of equities would see them reduced to a value of zero. This was a shocking revelation which was eased only by the fact that I no longer had money to invest, and so with this new development in my victimization I turned to investing in gold companies. Gold is one of the few stable investments which is very unlikely to be affected by the inuences that caused my other equity stocks to be reduced to zero. Obviously this discovery makes the point of my not being able to earn money very real. And at the same time it offers validity to the possibility that my FOREX investment was sabotaged to cause my investment in it to be entirely lost. Today I have enough money to live a few more months of very basic living where I currently reside as the cost of living is relatively inexpensive. And while I watch my remaining tiny bit of money diminish, I have people telling me to relocate to another country which will only serve to deplete my funds in the cost of travel, and leave me with next to nothing when I arrive wherever it is I would go to. I am forced to give long and heavy sighs for reections about the horrendous state of my situation. I hope this section has made clear that my ability to earn money as per the accounts given for the years I spent teaching/training in China, and the other accounts for my time in Japan and Italy, was severely hampered. After realizing my (professional) career and teaching/training abroad would not permit me an opportunity to earn income, I turned to studying ction and writing and set out to write a novel. This was partly to satisfy a previous personal goal I set years ago, and partly a way to tell the story of my victimization. I accepted at that time that my life was ruined because of my victimization and that I would receive little to no assistance to get my life, and all that was taken from me in it, back. I am not going into details about my discussions with authorities here about my victimization although a later section in this exposition will look slightly at that, but sufce it to say that at this point I already spoke to various groups from law enforcement to human rights, and it was clear nothing would be done to help my circumstances. My life was being killed off, and for all the people and groups that knew of it no-one was going to offer assistance. As much as my writing was a way to hopefully earn money, it also has been a way to leave a legacy behind after I am gone. And that is to say unless a drastic change is permitted to my life, to undo the severe damage done to it by my victimization. But, having said that, the unfortunate reality

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6 The Difculties In Living Day To Day

In this entire exposition it has not been my intention to provide an irrefutable case to convince anyone of how the workings of my circumstances specically function in their operating methodologies, but rather to give an account of what comprises my circumstances and how it has destroyed my life. I maintain it is virtually impossible to provide an irrefutable case for the causes and workings of the aspects of my victimization such that the targeting will be ofcially be made to stop, for the reason any truthful information provided will simply be denied and lied about to avoid the truth being known. Just as evidence I have collected has been taken down from the Internet or tampered with via editing that has been unknown to me, any effort of anyone to explain with evidence the inexplicable happenings that have plagued me or other t/vs in similar victimizations will, I suggest, be smeared, tampered with, or made to disappear. It is not a straightforward matter of showing motive, means, and opportunity as is done in proving guilt in legal cases, as no smoking gun can be provided, so to speak, to establish the relationship between the perpetrator of the crime and the victim of it, leaving groups only to remain as suspects. The invisibility of the methods that are apparently in question leaves them to be undetected unless extensive effort is made to do so, and the people and groups in a position to do so have not and will not unless something changes. I suggest their actions are controlled by those who are responsible for these victimizations of innocent people, and the silence of those who can prove what is happening in this targeting and inicting of suffering in people is part of the hiding of the matter I mentioned. When it can be shown in a clear and undisputed way that the actions of a person or group are responsible for these aspects of victimization against another, then it will be possible to properly accuse that person or group for the harm they have caused others whereby justice will have nally been served. This is what my experience has been in this matter. Should someone be successful in surpassing these obstacles and bring the truth to light for people to hear and know of and have accepted ofcially by authorities, I only hope my story has helped them meet their goal in this to bring freedom to those who are treated unjustly by this tyranny. My life draws toward what appears to be its end, and because I endure mocking from people who show to have no regard for my life or to have civilized outlooks toward someone in a victimization like me, I wish to leave a diary of sorts for after I am gone to reveal the truth, knowing there are many who know of the workings of my victimization and circumstances. And I say, this is on the assumption no radical change in my life will be made available to me to avoid the path I have been forced on from reaching its logical conclusion, which is the ending of my life. While the exposition is anonymous and I have not used my name, there are those who are aware 55

of my victimization and who I rely on to reveal the truth after I am gone. In this section I will point out how difcult and almost impossible it has been at times to live and function day to day in any reasonable manner for my victimization. In looking at this from the perspective of what a person needs to live and the view of the practical aspects of living, I will show a circumstance that in my case is so unreasonable it is nearly impossible to adequately live in, and at the same time many people would not want to live in it. I will refer to Maslows Hierarchy of Needs, the model used to explain human motivation by the psychologist Abraham Maslow, the leader of the humanistic school of psychology. In his pyramid of needs we see the following categories from the bottom up biological and physical needs, safety needs, belongingness and love needs, esteem needs, and at the top of the triangle self-actualization needs. Starting with self-actualization needs, these areas have not been permitted me in my victimization personal growth and fulllment. Down one level to esteem needs, the areas of achievement, status, responsibility, and reputation have generally speaking not been permitted me since leaving my rst professional career, and even that claim is debatable as you will see later on in this exposition. Any achievement, status, or responsibility I have earned was undermined by efforts to make them short-lived, and then later oppressed by other efforts to downplay my reputation in attempts to smear or dismiss it. And add to this the aspect of my victimization which became predominant about three or four years ago, the ugly treatment of me where I have been subjected to regular public humiliation. Still down one level to belongingness and love needs, the areas of family, affection, relationships, and workgroups have all been grossly compromised. Family has deserted any consideration for me by all indications, relationships are too often dysfunctional for the odd and inexplicably strange behavior of people I interact with, the many staged situations I have been forced into are based on the duplicity of the people involved who know of my personal activities and conversations and nally, workgroups have suffered for the same reasons and for the short durations of jobs as I have explained. As for affection, this may have been more of a necessity for me than what is generally required by many people. And you need to understand that because of the strange happenings in my circumstances, I have been under regular stress, which at times has been great stress, and as a result my nervous system has been aggravated and over stimulated by it. The necessity for physical (and emotional) affection has been a necessity for me for this reason, and now that I have explained that this has been so much of a necessity, let us consider if it has been available to me. While I have done what many do in trying to nd physical intimacy, due to my circumstances this has not been possible very often. And what I mean by saying this is that an aspect of my circumstances has been people creating staged situations to manipulate or provoke me to see what I will say or do in response; it has been cases of staged situations for observation. It is the rat-in-a-cage testing scenario which I have mentioned in other parts of this exposition. This takes away the option in many cases of approaching a female, as I am heterosexual, for physical intimacy. The effort too often becomes a useless one for the staged aspect of the situation in which it is applied. No physical intimacy will come from the exchange and attempt, only the testing and provocation for my response/reaction to it. 56

 It has happened on many occasions over the years where others have come to where I am to repeat the words I have used in meeting females, or to mimmic my gestures and manners in speaking with females. This is a bizarre happening which has made it clear my actions and words come to be known by others, many of which use them for their own benet. Emotional affection or intimacy are items I have sought in the very few relationships I have been able to maintain in consideration of my circumstances. And so, like the other three areas of this category, affection has also been compromised or not available to me at all at times. In the category of safety needs there are the areas of protection, security, order, law, and stability, and while I have not had people break into my home while I was in it, I have had my residence entered where items of mine have gone missing. I have been threatened by a superior at a place of employment; I have been mobbed and beaten by a group of six to a staged incident; I have had people follow me with aggressive and violent intentions toward me; I have had people break the law in abusing me; I have had people scheme behind my back about things that affect me, leaving no sense of order for me; I have had to relocate again and again and change jobs again and again, creating little or no stability in the areas of my work and my living; and I have been made to wait unnecessarily long periods of time on matters which oftentimes have been important, causing again little sense of order and heightened stress in me. Since my victimization became more evident around 2000 I have passed blood through my stool on many occasions. The stress and tension and their effect on my nervous system have been harmful to me, enough that I underwent a colonoscopy to try to nd the cause of my internal bleeding. However the result of the procedure was negative as the condition is stress induced and occurs under conditions of heightened tension/stress. Fissures in the lining of the intestines seep blood into into the organ under conditions of heightened stress and tension as this matter was explained to me.

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A picture of the paperwork of my colonoscopy at a hospital in China. In situations where I anticipated, as in to say I sensed, a staged situation developing or a situation for which I would be harassed in some way, on many of those occasions my physiological response has been to become pale and weakened with a sickly feeling in my stomach. And at these times I usually passed blood in my stool which was more liquid than solid, likely due to the discomfort felt in my stomach and that my intestines where affected. Before I look at the nal and bottom category, biological and physiological needs, it is arguable but more so evident that of the ve categories I have mainly been living only within the bottom level/category with any reliability. Yet, even when considering these most basic considerations of the necessities of living, at times even these have been uncertain where I faced being homeless for delays in receiving funds coming to me, leaving me temporarily near penniless. Based on this look at what a person needs to live and how much of it has been permitted me, with the additional consideration of the former life I had that saw me tending to issues at the higher levels of Maslows pyramid, it appears overwhelmingly those responsible for my victimization, including those participating in it, knowingly or not, have shown little regard for the needs of this person. And if such intentions have not been intentional, it further highlights their crude understanding of people and humanity. If the intentions behind my victimization have been entirely purposeful, be

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assured that the lives of innocent, decent people are being destroyed by monsters among us. Turning to the practical aspects and considerations of my circumstances and how they have added incredible difculty in living day to day, you must be able to ponder a changing situation which grows in severity and scope to be more insidious over time. For the many different aspects I will mention one must appreciate they have shown themselves in varying quantities at different times. That is to say, for instance, if hypothetically a dozen aspects are known to have occurred in total, at one time only a few may have occurred, which, while seemingly less problematic or dangerous, may have been severe enough in themselves that they still caused suffering to their victim. One aspect of my victimization has been signs of intelligence in it, and I am not referring to intelligence as in the compliment of one being smart, but rather intelligence as in those guiding or controlling my circumstances have reacted to my reaction to them: I become annoyed to the point of frustration or aggravation or at times even anger, and the harassment toward me lessens or stops. Or, if I show how the tampering with my life is causing problems for other groups, the meddling and sabotage lessens or stops until it starts up again. Let us rst consider electronic devices and other items used by most people in their day to day life and which operate on electricity. The tampering and sabotage of these have created a great deal of difculty for me in living day to day. And again, as I have said earlier in this exposition, it is not my intention to go into detailed explanations of science or metaphysics to try to show, without a doubt, how these inexplicable phenomena do happen, but rather to give an account of them happening. However in the Appendix you will see information that sheds light on this, and keep in mind the explanations offered are always debated by those who try to discredit them, creating suspicion about what they appear to be hiding and why they would not help a t/v, and those who have seen these strange happenings occur in their own experiences and in those of others, leaving you to make your own estimate about these inexplicable happenings and the intentions of those causing them, knowing the reports are many. And in your estimate about intentions, motives, and strategies in creating these problems for people, consider how dependent people have become on devices that operate on electricity. The ability of people to communicate, keep records, and receive information is heavily based on devices that operate on electricity mobile phones, cellular phones, landline telephones, Internet, computers, digital cameras, most commonly used radios, and television. There may also be other items to include in this list, but these are commonly found to be used by most people in their everyday life. And to those who either have little imagination or are simply naive about the problems that can be associated with these devices, consider how landline telephones calls have been listened in on for decades by authorities, and then later mobile phones. Add to this, one of the more recent developments in the high-tech world of devices used by many people, GPS technology, global positioning satellite technology, which apparently can very specically locate the position of a person based on GPS coordinates created by a digital photo taken with a digital camera. By talking on a mobile phone one risks having their conversation listened in on, and by taking a digital photo they then risk having their specic location known by 59

others. Simply put, people can know where you are and what you are saying. In the case of t/vs the intention to smear and discredit them can be served through the meddling and tampering of such devices, and through the abuse of the information they come to know about them. If a persons ability to communicate to people is meddled with and their ability to receive communications from others is also tampered with, the t/v can stand to suffer from isolation and a very dysfunctional life. Everyone needs to communicate to function. If people believe a t/vs mobile phone is listened in on they will likely not call them for fear the conversation will be heard, and that it is they who are communicating with the t/v which may not be liked by those imposing the victimization. Or in cases when it is known a t/vs mobile phone (or Internet activity) is monitored, a person may purposely communicate with the t/v knowing their message will be known by others, allowing them a chance to mislead or even attempt to smear the t/v. This is a very basic look at the problem created for a t/v, but as you read on you can estimate how the various methods that target a person can control and severely affect the different aspects of their life. To look at this in more general terms as it can become complex for all the considerations of the impacts to a t/vs life, imagine the situation of a mouse in a maze. If the maze represents the life of a person and the mouse represents the person in it, the mouse has several options available to it to travel. However what happens when the mouses options, or ability to follow an option, are slowly and gradually either eliminated or made so unreasonable it becomes unrealistic to follow them? Bit by bit the mouse has fewer choices to continue in the maze, and in the worst cases like my own the mouse is left with no realistic or reasonable options, having had them eliminated, tampered with, or sabotaged. Consider the situation where peoples behavior is affected. Speaking to a person face to face or over the phone or over the Internet, where the person you speak to begins behaving strangely making odd sounds or gestures; saying things which are not inline or consistent with them as if the comments are articially communicated through them; or becoming aggressive, antagonistic, slightly confrontational and just plain difcult, creating an awkward or dysfunctional exchange that becomes unreasonable. And in many instances the same people exhibiting the strange behavior have shown to have no recollection of it after the fact. They only believe it when recordings of the strange happening are shared with them to hear or see their bizarre and inexplicable behavior. Also, in many of these instances the people behaving strangely can say things other than what they truly want to say. Imagine the implications of this talking to a friend, a member of your family, or to a business, and being told something that is later denied by the person who said it as they have no recollection of having said it. A most incredible phenomena to consider and my point is not to convince you of how this could happen, but to have you consider it has and does which creates complex scenarios for which the target of them will suffer. And needless to say this can make a t/vs life completely dysfunctional where they only stand to be discredited for exposing the problem. In China with Tee on one occasion she became agitated to the point of becoming aggressive for no apparent reason, when she violently kicked a marble coffee table which broke to pieces. And also in China at another time with a friend in my 60

home, she oftentimes fell into a daze as she spoke as if inuenced to articially speak, making odd sounds as she moved about the apartment. To give you a basic foundation about the possibility of such inexplicable happenings, know that research has been conducted and is being conducted in the area of articial control of people. The information is out there, a person need only look for it, although later in this exposition I reference information about it in the Appendix. Next let us consider the case where a t/v is the subject of massive scrutiny in the the things they say and do. The problems created by this, aside from the deliberate attempts to smear and discredit a person, are due to the use of what some refer to as drugstore psychology approaches and the subsequent gossip of the bad judgments made and opinions formed. This leads to a wrong oppression of the t/v for the things they have said and done, which oftentimes have been said or done in private. But privacy becomes a luxury which is near nonexistent for a t/v in this situation, like I have been. The use of drugstore psychology is harmful for the t/v as a harmless gesture like coughing or making a gesture with their hand is misunderstood and given a different meaning by those monitoring them. A person may cough for one of several reasons they may have a cold, they may be a smoker, they may have drank something that did not go down nicely, they may have eaten something spicy, or they may have taken a breath of dusty air or coughed for some other reason still. However the observer of the t/v in these cases rarely considers the situation in which the target has coughed, and assigns their own meaning to it which they then feed to a gossip network that follows the t/v. It is very possible in this scenario, and fairly regular at times of heightened monitoring and scrutiny, the t/v will soon-after nd people behaving differently toward them, possibly acting with some type of disrespectful manner because a wrong opinion was formed based on their coughing, which was taken to mean a sign of disrespect to someone when in fact, when the t/v was observed to cough they did so for an entirely different reason. It borders on delusional that people would form such opinions based on haphazard observations, but this is what the t/v suffers to. Another example is the case where the t/v makes a hand gesture while in conversation with another, where the gesture is part of their manner of communicating. However when the drugstore psychology observer sees the hand gesture, and without knowing why the t/v has made it, they make a wild assumption for the gesture being made, which is rarely correct, and fuel the gossip network with the idea that the t/v is rude to short, overweight men because such a person was near the t/v and who appeared to be on the receiving end of the t/vs gesture. But really the gesture was not intended for them. Now the t/v suffers for situations where short, overweight men approach him or her in public to reciprocate the hand gesture in a rude manner. This is arguably a dangerous outcome of those who believe in the credo a persons perception is their reality and attempt to control the environment around those who blindly live to this idea. If their perception is ill-based, so will be their decisions based on it. And for the doubting Thomases, the book The Grand Design by Stephen Hawking and David Mlodinow talks exactly to this point in it. I do not mean to dispute fundamental ideas of psychology, however when manipulation is applied to purposely alter a persons impression of the reality of things 61

I think we are talking about another matter entirely, which is based on duplicity to serve some other purpose. Another aspect of the monitoring of the t/v is how they are retaliated against for things they have said in private. A conversation with a friend in the privacy of their home where they express an opinion about something in an anecdote they share, for instance, and this is hypothetical, someone who is narcissistic or a bully, the t/v will later be approached in public by a person who exhibits the traits of the person in the anecdote, and usually to antagonize them. The problems to constant monitoring in this manner see the t/v become the target of smearing or misinformed gossip, and they also stand to suffer for the actions of those who stalk them to antagonize them as a result of the monitoring. This has applied, and still does, to the conversations of t/vs in public and in their homes, in their Internet communications, and in my case, my writing. Whatever opinions or ideas are expressed come back to harass the me in a way that I suffer for as per this explanation of monitoring of activities and conversations. A curious matter relating to these aspects of victimization is when some try to observe my accounts of strange happenings and harassment, but they do not do it in consultation with me. What often happens is these people spy on my writing or conversations and then nd that when they venture to observe the odd activity I mention it does not happen. And if you recall, I had mentioned there is an aspect of intelligence in the application of my victimization against me. Not intelligence as in to say smart, but intelligence as in to say it gives reactions, like stopping a method when it is known the method is being observed or is about to be observed. This leaves the anonymous observers with nothing to see as the method in question has stopped. And what is worse is how the t/v is further smeared by these observers who have failed to make a sighting of an odd happening, and mainly because they have not done it in consultation with the t/v to fully understand the matter, or do not realize the intelligence applied by those who cause the method to happen. Relationships with people can become very strained for a t/v as a result of these many methods used against them. Be it new acquaintances or friends or even family members. In the case of new acquaintances odd behaviors in people is enough to keep a relationship from forming, and in the case of friends malicious or misinformed gossip can undermine the relationship. And even with more established relationships like lifelong friends and family members, these methods can also cause those relationships to suffer. Things said at times which people later do not recall saying in phone or face-to-face conversations, or information gone missing on a t/vs computer due to the tampering of it, causing them to be unable to substantiate strange happenings in their victimization, or activities in their everyday life, leaving close friends and even family distrusting and uncertain toward the t/v. Another aspect of a t/vs victimization in a case like mine is the isolation of them because of these activities that target them, and also for not being informed about matters that affect them. A case of isolation not only in relationships with people, facilitated by the fact that their conversations are not private and that whatever is said is in one way or another often used against the t/v, but also for the fact that the t/v remains unaware of the goings on in matters that affect them. In these instances the t/v has no chance to defend themselves to matters that smear them, as they only 62

later receive indirect insinuations about it from others. The indirect insinuation cannot be replied to by the t/v without appearing odd in behavior, leaving the t/v with no chance to properly defend them-self from the smears. For the t/v who contacts the appropriate people or groups to know of matters that involve them, they receive little, if any, reply at all. And while this can affect the personal aspects of the t/vs life, for instance those cases where a relationship is stopped due to misinformed gossip the t/v is unaware of, it can also affect their career as the next example shows. I was made a team member at a company I worked for, Clark Morgan in China, and the team members met without my knowing it. Later I was reprimanded by my supervisor for not attending the team meeting which I was purposely not informed about. Situations like this appear to be cases of discrimination in their blatant intentions toward this t/v. If you consider how these different methods work to isolate a t/v, from people and knowledge about matters that affect them and aspects of their life, and in the complicated situations created by the use of the different methods simultaneously, you can begin to see how the t/v is, guratively speaking, blind to their life, the status of it, and how it is being affected without their knowing it. Now let us introduce another aspect of victimization used against t/vs which is analogous to tricking a blind person with sounds and smells. The blind person can be fooled by such stimulus and made to believe one thing or another despite the truth of what is happening. Some have suggested this next aspect of a t/vs victimization is driven by the Central Intelligence Agency, CIA, or possibly other groups like the United Nations or even another group still. And remember there are groups who do secretive work in the area of what is referred as psych ops (psychological operations) in the intelligence community and within groups of the military. I do not know the truth of who is responsible for it, but what is true about this matter is how a network of people follow the t/v as part of a program that tries to manipulate and control them through actions that are analogous to fooling the blind person. It has been suggested the entire situation is similar to the story titled The Truman Show in which the mans life was entirely controlled through staged people and situations. The purpose of all of it was to observe the man so his life could be shown through a televised program, and one of the points of the story was how the man wanted to escape the fake, false, staged, non-real life and was willing to die to do so. And the few people who knew the truth of what was being done to him were not permitted to speak to him, so as to force him to be imprisoned from reality to the fake life forced on him. The people in this scenario are oftentimes what have been referred to as lookalikes who were mentioned earlier in this exposition. With their resemblance to people the t/v knows or knows of, and their props and intentional gestures and even intentional words, and at times actions laden with scripting, the attempt is to try to control the t/vs opinions about various matters, many of which affect aspects of their life. When the t/v is unaware of happenings that affect their life and people are inuenced to keep them from knowing the truth about it, what is created is a case of deprivation of sorts analogous in ways to experiments where a subject experiences some type of deprivation, like light or sound for instance, or possibly any normal stimulus where they are then more susceptible to actions that try to inuence them their opinions, feelings, and subsequent behaviors. And it is arguable this is in ways 63

worse than the basic concept of conditioning. In this approach duplicitous methods which are unapparent to others are used on the t/v and their sense of reality can be affected by it. I refer to the writings of Stephen Covey who holds a PhD in psychology, among other degrees, and who heads a successful international consulting company and is the author of the international bestselling book series about highly effective people. I studied his courses and books in my professional development training in my rst career, and in his teachings he talks of principle centeredness and its reactions to actions which are considered by some to be manipulative. This is specic to the idea of a person mimicking another with the expectation the other will receive them favorably for it. The idea of psychology in this maintains that a person will feel comfortable with another who resembles them self in some way, however in the case of a principlecentered person, the person may feel they are being manipulated by another who acts differently than normal in mimicking them, considering their true character or personality. This may help explain why so many have doubted my victimization or aspects of it. It is likely they do not know this about people who exhibit traits of principle centeredness and how they receive manipulative actions against them: manipulation can be said to be the control or inuence (a person or situation) cleverly or unfairly or unscrupulously. Or more basically put they may simply not see anything to be wrong with the approach, possibly because they are void of principle-centered traits themselves, or for the simple matter they cannot appreciate an outlook different than their own. But whatever the reason for their inability to see this, the approach is awed as applied to a person who acts with principles. In layman's terms let us consider the movie Paycheck where the main character is presented with a person who remarkably resembles his former girlfriend: we can refer to the woman as a look-alike as her features were purposely prepared to look similar to those of the girlfriend in question. The main character, portrayed as a principal-centered person, principles being the rule or belief that governs one's personal behavior which is correct to moral behaviors and attitudes, when confronted by the look-alike becomes confused by her presence. Granted in this case the man had lost his memory about his girlfriend, but the point of using the look-alike was to fool his impression so he would believe she was in fact his former girlfriend. The entire purpose of using the look-alike was with the intention to mislead the man. In the scenario of manipulation and control the t/v who becomes lost to the reality of their life risks letting them self be controlled by the network of look-alikes, at which time their actions can be misled about the truth of things that affect them, and subsequently they can be caused to take actions that are created by the manipulation of them. In more basic terms, the t/vs opinions and actions are controlled through the elaborate network that follows them and they are no longer acting from their own, naturally occurring beliefs. Are we moving in a direction in our societies that is headed toward good or sound principles that would have people think for themselves and not be controlled by the manipulative actions of others? Not according to Carl Bernstein, an American journalist who helped The Washington Post win a Pulitzer Prize for Public Service in 1973 after the group exposed the Watergate scandal. He says We are in the process of 64

creating what deserves to be called the idiot culture. Not an idiot sub-culture, which every society has bubbling beneath the surface and which can provide harmless fun; but the culture itself. For the rst time, the weird and the stupid and the coarse are becoming our cultural norm, even our cultural ideal. And to be politically correct to avoid any misleading connotative meanings for the term idiot, it is dened as a person who is lacking in intelligence or good sense. I mentioned earlier in this exposition how a dumbing-down effect and antiintellectualism are considered by some to have become more evident throughout todays societies and I am left to wonder about the correlation between this and peoples acceptance of approaches that are manipulative and with an underlying aspect of duplicitousness. It was Rene Descartes who said I think therefore I am which raises the question, if a person does not practice a moment of thinking before reacting, and merely reacts to what is presented to them, are they really thinking at all? And the overriding assumption is that intelligence and good sense are being applied. Have many become objects to be manipulated by various stimulus presented to them to cause them to simply react without thinking? This passage is from Rene Descartes' philosophical classic, Discourse on Method, where his famous expression I think therefore I am is seen. ...Thus, because our senses sometimes deceive us, I would suppose that nothing is such as they make us to imagine it; and because I was as likely to err as another in reasoning, I rejected as false all the reasons which I had formerly accepted as demonstrative; and nally, considering that all the thoughts we have when awake can come to us also when we sleep without any of them being true, I resolved to feign that everything which had ever entered my mind was no more truth than the illusion of my dreams. ... This is similar in ways to another idea looked at in the books of Stephen Covey where the point is made that a person has control over their actions and the results of them by practicing a moment of thought before reacting to that which is presented to them. It may seem to be a small and inconsequential matter, however it is the beginning of actions by all people which go on to create and inuence the environment around them like a domino effect of actions and reactions that go on to spread among us. In more specic terms to the aspect of my victimization which has seen a network of people and activities attempt to control impressions, my own and those of others, the result of this has seen people who I correspond with and who express their appreciation of something I have done, for instance the writing of my books, to be soon after displaced so they can no longer speak with me, or they are prevented from corresponding with me as would be the case over the Internet. In one instance a man offered words of praise for my ability to write the books I have, when not long after he was forced to leave the country for an unexpected matter that required his presence back at his home. Another who spoke with me about my writing was also soon after faced with a situation that required him to return home which meant I could no longer speak with him. And which meant others could not hear our conversations about my writing and the fact I have written several books. With such people removed from my location or prevented to speak with me, I am left to the environment created around me that serves to continually smear and 65

oppress me. With no-one to contradict the smears and reveal the truth of any matters in question that pertain to me, the local environment has shown to not think beyond them and thus accepts them, leaving me discredited and suffering in reputation for it. Let us now add to this complex and confusing mix of aspects of victimization, another aspect which is very personal to the t/v. Any person, even those who are not t/vs, are sensitive about certain aspects of their life, such as banking, business relationships, their work, relationships in general, and overall nancial matters. Consider how all these various methods mentioned, or aspects of victimization, when used on one t/v and focused on these areas can wreak havoc with the t/vs sense of security in their life. In laymans terms head-games can be played on the t/v regarding these sensitive aspects of their life. And still in laymans terms a t/v can be driven to become incredibly stressed and overtaken by anxiety because of the head-games. Some t/vs like me try to avoid this with some healthy venting to satisfy a release of induced tension as a way of managing their stress. However as much as some like me try to fend off this attack on my mentality, it can be my body, unfortunately, that can come to show its physiological succumbing to the stress at times when I experience internal bleeding. I have experienced this afiction on many many occasions as I have mentioned. It may possibly be an involuntary reaction beyond my conscious ability to control it. With an invasion of a t/vs Internet and computer use and privacy and their conversations, items like credit cards and bank account numbers, passwords, names and contact information of business and personal contacts, who can be contacted behind the back of the t/v to smear them, I think you can begin to see how difcult and stressful a t/vs life can become. An argument offered at times to counter the effects of this manipulation of a t/v is the suggestion to merely contact those people or groups who can verify the status of these personal and sensitive areas in the t/vs life. However if you have been following the progressive complexity of the aspects of victimization and the various problems created by them, you will see how problematic the reality of the suggestion truly is. With the tampering of a persons Internet email they are prevented from receiving correspondence, and there are also cases where phone calls are diverted or blocked to prevent the contact of a specic number, and in some cases as in mobile phones the device becomes incapable of contacting any phone numbers at all, requiring the t/v to change premises or have the problem xed with their phone which takes time. And additionally, consider the tampering of a phone connection when calling other numbers where a conversation cannot be adequately understood, or also when the person at a bank, business, your place of work, or your friend says things in your conversation which, for some inexplicable reason, are not accurate to the truth of the matter. Of course a t/v can use a fax machine or the postal service, but enough reports of disrupted postal service to t/vs have been made, and also cases where faxes have not shown up at the recipients end. If one uses their imagination they can see the many combinations and permutations of the methods that target a t/v. Hypothetically if one dozen methods or techniques of harassment in total are used against a t/v, there exist just over 479 million permutations (or variations) in the order in which they are applied against the t/v while all being ultimately applied at the same time. The less complex alternative is 66

the aspects show themselves one or two or three at a time, up to twelve at a time, which similarly offers the most complicated scenario of a t/v dealing with twelve aspects of their victimization at one time. In the case of permutations, where twelve aspects are always present although in different orders, the timing of the affect of the aspect on the t/v is to be considered. For instance, email correspondence is sent and received, then a phone conversation is held which contradicts the correspondences information, and then next the email correspondence disappears from the t/vs email inbox. A simple example with only two aspects, email and phone, but it can easily frame the t/v to appear to be delusional that they claim to have received information when they were told different over the phone and their copy of the email has gone missing. Add to this those situations where a business only operates via Internet and email correspondence. It will not be difcult to tamper with the t/vs communication with the business such that their relationship with the business is made to suffer. Blocked email or late delivery of it, or the worst case of the deletion of an email from an email account, can cause problems in the dealings with that business. T/vs have reported emails going missing from their email account and reports have also been made where tampering of Internet email has happened, as in the case of le attachments to emails having been deleted from the email they were attached to. Below are pictures of one such case where an attachment mysteriously went missing from an email in my inbox.

In the above picture 2 les can be seen to be attached to the email.

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In this above picture which is from the thread of the same email it shows only the names of the les that were attached, but are no longer attached to the email.

In this nal picture is an email where I inquired to the sender of the attachments about the les having gone missing from their email while in the inbox of my email account. The attachments in question were about monies owed to me and in light of other accounts where it has been made difcult for me to earn money, it seems this could have been another tactic to try to keep me from having any money. As you can imagine I was looked upon unfavorably by those who monitor my activities but who do not understand that such tampering does take place. Fortunately in this case I was able to take the picture to show the les actually went missing, somehow. However in other cases where emails have entirely disappeared from my inbox of my email accounts, I could not do the same with pictures to show the problem as the emails were no longer in my inbox. To do so means to regularly take pictures of ones inbox and save them in case a le goes missing, which I think you will agree is an unreasonable thing to do considering the volume and frequency with which people receive email. I received an email at one time from someone who acknowledged my circumstances as a t/v, but the email was later deleted from my email account, apparently as an attempt to hide the truth of my victimization. This 68

serves as another example of how difcult and problematic the life of a t/v is day to day. Imagine what can be done to a persons credibility when many more aspects are applied strategically to make it appear the t/v is not to be trusted or listened to in what they say or do. A persons life can simply be killed off this way, leaving them victim to any opinions and attitudes against them that control peoples actions because they have been tricked into not believing the person. But the truth is the person is ne, its only the perception tricked upon others that ends up controlling what is left of the persons life. For anyone who has the habit of monitoring a t/vs email correspondence, they risk forming wrong impressions and making wrong decision about the t/v for these reasons, and also for the fact others know the t/vs email is monitored which permits them to send misleading information in emails. If there is one thing that is so vital to a t/v who suffers to this type of tampering and sabotage of their communication, it is to have people actually speak to them about issues that have been derived from any monitoring of their communications. Otherwise those doing the monitoring will risk forming wrong impressions and not know it, while the t/v further suffers for the wrong impressions of them. Incidentally, it was an acquaintance of mine who was in the United States while I was in China who explained his computer crashed when opening an email I sent him. His colleague contacted me to ask about what I sent in the email to which I replied the email had nothing associated with it, virus or attachment, or anything other than the writing of the message which was harmless. Another aspect of a t/vs victimization is one which seems to be relatively new to t/vs in the scope of the history of victimizations, and it is an aspect which is highly sophisticated. I refer to those instances where people come to know a t/vs opinions and ideas before they have spoken them or shared them in any manner with anyone. Activists who share information about this topic to create awareness about the abuses of it try to put in technical and rational terms the gross violation a t/v experiences when, amid the near insanity that can surround them at times for their victimization, their most personal, private, and intimate opinions, preferences, ideas, and reections are known by others. And again, with some imagination one can see how the control of a t/vs life can go even further to mislead them when their inner most privacy is violated the Appendix includes references to information on this topic. For instance Jane is a t/v who has a career as a model. By peeking in on her to know she trusts the rst person who gave her advice about her modeling career, those in the network who monitor her then have someone who resembles this person from Janes past contact her, even if it is only by name and not face-to-face. Jane, as a t/v, is uncertain about who to enter into a business relationship with for her career as a result of the uncertainty created in her life by her victimization. When she is contacted by the staged person she feels a degree of comfort in dealing with them, and those watching her know this as they have spied this preference of hers from her. At this point it sounds like a good situation for Jane until it ends up the new business relationship has her photos used in promoting pornographic products and services. Her career is ruined as she is not like other models who do business in pornography,

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and this happened because she was manipulated to trust someone who was brought to her by those who spied her personal preferences from her. The unfortunate part of this is how some may see this approach as a way of helping a person, however a problem arises when such actions are taken as duplicitous and as manipulative cheating. And no-one likes a cheater. Im giving you what you want is the innocent comment by the one who spies the others innermost secrets. But they fail to consider the overwhelmingly common outlook which considers this spying, duplicity, and simply a cheat of the natural manner of coming to know someone. This in itself makes the approach untrustworthy by many I suggest. While the person may think they are giving the other what they want, the other knows it is only offered because of the pre-knowledge involved and that it is not naturally occurring. Also, in the case of the t/v who is left to be highly distrusting because of their victimization, it is a bit foolish to expect them to respond positively to an approach that is so manipulative. If a person wants to help the t/v in this situation they would be better to stop the methods of their victimization which would gradually bring back a more natural order to their life. And as a result, the t/v will likely reply in a more normal manner to their life and in dealing with it. Let us not forget Maslows pyramid of peoples needs to live and how people need a sense of order, self esteem, respect, and stability in their life. This is a complicated topic which I am guessing some will grapple with, however in basic terms the natural happenings of things around us come with what might be called checks and balances, these are the naturally occurring actions and reactions to the natural happenings around us. When this is meddled with by introducing something that is not naturally occurring, as in the case of the model who is a t/v, where her preference was spied from her and purposely used in interacting with her with intent, something which at times is known as having an agenda, the natural balance or order or manner of actions and reactions is altered. And put more simply, it is not natural which raises many implications if one uses their imagination in looking at the interactions of people and the behaviors that go with it. However if that understanding is not sufcient, therein lays the problem. In extreme cases where a t/v nds their life inundated by such instances of staged situations with pre-knowledge of items taken by this indecent invasion of their privacy, the t/v stands to suffer again for the application of drugstore psychology as it creates incorrect impressions and opinions toward them. For instances the t/v who is curt, rude, or who shuns a staged person who approaches them is wrongly labelled with opinions that then say the t/v does not like people with the traits exhibited by the staged person. Be they short, tall, slim, big or whatever trait in question. And what is perhaps worse is how the opinion is incorrectly formed that the t/v dislikes the actual, real person the staged person is meant to represent. The truth of the matter is the t/v, in such an extreme case of manipulation and control of their life, likely resents the attempt applied on them via a staged person or person with pre-knowledge of them that is to say they have been spying on the t/v and are not appreciated as they represent more manipulation of the t/v amid a confused and at times impossible life based on manipulation. It represents another meaningful violation of the t/vs ability to experience things in a normal way, when it is some sense of that which is normal, as

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in customary or typical, that they search for in their life as they have been deprived of it. Returning to accounts of aspects of my victimization, an account that took place with a family member saw that person and another have a conversation about my victimization while I was in the room. As I recall, the member of my family in question commented that my situation was not that bad, when the person they spoke to replied to nally, for the rst time in the conversation, address me in saying I should take my own life to escape the circumstances forced on me. This serves as an example of how awkward relationships for a t/v can become. The two in this account knew about my victimization but did not directly tell me, and I remained unaware of what they specically knew about the matter and who else also knew about it. The situation did not build much trust in the relationships in question leaving requests for assistance from the two to be questionable. Further about how relationships can become difcult and awkward to maintain is this account that took place upon my return to Canada with Tee. In the time it required me to nd work close to my area of professional training I worked temporary jobs to earn some income. In one such job while conducting inventory audits I discovered incorrect counts for some materials when not long after the people who had made the error complained to the person running the facility that I had made the mistake. It was a case of those at fault blaming me for their own wrongdoing, and which as you can imagine created a problem with my relationship with the person who ran the facility. Why they would not speak to me about the accusation made toward me remains unknown, but as you can see this type of thing, much of which has happened over the years, has created problems between myself and others and without my knowing the cause of it, only that the persons attitude toward me has changed, leaving me without the chance of developing the relationship or even maintaining it. This next incident took place at a restaurant with a friend and his girlfriend where my friend exhibited a behavior while he spoke that was quite strange. As he and I talked about a book I wrote which he recently read, he at one point paused noticeably in the conversation when his voice then became deeper and in a way that sounded forced and was somewhat mechanical in his manner of speaking. I noticed the change in him but did not react as I was accustomed to observing such strange happenings, however his girlfriend who sat next to him turned to him with a look of surprise, having also noticed the change in him and his voice. And as I say, I have seen similar occurrences which is why I noted a suspicious man walk by our table just prior to my friends inexplicable change in behavior. And also, one of the bar attendants in the restaurant appeared to be of the mysterious group I rst saw in Canada. But now that I recall the incident the person at the bar was shorter and likely from a different group that have shown themselves over the last several years. Since the incident I have seen the mysterious man in other cities I relocated to, or people who appear to be versions of him, and others like the bar attendant who are from the mysterious groups I mention. I do not know what their part was in my friends odd happening that evening, but it creates some awkwardness in the relationship with my friend as other similar happenings have shown that the person inexplicably affected does not later recall what they had said. In those cases the people 71

involved still do not believe what they had said or done in the strange happenings of their behavior, making it another way in which my relationships can suffer. It was in a taxi traveling to a someones home when this strange occurrence took place in China. As I asked the taxi driver for the name of the road we travelled on, he paused momentarily before replying with what was a higher pitched and strained voice in telling me the name of the road in English. What is curious about this account is the taxi driver was Chinese and did not speak much English at all, and his natural voice was lower toned matching his heavier build. Yet in answering my question he appeared to experience some type of change in him that made his voice sound noticeably different. And as in the previous account in the restaurant, the taxi driver also gave a noticeable pause with a change in his posture, his chin moving in toward his body as his head pushing slightly into his shoulders, before his voice changed in this mechanical manner of his movements. It is not my intention to delve into what could have caused this strange phenomena in my friend and the taxi driver, but I share it here to highlight how strange and inexplicable behavior changes in people can show themselves, making interactions awkward and possibly difcult later if the person affected does not recall what they had said or done. The witnessing of the aspects of victimization over the years have been many, however I will not mention by name those who have seen or heard the strange phenomena. These are people who have been with me to hear strange sounds coming from people just outside the building we were in or in the building itself. At one time the sounds were like moans, similar in a way to the deeper moan of a cat in heat with a more grunting aspect to them and without the higher pitched shriek, however that was in a different country than I am now in and at others times the sounds were a bit like a light-voiced taunt, and at other times still the sounds were similar to a mufed groan that you might associate with an idiot savant character you have seen in a movie who is suffering a traumatic moment: they rock back and forth in their posture and in a daze as they make the sound. On one occasion as I visited a friend in a part of the city I lived and which I had never been to before, we talked in their apartment which was up on the higher levels of their building, possibly the 14th or 15th as I recall. And after being in their apartment for about half an hour a voice was then heard from the street level outside. I moved to a window and drew back the curtain to see a young man who appeared to belong to one of the mysterious groups I mention: it seemed to be the same group that showed up in Canada on my weekend getaway with my girlfriend, but I cannot be sure. He walked through the pedestrian area at the foot of the building and could be heard making a mufed groaning-like sound which we could hear over a dozen oors up. It was as if he followed me to the building, knowing somehow I was there. The same happening occurred here in the city I am in. In my rst visit to the city when I stayed on a higher oor in a hotel, the same type of person, tallish and thin with a darker complexion, walked into the buildings parking lot making the same sound which I could hear as I laid on my bed in the hotel room high up in the building. This raises questions about how these people know I am in the building and why they follow me there, and why they make the odd sounds they do.

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 As you can see, the phenomena of strange behavior in people takes different forms as per the accounts of different sounds here, just as other behavior changes show up in different ways hand gestures, manner of body and limb movement, and spoken words which can be clearly heard and most usually with a manner that appears to be articial. And in all the above accounts of strange sounds, not spoken words that could be understood, the only people in the vicinity where the sounds were originating were people who appeared to be tending to their matters in normal a manner. That is to say the sound could be heard coming from them but they did not indicate to be speaking or making the sound. Very strange, I think you will agree. And the potential difculties this makes for a t/v are many when considering interactions and relationships with people. This next revelation about inexplicable phenomena represents a happening that has been occurring for several years since my time in China where it started. If the fact that it started there has any signicance is unknown to me, but I have been enduring this happening on a daily basis since and have recorded evidence of it. It is the projection of what has been explained to me to be negative energy. The rst time it let itself be heard was when I worked in an ofce in Beijing where a coworker regularly made a hissing sound as they worked on their computer located behind me. And by all indications the person was unaware they were making the sound. Day after day as I sat at my desk I heard the hissing sound which was like the sound made by someone who disses another. And after testing the behavior of the strange phenomena I discovered it would react to my activities on my computer. Should I receive an email with favorable news about my work or send a correspondence about an item of work I had done, or was at that moment in the midst of doing my work, the dissing was sure to be heard as if to imply a slight toward me: it was similar to someone displaying antagonism driven by envy toward another, or an attitude of superiority which dismissed the good showing of another out of arrogance. Not long after, the sound began in my apartment with regularity and later developed what might be called a personality, as the dissing sound developed a noticeable pattern of behavior based on my actions in my apartment, on my computer, and on the Internet. Negative energy is what someone explained was the intention of the hiss which at one time became so loud to overcome the television volume which was set to its maximum volume. Projecting into the room from above as if coming in through the ceiling, the dissing was loud and harsh as it combatted the French news station as it gave its news reports. My best guess is the news station was reporting on something which the originator of the hissing did not like, but I cannot be sure as I was not giving attention to the subject of the news report. However, what later became abundantly apparent is the pattern of the dissing sound which indicated an intention of slighting me for my activities while in my apartment. It was similar to you having someone watch over your shoulder to diss you for the slightest thing you do. It might be equated to an envious or resentful or petty person who has the intention to bother and antagonize you throughout the day. I was successful in recording the hissing sound and although it has been taken off the Internet without my knowing it, an attempt I imagine to keep people from hearing the evidence, many people have in fact heard the recording and some have even analyzed the sound with relatively sophisticated equipment. The sound in question was loud and clear as I had fastened a microphone to the ceiling of the room 73

which is where the sound appeared to be generally coming from, and then not long after playing the recording of it to clearly hear the sound the microphone feature on my computer no longer worked. It was a suspicious coincidence. The dissing has changed its behavior since it rst started several years ago, and as of about one or two years ago since arriving in Thailand other projected sounds have come to be heard also. One seems to be male if a gender is to be assigned to it and it has made itself heard to sound like a mufed guttural sound at times and at others a light but goodnatured laugh. It has not come across as antagonistic as the dissing has and it also makes its presence known based on my activities and my intentions and consideration in pondering them. An additional projection which appears to be more of a sound occurring from outside my residence, like the others mentioned earlier but which are not projected into my home, would be considered female in applying genders. And this sound which is at times like that of a girl also giving a light, good natured laugh, and at others like a light taunt-like sound similar to heh heh, makes itself heard regardless of my location in this town, and it overwhelmingly appears to react to my actions and my intentions and considerations in pondering doing something. Add to this the randomly occurring sounds coming from people who are near me in my movement throughout the town, and how they are also similar at times to the sounds mentioned in the above paragraph, and at other times different in that they mimicking words and phrases that have meaning to me. For instance a phrase from a movie I have seen or from a person I know or even a phrase I myself have said in the past. And as I have mentioned, I recorded evidence of these strange phenomena and others have heard it including those affected by the inexplicable happening, that is to say those making the strange sounds and in this particular case of evidence the recording was edited and later removed from the Internet, however the original recording still exists, and although it has been slightly edited without my knowing it, the strange phenomena cans still be heard. I think it does not require much imagination to consider how distracting, annoying, and difcult day to day living can become when all these strange occurrences are targeted at one person. And while these aspects of victimization have either changed in nature over time, or in the number that show themselves at one time, it is when they are combined with all the other aspects of my victimization mentioned in this section that they present the worst case of my circumstances. Having said this I think you can begin to understand how extremely hard and trying it has been to endure them while trying to function normally like everyone else. I think the well known quote by a historian of ancient Greece which says Circumstances control men; men do not control circumstances aptly captures the reality of what my life has been. Gang Stalking is described as a systemic form of control, which seeks to destroy every aspect of a Targeted Individuals life. (from Gang Stalking World web site, http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/faq/) If my actions and decisions have seemed different or odd to anyone at times, I have good reason to have performed them or made them the way I have. For no fault of my own it has been years that I have been stuck in the middle of a bizarre and at times surreal existence that has progressively become worse in its victimization of me.

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 It was in China that I became victim to a happening involving my living accommodation. The usual straightforward matter of visiting the local police station with ones landlord to receive a small certicate to indicate a foreigner is living in the residence became a problem. For some reason my landlord in this one particular residence chose to not provide the necessary documents that showed the residence to be registered (or approved) to have a foreign tenant. As a result I was unable to ask for the certicate from the police station, and as time passed the matter became more serious as I would soon be in violation of local laws for not having the certicate. It ended up that myself and the landlord were made to appear at the local police station where what appeared to be a staged person in a police uniform spoke with us. The staged person who was a taller, slim man at about 6 foot 6 inches I estimate, and who had a darker skin tone was similar in appearance to another man who followed me to an establishment here in Thailand. At the establishment were I was with friends, the man came to stand at the table I was at and began making rude and antagonizing gestures toward me. Such happenings which have the effect of embarrassing me in public have happened all too often in the last few years. Perhaps this was a coincidence that the two men in questioned look similar, however given the bombardment of staged people and look-alikes and manners which try to manipulate my impressions of things in this bizarre circumstance, it is not unreasonable for the target of all it to question people and happenings at times. But back to the police station, an additional strange happening in the discussion was how the staged policeman appeared to know my comments made with my coworker who came to the police station with me. It was a very bizarre situation where I spoke with my coworker at one side of the large room, only to nd the suspicious person later repeated my same words back to me in his conversation with me. Was this a matter of superhuman hearing that he would know what I said clear across the large room where I spoke in a light voice to my coworker? I suggest it is scientically impossible for this to happen as per the laws of acoustics and a regular persons hearing ability, without some other inexplicable phenomena at play. But this is what happened. I offered a signed letter from a friend who was with me previously when speaking to my landlord about the matter, but the police completely dismissed the evidence which showed I had tried to oblige the local laws but could not for the actions, or rather inaction, of my landlord. I was issued a formal warning for no fault of my own which today should still be on record at a police station in the Fuchengmen area of Beijing. The pictures below are of the letter and the formal written warning. And although the document is written in Mandarin (Chinese) characters I do not read the language. My name in English has been erased from the document.

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This picture is of the letter signed by my friend who was present when the landlord and I talked about his responsibility in providing the necessary documents which allowed a foreigner to rent the apartment he was offering, but the letter was completely ignored by the ofcer. Was this a matter of local customs in dealing with foreigners? Possibly. But in light of the many strange happenings for which I have suffered it begins to be difcult to 76

believe they are all merely coincidences. And given the inexplicable happening of the staged police ofcer knowing of conversations he had no way of knowing, it might seem the incident was another staged one to see my reaction to it. In this case the police ofcer was taking my comments in talking with others about the matter and repeated them as his own thoughts in talking with me and to the matter at hand. I have experienced other cases where people have repeated my words back to me without having the opportunity to have heard them. And as I think back to what has transpired over the years, I recall an account from when back in Canada at about 2000. In this incident a person who was standing with a group about 10 feet from me and my group, and while music played loudly enough that two people standing next to each other had to strain somewhat to hear what the other was saying, the person in question approached me as he walked to my group and began repeating verbatim what I had just said to a person in my group. It was virtually impossible for him to have overheard my conversation for the volume of the music and the distance between us, yet he somehow repeated exactly what I had said. Was this another case of superhuman hearing? I doubt it as this person was a member of my extended family who I have known all my life, and who has never exhibited any type of extraordinary traits in this way, however like many other incidents like this I have experienced, the person in question showed to inexplicably know of my words when they had no way of knowing them. I realize this is all too incredible to believe, but when these bizarre happenings rst began to occur I watched the situation and the people in question closely to observe any change in them that might explain the inexplicable happening. And at times they showed to be in a bit of a dazed state as they spoke, as if their speaking was the result of something that inuenced or controlled them to speak in this manner which appeared to be articial. It is accounts like this that seem to support the suggestion I am part of some type of experiment for research, and while such inexplicable phenomena have not happened to me directly, I have been on the receiving end, many times, of situations where others have had it happen to them. The member of my extended family who I mention in the above account later did not realize he behaved the way he did as per the account. This is another example of how relationships have become strained for me due to my victimization. And I remind you that people who have heard themselves in a recording in which they behaved in a way they later did not realize they had, shows that a person who does not recall having said something could very possibly have in fact said it in these cases. Another account also in China was in a residence where the heating system suffered problems and the apartments temperature dropped to 14 C. I could see my breath when I spoke in the winter cold that permeated the dwelling, and after having the rooms radiator changed the problem only improved slightly. It remained an inexplicable problem the buildings maintenance staff was perplexed by. They even ushed the entire buildings water-based heating system only to nd the problem improved minimally, while other apartments in the building were ne. Accounts about problems like this have been abound over the years of my victimization. From magnetic key cards not working, banking cards becoming unusable, motorbike problems in operating, electronic devices like digital cameras not working, mobile phone problems, Internet connection problems, computer problems, 77

Internet email problems, bathroom and kitchen running water and temperature problems, telephone problems in connecting to numbers, postal service problems, and to television problems, I think you can see how problematic and difcult the life of a t/ v in this circumstance can be in living day to day. This next account is about another aspect of my victimization that has shown itself predominantly in the last few years. This bizarre happening is about a network of people who try to create illusions for their target through their stalking of them. And what I mean by that is how people who resemble others who the t/v knows or knows of show up at places the t/v is at for the t/v to see them. If you are not familiar with the idea referred to as association, it is, generally speaking, when something is used to make the target react to it and oftentimes in a desired way. This is a laymans description of the term and you may recognize it by the technique often referred to as an ink blot test. Usually used by psychologists or someone working in the area of psychology or behavioral sciences, they hold up a card with an ink blot on it and ask their patient to tell them what they see. It is a test of how the patient sees the ink blot as it makes them think of something which the blot resembles to them. In this account the idea of association makes the target think of whatever the look-alike person resembles to them. If the staged person resembles the targets mother, friend, coworker, etc., the target will in all likelihood think of the real person the look-alike resembles, or is meant to represent. And it is through a network of staged people participating in this scheme, who appear at the places the target goes including on the streets and in their building of residence for the target to see them, that the target is continually made to think of things as a result of these people showing up. If successful, the scheme could ultimately have the t/vs actions and decisions controlled by the network of staged people for their effect on them. This technique also extends to the targets use of the Internet which is a vital part of most peoples lives today. Social networking sites which the target is known to regularly visit also have pictures of people who are part of the staged network, and in email correspondence oftentimes the names of people sending the correspondence is also part of it. Alfonso Que is the name of the representative who has sent the t/v an email about a business transaction they are discussing, and the name Alfonso, for instance, is the name of a person from the t/vs past. Under normal circumstances a person might not even make the connection between the name in the email and the person from their past, or they may at most notice the coincidence and think nothing more of it. However the t/v who may be under the inuence of this surreal aspect forced on his interactions may deal with Alfonso in a way that is consistent with his relationship with the real Alfonso from his past. If he liked Alfonso he might deal with him favorably, if he did not care much for Alfonso he might deal with him less favorably. And the point is his dealing with Alfonso now has little to do with how he should actually deal with him based on their matter at hand. His dealings are being inuence and controlled by his impression of the real Alfonso from his past, and which is what can also happen to the to/v for the effect of the staged people using the concept of association on them. And as much as this could come across as coincidental to anyone who has not experienced it or is not aware of what a t/v in this circumstance puts up with, it is the ongoing presentation of the same name or picture of a person to the t/v in their 78

activities that makes it more than a coincidence. If we say a coincidence is the occurrence of events without any apparent casual connection, it is the fact that the same name or picture repeatedly shows up while having some reference for the t/v to a person or thing they have known or seen that makes it more than a coincidence. The scheme can be seen as intending to control the actions and decision of the target. And in those cases that the t/vs relationship with their family, friends, or acquaintances are used in the scheme, it can happen that the t/v is prevented from corresponding with these people. This way the t/v is not able to know of the truth of matters in his relationships with these people and is forced to be manipulated by the network of staged people. Suzy is a t/v and one by one her friends, acquaintances, and family have stopped corresponding with her over the Internet. Either they experience computer problems when trying to contact her or they have been inuenced or intimidated to not stay in touch with her, or some other reason is keeping them from sending Internet correspondence to Suzy. Whatever the reason, Suzy loses touch in her relationship with these people and is left to suffer the manipulative attempts by the staged network that try to manipulate her actions and decisions in dealing with them. Suzy has lost touch with her friend Amy who has stopped replying to her emails and she cannot get Amy by phone either. Suzy wonders what has happened and then sees a person who looks a lot like Amy, and who keeps reappearing at places Suzy goes to. She begins to think of Amy when she sees the staged person, and over time as this goes on she may develop a different impression of Amy depending on the staged persons actions, or she may become confused to any mixed signals the look-alike is sending. She may end up with mixed feelings between the impression being forced on her by the staged person and her prior true impression of Amy, or she may become frustrated at the whole attempt to try to manipulate her through the staged person who keeps reappearing, essentially stalking her. And whatever Suzys reaction is, the point is an attempt is made to inuence her opinion or feeling of the real Amy. And I suggest many people would be inclined to ask why it is being done for the ambiguous and manipulative nature of the matter? Imagine if 3 or 6 or 12 staged people are following Suzy regularly as she goes about her daily and weekly activities at the gym she goes to, while shopping, at restaurants she goes to, in the hallways of her building and at her work, and on the street. If Suzy is living in a somewhat isolated manner because of the aspects of her victimization, it can become an overwhelming attack on Suzys emotional well-being for the manipulation and confusion in it. And do not forget we are talking about Suzys mind that is being inuenced by this technique. If she becomes completely taken by the manipulation of her, she will have become manipulated to be controlled by the network and her actions and decisions are no longer natural to what she would have done in the past. They are now controlled by the actions of others. An additional consideration in this scheme is how Suzys reaction to the staged people can affect future behavior of the network toward her. If Suzy ignores the lookalike who is to represent her mother or father for instance, the network and those participating with it can take it to mean she has no respect for her real parents, and subsequently develop a bad opinion of Suzy which they then display in their behavior toward her. This is a problem of delusion I would suggest where people have begun to 79

believe something which is not real at all, and only based on the perceptions created by the network of staged people, and the giving of meaning to behaviors based on the illusion created and not based on the truth of the matter. However in this case the truth of the matter is irrelevant to the network which is controlling the scheme, for the reason what is perceived is considered to be true when it is not. If you are a rational person I think you will have little difculty seeing how harmful this can be to Suzy, and how harassing and devastating in an insidious sense it can be to her well-being if she is bombarded with this technique. A more elaborate scheme than this description of association as in the case of Suzy is where the network of staged people begin to act as if to believe an illusion created by them. I have experienced a happening where a person participating in a staged network approached me while I was with an acquaintance. The person touched me on the shoulder, a gesture likely to be seen by those observing the interaction who were part of the network, and said I was a child before touching my acquaintance on the shoulder and saying they were a baby. This labeling of me and my acquaintance served to facilitate an illusion whereby people would then begin treating me like a child and in all likelihood my acquaintance like a baby. As bizarre and irrational as the behavior sounds, I had people thereafter talk to me with words and with a manner they would normally use with a child. In other versions of the illusions created by the staged network I had people calling out the word baby as I walked by on the street. These were complete strangers to me, yet they called out the word as I passed in spite of the fact I was a complete stranger to them. And once again I will ask you to consider how complicated, extremely difcult, and surreal a t/vs life can become when the above happenings are combined with all the others mentioned in this exposition. Is it a surprise this exposition is title A Like Killed Off ? All these aspects of victimization, in varying quantities and degrees of severity at times, with some instances much worse than others, have been forced on me and my life for several years. If you recall, I mentioned earlier in this exposition I saw my rst look-alike in 2001 in Canada. Today is 2012. In laymans terms all of this is can be looked at as playing head games with the t/v. If you are like most people you may have experienced head games at times from friends or a girlfriend or boyfriend. And few people enjoy head games, and that is because people usually do not feel good about receiving them. It may be the duplicity in it, or the attempt at manipulating you to believe something without letting you know the truth of the matter, leaving you uncertain and likely bothered by it. Now imagine your life lled with people playing head games with you and you cannot get away from it to escape it. It could be looked upon as a nightmare while you are awake. If you would apply some imagination to this scenario and add to it that all the staged people in the network, along with some additional ones, not look-alikes but still showing up at places you are at, who all know of your activities and who feed back to you their knowledge of them with opinions, observations, and impressions, which are communicated through gestures, props, and manners of behavior, it is analogous to having people who might be described as incredible nags who are constantly pointing out, in a surreal scheme, something about everything you do. And needless to say, the persistent fault-nding or continuous urging is not helpful and only serves to further annoy and antagonize its target. 80

The two pics, while of beautiful women, are a basic example of how look-alikes resemble other people. Some look-alikes resemble another person remarkably more than in the case of the two women above, but generally speaking the two pictures serve to show the similarities between people who I am forced to see in my regular activities. And while these two woman are not identical in their appearance as twins might be, the similarity in the general shape and color of the eyebrows, the shape of the noses, the positioning and shape of their cheekbones, the general complexions disregarding lighting, the shape of their faces, the general positioning of their features to each other, the size of their foreheads, the style of their hair, the color of the eyes and their shape although with the small difference in color contrast between the pupil and iris for the effect of lighting, and even their lips in shape although in different positions, are difcult to completely refute. I met the woman on the left on one particular day when a day later the picture of the woman on the right appeared on a social networking site on the Internet for me to see. Whenever I visited the social networking site, which I did daily, the picture of the woman on the right was there for me to see and had the effect of reminding me of the woman on the left who is in the town I am now in. When the target of this scheme sees the woman at the social networking site regularly, it is not difcult to see how she would remind the person of, or make the person associate with, the woman on the left. And like the previous example of Alfonso, the t/v may develop a favorable impression of the woman on the right because they have a favorable impression of the women on the left, who they have met and know. Is this intended to make the t/v think of the woman on the left when daily they see the woman on the right? Or is is possibly to inuence or manipulate the t/v to communicate with the woman on the right despite the fact the t/v does not know her? And add to this the incredible and inexplicable phenomena whereby some are apparently able to sense, in some way, a persons unspoken and unseen reactions to 81

things, like a picture which they are forced to see. Such an invasive and duplicitous ability would permit them to know if the person is in fact associating the sight of one woman with the other, and to what degree they are reminded of the other woman. In this way these people can gauge the level of success in the association taking place without requiring two exactly identical look-alikes to be involved. The two look-alikes may not be identical in their appearance, but it may not be necessary if it is known that enough association is already taking place. In the case of the two women in the pictures it is possible they are meant to have a pleasing affect on the recipient of their technique, as their presence has not carried with it the messages and communications that are unapparent to anyone nearby, but only the target of their technique however others, some of them lookalikes, have regularly served this purpose of forced communication toward their target. And also, and what is important in this example, is that the two women in the pictures do not clearly resemble any person I know or have seen before, the only similarity is between the two of them which eliminates the risk of them being part of the network of staged people with the intention of manipulating or controlling, in some meaningful way, other than to simply get me to communicate with the woman on the right in all likelihood.

The pictures are of women who could be considered to be the same person but they are not. One person is what some refer to as a look-alike (of the other).

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of beautiful women serve to show how look-alikes can resemble very much another person. The pictures were taken from a listing of look-alikes of celebrities and not by myself. It has been a difcult matter to take pictures of look-alikes as taking a good and clear photo of a complete stranger without their knowing it is not so simple. In many instances the people in question who follow me to a place will leave when they know I am taking their photo. And then there is the matter of having a corresponding photo of the person they look like which I may not have. As I mentioned, I have travelled extensively and relocated dozens of times since my victimization started which means I have not had the luxury of having all my personal items from my past, including all my photographs, as one would have in their home. The scenarios that have arisen in the use of a network that stalks a t/v, with many participants in it being look-alikes, can be different and change over time. One t/v after having a conversation in their home then saw a person on the street near their home who resembled very much the person they referred to previously in the conversation. The t/v was testing the scheme that operated in secrecy to others and the staged person seen was a look-alike of Marylin Monroe. This occurred in a different country than I am in now, however in the last couple of years look-alikes have shown up who look like characters from televised programs. And as I mentioned, the actions of some of these people in the network, some of them look-alikes, who stalk a t/v are meant to communicate a message to its target. It is analogous to one way communication where the message is conveyed in some manner and the recipient of the message has no way of responding for the unapparent method employed. And the usual ambiguity of the message adds an additional aspect of confusion which can become frustrating and aggravating for the frequency of the communications. Then there is to consider the bothersome aspect of this which is people, who through this method, are regularly pointing out fault in what the t/v has said or done, or regularly urging the t/v to take some action when the communication is not helpful only bothersome to the point it becomes frustrating and aggravating, forcing the t/v to avoid the communications by avoiding the people involved. This essentially means the t/v should ignore or try to avoid receiving much of the activity going on around them by the network when they are in public or at establishments. And this adds another aspect to living day to day which can become very tiring and create more dysfunctionality in the t/vs life. On the subject of look-alike people I point out the book titled On Finding Solutions For Human Problems by a practicing psychologist, and which talks partly about synthetic people among us who can alter their appearance among other unnatural traits. Back to the happenings which involve strange behaviors in people, aside from the scheme of networks of staged people and look-alikes, is this next account where I witnessed one man who ran a convenience shop near my residence who displayed very concerning behavior. This was not a case of sounds mysteriously heard but rather the man was clearly seen to make bizarre grunting sounds as he served me. His condition became continuously worse until one day I was forced to be served by his wife as he sat nearby watching television, slouched forward and groaning uncontrollably as if to be in a traumatic state. But he was not, which is the concerning part of the account. It

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the severity of the aspects of victimization increased to the point I began suffering physiologically, bleeding internally as mentioned earlier, as a result of them. Still another account to add to this matter took place in China and which involved my discussions with members of the Bureau of Foreign Affairs there. One ofcer from the group cleared up a matter intended to smear me when the staff at an establishment, in a staged incident, lied about my not having paid for services and caused a physical confrontation between myself and about a half dozen people in the street. It was after the ofcers questioning of everyone involved in the staged incident that he explained I had done no wrong and was free to leave. And it was before I left the discussion that the ofcer said I should not go to the same place twice (for my own security and safety). My rst visit to the establishment was problem free, however the oddities in behavior began to slightly show themselves with staged people showing up. And it was on my next visit to the same establishment that the staged incident played out fully, when the wrongful accusal toward me was made and the subsequent confrontation occurred. An additional item to consider in the restrictions a t/v in my case must live with in their options of locations to reside at, be it a particular building or a city, is how they must still appreciate the incredible and inexplicable phenomena that targets people in a manner that cannot be seen. And more specically, this refers to a form of attack on a person which they suffer for physiologically in their loss of control over themselves. The home I lived in as per the previous account of my stay in Italy saw a situation where a man came to sit beneath a window of my home. He was at street level about 15 to 20 feet below and regularly came every day to sit beneath my window, when he began making odd gutteral-like sounds depending on my activity in my home and more so for my activity on my computer. Another from the area came to scold the man for his odd behavior, but the man did not stop and continued in the strange manner. This account not only shows how the man was behaving oddly and for no apparent reason, but that other people besides myself, the target of the happening, also saw and heard his strange behavior. This serves to undo efforts of those who try to smear me by claiming only I hear these strange happenings, when the truth of the matter is other people also hear them, but perhaps play dumb at times as participants of the network which tries to discredit me. It was in another country years later in an apartment I lived in for several months that I began to regularly get severe headaches. And as coincidental as this might seem, after reading the following accounts you may have a different opinion about the matter. People get headaches, it does happen, and I especially get bad ones for symptoms which develop when I suffer from the u. However at the time of this account I was not suffering to a u or any other illness that would have caused the severe headaches in question. And add to this that people outside my building but nearby where for this same period of time behaving strangely, making odd sounds regularly. Something was causing them to behave in this way and at the same time something was inducing the headaches in me. I ended up leaving the apartment because the discomfort of the headaches became too bothersome to put up with. After relocating again and again due to different problems that arose because of the aspects of my victimization, I found myself in another apartment in the same city. And again, after several months in the unit, I began experiencing similar odd 85

phenomena as in the previous account. As I laid in bed one night about to fall asleep I began feeling a tingling sensation on my body, my elbow area in particular, and the sensation came and went as I moved in bed rubbing the tingling area on me. And after experiencing the sensation repeatedly, 3 or 4 times, it seemed to occur once more with a more severe intensity such that small bumps like mosquito bites formed on my elbow area. I took a picture of the formations which is shown below.

The hive-like bumps that formed on my elbow area. I used my nger nail to crease the bumps as per the myth that suggests doing this to mosquito bumps to make them reduce in size and eventually not be seen or felt. And as much as they do look like mosquito bumps, we know that when you shoo a mosquito it usually goes away, possibly returning a second time, but in this case my elbow was safely covered by the sheets of my bed. Rest assured this is a genuine happening. I do no-one any favors by fabricating this story to mislead. This account is supported by others who are t/vs and who have reported similar inexplicable attacks on their bodies. If you have not heard of the term Targeted Individuals, these are people who have suffered one or more of the aspects of victimization I refer to in this exposition. Most recently I have been in contact with a person who has said to experience these type of attacks on their legs, and most likely for the reason they are writing a book which looks at a possible cause of these invisible attacks. Many such books and information exist about this topic and some are referenced in the Appendix of this exposition. Other victims like they and I have reported how different parts of their body have been and still are attacked with regularity. Their genitals, their head, and their eyesight is attacked and affected, for example. I myself have experienced blurred eyesight in instances where I was doing something that apparently was not liked by whoever is behind the attacks. On one occasion I was writing a novel, and it might be that the subject I was writing about was not liked by my attacker. On another occasion I was talking with another about consumer electronic devices as I sat in a coffee shop, when I experienced the same blurred eyesight to the point it was awkward for me to continue in the conversation. The man, who may have known of my victimization, although I cannot be certain,

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noticed how I began to blink and bat my eyes before I commented my eyesight was becoming blurry. If you search for information on the subject you will nd those who say to have been attacked severely and with regularity, however in my case I have been fortunate it appears. Aside from bad and lingering headaches at times and the hive-like formations on my body as mentioned above, the remaining incidents have been the blurred eyesight at times and what some refer to as muddled thinking. I have experienced situations where my writing has suffered for it whereby reading it later reveals it to be unclear or slightly incoherent. An apartment I lived in while in China saw this problem show itself on several occasions. If I posted a comment on the Internet at a social networking site or wrote pages of a book I was writing at the time, my later review of the same writing in a different location, an Internet bar perhaps or at a coffee shop with my computer, revealed the problem in the writing which was not apparent to me when initially writing it. I would have to say this is another example of a location, in this case a place of residence, becoming tainted. And, as I have done dozens of times in the last dozen years, I moved out of that apartment out of necessity and for my well-being, and ultimately my safety. Going back to my time at the residence where the hive-like bumps formed on my elbow, it was also there that an especially strange occurrence took place regarding an attack on my body. One evening as I prepared for bed a bug about 2 inches in length with tentacles as long as its body was seen running along the oor of the bachelor apartment. I redirected the bug to the door where it ran under it and into the hallway, only to show up again and then again in spite of my efforts to remove it. I nally went to bed leaving the matter of the bug, when after 10 or 15 minutes, as I laid atop the bed with its sheets on my back and wearing a pair of short pants for sport, I experienced a sensation on the inner thigh of a leg that felt like a bug was running up it toward my shorts. What a coincidence I say sarcastically: on the same night I nd a determined bug in my room that will not go away, I experience a strange sensation on my body that would have me think a bug was crawling up my leg toward my short pants while I slept. And no, there was no bug on my leg, or on the bed, or anywhere to be seen. Was all of this merely a coincidence? Possibly, for the unavailability of an indisputably correct explanation for it . However in light of all the other accounts and inexplicable happenings I suggest there was more to this than is known by most. Another account which is similar to the one presented where I was mobbed in the street and where an ofcial of the Bureau of Foreign Affairs absolved me of any wrongdoing, is this one where I was assaulted by a half dozen people in a staged incident upon a return visit to an establishment. The following pictures were taken after the mobbing and beating.

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 The pictures from the top left across to the right show the injury to my head, my left hand, the injury to the back of my left shoulder, the right side of my waist, my right hand and forearm, and the injury to the back of my right shoulder. My rst visit to the club in question saw a suspicious person tell those I was speaking with to no longer talk with me, when one-by-one the people I was speaking with walked away from our conversation for no apparent reason other than this person speaking to them. The suspicious person approached me to be antagonistic when I told him and his friends to go away and stop bothering me. However on my next visit to the same establishment the bar staff began antagonizing me by taking my drink, one-after-another, from behind my back when the glass was still about half lled. When I inquired about this the bar staff in question completely ignored me and did not answer at all to my inquiry, and which prompted me to speak to someone else of the staff. As I explained the problem to them I was then taken by the neck from behind before I was mobbed by a half dozen of the staff. The friends I was with that evening saw the incident and tried to stop the staff from their assault of me before fetching the police who came to the club. The police ofcer spoke to the staff and turned in a 88

somewhat dazed manner to say nothing had happened and that I was acting, as in to say I had not been beaten and was faking it. And his comment came after I showed him my bloodied hands and bruised body. The incident took place in Beijing and people who resemble the staff of the club have shown up here in the town I reside in Thailand. I cannot be sure if it is the same exact people however they appear to be from the same group. In this town those from this group I refer to continue to stalk me and antagonize me, and try to fool others to take bad impressions of me by provoking and antagonizing me while trying not to be seen by others as they do it. They are often seen mixed in with the motorbike taxi drivers in the town and working as the staff of various establishments. I do not know why they target me but some have suggested they are with the United Nations and others have suggested they are a mysterious group among us, who as you can see from the account have a mentality that attempts to fool peoples impressions about others and who can have malicious and dangerous intentions. A foreigner was also there to see the incident and later explain to the police ofcer I had done nothing wrong to be beaten as I was. And as I mentioned, the police ofcer was behaving strangely in denying anything had taken place in spite of the fact I was bruised and bleeding in front of him. This helps shows how my victimization has not only killed off my life as in to say it has been destroyed, but it has also put me in life threatening situations where I have suffered and for no fault of my own. A savage and inhuman situation forced on me. Another aspect to the problem I have faced regarding locations to live at is how many establishments I frequent also show to become tainted whereby I am harassed through the music played at them. And more specically I refer to music played purposely for its reference to an aspect of my life or my activities. Should I be experiencing a period of loneliness due to my circumstances it is a sure bet songs will be played at the establishments I frequent that talk about being lonely. Or should I be experiencing times where the strange behavior of people near me sees them making odd sounds and comments which are harassing and antagonizing to me, the apparent and often seen result is the playing of the song Zombie which includes the chorus lyrics, In your head, In your head, zombie, zombie, zombie... which refer to the idea that things taking place are heard in a persons head. It is an incredible coincidence, or is it, that this particular song would play at those times where people have tried to suggest the odds sounds made by those near me are only heard by me, as if to imply the sounds are in my head. But they are not, they have been recorded. A very bizarre situation I must say but the pattern of this has shown itself to be there, however to the unassuming person they have no chance of recognizing what is happening for not being savvy to the aspects of my victimization. And I say this as there have been a group of young men in town who have tried to suggest only I hear these strange sounds which people near me make oftentimes. However we know this is not true as recordings have been taken of the sounds, and if they are only in my head, as this group incorrectly tries to suggest, and not heard by others, how can it be recorded? I would have to say this group is attempting to create an illusion that I am hearing things when that is not the case: it is an attempt at concealing the truth by discrediting me, and I will add that other actions of this particular group have shown their 89

intentions to be to smear me in one way or another. One particular technique used is to make rude gestures at me such that no-one else sees them do it, for instance as they pass me on the street or in an establishment to make the gestures so it is within our close proximity, which means others will likely not see it for our bodies obstructing their view, it is when I return the gesture as they have passed me as they never stop and continue to walk by, and others then see my return gesture that the action begins a urry of activity of subsequent stalking and harassment toward me in the following days. It is like an unapparent type of hit-and-run so to speak. Another very strange aspect of the playing of selected music to harass me is how when I am at an establishment and type a comment in my mobile phone, or make a comment aloud, about the music currently playing and its intention to harass me, the DJ will usually very shortly after stop playing the song in question and change the selection of music to something that is not harassing to me. And how the DJ would know of my comments for having made them in a place where the music is very loud that there is no possible way they could hear my comments, or that I typed a comment in my mobile phone about the harassment of me, remains another inexplicable phenomena. This next account will help you appreciate this harassment in music that targets me. It was while I sat on a large patio area in public that a nearby street-side vendor who sold drinks and offered a small sitting area to its customers began playing a noticeably inappropriate song over its speakers. The area is in a tourist town which has tropical weather and all the activities that go with beach fun and lively clubs and accompanying music, yet this vendor lled the area through its speakers with a song which was a slow, saddening ballad about death. Seasons In The Sun, the title of the song. This has happened more than once and it has been at times I have been especially suffering for my victimization, which it is my impression caused the music to be played when it did. The effect of the music is intended to create feelings of discouragement and deep sullen moods in the target of them, I imagine. That I endure such attempts is an indication of having put up with them for years and I suppose my ability to do so, but it does not take away from the strategic playing of the music with harmful intentions. The happenings of this type of harassment toward me have been a great many, and while I will not go into a long listing of them, sufce it to say from my above examples they do harass me and this has been targeting me for a long time. This particular technique is an attempt to throw back at me the various happenings in my life at the time, which I suggest stems from thinking that could be considered somewhat delusional if those responsible for it see nothing wrong with it. Otherwise it is another case of gang stalking. As a result of this targeting I am forced to search out establishments that do not play music that targets me. The effectiveness of an approach like this and others like it that target a person is based on the fact that most people are unaware it is happening. In my case there are those who know of it and who offer assistance to me in different ways, however they have so far remained silent about openly acknowledging it. I remind you that the public statement made by the Whitehouse on the subject of (gang) stalking includes a comment which says people should heed the words of targeted individuals. This permits the secretiveness of such techniques to be exposed and revealed for their 90

duplicitous and insidious effects on t/vs. It is all too common that people, generally speaking, will not believe something because it is not easily apparent to them, and history has shown they only begin to believe it after others have suffered for it, or in this case, have had their life killed off as a result of them. And I remind you of Echelon, the satellite global surveillance monitoring system that was denied to exist for years which meant the masses of people around the world did not believe it to be true, until nally it was admitted to which only goes to show how people did not believe something to be true when it in fact was. So while choices of locations to live, be it a city or a building, have posed a problem for me, there has also been another problem in the choice of establishments to frequent. Today it is fairly common to nd restaurants, ofces, shopping malls, and even entire ofce buildings playing music, and this is beyond those places of entertainment like clubs that naturally play music. But back to the discussion about attacks on peoples physiology, should you go searching for information about such strange phenomena be advised the subject of implants, a real matter whereby people are implanted with electronic devices, is a different matter than the accounts here. And to give you an indication of the reality of these topics, the Whitehouse, as at about 2011, made a public statement about ending abuses regarding electronic implants in people. A natural reaction will likely be to ask why a similar public statement has not been made regarding the methods behind all these accounts of inexplicable phenomena, which target people and for which they suffer. And it is the fact no ofcial acknowledgment has been made and shared with the public that adds to the mysteriousness of the entire matter as evidence of it has been shown. I leave it to you to ponder the explanation of how a location can possibly become tainted and remain tainted over time. And as you do, your imagination may consider various theories like the one which maintains the CIA can introduce a virus into the electricity grid of an entire city, an idea which may prompt you to think of the new reports about the computer virus that infected the computer networks of Irans nuclear development program. And further, in the area of ction stories, there are those which talk of theories that consider an area is covered by an invisible dome which controls all the activities that take place within it. Granted, these are either sci- or fantasy ideas or conspiracy theories or just theories, but the accounts given in this exposition have happened which means there must be an explanation for them. In the Appendix are references to information which considers different explanations offered, from microwave signals or other sophisticated electricity-based signals directed at selected targets, to the consideration of meta physics. That I include these in this exposition does not mean I accept one or any of them to be true. If they cannot be shown to be true without a reasonable doubt and with rational explanations which prove the method of their functioning, I cannot then accept them to be true. However what is true despite the denial about it by many is that inexplicable phenomena have taken place which means there must be an explanation for them. And it has been this denial which has helped the killing off of innocent people. This aspect of victimization of methods that directly target peoples physiology is only a part of the overall circumstance I have been dealing with and suffering for. 91

For many years, going back to my time prior to arriving in Thailand where I write this, as part of my victimization there have been incidents where people who have preknowledge of my activities, that is to say they are spying on me in one way or another, have regularly shown up where I am and with the intention of trying to show me up or discredit or smear me. Be it in public, at establishments I frequent, or in the cyber world of the Internet this has happened regularly to me. It has ended up as a case of oppression to smear and discredit me in most endeavors I partake in by those who monitor my activities. And as of late, and perhaps this is more a matter of location and the dynamics of the different people here, I have been subjected to regular public harassment and humiliation. Many people have reported instances where they have suffered for some or many of these aspects of victimization, and some have been brave enough to share their story of victimization with the world knowing those who know of such atrocities will simply deny the truth of the matter and rely on the ignorance of people, censorship, and the imprecision in available answers about who is behind all of it and its precise workings. And also, the secretiveness of these victimizations has been kept from becoming known by the masses as its communication through the mainstream media has been prevented, in spite of the fact the mainstream media have suffered for it themselves. The only information that has been publicly shared in an ofcial manner, aside from news reports and investigative reports that make estimates which help support theories about who is responsible for these invisible attacks against people, has been the topic of stalking as a part of organized networks that target specic people, also known as gang stalking. Theories do exist regarding who is behind these victimizations and the specic workings of them, and while a person may set out to purposely nd happenings to t them into a theory and then claim the theory is true, it has been my experience in living the odd, strange, and inexplicable phenomena that defy science and human abilities, without my searching for them, that when I sought answers I discovered information that supported the accounts of my victimization. And as subtle as this point may be it is analogous to events in our history where an idea continued to be believed, despite it being wrong, because all happenings were forced to t into it. Like in the cases in our history where the Earth was thought to be at or that the Sun revolved around the Earth. Both theories were wrong but still any information discovered in these matters where forced to t the current incorrect theories. This line of thinking which strives to nd answers to happenings is based on the acceptance of the idea a t/v is in fact victimized, and that there must be an explanation for the seemingly inexplicable happenings. If one choses to not believe in t/v victimizations they are among those who will ght what this exposition is saying, and let their ignorance or silence let an innocent persons life and the person them self become nally destroyed. And dead. A Machiavellian outlook might consider the death of one acceptable to avoid the suffering of anymore, however I suggest the ignorance in the matter and the preference to be silent about it only puts society as a whole at risk for the monstrous intentions and actions that try to control in a way that smacks of tyranny and has shown to have no respect for life. Perhaps a different and better way to put it is to ask if

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my death due to my victimization will help stop the erosion of freedom for which your children will suffer? And I think a rational person will answer no. This section has presented numerous aspects of my victimization and it should be evident how difcult this has made my life. If one considers the aspects of victimization such as relationships; trust in and from others; ability to communicate and be communicated to, and without fear of it being used against the t/v; and the consideration of the many problems that can develop for the slightest action by the t/ v, among others, it should be very reasonable to understand how my life can become, in the best of scenarios, stagnant, and in the worst, virtually impossible to live in a reasonable manner. Also, given the complexity of the aspects of my victimization and which includes the manner they have been applied against me, considering timing and overall personal circumstances at the time, and that I have been forced to adjust to my victimization, it is not reasonable to expect a duplication of past events and situations will give the same result in my response to it. I say this for those who have tried this in the past and in the more recent past. Aside from the fact this outlook treats me with little dignity it only adds further to my victimization, and like the rat-in-the-cage who has been conditioned to not perform an action for having done it in the past, I oftentimes do not respond to staged situations for the same reason. I suggest the person who does not see this and who continues to treat me with little dignity in this way is representative of how the problem of my victimization came to be., insofar as the staged situations and testing of me in it. In ending this section I share this latest account to impress upon you the seriousness of my victimization. After months of pleas and years of informing family and friends of my victimization which I have been dealing with, and the pending outcome of them which will be my death, I very recently discovered in a phone conversation with a family member they had no idea about the severity of my circumstances while it also appeared they knew little about my victimization, despite my repeated pleas and reaching out over the years. It may be a case of my correspondences not arriving to them or that their lack of knowledge about my circumstances is for different reasons. But regardless, I am weeks away from the day that will see my death unless a drastic changed is permitted to happen within my life.

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7 Why?
If you are like most you will ask why when considering these accounts that describe the killing off of my life. This has been a fairly common reaction by many I have spoken to over the years when talking about my victimization and aspects of it. I have found different explanations offered by people who are t/vs as to why they were made targets. Some say they were made targets because of their actions which would be considered whistle-blowing, while others feel they were made targets for voicing their opinions about people, groups, or matters, any of which take any unfavorable comments against them with tremendous sensitivity, and then there are those who believe their targeting is due to some traits they possess like being highly independent and not following the crowd, so to speak, or being creative and ingenious beyond the norm. And in considering the case of people or groups who are sensitive to unfavorable comments toward them, it is oftentimes the person guilty of this who is the one smearing those making the accusation when the guilty party has not been directly accused. If they have not been accused why do they feel the need to defend them self by smearing another? The explanations of the possible reasons a person is made a t/v are many I would say, but for the sake of keeping this easy to consider in this explanation I suggest they fall into a few basic categories. And these categories are loosely based on the many reports of t/vs and which require some type of explanation. As is done in scientic research for instance a hypothesis is formed to be later proven or disprove by the facts shown. One category would be for people who are different than others in some way, and that is to say there is something about these people which separates them from the norm and in a way that someone has decided they should become a victim of targeted harassment for it. A second possible category is for those who are whistle-blowers. These are people who have exposed information or happenings, for instance, about a person or a group who stand(s) to suffer for it as it reveals the truth about a matter that has been covered up, or creates embarrassment in some way to that person or group. The third category would be those people who are made targets for the purpose of experimenting on them for some type of research. This is only a very general look at the subject as this exposition is about how my own life has been killed off, and I will present accounts here which show I can be considered to be in all 3 categories. And to avoid a self-fullling approach whereby facts and events are sought out to t into an existing idea, you must understand the accounts and happenings of people had rst started, at which time reasons were proposed as to why a person would have become a TI, and that has led to these three categories I am suggesting. Also, the accounts I present here show a pattern in them which creates very likely notions as to why I was targeted and victimized. 94

 To put this in more familiar terms consider the well-known case of Galileo Galilee where he observed things which were not believed by others, and sought out answers to explain what he had learned. In Galileos work in astronomy and physics he said the earth revolved around the sun and that objects were inuenced by a force which later came to be known as gravity. The accepted opinions of that time, which were the opinions largely accepted by almost all people, held to different beliefs about astronomy and physics, namely the idea that the Earth was the center of the universe and that the Sun revolved around it. Any information pertaining to astronomy as it pertained to the movement of the Earth was t into this accepted idea, and in this way the belief always held true in spite of the fact it was wrong. It was Galileo who spoke out that happenings and phenomena occurred which showed the Sun could not revolve around the Earth, as that belief of astronomy was incapable of explaining why and how the occurrences he observed could happen, leaving them to be inexplicable according to the opinions held about the matter at that time. However it was his speaking out about his ideas in this the he came to suffer, and despite his incarceration and ostracism and having his reputation smeared, which could reasonably have included people saying there was something wrong with him, he was in fact correct about the matter. Unfortunately for Galileo, and to the embarrassment of the people of that time, it was only after many years and his death that he was properly recognized for his ideas which were right, and for which the entire world has beneted. And so, analogous to this shameful experience in our history as a species, I present what is known to have happened and search out possible explanations based on them as to why I was made a victim to inexplicable and harassing occurrences which have targeted me. And already there exists one item worth noting, and that is my writing of this exposition about how my life has been killed off, and how in a way it parallels Galileos tragic experience where his life wrongfully came to be forced on him like a prisoners life is forced on them. The tragedy being he died discredited and was looked upon with shame because he was not believed, when we now know he was right, correct, or true, and should have been believed in his time. In looking at the idea which holds there is something special about me that I would be considered different than most people, and which would have me included in two of the categories mentioned, I will start by looking at the idea there is a small percentage of people who possess traits that are different than most. And as common as it seems to have become for people to take a wrong impression about a matter for simply seeing a word like different or special in this case, I remind you about the concept of normality and the idea of norms. In basic terms any naturally occurring population of data when plotted to determine a pattern in it will approach a normal distribution. That is when the majority of the data is accumulated near the center of the distribution with fewer points of data showing up before and after the accumulation, and where the graphical shape created by the pattern looks like a bellshaped curve. If we apply this explanation of the concept of normality to ideas that are easy to see in everyday life: let us consider the heights of people for example, there are short and tall people and then there are a great many people who have an average height or close to it. The fact there are many more people with an average height does 95

not make that particular height better or worse than those who are shorter or taller. A short person has a lower center of gravity for instance which is benecial in many situations, and a taller person benets in having a longer limbs for instance, if their body is proportional, which can also be advantageous. That there are more people who are average in height does not make short or tall people anything less, they are merely different in this way and always people. And when we take this understanding of the natural differences among people it helps us see that aside from physical characteristics in people, like height for instance, there are also other types of differences. I mentioned earlier in this exposition how people differ in their personalities, and in looking at this aspect of people it begins to describe how people are different in ways other than physical, from communicating to how their thinking processes function for instance. And in terms of normality it means there are a great many people who communicate and process information with some commonness in the way they do these, similar to the great many people who are of average height, and then there are those, like the short and taller people, who will communicate and process information in a different way. Just like short and tall people have advantages while being different than the norm, that is to say all the average height people, it is the people who process information differently, who, while they are different than the norm, possess advantages in the way they do these among their other differences. This explanation serves to reinforce the idea that being different is not a bad thing: it is a naturally occurring phenomena like in the examples about peoples heights. However when we look at these differences from the perspectives of how a person reacts to things and processes information for instance, we are moving beyond the basic considerations of being short or tall. And I will add that in the same way people of average height, who represent the norm in considering heights of people, can be critical at times of short or tall people because they are different for their height a person with a different personality or even character can also be criticized by the norm who are the large portion of people who do not exhibit the same traits about themselves. That is to say they do not have these same traits which are inherent in those who are outside of the norm. And because we are speaking of matters that are driven by the use of cognitive processes, such as how a person tries to understand something; applies critical thinking, as in the analysis of the merits or faults in something; and expresses themselves, there is an often-seen tendency where the criticisms against these people is more severe. The criticism of the short or tall person, as applied in this case, comes to have more far reaching implications when people are labelled as having something wrong with them, as in their mind, and terms like mental problems or crazy begin to be heard. They are not mentally challenged or suffering mentally in any way at all, and needless to say they are not crazy, they are merely different in traits than the norm, which is most people. This is an unfortunate truth which is driven by the fact that so many people, as a percentage of all people, represent the norm, which means the people outside the norm stand to be labelled incorrectly for being guratively surrounded by others who cannot understand or appreciate their traits because they are different than their own and to do with matters that are driven by cognitive

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processes, an area which applies to all people, but unfortunately a great many people are not educated about, or educated adequately about, to appreciate or understand. To tell your friends John or Jane Doe is short and you do not like them for it is one thing, however to tell your friends John or Jane Doe has something wrong with them because they expresses them self differently than you about a matter has much more severe implications for which John or Jane will suffer when they are in fact ne and as you will see, very possibly more rational than the person criticizing them. This insight into normality might surprise you. In a naturally occurring process which experiences variation, like the heights of people for instance, the norm can represent about 66% of people with the remaining 33% outside the norm half to one end of it and half to the other. This means (100% - (66% + (33% / 2)) =17.5%) about 17.5% of people will have traits beyond the norm, leaving 82.5% to have traits common to the norm or even lesser. This is why it is reasonable John or Jane Doe is more rational than their antagonizer who thinks there is something wrong with them. The truth of the matter I would say is this type of situation is more common than you might think in our societies, but the person in the 17.5% of people for example often does not have the chance to adequately have their say. Or if they do they are only heard by others in the 82.5%, which can create the same outcome as John or Jane Doe. In talking about this subject which is to do with things associated with a persons cognitive processes, generally speaking, such as processing information, reactions to things, and decision making, there is one idea in particular within this that is referred to as the highly sensitive person. Such a person belongs to a group of people who are outside the norm and who are referred to as highly sensitive people (HSPs). I will not go into a comprehensive and extremely detailed explanation of HSPs here, but enough to let you appreciate the differences between HSPs and other people, and how these differences can make a person stand out of the crowd, so to speak, enough so that people would take note of them. And later in this information about HSPs are excerpts from an article titled The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive for Ourselves and Our World. Some of the traits of the HSP are their heightened senses and how their nervous system functions as compared to most others, and how they process information differently than most others. If you recall from the accounts earlier in this exposition, I have suffered to internal bleeding on many occasions, a condition brought on and aggravated by situations of heightened stress and tension, which lends to the point about HSPs and how their nervous system is more sensitive than most. As easy as it may be for some to incorrectly consider an HSP as having something wrong with them because aspects of the way they do things are different than the norm, this is arrogantly based on the assumption the norm practices manners of doing things that are good enough to be a reference to be measured against. The truth of the matter is HSPs are oftentimes, and some will go so far as to say usually, good at the things they do and can be very intuitive when doing something. To look at this matter objectively and without prejudice a person can see the differences between HSPs and the norm, the processing of information and the approaches to making decisions for instance, to be insignicant until we see the outcomes of those differences. And in this case HSPs have the reputation of accomplishing the things 97

they do in a manner that is considered to be good, or effective. What this is saying is the HSP can be considered in many cases to be functioning at a level that is more effective than the norm. That the norm can slight the HSP for being different is indicative of the intolerance of the norm to appreciate that which is different than it, when it is the HSP who by design in the way they inherently do things have the reputation of doing them well. When this is understood a person begins to appreciate the outlook of the norm as not being a measure of what is to be considered good or bad, it is merely an indication of the commonness of the outlook. Below is information about HSPs from the web site The Highly Sensitive Person which shares information from the book The Highly Sensitive Person whose author has a PhD in clinical psychology. And as you read the excerpts, please keep in mind my above comments about HSPs have been made without access to my copy of the book. As I have mentioned, because of the amount of travelling and relocating I have been forced to do over the last dozen or so years, many of my personal items including books are no longer with me to refer to. (The trait of HSP) is found in about twenty percent of humans.[3] (HSP) reaction time is actually faster than others, (HSPs) startle more easily those are instances of super fast processing, thanks to a nervous system designed to do things thoroughly, so that it is also efcient. ... Of course (HSPs) may come to an insight very slowly, too, but still not know how they got there. That's what's called intuition, which (HSPs) have lots of.[4] Most of you know that being an HSP does not mean being shy or even introverted. Thirty percent of HSPs are extraverts.[5] And my research has found again and again that HSPs with a troubled childhood are more shy, anxious, and depressed than non-HSPs with the same degree of trouble in childhood. [6] This is a particularly noteworthy item as I had mentioned earlier how I suffered from depression for about one year after the break up of my marriage. ... thanks to all that deep processing, (HSPs) simply have a better sense of what is going on, right now, should they be asked or need to know. (HSPs) sense more about how things got to be this way and the several ways it could all turn out, depending on what happens next. That is, they are intuitive.[7] It has been my own experience over the years to have people ask me for my thoughts on a particular matter they faced that was complicated or displeasing, wanting my advice about how they deal with it. From work situations where superiors asked for my thoughts about changes under consideration that would affect the business, or to explore the possibilities of ideas they were considering acting on, to friends asking about how to deal with personal matters in their life. ... (HSPs) are unusually creative. Creativity by denition involves putting together things that are not usually thought of as belonging together, and that requires a deeper 98

and fuller processing of experiences, situations, and possibilities. (This is an especially valuable trait in the workplace.) [8] And for the sake of clarity, it is after things are put together for the rst time, and which had been considered as not belonging together, that they become more and more recognized as being common as it has been shown be done already. (HSP) conscientiousness is somewhat automatic, due to the fact that they think about the consequences of their action or inaction. ... (HSPs) are also conscientious because, by nature, they reect on and learn from their mistakes.[9] ... (HSPs) are good at sensing all kinds of nonverbal communication and indicators of physical needs and emotions. This gives us a talent for intuiting the unconscious mind and for sensing the needs of those who cannot speak, such as animals, plants, infants, and the human body. [10] It is again worthy to note my earlier mention in this exposition about the bad effect on me by actions and activities which were nonverbal and verbal although indirect being stalked and forced to receive these communications by people. As I have said to people over the years, such techniques used against me have had the affect of overstimulating my senses at times, and hence my nervous system was also affected to the point I suffered physiologicall because of them. Yet people continued with them and I continued to suffer for their actions. I have said many times that HSPs are like the priestly advisors to the non-HSP warrior kings. ... (HSPs) are the counselors, strategists, historians, scientists, law interpreters, artists, spiritual leaders, and healers. Without them, the warrior kings would make decisions that were shallow, lacking in good strategy, and without consideration of the long-term consequences.[11] This is analogous to my experiences where leaders in my work have asked my advice, or others who have been part of the network of people that monitor me and my activities have wanted my rational thoughts on various subjects. I think any historian would have to agree that when a culture does not reect enough does not make enough use of its HSPs it declines. How? Non-HSPs increasingly ll the roles that ought to be lled by HSPs ... Non-HSPs may seem better suited because they can tolerate more input and make quicker decisions they do better under the stress (and give the answers other non-HSPs want to hear). But each of these elds changes for the worse, because non-HSPs will perform these tasks differently, and for the purpose of long-range planning, not as well.[12] (HSPs) can do almost any job well, but we'll do it differently, and thus bring alternate strategies to meeting the same end.[13] ... most of the violence done in the world is done by men (although often only in order to protect women or because women urged them on). And most of that is done impulsively, by those who have not taken the time to see the long-term effects of violence or to plan a long-term strategy that will eventually accomplish the same results with less cost and effort. It seems to me that sensitive men are rarely in favor of 99

violence not out of cowardice or even out of compassion, but because they can see the long run harm to the bodies and minds of both the victims and the perpetrators.[14] However, if HSPs don't like to resort to violence, it doesn't mean they are not good protectors. Indeed, they are better they can better foresee dangers. They are generally better able to avoid trouble or else have already thought through how to deal with it. They've spontaneously processed all the possibilities. When they do act, it is quickly and effectively, not impulsively and randomly.[15] ... one of their greatest gifts to the world, I believe, is their almost obsession with nding the meaning in life or in an event, whether they explore this in spiritual, psychological, or philosophical terms. (HSPs) do not easily deny the biggest emotional issues of life. Having reected on these things more than others, they are often sought out for their opinions or just their presence.[16] The following accounts, as you will see based on this explanation of HSPs, lend to the idea that I may be in the category of victims who are part of a program for (social) experimentation, or the category in which people are made t/vs for being different. As HSPs will eventually show to be different than the norm, and not in a bad way, it is very reasonable to consider this would make them people of interest to anyone who has the intention of observing and/or testing people for whatever reasons. And also, the accounts will lend to the reasonableness that I would also be in the category which is for people called whistleblowers. This is helped by the suggestion of others over the years which is I have been in 2 programs that target and/or victimize me, and which appear to be operating secretively in that people have not acknowledged them to be happening despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary. This rst account is from my time in my rst professional career. And while there are those who try to downplay it as having nothing to do with my victimization, I include it here for the sake of being thorough and to offset those inuences on me that have tried to sway my opinion about the matter. As you have seen in this exposition I have been subjected to a great deal of manipulation and attempts to inuence my impressions of different things, and so in being objective I include this account to let it create the impression it will when presented without bias. It was in a Canadian division of a Fortune multi-national company where I was successful in meeting the responsibilities and objectives of my position that I was promoted. And in the course of performing my work I made a discovery about an aspect of the business that revealed a aw in a major business system that was nancial in nature. My major responsibility of work saw the implementation of procedures and activities in different areas of the business and which brought about an improvement in the reliability and effectiveness of productivity improvement efforts. Any activity than reduces the cost of a consumer product serves to satisfy the business as well as the consumer who stands to receive the benet in different ways through the marketing of the product. However after completing this work the results were then given to other groups in the business to use for themselves, with my position being slated for 100

elimination along with the offer of a supervisory position at a lower level in the organization. I explored other positions in different groups in the business but no opportunities were made available to me, at which time I reconsidered my career with the company when they and I agreed I could part from my employ with them amicably. And I did. Amid the various training sessions I attended while in the company was one particular one in which all the attendees were put through assessments to identify their personality type. These were team leaders, supervisors, and managers who underwent the assessment that was administered by a licensed psychologist who worked for the company. And as I mentioned at the start of this exposition, the personality type I was assessed to have applies only to a small percentage of people. Also, an item worth noting which took place in a week-long training session about inter-personal relations and coaching, is how a coworker, a department manager, after talking with me as part of an exercise commented he could not imagine anyone divorcing me. I say this for the fact that throughout my victimization people have chosen to not listen to my words about various subjects, in spite of my education, training, and experience, and not even in areas I have specialized expertise and training in. And in these instances of prejudice and or unjustied arrogance has been accusations against me about the failing of my marriage. As for the consideration of whistle-blowing, it is possible my discovery of the aw in the companys major business system put me in the unfortunate position of being watched and monitored. And this is supported by a happening whereby a conversation of mine with a coworker, while the two of us travelled to another city for a training session, was later known by my manager. After speaking with my colleague who assured me he did not repeat our conversation to anyone, the matter remained a mystery as to how our conversation in a vehicle that travelled hours away from our work facility could be known by another. But it was. However my colleague did comment on how it would not be beyond my manager to resort to tactics that would permit him to know of my private conversations. This raises questions like was the company vehicle bugged? I do not know the answer to that, but what was shown in my situation at work was the elimination of my position with only an offer of a lesser position and no other opportunities made available to me within the company. And at the same time, a position the same as mine in a sister facility at the same location was unchanged. Was this a case of company politics or the often heard situation of an employee not receiving the recognition they deserve? Possibly, as the company was clear in promoting advancement and development opportunities for employees upon their hire. But in my case none of this was made available to me despite being promoted and successful in meeting my objectives. The nature of my nding in the aw mentioned becomes a complicated discussion, however in basic terms this division of the business was employing practices to do with nancial calculations which are considered duplicitous. And while I never shared this nding with anyone in a serious way aside from the infrequent frustrated comment about my work to a trusted friend in the privacy of my home, a behavior common to many, the matter was very sensitive as later it was discovered the aw indicated questionable gures would appear in the companys ofcial nancial 101

reporting. This was said by the Securities Exchange Commission (SEC) of the USA years after the fact when I spoke to them in my efforts to search for those responsible for my victimization that was destroying my life. I will not go into a lengthy explanation of the workings of the aw discovered as I do not believe it to be necessary to this exposition, however the report of the discovery of the aw and the details of the aw itself are in the records of the SEC. Also, while people have wanted me to give this explanation, I am not motivated to offer such for the number of people who have exhibited parasitic attitudes toward me and my activities as a result of my being monitored. When does the abuse of a person stop? Even when facing the end of ones life people still want from them. Have people truly become so sick-minded? I was asked by the SEC if anyone else in the company knew about the aw I discovered, and while no others ever mentioned knowing specically about it, conversations were had and questions were at times raised regarding the practices in question by those who worked with them. An annual performance review of mine was not ofcially authorized by the director of the division, who was my managers manager and responsible for several facilities in the region of the country, and the document included nancial gures which were based on calculations that included the aw in question. I was given no reason as to why my performance review was not authorized at the director level as it was the year prior, leaving doubts and best guesses as to why this happened. Should you be inexperienced in such nancial matters that take place in big companies, the following excerpt from Flirting With Disaster makes evident that duplicitous practices regarding nancial matters do take place in the corporate world, as per the books account of the collapse of the international accounting rm Arthur Andersen. In incident after incident, warning signs were downplayed and aggressive investigative actions were not taken, even when evidence was presented directly to senior partners, such as the members of the rms Risk Management Committee. At Andersen, pleasing the (corporate) client and growth became the golden rules, while accounting and ethical standards were, at least in the case of certain clients, suspended.[17] I make this next comment for the reason some have suggested the company in question where the aw was discovered has tried to blame me for it. And before I explain why this is not the case, I mention that using me as the scapegoat does t with the many accounts over the years where I was wrongfully accused of things I was not at fault for. Also, the SEC understood this specic point and are aware of the true facts of the matter. Present in my conversations with them was a person trained in the area of the business to do with the aw and a lawyer of the SEC. One of my responsibilities in my position was to ensure the gures used in measuring the performance of processes and overall product performance in its manufacture were accurate. This is a general description of it without going into a large amount of detail, and the situation arose prior to the the discovery of the aw that particular gures were suspected to not be sound, and had not been for quite some time even before my moving into my position and the company. At that time, my discussions with my manager revealed the amount of work required to properly adjust the gures in question took more of my time than he was willing to assign to the work, 102

and which meant I could not move ahead in other responsibilities as a result. It was a matter of resource management. The work required a technique which was only at that time being developed through the accomplishing of my other work goals, and which meant my current goals needed to be met before having the technique to use. So not only were the resources needed not available but the time needed to make them usable and then use them across our entire line of products would have taken much more resource than was available and at the expense of other business goals. Such a shift in work priorities not only meant it would not be possible for me to achieve other business goals that were part of the larger strategic and performance plan of the facility for the year in question but even if the new priority was made, and after the extensive work required to accomplish it, the result would have meant adjusting costs as pertaining to our full line of products. This required discussions with the marketing division of the company and had far-reaching nancial implications, which also posed a problem in the already established productivity improvement plans in the years budget for the entire facility, and that is on the assumption the technique needed was available to use which it was not. To delve into the matter even further however, the technique being developed eventually, over the course of a years development, highlighted a discrepancy in the gures of performance I mentioned. And while this permitted me to accomplish an established business goal, the discrepancy when applied to the full line of products we manufactured represented a signicant error in nancial gures stemming from calculations that used the gures of performance. The other consideration stemming from my time in the company is that I may have been identied as a person of interest who would be included in the category about observation and experimentation. Considering my traits similar to those of an HSP, the assessment while in the company which identied me to be in a grouping that applies to a small percentage of people, and that my work was thorough to the point it discovered a aw in a major business system in a world-class Fortune company, and which was not identied previously, I think you can begin to consider this is a possibility. Also, years later I was informed by another that the Canadian government maintained lists of people who were people of interest. I am not a terrorist, nor am I any type of person who would be of interest for observation and monitoring, other than possibly for what I mention. And what is known is I have been under observation and monitoring in a way that became evident initially around the time I was with that company, later showing itself more predominantly around 2000. However this only remains a theory as I do not know who is responsible for my victimization although others apparently do know, but have not told me to this date. A noteworthy happening at the time I was with this company in question was how my boss, who was responsible for promoting me and giving me the chance to show my abilities in my work, albeit the results of my work were later taken and given to others, began acting in a somewhat strange manner. And what I mean is how he was adamant that I not call him at the new location of the company he was promoted to: this was an odd behavior considering part of his responsibilities as the manager for the entire facility were passed to me upon his departure, and yet colleagues of mine could contact him with questions, but not me. Did this have to do with the happening where my conversations in the company vehicle were listened in on? I cannot know for 103

sure. But what is also curious is how prior to my boss leaving our facility, when he and I sat to set my objectives for the following year, he created objectives that were close to impossible to achieve, while my previous objectives, while stretch objectives, were realistic. This is a more involved matter to do with the practices, structure, and responsibilities the company used in managing the business. However for the sake of this case what happened was analogous to being asked to come up with a new way of making a mobile phone or personal computer for example, beyond incremental improvements which were done in this division of the company. It is the area of new production technologies or what is at times referred to as capital projects as a part of engineering to handle large scale projects that would bring about a breakthrough improvement in the way a product is manufactured. And while I collaborated with such groups on common business goals, to set goals that require such improvements without the improvements being been made business goals as part of the facilities annual strategic plans would leave me with work objectives that were virtually impossible to achieve. The division ran to a corporate business plan which cascaded down through the many levels of the company where peoples objectives were set as part of the overall plan. To be given goals that required milestone improvements that were not part of the overall plan, which meant the contribution by other groups like capital projects which led initiatives that introduced milestone improvements like production technologies, made them extremely unrealistic and essentially impossible to achieve from my position. Is all of this a coincidence and the result of poor managing, stories about which are heard at times, or is there more to it? After I made the discovery about the aw in the companys business system I was monitored, my boss treated me with prejudice as compared to others, my work for the next year was set so I would fail in it, my position was later eliminated, I was not offered any lateral movement to any other positions in the company, and I was only offered a supervisory position at a lower level in the company and with less access to sensitive company information. Also, after that point in my career, my work became a case of others apparently scheming to put me into positions that used me for my skills (or traits) or took advantage of me for the purposes of others. My previous accounts in this exposition look at this. And while all of this remains a mystery to me insofar as who is behind my victimization, it is a fact that in some countries like Canada and regions within them there exists what is referred to as whilst-blower legislation. That is to say these laws are specically intended to protect people from retaliation and harassment from employers and others. A former colleague at the same multi-national company mentioned in the previous account had shared with me her theory about the region of Canada we were in, and how a network of people in companies collaborated to inuence the movement of professional staff between some companies. This was the suggestion but I cannot be entirely certain about it, however I did see situations where colleagues and coworkers were mistreated and had their careers suffer for actions that seemed suspicious. And then there are my accounts about my work in the latter part of my career and the apparent collusion between people from a company I had worked for and a Canadian college.

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 However in considering the theory I am the subject of testing and experimentation I share this account which took place in Canada upon my return several years after my initial departure in 2001. As I sat on a public bus which travelled through the city an older man who came to sit beside me began speaking with me. He commented on how children came around me at times to say things in an odd and suspicious manner. And what I mean by this is how over the years very young children, at times toddlers, are often brought near me at which time they have some type of reaction. At that time in Canada the children uttered words which were meant to have meaning for me as they pertained to some aspect of my recent activities, however in later years this strange occurrence changed in nature somewhat to where the children reacted by either crying or laughing slightly or making no sound at all. And on the occasions the children did utter words, it was difcult to know if they were accurate in their meaning to me. It became a boggling scenario where children came near me or were brought near me for the purpose of having a reaction like these. But I had no way of knowing how to take the discrete communication intended by it. However it was when the older man on the bus spoke specically to say that every once in a while the children will say something that is right on, as in to say their utterances were accurate in their meaning which pertained to some recent activity of mine. I suppose this is in a way similar to the expression, from the mouths of babes comes the truth, while it was a boggling situation that followed me in my movements. When the reaction of children changed to be only crying or slight laughing or no reaction at all, the pattern in the happenings appeared to correlate to whether my activities were boding well for me or not. For instance if my recent activities were going well and without problems and I was feeling comfortable with them so to speak, the children brought near me, usually by their parents, began to cry. And when things were not going well with me and I was experiencing more of the many problems that have been made for me for years, the reaction of the children was to give a slight laugh of sorts. It became like a measuring rod so to speak to give an indication of the status of the problems I have regularly faced. And as intriguing as this might be, the absolutely sad thing about it is how these people involved in this happening, and those who know about it like the man on the bus, have not shared with me what the bizarre situation is all about, only leaving me in the game played on me. I would say this strange and inexplicable behavior in the children, and that the older man knew about it and parents of the children among others who bring the children near me are participating in it, raises very good possibilities I am in the middle of some type of test or experiment. It is well beyond coincidence which requires an explanation for its happening. Another situation which has taken place regularly for years now is how certain people stalk me so I will see them, at which time they communicate to me through their gestures that I will be retaliated against for beating the testing that is being done on me. The gestures in question have changed over the years this has happened, however for a while now the manner of bringing ones cigarette to their mouth for me to see the gesture, and at times taking a long draw on it as the person faces me, has been intended to let me know I will be made to pay more for a product or service I will soon be in need of. Another gesture has been the ngering of ones ear so I see them do it as they pass by or are near me, and this situation has played out such that when I 105

avoid being taken advantage of, or embarrassed by the staged situations or testing of me, the reaction is to make me pay more for something: it is a retaliation of sorts. And the pattern has been denite for quite some time. For instance should I receive an email by someone who has the intention of trying to make me look foolish or bad, and I instead show they are being foolish by pointing out something they are doing which is wrong or awed in some way for example, the common reaction to this has been people passing me on the street with these gestures to imply I will be forced to pay more for something in the near future as a result of my beating the perverse game. The instances that involve my use of the Internet are driven by the fact my Internet activity is spied on which means my emails and other Internet activity is known by others and which fuels the game. If I were to ever have privacy in my activities a good portion of my victimization would disappear. And to anyone who tries to justify the spying of me, let us face the facts, my life has not improved but only gotten worse for having no privacy. This smacks of extortion or more simply, oppression. Unless I let myself be abused and taken advantage or let myself be made to look foolish, I will be retaliated against for it. When considering this the words testing and experimentation can come to mind, and in this case for the purpose of oppressing me. In more basic terms it resembles a child-like game where a bully tries to intimidate everyone to bow down to them, and when a person does not, and refuses to be abused and suppressed, the bully retaliates against them. But this is not a child-like situation although the actions of my antagonists resemble a child-like mentality, this is the life of a person being killed off because of of the bully-like immaturity of those who are incapable of competing fairly. We all know what a bully is all about. This next account took place at a business seminar in the auditorium of a 5-star hotel in a foreign country where the event saw groups prepare presentations about marketing plans for the hotel. I was assigned to a group and after being selected by the groups leader as the person to make the presentation to the room of about 50 or more, it became clear the group was not going to do much at all in preparing the presentation. And the staff of the hotel we were able to briey speak with offered very little helpful information leaving the group on their own to come up with ideas. Then with 5 minutes left before our group was to present, or rather, I was to present, and with very little of a presentation completed, I took the laptop computer we were using and prepared almost all of the presentation myself in the few minutes remaining. I went to the stage and made the presentation to receive a loud round of applause when I nished, and it was later in talking with others in the session that I came to know our group was the only one to show next to no group effort. And the fact our group leader was the marketing manager for the company left a lot of doubts about the sincerity in the groups effort. It appeared to be a situation intended to throw me into a problem to see how I would deal with it. Another staged test of sorts? Possibly, but as I was later told there was an additional matter which was the arrangement between my employer and the hotel that saw the hotel receive the marketing plan ideas for free, while my employer did not pay for the use of the facility for the team building session. This created little motivation by many participating in the session which could explain my teams performance, but there still remains the fact I was forced to develop the presentation in only a few minutes, and that I did. 106

This is only a small example which possibly was more a matter of the dynamics of the session than anything else, however I have been thrown into many staged situations since my victimization started and on many occasions over the years including prior to leaving Canada people have made comments about me performing magic or having some type of keen ability in assessing and explaining things in an insightful way beyond what is commonly seen by others. Over the years I have been subjected to hundreds of staged situations to test my responses and reactions to problematic situations, or simply any situation where those observing want to see how I deal with it. And this has been just as predominant here where I now reside. I remind you of Dr. E. Arons point about highly sensitive people where she says ... they are often sought out for their opinions or just their presence.[18] In my case I have been sought out in secrecy through staged situations where people have then tried to observe my ideas, opinions, impressions, or actions in response to it. And I would say the words testing, observation, and experimentation can again come to mind. This account may be more a matter of how foreigners are looked upon by some in China, but at the same time it was an incident which appeared to single me out and for which I stood to suffer for by its attempt to smear me. It was when I lived in a residence for visitors on the campus of a University in Beijing. The building attendant who tended to cleaning and some administrative duties began a progressively rude manner toward me as I came and went from the building, when on one occasion he insulted a friend who stayed the night with me, implying she was a woman-of-thenight. She did the same as other women who came to visit friends in the building, but he seemed determined to want to antagonize me and create a confrontational situation. After informing me I was evicted, and for no reason I knew of, in the days remaining before I moved out he went so far as to persistently knock on my apartment door late one evening instructing she must leave the building when he and I then talked through her translation as he took a solid stance and tensed his body as if anticipating I would strike him. My friend and I exchanged glances for his odd yet obvious behavior which was to try to antagonize me and then prepare for being hit. But I did not hit him. The situation wreaked of an attempt to smear through a concocted incident and I knew the least thing I might have done toward him would have me depicted as some type of monster in the area. And I will add there is a group here where I reside who use this same duplicitous approach to fool others about me. Perhaps the account is not as much a situation of observation as it was an intent to try to smear me, but hindsight saw that shortly after I moved in it was decided I should be made to leave without any explanation as to why, with efforts to make me look bad in the process. And I will add that other foreigners I came to know in China did not suffer these same types of specic problematic situations. This next account is about a coworker from my time working in a division of a multi-national automotive company in Canada, and at the end of it you will see how the point of it can apply to my own situation. Casandra, although not my colleagues real name, was a technician who was very good at her work which was in the area of PLC programming (Programmable Logic Controllers): this is a computer language used to program robotic equipment and other mechanical equipment that operates to a software program. Casandra was 107

invaluable to her employer if ever there was a work stoppage due to a piece of programmed equipment failing, yet while she was looked to for her skills in her work at the same time she was treated with animosity by others for them. I often sat and listened to her frustrations about how people purposely made problems for her in her work be it misinformation about which problems were to be xed, or in details about how equipment was to function she was oftentimes stressed and noticeably agitated as a result. The more I spoke with her the more it became evident some people did not want it seen she was as good at her work as she was, as the problems she faced fairly regularly were not for the routine challenges in the work or the environment, but rather for the ill-intended actions of others. Casandra was not an HSP as far as I know, however over the years as I thought back to these times in my former career I found a perverse parallel between the problems she faced in her work and the problems I have faced in my life. And while this company offering me a full-time position at just less than half the salary I was earning on a contractual basis does not help explain why I have been made a t/v, it does serve as another example of the odd difculties I have faced in earning money. Also, it was a business consulting company in Canada which later in my career offered me a position that paid less than my rst position upon graduating with my degree about a dozen years earlier. I was grateful for the offer but could not accept it as I simply could not meet my nancial obligations with the salary. To clarify the point of experimentation which has a broad meaning that includes the unfortunate and suffering people who have electronic implants put in them for instance, is my circumstance which has been about testing for the purpose of learning from it observing reactions and responses for the approaches and ideas I use in them. I refer to this as experimentation and it may be more accurately referred to as a social experiment, which is supported by the fact that many people over the years have used my expressions, phrasing of words, and explanations of various things for themselves that have been taken from me through testing in staged situations or monitoring. You will be surprised to know my ideas and explanations of various things have been repeated by some of the most well-known people in the world. The list includes famous hollywood actors, people known for their great wealth, politicians who are well-known on the international stage, and people in televised media who have given news reports on various subjects and topics, and that were motivated by comments of mine. Should I be attered by this or should I feel cheated by this? I remain unsure. However either way this sheds light on how elaborate and widespread my victimization is. Some have suggested over the years I am one of the most well-known people who remains a secret, and for all this notoriety which remains secret my life approaches its end. How should a person feel in these circumstances? While I was in China my email correspondence to previous employers in Canada received no response and later people suggested the companies I had worked for claimed to not know of me. That is to say I never worked at the companys listed on my resume according to them. And with the spying of my Internet email people began believing I did not in fact work for the companies I had. However my correspondence with NASA (North America Space Agency) prior to leaving Canada and as part of my national and then international job search at the time, saw them 108

forward my curriculum vitae (CV) to all their relevant departments with complimentary words about my accomplishments. Similar to the SEC who has a record of my correspondence with them despite others denial of the incident at the Fortune company, NASA may still have a record of my CV with them. This next account serves to further support the idea that my traits, as I have explained above in this section and in my previous look at personalities at the start of this exposition, may have created this type of notoriety about me which remains secret, as in to say it is not made known publicly, while some seek to take advantage of me for my traits. That is to say these people and groups in question take my ideas to benet from. It was only months ago that a friend from my hometown in Canada was corresponding with me at a social networking site we belong to. He made a comment that referred to my activities in posting comments about various topics at web sites on the Internet, where I offered opinions or explanations about various matters that were of interest or in the news. And his comment was I should continued to offer my thoughts, ideas, and explanations as I was doing, as I would receive better treatment in my interactions with people as a result more dignity and less abuse and antagonism as I was receiving. In basic terms this is a type of extortion where a person is forced to offer up something that is wanted, and if they do not they will be subjected to something undesirable, in my case the regular abuse and oppression of me in public and in general. It is bad enough to be treated with such a criminal-like attitude that has no regard for you, but just as bad is how I receive no proper recognition for what I offer which means I cannot benet for having provided it. I am only taken advantage of in this way. And that is oppression. It is situations like the following happenings that help explain why people want to hear my thoughts, ideas, and explanations about various things. But before I go into them you must understand an aspect of my traits, which is the ability to often be intuitive in looking at a problem or situation with subsequent ideas that are good at estimating likely outcomes and potential problems. And the reason this type of thinking is valued, as per the extortion against me for them, is that many people are not able to think in this way. I will not go into a long explanation about this, but sufce it to say if people were able to do this on their own they would not hold the work of those who can in such high regard. And also, the excerpts from the book The Highly Sensitive Person mentioned earlier says makes this same point. It has been many years where my activity on the Internet has been monitored and whereby my ideas, thoughts, and explanations have been taken by others to benet from. And what I mean by this is how my discovery of things which pose problems or keep something from operating as well as as it should for instance, are taken by those who monitor my emails and Internet postings who then use my ideas to benet from. I have used many different Internet web sites over the years like most people do, however it is when I nd a problem with some aspect of how a web site presents information or provides a service, where their is a aw in how it is done that has gone unseen, that my explanation of why it is a aw and the problem it creates is then used by the web site itself to change the site so as to not experience the problem I have pointed out. Granted, if I am talking to a web site and I point out a problem they 109

have, it should be natural from the perspective of customer service to x it so as to run their business better. But when other web sites who I have not been in contact with, and who have no way of knowing of my correspondence with the web site I am talking with, make the same change to their web site to avoid the problem that has gone unseen is when I am being cheated and taken advantage of. Business consultants earn a good salary and companies can pay very large fees for the services of business consulting companies, and one helpful trait of consultants is to be creative so as to see new possibilities in dealing with a problem or in trying to improve an aspect of a business. However when the consultant is monitored so that any ideas they come up with from their creativity are simply stolen and used by others who pay no fee for them, while beneting by the use of the ideas, that consultant stands no chance of having a career in that eld. They can be very talented but they will not earn any money from it as the monitoring of them means all their ideas will be stolen without payment for them. I have actually had people pay for my dinner or drinks at times for the sole purpose of reimbursing me in some small way for the conversation I make with them. It would seem my skills in verbal uency and creativity in conversation has made my communicative ability a sought item, although it purposely remains in relative secrecy which means I cannot benet from people knowing about it. I have considered offering independent training services or even starting a business in which I help others in areas I have a strong ability in, however for the fact of the monitoring of me and my activities I would never have the chance to benet from my work as others steal it to use for themselves. This is the main reason I have always tried to use prepared material (of a business I work for) in providing training services: there is less chance my work will be stolen as I am using material that is already available. This problem appeared to be noted by some people at businesses I worked for, who, despite the occasional indication from a student that I not use the company material and come up with my own, supported me in continuing to use the prepared material (manuals and books) published by the company. I have had people pay my way in my living accommodations and on trips as part of this secretive studying of me, which in these cases the people involved had the decency to recognize with some type of compensation. But, as nice as this sounds, the truth is this aspect of my victimization has seen me taken advantage of without reciprocating compensation, while others benet and prot from that which is stolen from me, and while I became broke and now soon-to-be penniless for the duplicitous greed of others who cannot do for themselves what they have stolen from me. A displeasing and demeaning circumstance that has arisen over the years because of this notoriety I have which remains largely a secret, is how people create staged situations so as to challenge me in conversation as if to compete with me because of the traits I have. I cannot begin to explain how pathetic and unscrupulous this is in its approach. It is bad enough to be oppressed while others take from you, but the idea of people engaging with you in some type of competition when they have spied on you, and you are unaware of the competition taking place, is beyond the obviously unfairness in it and more so a case of deplorable behavior by those involved who show to have a mentality of unworthiness.

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 As I write this I am reminded of an anecdote in which a person in the forest res his gun into the air to scare away a bear, before shooting the bears sh which he then hangs over his should as he prepares to walk home to show his catch of the day. If the point of the story is not apparent to you, it is that the person is laughable in how they try to show they are a good shermen/woman when the truth is they could only get the sh by cheating. Add to this bizarre reality whereby those who spy on you then indirectly attempt to challenge you without your knowing it, all the other activities involved in my circumstances, and the Twilight Zone factor becomes even more pronounced. My life effectively becomes a display for all those who secretively know of it to watch as I suffer more and more for it until that day I were to snap so to speak because of all of this, at which time everyone involved and who knows what is happening but keeps it secret will then be among those who accuse there is something wrong with me. If a case needed to be made for the absence of dignity, respect, and an upstanding essence in people among us, this would be it. Another account about this area of my victimization was during my time with a former girlfriend in China where a happening took place when we lived together that revealed I was being spied on/monitored. I suspected this about the residence we lived in and on one occasion tested my theory by writing some notes in a different language than English while sitting in the living room of our home. The next day my girlfriend approached me to ask what I wrote in the notes when I never said I had written anything. How did she know I wrote something unless I was being monitored? And the fact she could not understand what I wrote for it being in a foreign language prompted her to become noticeably bothered by it, where she began hitting my shoulder with her st, albeit lightly in the manner of a lighthearted disagreement between boyfriend and girlfriend, for wanting to know what was written on the notes. This again can lead you to think of words like testing and experimentation, and others have suggested such relationships are part of the workings of the program I am forced into. The suggestion is I am only permitted to have relationships with a partner who is part of the program which monitors and tests me. It would help explain the degree of antagonistic and inconsiderate behavior shown toward me in my past relationships with females over the last 10 or more years: a way to provoke me and test my responses. It was in China were I was in a conversation about a particular club I frequented several times. The conversation was in the privacy of my home where I pointed out some improvements the club could benet from. And only a short time later, two weeks perhaps, the club in question implemented the changes I spoke of in my home and was thriving with a crowd of customers that lled it. While I will not repeat the account about my work at a facility of a Fortune automotive company, I refer to it here as an example of how my work was beyond the norm and at a higher standard. Call it thoroughness or simply better in some way, but the result was the action to hide the work where I received no credit for it. This helps reinforce the secrecy that surrounds this aspect of my victimization while at the same time shows my work is good enough that people would hide it out of fear, most likely to avoid exposing the existing work as not being as good as it can be.

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 My comments in this exposition about opportunism of others toward me refer to this theft of what is mine. In different ways, and largely due to the constant monitoring of me and in cases the use of staged situations, people who participate in this scheme steal from me to benet from themselves. It appears the outlook of many people has become selsh to the point of being criminal-like that they feel it is acceptable to steal from a person like this, and in doing so help kill off their life. Over the last decade and more there have been a great many instances where my ideas, opinion, and explanations have been taken by others in one way or another because of the monitoring of me. I will not list all of them as I think the information I have shared about this, including many of the accounts in other sections, have helped make the point. And for the reason some of the instances, while supporting this idea, could become mundane considering the better examples given. An additional consideration that must be made in this circumstance is how people have reacted to the monitoring of me by those who realize I have the traits I have. If this is all to be kept a secret, including the fact I posses the traits I do, you must consider how people have dealt with the knowledge that others are also monitoring me. Over the years I have been monitored by people belonging to different groups and geographic areas, and when those who try to keep it all secret act to keep it secret, these actions have many times had a detrimental effect on me. This has shown itself as discrediting and oppressive actions in spite of the truth of the matter. Had I been successful in an area an attempt was made by these keepers of this secrecy to make it appear I was incorrect in my activities, or that my work was not good when in fact it was. Apparently they must prevent any others involved in the monitoring from knowing the truth of the matter while they cannot prevent them from spying in on me. This creates situations of smearing and discrediting and showing me up to ensure opinions in others monitoring me are such that they never realize what I have done is actually good, or some might say very good, and should be considered worthy for any learnings to be taken from it. I recall an instance where I was involved in a discussion about people and their circumstances and traits of people, and as I presented my thoughts on the matter I then suffered for the comments of others who purposely tried to mislead those following the discussion. My comments were sound and informative to the truth of the matter, however the person making the misleading comments in question appeared to be in the group whose traits were talked about as causing the problem in the discussion. A case of them trying to avoid responsibility for a problem they have caused by misleading others about it. And while people will defend them self when accused, it is a different matter when people have spied to know when and where to show up at a social networking site to toss out their misleading statement as in this case. This again begins to sound like oppression. I do not have the same opportunity to know who is challenging something I have said and where they are saying it, as most people do not who are not spying on others. What might be taken as another example of this is how my writing has experienced suspicious results in the marketplace. The feedback about my novels has been good and I have also received good reviews of them, however after my rst novel was distributed in paperback through a distribution channel of up to 25,000 book selling groups, not one single copy was reported to have sold months after its release. 112

That is a bit of a curious happening some might say. Some have suggested my books are in fact selling, but the reported sales are changed to show zero sales which means the royalties are criminally taken by others and not given to me. And the odd happening like recorded sales appearing in the sales reporting of book selling groups, before the same gures stop appearing in the same sales reports adds to the suspicion of tampering and or sabotage that surrounds my books. Other strange happenings include one of my novels showing up beyond 20th in an exact title search of it at one of the most well-known book selling sites in the world. Needless to say the books that showed up before it in the search results had different names than the title searched for. And after several years and several books written I face being penniless in months if not weeks. The indisputable fact that writing of mine has had its gures of viewership tampered with over the Internet, and that others over the years have told me plainly I will not be successful in selling items over the Internet, creates a different picture about any coincidence in the matter and that again, in all likelihood, it is a case of oppression and to do with my victimization. But back to the suggestion I have been the subject of 2 programs, this next event which took place in Beijing supports this idea further. I was at a club with a woman I was dating at the time and who worked for the Canadian embassy, and while at the club 2 groups of people began coming around me. The people from one group can near to my area to become rude and antagonistic toward me when others from the second group showed up to counter the harassing and smearing behavior toward me. It was easily seen as the people from the different groups came to walk by or stand near me, and most of these people in question were the staff at the club. The woman I was with was aware of this, like many people are regarding my circumstances, and suggested for my own safety considering what might happen for the stalking of me that I sit with a group of foreigners who were from a country in the middle east or that general geographic area. This consideration of people from this region of the world has also come up in the past where others have on occasion suggested I to go to places where people from this geographic area are at, or to associate with people from this part of the word. I remain uncertain as to why this suggestion has been made to me, but there must be some explanation for it considering the happenings that have taken place where these people were pointed out. Still further about the idea I am in 2 programs that target me I have had people suggest over the years that I have been in a program all my life. It may be according to this theory that while I was in one program since childhood I was later put in another as an adult. And the two appear to be conicting with one having intentions to kill me off as has been happening. So it seems while I am the target of activities that observe and monitor me for the objective of learning from me or about me, at the same time I have been treated with prejudice in trying to live my life for having the traits I do: this becomes a dichotomy of sorts. It was my supervisor at Clark Morgan who said in his letter of dismissal to me upon my being let go from the company that my work style did not t with the environment there. And while this can easily be taken as a compliment for the lower standards worked to in that environment, the point made, when taken in more general terms, seems to apply to how I have been treated in much of my adult life. 113

 Specic to Clark Morgan, one particular project I was given responsibility for,and which I managed professionally, saw various problem become uncovered for some dysfunctional aspects of the business. Had I worked within the problems like the style of the environment tended to do, I might not have been taken off the project. However being trained and experienced as a professional my outlook has always been to try to do work that is effective as well as help improve the business I work for. And I think you can see the problem that arose in that situation: a person who is thorough in their work will run into problems when faced with ineffective practices of the environment, and as the letter of dismissal shows, the business preferred to remain with the poor practices than keep a good employee. I think most people do not realize this attitude of denial ultimately shows itself in a product or service offered less well than it can be, or the cost of it is higher than need be. Back to the point about being treated with prejudice in my adult life, an example to support this is how I was blocked from participating in a discussion group at one of the worlds most well-known social networking sites. The group often saw exchanges of ideas between members and yet my comments were deleted from the discussion threads, and I was later told by the group administrator that a problem existed in that I did not agree with other members in discussions. If you do not see how this is a strange situation, it is that a discussion group is precisely for the reason of discussion. For a member to be censored and blocked and criticized for not agreeing when the exchange of ideas is the objective, this smacks of oppression through prejudice or discriminatory actions. For months after that date the group remained blocked from my searches of groups at the social networking site. There has been a growing tendency toward conformity to the norm in many activities it seems, and in my case where my activities have shown to be outside the norm while being effective or good, I have at the same time been treated with prejudice for them. Have our societies become so intolerant of traits that are in fact good and as in the opinion of those trained in this area, needed? Have people become so misguided so as to only consider supercial things and disregard those things that are needed to avoid problems? be they in the ineffective running of a small business which sees it close as a result; to the high cost of products and services offered by international sized companies, and smalls ones as well, that avoid doing things properly for the popularity of supercial thinking and ideas; and to catastrophes where lives are lost for things not having been done the right way. I refer you to the book Flirting With Disaster which is referenced in the Appendix and which talks precisely about this type of societal problem, albeit it looks mainly at people in organizations and how practices become norms which are harmful. It seems more and more that norms which are harmful have come to be accepted among us. Ideas that are considered part of the gang stalking approach and which are intended to harm a t/v, show up to be used as common practices among people today. The lack of privacy of a person, while denied to be a problem, and oftentimes by those who are guilty of invading the privacy of others, at the same time is acknowledged by well-known people, at times celebrities, who openly talk of there being no privacy remaining for people in the public eye. And while this applies to the scrutiny given to those of celebrity status, it is many from that group who take measures to protect them self and their families from those who try to invade their 114

privacy. It was just the other day I was approached with an offer to purchase a small electronic device which was a recording device equipped with an SMS chip. A person can plant the device wherever they want to record a conversation and call from a phone at another location to listen to what has been recorded. A person need only look at the offerings of electronic and other shoppes to see the many different recording and surveillance devices available to the general public. Gas-lighting is another gang stalking technique that has become common among people today. With social networking sites as popular as they are with tens of millions of users if not more across the world, the ability to mislead people about the truth of various matters has become relatively easy. This would not be a problem if people would not take to supercial approaches and let themselves be manipulated to the point of being fooled about the truth of things. And aside from those situations where a few chose to smear or discredit one of their group for whatever malicious reason, we now see the ability to have the gas lighting approach duplicitously sway the opinions of entire societies in some cases. Needless to say I did not purchase the electronic recording device and told the person I do not spy on people, but that others spy on me and which others have told me also. A conversation I had with another I came across here where I now reside revealed that he seemed to be experiencing similar happenings as I have. He was a seemingly intelligent person who was clearly outside the norm, with sound opinions and thoughts that validly challenged the current common practices of many things, and he exhibited some similar behaviors as me like preferring to not watch television, but instead watch programs over the Internet. This is a reference to accounts that have been made about the tampering of televised programs. He explained how when he was a child he was observed to show traits that were outside the norm and was later tested and found to have genius ability. And while I do not believe I am a genius in the true meaning of the word, howbeit I have never been properly tested for this, I have been told that as a child I exhibited behavior that was also outside of the norm and noteworthy. Perhaps this supports the theory I have been in a program since childhood. But I cannot know for certain. The theories about why I would have been selected as a t/v might be supported by the possibility that several people from my hometown area have also been made t/ vs. It could be that some aspect of where I grew up has to do with the apparent pattern of several t/vs coming from the area. Besides myself another former friend from high-school was reduced to working from his home after having held a position in one of the most famous high-tech companies in the world. He apparently had the unfortunate experience of being shunned by coworkers for being different, and at the same time he showed throughout his life to be extremely intelligent and graduated from a difcult program at one of Canadas leading universities. Another acquaintance from my hometown saw his father fall victim to a near fatal car accident where he lost the use of one eye. It was a bizarre happening which his father talked to me about when he said he was just glad to be alive, almost as if fearful of someone who had caused his accident and who could still do more harm to him and his life. And as coincidental as this may sound, people do have car accidents, 115

it does at the same time t with those t/vs who make a point of letting it be known they will concede to whomever has caused their victimization, showing to want nothing extraordinary from life and explaining they will be good by going along with the norm so to speak. One former friend also from my hometown was actually shot dead in an incident when he was in his 20s, and you must understand my hometown does not have a high crime rate associated with shootings or even knings. He was lled with a zeal for life and gave 110% in the things he was passionate about, which included speaking his mind about subjects and happenings he did not agree with, and the suggestion has been made his outspokenness provoked the shooting of him. Are we living in societies that are truly free any longer? A friend who I have known since childhood, also from my hometown, suffered with his family in a car accident that saw him in medical treatment for months after: on a trip to Florida their car unexpectedly went off the road and rolled over several times. This friend seemed to have stumbled onto the idea there might be people among us who are not what they appear to be. This possibly falls into the area of lookalikes or people without passports whose place of origin is unknown. I cannot be sure. And I add to this the suggestion by some that there are synthetic people among us. Incredible, I know. However, as mentioned previously in this exposition, a book titled On Finding Solutions For Human Problems by a licensed psychologist from Florida talks in part about this, and how such people can change their facial features, among other unnatural traits, which helps explain the mention of look-alikes in this exposition. And I will add that the location I currently reside in Thailand has many of these people in question. They appeared to have settled here which could explain some of the inexplicable happenings I have experienced here. Another friend from childhood, and who was also from my hometown, later in his life, in his twenties, began suffering from severe pains in his back in the area of his spinal cord. He later married a woman he met in North or South Carolina, I cannot recall precisely, and relocated to there where he was equipped with a device that hung on his belt and sent an electric shock up through his spine, apparently to counter the pains inexplicably inicted upon him. If you are one of those who believe in the theory of microwave signals or other electricity-based signals that target innocent people, this case helps support the opinion that some areas and groups in the United States offer help to this type of t/v, whereas Canada has shown to deny the possibility of the matter entirely leaving its people to suffer and die off for it. Books have been written and published on the topic of sophisticated electricity-based methods (signals) including those authored by doctors, and some of which are referenced in the Appendix including Dr. L. Kidle, Chief Medical Ofce for Finland. I cannot be certain about this pattern of victims from my hometown, but it is supported in part by a conversation with a friend prior to my departure from Canada in 2001. He and his family were in the construction and development industry and he shared with me an insight about people who appeared to be operating outside the law, and how he and his business would continue to seek the services of lawyers to protect themselves.

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 This is similar to other accounts where people have been heard to say the courts are the last resort to seek protection from those among us who operate outside the law. And as hopeful as this may sound, in my own case I have purposely not been informed about many matters that involve me, leaving with no chance to defend myself, be it the courts or not. What a sham this makes of what are supposed to be open and free societies. A persons life is left to die off due to the circumstances forced on them while not having the fair chance to defend them self. As much as people over the years have asked me why this is happening to me, my victimization, there has been a special interest to know who is responsible for it or behind all of it. And while I do not know the answer to this for not being in a position that would permit me to know, others have made suggestions as to who they think is responsible. One woman was of the opinion large companies are behind it, this would be the large conglomerates that are well-known and which according to her are American owned. As she put it, it is American companies. And again I do not know the truth of this, but someone or some group is behind all of this and who apparently has access to abilities that permit them to create the strange and inexplicable happenings mentioned in this exposition. Are these bizarre phenomena technology-based or are they metaphysical in nature? I do not know for sure other than sightings myself and others have experienced where some type of metaphysical ability was shown to exist or possibly the inexplicable happening was ultimately controlled (or caused) by something that has a technical explanation and is not metaphysical in nature. but something has caused them to happen. And it has helped killed off my life. A suggestion that is not openly talked about, not even among those who explore the different available theories about this subject, is that the use of these inexplicable phenomena and their application against people is driven by government. In the case of the United States where many people claim to be t/vs, the suggestion is that the decision to use these inexplicable phenomena rests at the state level. That is to say each state in the United States can decide if they will participate. This implies government does know of the matter and is dealing with it secretively, possibly hiding the truth of its existence beneath explanations to do with national security and which dictate that the matter remain secretive. I do not know the truth of this but this has been the discrete suggestion about the matter. The use of the same inexplicable phenomena in countries other than the United States would indicate governments in different countries are also secretly participating. This would explain the reports of t/vs in countries other than the United States, however I cannot be certain of the truth of this beyond it being a reasonable suggestion in light of the accounts given. It was a representative of the Canadian Military who said the subject was not their responsibility when asked about it. Also, there have been suggestions by people that former United States President Bill Clinton was working with the United Nations to look into the abuses of what are referred to as high-energy weapons, among other names. The theory holds that the task-force conducting the investigation into the matter was stopped by the United States Senate. If such topics are new to you or you have not ventured to nd out the truth about sophisticated technologies used today, you may nd it interesting that the state of 117

Texas is using electromagnetic-pulse (EMP) technology to monitor the Texas-Mexico border. This means an electricity-based signal is sent out to disables devices that operate on electricity cars, trucks, and mobile phones for instance in this particular case. When reading the information referenced in the Appendix keep in mind the biology of people is also based on electricity, especially the functioning of their brains. With some understanding of how EMP technology operates and knowledge of human biology and physiology, a little imagination should permit you to see the possibilities in the matter. And that is imagination as in the forming of new ideas and the ability to be resourceful in doing so, not as in the connotative meaning held by some which is to create an idea in spite of the truth. But if you still require convincing for your inability to see the possibilities, recall that resuscitation paddles used by medical staff in reviving a person operate on the principle of sending electricity into the victims body. And that is because a persons body fundamentally operates on the use of electricity. Is this a case of pandoras box being opened to offer the ability of these inexplicable phenomena, in which case more than one group may be participating? I cannot know for certain, however it does help explain how many have come to be fearful of speaking unfavorably about certain people or groups for fear of retaliation against them by these tormenting and life ruining occurrences. And if pandoras box is a use of metaphysical abilities by those among us who poses them, are we experiencing an unseen tyranny which like an invisible hand moves throughout our societies to chose its victims to torment and destroy? Is it a matter of all 3 scenarios? Or is it a matter of only one group behind all of it? This I leave for you to ponder, knowing the occurrences, events, happenings, and accounts in this exposition have taken place. Is it government which implies it could be one of the many groups of it, armed forces or a group thereof, or intelligence? Or perhaps government is under duress itself and must comply with the request to use these inexplicable phenomena, and which raises questions about who is intimidating government. And does this lead back to the corporate world or is there a different group operating beyond the laws of government? And again, I leave this to you to consider. But whoever is behind it they have killed off my life with their actions. We call that murder. It is a sad experience of mine beyond my victimization to remain in the dark regarding who is behind it and why they have targeted me, while people have indicated to know about it but will not tell me. And as a result I continue to be abused and oppressed to soon face the end of my life for not receiving any assistance that offers a drastic change to it. It is a disheartening experience to be judged by those who have not experienced what I have and who have not tried to look into the matter to understand it, only making misinformed judgements about me for which I suffer. People from many years ago in my past accuse I have changed as if to imply something undesirable or unfavorable in it and instead of the realization helping to support the idea I have been forced to face things that have required me to change in order to protect myself and continue on, it is offered as a label of sorts which carries with it a stigma and connotative meaning that is not necessarily considered to be a good thing. And as 118

disheartening as this is in itself, it also means I cannot rely on such people for assistance given the complexity of my circumstances and how little of it is known by many. Like has happened many times over the years where people accuse something of me which stems from their lack of understanding of a matter in question, I remind them that better educated and experienced people, including doctors and PhDs who I have met since my victimization, have no problem understanding me or the ideas we exchange. Some might say I have indeed changed, and for the better I would have to say. The Appendix contains a listing of references to material that pertains to the various theories about how the workings of inexplicable phenomena operate, and while my writing of this exposition is not based on this material: the exposition is a presentation of accounts affected by bizarre and inexplicable occurrences, and not about how the bizarre and inexplicable occurrences occur, the material does offer the chance to begin to understand the various theories proposed. And while I am not in a position to say I unequivocally believe any of the theories or information listed in the Appendix are the cause of the inexplicable happenings I have experienced, something has been causing the strange phenomena and they have contributed to the circumstances that have killed off my life. The material referenced in the Appendix ranges from information in the areas of science and its effects on human physiology, to the meta physical and to synthetic people among us.

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1 Marc Gerstein, PhD, Firting With Disaster, (New York: Stirling Publishing, 2008), 199, 245. 2 DADS Canada Family Services Inc., http://www.dadscanada.com/fro.htm, p.1. 3 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.1. 4 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.1. 5 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.2. 6 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.2. 7 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.3. 8 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.3. 9 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.3. 10 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.3. 11 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.4. 12 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.4. 13 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.5. 14 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.5.

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15 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.5. 16 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.5. 17 Marc Gerstein, PhD, Firting With Disaster, (New York: Stirling Publishing, 2008), 199, 205. 18 Elaine Aron, PhD, The Benets of Being Highly Sensitive, for Ourselves and Our World, www.hsperson.com/pages/1Aug05.htm, p.5.

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Appendix
1 The Grand Design, Stephen Hawking and Leonard Mlodinow, 2011 2 Flirting With Disaster, Marc Gerstein, 2008 3 Sign Of The Gods, Erich Von Daniken, 1980 4 On Finding Solutions For Human Problems, (pen name) Not Famous, 2004 5 A New Breed - Satellite Terrorism, Dr. J. Hall, 2009 6 Satellite Technology: Principles and Applications, 2010 Anil K. Manini and Varsha Agrawal 7 Spy Satellites and Other Intelligence Technologies That Changed History, 2007 Thomas Graham Jr., Keith Hansen and Robert Huffstutler 8 Armageddon: Killing Them Softly, 1995 Russell Shorto 9 Damage Control And Human Radiation Experiments, 1995 Glenn Alcalay 10 Electromagnetic Interaction With Biological Systems, 1989 Professor James C. Lin 11 Remote Control, The Battle For Your Mind, 2006 Steve Lynch 12 Satellite Tyranny, 2009 P. Baird 13 Electronic Weapons And Human Rights - A study of the intelligence community and human rights violations. Continuing research on electromagnetic weapons, 2006 Peter Phillips, Lew Brown, Bridget Thorton, 14 Controlling The Human Mind, Dr. N. Begich 15 Microwave Mind Control: Modern torture and control mechanisms eliminating human rights and privacy, 1999 Dr. Rauni, Leena Kilde, M.D (chief medical ofcer for Finland), and Spekula 16 Non-consensual brainwave and personality studies by the U.S government, Cheryl Welsh 17 Proof of Anti Personnel Technologies - Illegal experimentation on humans, Paul Baird

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18 U.S Military use of mind control weapons conrmed, Judy Wall 19 Review of patents relating to synthetic telepathy, Judy Wall 20 The Military use of electromagnetic, microwave and mind control technology, Armen Victorian 21 Synthetic Telepathy, Dr. R. A. Miller 22 Remote Behavioural Inuence Technology Evidence, John McMurtrey 23 Electromagnetic and Informational Weapons : The Remote Manipulation of the Human Brain, 2005 Mojmir Babacek 24 Mind Reading Technologies, 2005 Paul Baird 25 Directed Energy Weapons: Attacking Without A Trace, http:// webcache.googleusercontent.com/search? q=cache:AIWpJGlp5TwJ:gbppr.dyndns.org/mil/ads/DEWandTI.html +&cd=27&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=th 26 Remote Neural Monitoring Satellite Terrorism, http:// satelliteterrorism3.blogspot.com/2010/12/dew-directed-energy-weapons.html 27 Directed Energy Weapons, http://www.examiner.com/human-rights-in-national/ directed-energy-weapons-aimed-at-american-targets-learning-opportunity 28 Organized Stalking, Directed Energy Weapons, Neurological Weapons, Torture A n d A b u s e A n d Wr o n g f u l D e a t h O f Fa m i l y M e m b e r s , h t t p : / / humanrightsmetric.wordpress.com/info-on-others-organised-stalking-directed-energyweapons-neurological-weapons-torture-and-abuse-personal-injury-wrongful-death-offamily-members/ 29 HARRP Theory And Chemtrails - Research Goals, http://www.rense.com/ general45/reee.htm 30 Mind Control And Direct Energy Weapons, http://peacepink.ning.com/forum/ topics/introduce-mind-control-and 31 Targeting The Human With Direct Energy Weapons, http://www.aisjca-mft.org/ munzert/mikrowellenterror.htm 32 Worldwide Movement Against Remote Mind Manipulation Abuse, https:// sites.google.com/site/remotemanipulationtechnology/landingpage

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33 Soleilmavis Case Summary On Mind Control Torture And Abuse, http:// www.academicjournals.org/jlcr/PDF/pdf%202012/Feb/Liu.pdf 34 Electromagetic Weapons And Human Rights, http://mindjustice.org/ censored12-06.htm 35 Possible Explanations For Strange Sounds Heard All Over The World, http:// b e f o r e i t s n e w s . c o m / s t o r y / 1 6 5 0 / 9 5 7 / Possible_Explanations_For_Strange_Sounds_Heard_All_Over_The_World....html 36 The Truth About Hearing Voices, Mind Reading, Secret Weapons, http:// www.surveillanceissues.com/ 37 Association Against The Abuse of Psychophysical Weapons, http:// www.psychophysical-torture.de.tl/James-Walbert.htm 38 Mind Control, http://www.mindcontrol.se/

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