Every love story reaches its ending. Most people want to have their own happy endings.

But unfortunately, we didnt reach that point. You said were better off apart. I believed the complete opposite of that. I know you wouldnt care if I break into pieces. But I want to continue writing what I felt and what I feel. I hope youll get the chance to read this letter. I hope youll get the chance to read the Confessions of My Broken Heart.March 1 Dear Drew, Its been 3 years since we first met right? Do you remember how we met? Well, in m y case, every time that I try to remember that exact moment, its as if I was really re-living the moment. I was with my friend Sam when I first saw you. You were alone and I could sense loneliness in your eyes. The moment Sam left, I urged myself to go and talk to you. I made an irritating sound just to g et your attention. You smiled at me and guess what? For the first time in my life, my heart started beating so fast. I guess m y heart knew from the start that well be sharing something special. We talked for hours and its as if therell be no tomorrow. Im getting kind of sleepy already but seeing you smile and laugh makes me want to talk to you more. But I guess I gave up because I just found my self hopping off to dreamland. Okay. I have to admit this. When I entered dreamland, I dreamt of you. It may sound che esy or what but thats the truth! No lies! You know how much I hate lying, right? Anyways, Im so sorry if I slept. I know I caused youa lot of trouble that day. Fi rst, Im this complete stranger who kept on talking to you and kept on insisting to make you share your story. Second, I mad e you pay the bills for the food that I ate. Sorry. Im really into eating. I hope I didnt use up all your cash that time. Third , I slept while youre talking. I know its kind of rude for me but Im really, really sorry! Fourth, because I slept without even telling you where I live, you had to bring me all the way to your home. Oh well. I know there are more cons that happened that day compared to the pros but Im happy that I got the chance to do all those with you. Im happy because I got the chance to meet a person like you. And I know Ill never get the chance to meet someone like you again. I love you Drew! Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 2 Dear Drew, I know after our first meeting, I just left without a word. No thank you. No sor ry. No goodbye. I dont know what has gotten into me that made me left your house and didnt even bother to wake you up. Maybe because I was hoping that well be meeting each other some other day and I dont want to run out of words to say. Or maybe I was just too scared to know the consequences of me sleeping out on you. I remember the day when we met again. I was in school carrying about 5 to 6 book s that time. I was looking on the ground and everything went fine until a person blocked my way. The books that I was car rying scattered across the floor. I screamed at that person and got really mad then I just heard some giggling all around me. When I looked up to know why the people around me are giggling, I saw you carrying a bouquet of roses and you were looki ng at me.

I have to admit this. Instead of being so happy at that exact moment, I got mad at you. I hate being the center of attention. I hate it when my things get scattered. I hate it when people are laughing at me. I hate making mistakes. But guess what? You changed all those things. You made me realize that its good to be in the spotlight every once in a while. Y ou made me realize that being super organized could be bad too especially if you dont want people knowing your secret s at once. You made me realize that people dont laugh at me just because I humiliated myself. It could also be because I sai d or did something funny, well in the positive way of course. Finally, you made me realize that mistakes could actually make me a better person. Thank you for bringing me out of my shell. Thank you for destroying the perfecti onist and kill joy creature inside me. I know I wouldnt have done those things if not because of you. So Im really thankful that you entered my life. How I wish youd stay with me forever. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 3 Dear Drew, Isnt it funny that we were actually schoolmates and we didnt even know it until th e bumping incident? Well, to be honest with you, I cant forget the fact that we became instant celebrities in our school . You being a campus crush and me being sort of a wallflower became an official couple in less than 2 months. Yeah, I know th at was quite fast but its just that its hard to stop my heart from beating because of you. Everyday seems like living in a fairytale. Love was literally in the air. You be came my prince and you treated me as your princess. Every time we see each other, I always wish that I could stop the cloc k from ticking. I always wish that that moment could last forever. Unfortunately, theres no such thing as forever. We went on searching for our own version of forever. We failed then we started a gain. We kept on going along a road for four long years without even knowing where it could be leading us. You told me you would never give up. We would never give up. What happened to yo ur promises? Was it all just a lie? I kept on hanging on even if hurts already. Why did you have to keep on pushing me away? Am I not enough? Is my love not sufficient? What have I done wrong? Honestly, I cant see the point why you ha d to go and leave me this way. You could have at least explained why you left me. Throwing all of the memories that we shared is not easy. I know it will take som e time but I hope that one day, when we meet again, Ill have the courage to say that I got over you. But I know it would be a very long way. Im still at the starting point and I dont even know how to start. Let me tell you this. Im not writing this letter to bug your conscience. Instead, Im writing this letter to let you know what Im feeling. Im not expecting you to reply to each and every letter that I send. Call me dumb. Call me stupid. Call me hopeless but that wouldnt change a thing. I love you and I know that you know that. Please keep tha t in mind. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 4 Dear Drew, Alright. I wont be talking about our past already. Reminiscing each and every mom

ent breaks my heart even more. I just want to let you know that living without you is like living in hell. Yeah, Ive ne ver been in hell but one things for sure, both things hurt. Like Ive said before, Im not writing this to bug your conscience. I want to tell y ou the truth. The truth that Im nothing without you. Yes. Ive been existing for some time before you came into my life. I thought I co uld survive with just me, Sam and my family. But heck, I was wrong. You came into my life and changed everything. You came without prior notice. You made me fall and Ive been a fool because I fell at once. Hey, Im not saying that I regret falling for you. Its just that its so hard to live alone again. I know I shouldnt put the blame on anyone but please let me blame you this time. Its your fault why Im like this. Why did you even have to go into my life and make my heart beat for you? Why did you have to go and leave me? Why didnt you even bother to return back my heart? Its so hard to live without the person who holds my heart. Its so hard to live wit hout you. Could you please go back into my life? Im not begging you to stay forever. Its jus t that I want you to have a change of heart. I want you to be a part of my life once more. I want you to return my hea rt and make it beat for you. Im not thinking of impossible things right? Please tell me that its still possible . Please tell me that we still have a chance. Dont make it hard for me to continue living. I loved you and I love you still. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 5 Dear Drew, I woke up today still wondering what went wrong. Its been a month since we broke and still, I cant let go. Yeah, I know I must move on and carry on with my life but its just so hard to do. Again, I have to blame you. Maybe if you didnt spoil me when we were together, I could be a lot better now. M aybe if you let me be the person that I was even before we met, Im still very much in control of my life today. Maybe if we didnt hold on for too long, I found someone new who could make my life worth living. But those are all just maybes. They are not true and will never come true. Could you just please explain why you left me? Then could you please return my h eart as well? Maybe after that I could be myself again. Maybe after that, I could learn how to love other people again. You know what? I hate crying already. Im so tired of crying. I dont want to cry my self to sleep again just because of this stupid heartbreak. I hate to admit this but until now, youre still the only who could stop my tears from flowing. Is there any way for you to go back here and wipe my tears away? I dont want to sound desperate but I just want to say the truth. Drew, I need you in my life. I need you so much. The moment you left, you broke the puzzle of my life. Youre the missing piece and I m iss you so much. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 26 Dear Drew, You know what? Its kinda weird but I actually dreamt of you. I dont why but that d ream was kind of creepy. You were

there, begging for forgiveness, asking for another chance. Thats just like so stu pid right? I mean come on! You were so sure when you broke up with me. Gosh. I dont know what to say. Anyways, I guess Ill be trying to go back to the normal me. If you would notice, I wasnt able to write you a letter for 20 consecutive days already. I needed a makeover so bad. I cant believe that I waste d more than a month crying over a boy who, maybe, dumped me for another girl. Hey. Dont get me wrong here but I swear, I really grieved over my loss but I guess grieving is over or maybe Im on way there. Ill be going back to my business again. Remember the restaurant/bar that I built 3 years ago? I left that business for a year right? Gee. Thanks to you I had to leave that. Pssh. Well, now, Ill be going back there. Ill be the hands-on manager again. And guess what? My band is going to sing there again. Hey. Im not telling you this so that you and your stupid friends would go there. Im just telling you that finally, Im getting the chance to do what I want to. That finally, Im almost free from all the pain a nd sorrow that I felt before. PS. You could still go to my restaurant/bar. But unlike before, youll be paying for e verything now. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 28 Dear Drew, Another weird thing happened. I think I saw you at my restaurant yesterday. I wa s singing One Last Cry then out of the blue I think I saw you. Tell me. Its not you right? I mean, I think I saw you wit h your friends and their girlfriends last night and as far as I can remember, their girlfriends hate my place. Anyways, back to the song. I was singing One Last Cry and guess what? That was i ntended for you. So if youre really there last night, I hope you got my message. I cried last night for the last time and now, Im feeling a lot better. (: Ive been meaning to tell you this if ever we meet again and I guess this is the r ight time. I think Im over you already. So sorry for all those uber sad letters. Do whatever you want to do with those. I d ont give a damn anymore. Maybe youll be asking why I am still sending you letters. The answer is simple. I just want you to know what Ive been through and what Ill be going through. I wont be able to do other stuff if you didnt let me go. So mayb e it could be a sign of gratitude. (: By the way, are you with your sister last night? I think I saw her too. Send my regards to her, alright? Oh, another thing. I think Im leaving the country. Its not for good, yet, but Ill b e gone for months, maybe years. I really dont know. Ill be bringing all the happy memories that we had as well as those wit h my family and friends. I think this would be the best for all of us. Even if we didnt have the proper cl osure that most people need, I think that time and space could heal all the wounds that our relationship did. I wish you all the best in life. Hope youll wish the same thing for me. I love you, my friend. Confessing my heart out, MichelleMarch 29 Dear Drew, Its official. Ill be leaving the country. Ill go out there and try to find myself. I think I lost myself when we were in the midst of our relationship. But dont worry. Its not your fault. This time, its my fault. M aybe I gave too much thats why I lost

myself and my battle to your heart as well. Anyways, Ill be having a little party at my place. I hope you could come. You may ask why. Ill only tell you one thing. When I leave, Im not leaving alone for Ill be bringing all of our happy memories t ogether as well as those with my family and other friends. Honestly, the bruises that you brought to my heart are still there. It would rea lly take a while before all of those would heal. Maybe thats why Im going to give myself a chance to be alone. To be able to explor e different places. To be able to experience different things. My bandmates are right. Even if you left, youll always be a part of my life and t hat would never change. Its our status that changed. But we would never change. Were still here. Alive and making things poss ible. As much as I want to, I dont want you to know where Ill be going. Dont bother askin g me the reason why. I dont know as well. But I promised myself that Ill keep you posted about whats happening in my life so I really thought of a way on how my letters would reach you without you knowing where I am. Guess what? I already found a way. But that I wont be telling you. =P Drew, its been nice knowing you. I really wish that there would come a time when we could look at each other in the eyes and say that weve both moved on. That were both happy where we are right now and that we didnt regret meeting and loving each other. I know that day would come. I just dont know when. But surely, Ill wai t for it. I guess this is it. This would be my last letter from this country for now. Hope to see you at my party. Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 2 Dear Drew, Did you just give me an April fools joke yesterday? I swear I really saw you but why didnt you even bother to talk to me right before I leave? It just sucks because everytime I see you, you would kiss the girl youre with. Couldnt you just pretend to be happy for me and be a decent friend even just for a day? You know what, I hate to say this but with what youve done yesterday, you just pr oved to me that youre a jerk. I hate you so much! I know I shouldnt be reacting like this but what the hell were you thinking huh? I told you I wanted to bring happy memories. I didnt tell you to bring me a nightmare! Anyways, I wanted to tell you that Ill be staying in wherever country that Ill be going for a year. Thats just the minimum though. So I really dont know when Ill be back so that I could slap your face and hit you in your balls for being such a jerk. Okay. Im just kidding. I wont slap or hit you. Oh wait. Maybe Ill slap you. Ugh. Ne ver mind. Ill think about it first so wait for it alright? =P BTW, if youre actually listening yesterday, todays my flight. So sorry for this sh ort letter. Im just writing this in the airport while waiting for my flight. I hope youd take care of yourself. Please if youre really planning to have a new g irlfriend, please find a decent one. It hurts my ego everytime I see you lip-locking with a slut looking girl. Oops. This is it. I need to board already. I wish you all the best! See you soon. Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 4

Dear Drew, Hey. I told you Ill find a way to send you my letters without you knowing where I am right? Well, here it is. Its still my penmanship but youll never know my address. Thanks to someone I know back there. =P Anyways, I just want to let you know that I arrived safely here. So dont worry. W ait. Do you even worry about me? Nah. I dont think so. I have my own place here and I love every bit of it. The weather is fine and it doesnt kill me to death. I enjoy being here. How I wish you were here as well but obviously, you cant be here. Since Im enjoying myself here. Ive decided. Youll be the first person to know this so youre so privileged. Im staying here for maybe 2 to 3 years. I extended my visa already. Im really sure about this. I have never been so sure in my life until now. I know now what I want to do. I want to stay here and start from scratch. I want to find my real passion. I want to find the real me. Im getting there one step at a time but I know I have enough time to dis cover all the possibilities. I dont want to bore and make you envious about all the stuff that I find here awe some so sorry for this very short letter. I think this would be the shortest one that Ill be sending you. Oh well, thats life. Theres always a first. Take care alright? Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 2 Dear Drew, Wow. Its been a year since I left the country. How have you been? I know I have l ots of connection out there but dont expect me to use them to check up on you. I dont contact them. I didnt contact any one for the past year. Why? I dont know either. I just wrote this letter to give you this news. I opened my own shop in here. I realized that my love for fashion has been kept in the back of my heart for a long time and I found the inspiration to show the peo ple in here what I got. Guess what? They love my designs! Im just so happy. Are you happy for me as well? Well, besides the shop that I built, I applied as a singer in a restaurant here. Yeah. They dont pay that much but I love doing it and the tips are overflowing. Haha. I perform there every night and the people love me and my voice. I didnt see this coming but somebody asked me to have a record deal with their recording company. Unfortunately, I had to say no. Yeah. I may be stupid. I let the chance pass by. But I travelled all the way her e to discover myself and enjoy life. I even told you I dont want you to find me. How am I supposed to continue all of this if all of you would find where I am just because of that record deal? Im reaching my dreams already. Only one thing is missing. Maybe some people dont n eed it but I think I do. Somebody asked me if he could court me. I didnt know what to say. I mean, its been a very long time since someone asked me this question. Tell me. What am I supposed to do? My mind and my heart are kind of confused already. BTW, I think Im coming home soon. Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 1 Dear Drew, Its official. Im coming home really soon. I cant wait to see my family and my frien ds again. Do you think it would be

possible if we could talk in person already? I mean its been 2 years already. I wont tell anyone when Ill be coming back. I want it to be a surprise. So dont tel l anyone that I decided to go home already alright? Haha. If youre going to ask me what I would do to my business, I have an answer already . I made a lot of sketches already and by the time that I come home, Ill just be sending the sketches to the other designer s there. I believe the staff that I have here and I know that they could succeed even without my supervision so yeah. Ill leave the business to them. I bought something for you by the way. I dont know if youll like it but when I saw it I remembered you at once. Silly me. I could still remember all the things that happened between us even if 2 years hav e passed and you didnt bother to answer even 1 letter that I sent. But please. Dont ever think that I still have feelings for you. I know youre such a jerk. Im going to say yes to the person whos been courting me already so yeah. I guess this is it. I really moved on and my heart is as good as new already. Thanks for all the memories Drew. I would never forget those. You made my life s o special. Youll always have a special spot in my heart. But this time, I have to give the throne to someone else. I hope you found your happiness too. Ive been praying so hard that someone would come along your way and make you happier than youve ever been when we were together. I really hope that my wish ca me true. Dont bother asking me why I wished that. My only answer would be I still care abo ut you and nothings going to change that, ever. Remember that okay? Start counting the days. Well see each other again. Thank you Drew. Thank you my friend. Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 10 Dear Drew, Im back. Sorry if I told you just now. Its been 3 days since Ive been here in the c ountry. Its just that Ive been so busy with stuff and all. Anyways, I want to invite you to another party. It would be on the 15 th . Please bring your sister with you. I miss her so bad already. This is just a private party so youre privileged because I invited you. =P By the way. Dont tell anyone but that would be the day when I would say yes to Br ad. Remember him? Hes the guitarist of my band. Yeah. I said I didnt contact anyone here. I lied. Sorry. Weve been tal kinga lot and he even followed me to Singapore just to court me. Yeah. I just went to Singapore. I didnt want to travel that far. And thanks to hi s brother because I got the chance to send you the letters without you knowing that Im just in Singapore. Sorry for all the trouble that I caused you. I know I should have kept all these letters to myself but its just that I cant help it. I want you to know what I felt and what Im feeling. Maybe thats a reason why I mov ed on as well. Because I got the chance to confess what my heart really felt. Thank you for everything. This would be the last letter that Ill be sending you. So dont worry. I wont bother you anymore. Friends? This is not the end of the line for us. Maybe as lovers but never as friends. Good luck and God bless. Stay happy.

Confessing my heart out, MichelleApril 14 Dearest Michelle, First of all I want to say sorry for hurting you. Im sorry for breaking your hear t. Im sorry for not answering your letters. There are a lot of things that are running through my mind after our break up. I didnt know if I made the right decision. I didnt know if I really should have let you go. Youve been a special part of my life. Nothing or no one could change that fact. T he first time we met, I knew that youd be special. You made my heart skip a beat. You make my knees weak. Yeah. That may s ound so gay but thats the truth. No one made me feel that way. No one except you. I know I made a lot of promises and I never got the chance to fulfill all of tho se. Stupid me. I broke your heart. I never should have done those promises if I knew wed end up this way. Would you believe me if I told you that letting you go was the biggest mistake t hat I did in my life? I dont know but my heart tells me so. It hurts so much that sometimes, I cant stand the fact that yo u even left the country just to move on. Sorry for being a jerk. I never should have done things that could hurt you. Ever since you told me that youd go back to singing, I went to your restaurant ev ery night. I bring different girls just to hurt you more so that youd realize that Im not worthy of the love that youve been giving me. I even went to your despedida party. I brought another girl again and everytime that you look at our direction , I would kiss her so that youd be more turned off. But guess what? I realized that I shouldnt have done those stupid things. The mor e I do those things, the more you move on. The more I lose you. Sorry for confusing you right now. I know youd say yes to Brad tomorrow but I thi nk I have to say this. I was pushing you away because I think Im dying. Remember when I went to the hospital one time? I t old you Ill be visiting my friend whos a doctor. I lied. I really had to undergo a series of tests. After which, they c onfirmed that I have leukemia. Michelle its not true that I left you because I found someone new. How I wish I c ould stay with you forever but as they say, forevers just a word. There would come a time when we have to say goodbye. I gues s mine is getting sooner and sooner by the moment. Everytime you indicate the word friend on your letters, it crushes my heart. I w anted to have you until the day that I die. But I guess thats not possible anymore. You found your new source of happiness. I fou nd none.I never looked for someone new. I know my heart would beat for only one person and thats you. Please forgive me for all the heartaches that Ive brought into your life. I didnt want to do it but I had to. I dont want to hurt you more when my time comes. Michelle, I loved you and I love you still. Ill continue loving you up to my last breath. Please remember that. Sorry but I cant come to your party. It will just break my heart. But expect Desi ree to be there. Please dont throw all of our memories away. Keep them in your heart. Ill be doing the same. Maybe were not meant to be in this lifetime but Im hoping that in the next one, it would be you and me until the very end. Im hoping that we would really find our own forever there. How I wish that time w ould come sooner.

Congratulations for your accomplishments. Congratulations for finally moving on. I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself. But rest assured, Ill be guiding you all the way. I love you sweetheart. Loving you with all of my heart, Drew There are some things that are better left unsaid. But there are some things tha t we need to tell the people that are close to our hearts so that theyll know when to hang on and when to let go. Love may keep a lot of people alive and happy but its the trust that serves as st rength of all sorts of relationships. A love without trust is useless and worthless. What happened between Drew and Michelle may not be true but there are couples ou t there who might be experiencing this kind of scenario. No one except God knows when our time will be. Give yourselves a chance to love and to be hurt. Its a part of life that we cant escape. God is the only one who can do everything. We humans do what were capable of. 200 P ounds Beauty Rachelle (raice03)